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Day nothing works.

Xie Lin's eyes were gray and lifeless, with the tone of a lifeless belch.

One and a half months ago, Xie Lin was in a state of detached ignorance when his mother told him about the disease that he only had in the tragic heroine of the Korean TV series Gouxue, although he gradually accepted it and faced it. Facing the reality, I persisted in my studies from midnight to midnight, and tried my best to make money, but in the dead of night, when I took a breath from the busyness, I was still dazed.

I am confused everywhere.

Just like now, he really can't eat as happily as the two heartless people opposite him.

Three large plates, full of skewers of various colors.

Xie Lin kicked the plastic table leg: "Is it okay to be a little human?"

Zhao Xiao looked up from the piles of mutton skewers, chicken skin, fish tofu, big lamb loin, and flesh and blood. Li Dong was still struggling with a bunch of roasted peppers, sucking and tearing off a piece without even lifting his eyelids.

The roadside stall they ate was really... on the side of the road, right next to a crossroad, the small plastic table was half-legged high, and a small kindergarten bench for three people to sit on. This kick was almost like flipping the table. Quickly, the four legs clamped at the same time, and the small dining table flipped over.

"It's so hot." Li Dong covered his mouth, hissed his breath, and instantly there was water vapor in his eyes: "Aren't you crying?"

"Get out." Xie Lin scolded.

"Hey, which one of yours is so spicy?" Zhao Xiao probed to Li Dong's side: "Give me one, and I'll cry too."

"..."

"Brother Lin, no, your mother is doing it for your own good."

Hang Chi Hang Chi spin down the two plates of grilled skewers, and then the two began to form a group to comfort the brothers, Zhao Xiao spoke first.

After coming out of the billiard hall, the two of them didn’t catch up with their meal when they got home, they were hungry, Xie Lin called, and all the brothers ran out to look for food, and the three of them ate and chatted at the barbecue booth. .

"I don't want to slip away from the first grade, and I'm thinking about making money for your mother to treat her illness, and you don't want to see how thin you are. Can Aunt Xie let you go?" Li Dong sang along with Zhao Xiao: " This is also an impossible way, so that you can go to the university without seeing it."

Xie Lin understands the truth, but he just can't resist it.

For more than a month, he worked hard for the breath in his heart. He refused to obey his orders and wished he could live every day. If he didn't believe it, he could finish his studies while taking care of his family. This blood disease is a relatively low-grade blood disease. As long as you actively cooperate With treatment, it is possible to cure.

But playing this hand suddenly is different from admitting defeat.

Xie Lin grabbed the beer and poured it into the bottle.

"The people over there... have you seen them all?" Zhao Xiao was more concerned about this, and threw a few peanuts into his mouth.

"No." Xie Lin didn't bother to pick from the depths of his memory.

"Your father..." Meeting Xie Lin's indifferent eyes, Zhao Xiao immediately changed his words: "Then who, what job is he?"

"I don't know." Xie Lin replied.

"Where's his wife?"

"do not know."

"son?"

Zhao Xiao immediately asked and answered by himself, together with Xie Lin: "I don't know."

"It's really awesome..." Li Dong peeled the edamame and giggled. The axis force on Xie Lin's body sometimes makes people feel very happy. Anyway, whatever you like, I will not admit defeat.

"If you want to say that this is really a ghost, the formalities have been completed, and Lao Wang didn't talk to you at all." Li Dong squeezed the edamame into his mouth and chewed, and gave Xie Lin a sideways look: "In the past, you didn't get reelected if you missed a little bit. The top of the grade list will make you cry for a long time, such a big thing..."

"Ghost knows." Xie Lin didn't want to mention it again, anyway, the deal is done, the student status is gone, his mother's methods are too vicious.

There was a wind blowing outside, and the skewers would get cold quickly, Zhao Xiao called the boss to return to the oven to heat up, filled up the wine, and clinked glasses with Xie Lin: "It's right that you take your mother's surname, it's the same."

"What?" Xie Lin didn't understand.

"You're messy and stupid, don't say anything about anyone."

