winter suicide plan

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After the sofa was installed, I slumped on the sofa and couldn't get up. Tang Fengxing grabbed the shopping bag and packed up the things first. I watched him clean up my long movable table, and cleaned all the books like a clean freak. Paper and chargers A series of things that I throw in a mess, put them in the storage box when they should be put in the storage box, and hang what should be hung up.

I stood up, hugged his waist, and pulled his waist: "Don't clean it up, it will definitely be a mess if someone lives there."

"A tidy place will also make you feel comfortable, almost."

I insisted on making trouble, and tried so hard that he couldn't get rid of my arm, so he let me dangle by me, and my hand reached into his clothes, and fumbled around in a frenzy.He was tickled, laughed, and finally gave up and started grabbing my hand.

The two pulled, and I took him down on this soft sofa that looked like a long strip of toast, and we fell into the softness.I rubbed against his chest, he was wearing my sweater and I was wearing his sweater.The scent of the clothes on my body is mixed with the body odor on my body, and my different smells are mixed with his, and we have the same smell.

He rubbed my hair: "What's wrong?"

I climbed up a little bit, pressed him down, and met his eyes.I said that when you just cleaned up, you looked so virtuous, like my wife.I can't hold back what I want to say.He blushed instantly, and I touched his face: "Why is your face so fierce, it turns red when you say it?"

He pulled my cheek and said, blushing, whispered in my ear: "Your wife will fuck you, can't you speak?"

My face was heated up by the blunt words, and the steam on my face was evaporated, and I shouted: "Damn it, Tang Fengxing, you have learned it badly, who did you learn this from? Wu Huawen, or Li Jingyuan?"

I pressed Tang Fengxing's body, he held me in his arms, and he rubbed me with his nose: "Let's talk to my wife."

"Who is your wife?"

He kissed me: "Chen Shuning, I have been secretly in love with Chen Shuning for almost four years."

I pinched his waist: "It's so disgusting, it's really nasty."

He looked into my eyes and wiped the corners of my eyes with his fingertips: "It's red." He continued, "But I like it too."

I don’t know what magical power Tang Fengxing’s voice has, it’s like cartilage powder from a martial arts novel, it made me dizzy and dry mouthed, I stared into his eyes, he also looked at me, I touched him hair on the sideburns.Two blushes are supposed to be contagious.

The breathing of the two of them gradually increased, and they could hear each other. The scorching hot breath was accompanied by the rapid heartbeat again and again. I said casually: "How does it feel?"

His eyes were fixed on me all the time, and he replied seriously: "I want to kiss."

"Then why not take action?"

"Because I kissed a little swollen last night, I'm afraid..."

"Where do all these nonsense come from?" I put down my words and kissed her directly.

I entangled his tongue, imitating how he kissed me before, pulled it in a bad way, and deliberately let go when he attacked, he would hold my brain dissatisfied, turn me over, and press me against his Under the body, clasping my wrist.Started sucking, and from time to time, wrapped his lips around my upper lip, then inserted into my jaw, and began to fit with my tongue, dancing in the mouth together.

I was devoured by him, his heartbeat collided with mine, I couldn't breathe, and he didn't let me go.He took off my glasses, changed the angle, inserted his fingers into my hair, stroked my eyes with his thumb from time to time, traced my eye sockets, and kissed the corner of my eyes again.

The hotness seemed to spread in the same way, from the lips down, the chest, to the crotch, we unconsciously rubbed against each other.The intensity of the kiss turned from light rain to heavy rain, and became out of control. My mind was burning, my eyes were blurred, white flowers were hazy and dizzy, my waist was as soft as this sofa, and I had no strength at all.

His hand rubbed my waist lightly, and the soreness left over from last night hit me like a revival, I raised my neck, a burst of pain and comfort, he kissed my Adam's apple, and returned to my lips again superior.

The rationality in Tang Fengxing's eyes was reduced by half, as if he was fascinated by looking at a work of art, his hand gently rubbed against my waist, and it was so itchy that I couldn't help but stick to his waist.I looked at him, gasping for heat, as if I had run 1000 meters, but unlike 1000 meters, my lungs hurt, this one was soft, dizzy and sweet, and I thought about it until the end of time.

I looked at Tang Fengxing's eyes, and he looked at me. I felt the touch between my crotch. He covered my eyes with his palm, and panted on my shoulder: "Chen Shuning, don't hook me, I can't bear it." .”

I let out a "hmm", I didn't expect this sound to be soft when it came out, like that kind of kitten, I was surprised that I made such a sound.

Unfortunately, I said a little annoyed: "The clothes are not dry, it's really annoying to have no clothes to change."

"Don't get dirty today, next time, wait until you get better."

He propped himself up from me, touched my lips with his fingertips, and after a few more warm touches, he turned his attention to the phone, dizzy from the heat of the kissed face, and a little sleepy.He stroked my hair: "Don't sleep, you won't be able to sleep later at night."

I suppressed my drowsiness and turned on the phone. I didn't know the password correctly, so I didn't read it at all.Tang Fengxing was about to cook, and I wanted to help, but I was kissed soft like cotton candy, the sofa bound me tightly, I was reluctant to get up, and reminisced about the ambiguous and comfortable kiss just now.

Before I knew it, I still fell asleep. When I woke up, I was covered with a quilt. After 10 minutes, I propped up my body, and felt dizzy because I couldn't turn my mind.Tang Fengxing touched the back of my neck with his cold hands: "Don't go to sleep, go downstairs to the convenience store to buy a packet of salt, and keep it until night."

