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When I was five years old, I heard my parents arguing in the study.

"I'll just decide what is called Zhuzhu?! Could it be that Zhuzhu was born by me alone?"

Mom's shrill voice was like lightning piercing the sky. I've never seen her so hysterical.

Dad didn't seem to care about his mother's anger, he just glanced at his mother lightly, and then said in a cold tone: "Of course Zhuzhu is my daughter, but don't you know how busy the company is? I How can you still have the energy to decide which kindergarten Zhuzhu will go to?"

The mother sneered, and then said: "Decided for my daughter that there is no time for kindergarten, but there is time for the child who is with that bitch and the bitch?!"

Dad's eyes turned cold all of a sudden, although I usually saw him very serious, but I just felt very strange at that time, and the strangeness made me feel scared, so I instinctively ran away from the stairs.

At that time, I didn't know what a "slut" was, and I didn't understand why my parents quarreled. I just vaguely felt that the reason for their quarrel was me.

After going to school, I finally understood a word.

Love.

For the parent-child sports meeting, the school originally required both parents to participate together, but every time I can only watch other people's family of three enjoying themselves, because one of my hands is always empty.

Dad always said he was busy, so he was not free.

Until I was ten years old, I was shopping with my mother on the street, and my mother saw a family in the McDonald's across the street and held my hand fiercely.I looked over, only to see my usually unsmiling father smiling very kindly at a little boy who was only a few years old.

At that moment I learned to be jealous.

Slowly, I would compare my father with other people's fathers, and I came to a conclusion - my father doesn't love me.

I am very sad but not reconciled, I just want my father to look at me more, so no matter what I do, I have to do my best, and if I can't, I will learn.I thought that the more honors I got, the more my father would look at me. As I grew older, I realized the truth.

Some people are destined to not be popular at birth, because Dad spends less and less time at home and says less and less to me.Although they didn't say it, I knew that Dad was with another little boy, who was still my brother after all, but our mother was not the same.

I thought it was because I was born with asthma that my father didn't like me, so I worked hard to exercise, strengthen my physical fitness, and not let myself be any different from others, until my parents had an argument at home when I was in high school .

The mother shouted hysterically: "Just because I gave birth to a daughter and that bitch gave birth to a son, Zhuzhu and I should give up everything?!"

Dad didn't even look at his mother, but responded coldly: "Zhuzhu is my daughter, how could she have nothing? It's just that I will only pass on the matter of Yaoxing to my own son, and Zhuzhu will be her daughter." Miss, in the future, prosperity and wealth will always be indispensable to her!"

"It's just that you can't grab anything from Qihao! Right!"

This was the first time I knew the boy's name, and it turned out that his name was Qihao.I don't know why, but when I found out that his surname was not Bai, I felt a little lucky.But what happened next was hard for me and my mother to accept. My father said that he wanted a divorce and asked Qi Hao to recognize his ancestors and return to his family.

That moment was like a bolt from the blue.

After that, I don't know what the two of them said, but it wasn't long before I went to study abroad.

The few years of living freely abroad made me think clearly about one thing. It is meaningless to chase the eyes of a person who will never see me all my life, so I learned to ignore his words and continue walking without following the rules he made.

Finally, when I was 20 years old, I received a specially customized minicooper from him.

I was quite happy at first, thinking that he finally started to pay attention to me.But seeing his turbid eyes and guilty eyes, I understand one thing, that is, he is about to bring everything back on track.

Sure enough, after I returned to China, he arranged for me to work in a fringe company, and I accepted it, because he didn’t treat me badly in terms of money, and as long as I didn’t grab the so-called rights, he would make me feel safe for the rest of my life.

I have learned to live freely, and I can do whatever I want emotionally. I stay together when I am happy, and separate when I am unhappy. Sometimes I wake up and don’t know whose bed I am in. I am less and less concerned about other people’s eyes, because No matter where I go, the identity of the daughter of the president of Shining Star Group has always followed me.

Even if they don't know how ridiculous my identity is, they always compliment me all the time.

Later I met a woman named Lin Mo.In their words, this woman is so desperate that others are too busy to do one project, but she has to do two, and finally handed in a perfect answer sheet.

The first time I saw Lin Mo, I could see the desire for success in her eyes. Everyone else flattered me, but she didn't do this. She explained the project seriously, professionally and neatly, so I gave the project to she.

After going back and forth, we can be regarded as acquaintances.

Probably because my preferences for women are not fixed at all, and I almost follow my mood. When we played in bars many times, the two of us became ambiguous when we got along.

I can see that Lin Mo has a crush on me, but I don't know why I don't dare to cross the line when I usually do whatever I want.Lin Mo is a serious person, but I am sorry for being so serious.So after one or two times, I let go of that thought and really regarded Lin Mo as a friend.

But Lin Mo seemed to be getting deeper and deeper.

Until Lin Mo's birthday party, I met Zhu Ya.

Her eyes have always been very wandering, turning a blind eye to the excitement at the party and even showing a little bored.But when Lin Mo said that Zhu Ya was her good friend, I didn't understand at first, because they are two completely different people.

But later I learned that two people have supported each other for many years, and that kind of relationship cannot be replaced by anyone.

I have always known that Zhu Ya has someone in her heart, so she is alienated from everyone, and she always flatly refuses when others come to strike up a conversation.I was a little curious, so I deliberately approached her to talk. During the conversation, I felt that there was a similarity between me and Zhu Ya.

We are all longing for something, but we all feel that there is no chance, so we just float with the current, not knowing where we will end up.

To my surprise, I really fell in love with Zhu Ya.

But I also know that she doesn't like me. For a long time, her heart has been looking for a place to stop, but no one is as persistent as me to make her stop.

The first thing I did after I made up my mind was to tell Lin Mo, because I don't want the indistinct relationship between Lin Mo and me to affect Zhu Ya. I know how much Zhu Ya values ​​Lin Mo. If she knows, she will definitely Will not promise me.

Lin Mo told me that it is absolutely impossible for Zhu Ya to really like me, and that person will always be the first in her heart.

I asked Lin Mo who that person was, but she wouldn't tell me.

I thought that as long as the time was long enough, I would drive out the person in Zhu Ya's heart, and let her see me alone.

However, I didn't expect that I would die at Lin Mo's hands in the end.

At the moment when the lake submerged me, I prayed to heaven that someone would take good care of Zhu Ya for me so that she would not be lonely for the rest of her life.

If there is an afterlife, I hope I can meet her sooner.

The author has something to say:

Thank you little angels who have been reading the text!thank you all!

(End of the book)