Laughing at himself or scolding back, Xie Lin didn't think about it at all, he didn't even have the energy to sigh, full of powerlessness.

"Jiang City is not far away, and the train is fast. It takes more than two hours to go there, and it is not troublesome to make a round trip on the [-]th." Li Dong patted Xie Lin on the shoulder: "The people of Lezhou will always welcome you."

Everything else is easy to say, what kind of hell is the third year of high school? No one in the second year of high school knows, let alone commuting for four hours, even if you sleep for four or 10 minutes, you can feel sorry for the rhythm of the dead. Even if he wants to run home every week, he A great mother doesn't necessarily let him go back.

Xie Lin now just wants to die in place.

**

The last time in Lezhou was compressed to a whole night plus a morning and two o'clock car. There was no more time for Xie Lin to digest and accept a little bit. It seemed that he was afraid that he would make a fuss and not leave. Thank you Ying chased him into the car like a duck on the shelf.

There is no sensational tearful parting, no relatives and friends to see him off, his mother only gave him three sentences, don't fall asleep looking at something, send WeChat when he arrives, and send another one at the house over there.

The reality is that Xie Lin drove without even a little nostalgia for his hometown.

It wasn't until Xie Ying's emaciated figure on the platform finally completely disappeared from his sight that Xie Lin realized it completely, and his heart tightened.

From this moment on, the road that came out of a sudden change can be regarded as one step, and at the end of the road is the family that he never thought that he could meet in this life... that family.

bother.

irritable.

Hearing the little kid in the seat next to him either yelling or crying is even more irritable.

Pushing down the brim of his hat, Xie Lin folded his arms around his chest, plugged his earphones into his ear canals, and tried his best to let his soul float out of the car.

……

...

The shoulder was pushed, and a middle-aged woman's voice said: "Young man, young man, wake up, it's time to stop, get up, time to stop..."

Xie Lin took a deep breath and woke up.

Sleeping this way, the moving car is like a circular subway. He can go around and sit back, stretch his stiff thighs, thank the kind-hearted auntie, and Xie Lin took a small one from the luggage rack above his head. suitcase.

He only carried two of them, the other being a shriveled backpack.

According to what he meant, he didn’t bring anything with him, and this wasn’t his home, even admitting that it was a hotel would flatter it, the hotel still has a sense of service, does it have it?

While dragging his luggage, he reluctantly checked WeChat.

Xie Ying sent the man's phone number, fearing that he might not remember his name, so he wrote down the full name and surname.

Lin Shaonan.

Why don't you call me a girl.

outrageous.

It's even more outrageous to call a person who has the closest blood relationship at the exit of the station like a second idiot.

Luck, no matter how lucky, still luck, sweating while gripping the trolley of the trolley case, after taking a deep breath for the last time, Xie Lin dialed the number that had been frozen on the screen of the mobile phone.

—The number you dialed is active.

hang up? ?

Too fast, Xie Lin didn't react, frowned and dialed again.

—The number you dialed...

I rely on?

Xie Lin pressed it, he was a little confused, it couldn't be because of the strange number, not to mention that he didn't think that with his mother's meticulous thinking, he planned to force him to transfer, and didn't arrange everything with this "daddy" in advance ?

He, strange number? ?

I don't know whether he was confused by being so caught off guard, or subconsciously thought that maybe he was catching up with that person and was in a hurry, Xie Lin actually squatted obediently under the advertising light box at the exit and waited for a long time.

However, there was no movement.

After another long time passed, Xie Lin couldn't hold back any longer and dialed the number again.

After the familiar two rings of "You dialed...", the air is condensed.

In fact, it's not a big deal, the big deal is to call my mother to coordinate with this "father" who is bigger than him, but Xie Lin didn't do that, the restlessness and unhappiness that followed him all the way seemed to wake up in his body at the same moment, he time and time again Dial, press the button to call again, and then stop again, running to blow up the other party's phone on the spot.

While playing with the mobile phone, Xie Ying's phone squeezed in and asked him if he was there.