I nodded and went out to buy salt with my mobile phone.When I came back, I found that there was a little boy with a pot head sitting on the stairway. I'm afraid his hair was cut with a bowl button, and it was neat to a certain extent.Another reason I noticed is because my house is facing the stairs, and I kept turning my head to glance at it. This little kid should be on this floor.

I ignored him, and turned to open the door. The smell of boiling tomato soup came from inside. I turned to look at the lid of the small pot, and it was staring at me as expected.Keeping my eyes on me, I paused, entered the door, gave Tang Fengxing the salt, stood there for a few minutes, Tang Fengxing saw me standing still and asked me: "What's wrong?"

"There was a little Jarhead that must have been staring at our house just now, staring at me when I opened the door."

"Did he smell the food?"

"Dog's nose? You can smell it through the door."

"Ask him?" He motioned for me to go and have a look.

"No." I sat back on the sofa.

It never occurred to me to have a good relationship with my neighbors.And bring in a child you don't know, what if the child's mother thinks we kidnapped the child?

Tang Fengxing laughed at me saying it was too exaggerated.

I stared at the door for a while, picked up the phone, and was not on the phone.I sighed and opened the door.

Good guy, this little pot head was directly at the door of my house. When I opened the door, I turned around and ran away.I grabbed him and asked, "Hey, where's your mother?"

"Um...she's sleeping."

"It's seven o'clock, why sleep, won't I cook for you?"

"She has a cold and is sleeping."

I froze for a moment, then patted his head: "Please eat, do you want to eat?"

Xiaoguodou moved his nose, looked very interested, licked his tongue, but shook his head.

"I cooked too much tomato soup. The other brother and I couldn't finish it. If we don't drink it, we will throw it away. Do you want to drink it?"

It sounded like I was pushing someone hard, and he smacked and smacked, and I continued, "It's a shame to waste, I want you to help us." He finally nodded and walked through the door in a restrained manner.I didn't close the door, worrying that the child's mother would not be able to find anyone, so that when I passed by, I could directly see people inside.

Tang Fengxing greeted him, brought him a spoon, and served him a bowl. I was not convinced, and I said I wanted it too.He smiled and served me a bowl too.

Then he looked at the tomato soup shyly and said, "Brother, can you give me another bowl of tomato soup, my mother hasn't eaten yet."

Come on, take care of the little ones, but also take care of the big ones.Forget it, just be filial as a child.Good people do their best to send Buddha to the west, maybe they are not willing to drink the soup of strangers like us, throwing it away is still a waste.

I used the lunch box to divide out some dishes and put them in, and let the small pot cover head take it back.

"Where's your father?" Tang Fengxing asked.

"He went to Hong Kong, but my mother said he would not come back."

I stopped my chopsticks and looked at the little Jarhead: "Jarhead, what's your name?"

"Mom makes me happy, brother also makes me happy." Kaixin smiled and bent his eyes, biting his spoon and smiling, so he couldn't see his eyes.

I nodded, the movement of eating with my hands slowed down, and my thoughts began to drift away.Empty rice, no vegetables.Tang Fengxing kicked the foot under the table and gave me a piece of chicken, telling me not to be distracted while eating and concentrate on eating.

The three of them were satisfied after finishing the dishes.I have to say that Tang Fengxing's tomato soup is the best tomato soup I've ever tasted.Sweet and sour, with chopped Pleurotus eryngii inside, it is chewy.It seems that I have been hungry for a long time, and I have been picking up rice with a spoon.

After he finished eating, he tidied up the table and said to us, "Thank you." When he opened the door, the woman was washing her face.I saw her pale face, haggard and feeble, with messy hair on her cheeks and forehead.When she saw a stranger, she straightened up immediately.Happy took the lunch box to his mother: "My brother invited me to dinner, and also invited my mother to eat. They said they couldn't finish it."

Happy mother looked at me wrapped in a black down jacket, smiled weakly and said: "Thank you, the child has caused you trouble, I got up late today and didn't cook for him. This is unnecessary, thank you."

I think that although there are thousands of mothers in the world, they all feel the same.She stuffed me with a big golden orange from the box under the bed: "It was sent from home, don't dislike it, just take it as a thank you for making me happy."

It was as if my throat was blocked. After she handed it back to me, she happily said goodbye to me, and his mother closed the door anxiously.I looked at the orange in a daze, my fingernails dug into the orange peel, and I stared at the door unconsciously.His hands became sticky, the sour smell of orange peel seeped out, and orange peel was stuffed under his nails.

I kept squeezing the oranges and stood there for a long time until my legs became stiff.There was a muffled roar in my chest, something was about to burst out of my chest, but I had to bear it, I grabbed the sweater on my chest, let the soil in my chest stagnate, and took a heavy breath.Anxiety and unknown rage vented on Tangerines.Orange juice flowed out and ran down my hand.After the lunch box was about to slip from my hand, I pulled it out. Looking at the oranges that could no longer be eaten, I threw them from the window in the corridor and returned home.

The moment the door was closed, Tang Fengxing sat on the sofa and turned to look at me: "How come his mother didn't want it for so long? That's right, we don't know each other either. Then save this for me to make supper at night."

I lowered my head and said, "Dump it."

"Don't waste it."

"I said dump it, didn't you hear me?"

"what happened to you?"

I grabbed the lunch box and threw it into the trash can. The lunch box made me feel disgusted and disgusted, like maggots crawling around.

Tang Fengxing grabbed me, and I shook off his hand: "Get out, don't touch me! You want to eat something that no one else wants?"

I didn't even look at Tang Fengxing's expression, so I quickly closed and locked the door of the bedroom to isolate him from him. No matter how much he knocked on the door, I didn't care. I grabbed the pillow on the bed and started beating violently.

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Chen Shuning's perspective