"Can't it be?" Xie Lin's tone couldn't be better.

"Did you catch it?" Xie Ying heard something was wrong, but since her son was put together by herself, this is a normal tone.

"No." Xie Lin stood up, squatting so that his legs were a little numb: "I can't get through the phone, maybe I ran away from home."

"Nonsense!" Xie Ying rubbed Tutu's temples: "He's busy, so it's not convenient to pick up the meeting. He will contact you later."

"You are familiar enough, it seems that you are very close to him." Xie Lin couldn't tell whether it was sarcasm or sarcasm, and snorted: "Why don't you two remarry, so that I don't have to run around and exhaust me to death."

There was a yell on the other end of the phone, knowing that he was guilty of turning his anger on his mother, Xie Lin regretted it, after all, her mother was still sick: "I'm sorry, Mom... If I didn't say anything, I will hang up first if there is a call... "

If there was a real call, Xie Lin switched it immediately.

It's a pity that it's not that person, a harassing sales call.

Xie Lin wiped his face wearily, looked at his phone again, and a text message appeared on the screen——

Linlin, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Dad can't leave the meeting, there will be an aunt to pick you up, I gave her your phone number, please wait patiently, please.

There were half a screen of words, so many, but Xie Lin only saw the word 'Dad'. Not only did he see his eyes, but his eyes were pierced with pain, and he became angry-who is the father? ?Do you want face? ?

Staring at the text message, suppressing the urge to delete directly with one click, Xie Lin took a few steps with his luggage and came to the waiting area of ​​the bus station next to the light box. When his back was pressed against the cold iron chair back, he slowly spat out In one breath, his shoulders sank, and his emotions also fell to the bottom.

Whether he admits it or not, this 'father' has always been a presence in his world, even though this man had divorced Xie Ying before he was born.

He never called him dad, even when he was babbling, he didn't call him no matter how funny he was. In Xie Ying's words, he didn't call him dad. The last time his mother was drunk and told him that this person was the one she hated the most in her life, and she was still pregnant when she got divorced...

When I came out from the train station I didn’t know which exit to look up, it was full of strangers, strange cities, strange faces, and even the air smelled raw.

The space is more than 500 miles, and the time is two and a half hours. The two cities are actually so far away, but just like going abroad, the feet can't reach the ground, and there is no sense of steadfastness.

"The stars in the sky don't talk—the dolls on the ground—missing mother," Xie Lin hummed a nursery rhyme while beating the time on his mobile phone: "I think of my mother's words every night—sparkling tears, Lu Binghua—— Only a mother is good in the world—a child with a mother is like—”

Xie Lin was composing nursery rhymes when the phone suddenly buzzed.

Xie Lin picked up a string of unfamiliar numbers.

I thought it was an aunt, but what came into my ears was a male voice, still very tender, at least it felt a little different from a middle-aged uncle.

"Where is it?" He was very aggressive when he came up.

Xie Lin was a little confused: "Who are you?"

"Pick it up for you."

"Isn't it a woman?" Xie Lin frowned, not knowing what to say.

"Do I sound like a girl?"

"..."

For some reason, Xie Lin had the feeling of being a master of everyone, as if he deserved to be treated badly. No one answered when he arrived at the station, and no one answered the phone. , with a blunt tone that owed him 800 million.

"Did I say you are a woman?"

Love who the hell, Xie Lin exploded.

The other party was silent for a few seconds: "Which port are you at?"

"B (forced)" Xie Lin pronounced it in a flat tone, which sounds super spicy to the ears.

"Go to D, I can't make it through." The man said.

As the largest and most spectacular large railway station in Jiang City, it spans two districts and one bridge. The concept of Exit B and Exit D is like walking through half of the district on foot. There were several security gates, and luggage was tossed up and down. In addition, Xie Lin has always been uncomfortable with crowded places such as train stations, bus stations, and airports.

"Just come here, I'm..."

Beep, beep—

What a familiar hang up tone.

The author says:

There is one thing I have to say, the two of them are not related by blood, they are innocent in this respect.