Light spot

After Lin Zhi and Xu Rui left, Tao Chenyi looked at Lin Qi on the hospital bed, and said in a light tone: "Can you stop doing stupid things that you pretend to be smart? Why don't you remember every time you learn a lesson?"

"I don't have a long memory!? So I deserve it, I deserve it, I deserve it, I deserve it, I deserve it! I deserve it, I was almost beaten to death by him when I was a child?" Lin Qi's eyes were full of unwillingness and deep hatred.

"Then do you think that talking bad about Xu Rui about him and sowing discord between them will make things difficult for Lin Zhi?" Tao Chenyi looked at the agitated Lin Qi, as if feeling a little helpless because of his simple mind: "Why don't you understand until now that Xu Rui was raised by Lin Zhi alone, how could it be possible that Lin Zhi's heart would be separated because of your few words, they eat and live together, all Xu Rui's food and clothing costs and Lin Zhi's Pheasant is a standard, don't you understand what it means?"

At the same moment, Lin Zhi and Xu Rui were in the car.

After Lin Zhi saw Xu Rui's answer, his expressions and movements, including everything in the car, seemed to freeze.

It seems that Xu Rui expressed the information three seconds ago, but the clever Lin Zhi was a beat slower, and it took three seconds to fully receive it.

Lin Zhi looked at Xu Rui with a confused expression on his face, and his expression gradually returned to normal. Lin Zhi's light-colored pupils met Xu Rui's gaze unobstructed, and he gave Xu Rui an affirmative answer, saying: " Yes, that's right."

The feeling that something was wrong suddenly dissipated without a trace before being accurately sensed by Lin Zhi.

Lin Zhi soon raised the corners of his mouth again, Xu Rui was still the familiar Xu Rui.

But when Lin Zhi was relieved, Xu Rui tugged Lin Zhi's sleeve again, making Lin Zhi, who had already looked away from him, look at him again.

He still hasn't forgotten his request just now that Lin Zhi would not say that he would hurt the kitten or bully Lin Qi again.

At this time, Lin Zhi replied somewhat absent-mindedly: "Of course, that's not interesting, I won't waste time doing that kind of thing."

Lin Zhi's flight was on the next morning, and when he was about to leave at night, he was obsessed with Xu Rui again, wanting to take him to bed. Xu Rui was a little resistant to this because of Lin Zhi's excessive demands last time, But he didn't get entangled by the forest pheasant.

Fortunately, this night, Lin Zhi was no longer as irritable as the first time, and seemed to have more tenderness.

The next morning, before dawn, Lin Zhi was about to leave, so Xu Rui got up from the bed and went to the airport to see him off.

Before Lin Zhi left, he was still worried about Xu Rui and set many rules for Xu Rui, such as reporting his itinerary for the day, details down to what he ate for three meals.

Even so, two weeks later, Lin Zhi still sent Xu Rui the same message in the middle of the night.

"Ruirui, what am I yours now?"

Because Xu Rui was still playing the game, he was a little slow to reply. The time interval was about 5 minutes. Xu Rui replied, "Boyfriend."

Lin Zhi breathed a sigh of relief, and said, "I thought you didn't know."

Xu Rui didn't answer.

Lin Zhi continued: "You won't talk about girlfriends after school starts, will you?"

"That may have to wait until after breaking up with you, otherwise you may be angry."

Lin Pheasant: "?"

After Lin Zhi and Xu Rui's love life began, apart from Xu Rui's words that sometimes seemed to have a low EQ, Lin Zhi had no other dissatisfaction.

Looking at Xu Rui's growth experience, he hardly had a rebellious period in his youth, or any large-scale disputes with Lin Zhi, or any resistance.

The two boys of the same age have lived together for nearly ten years, and have never fought or fought for anything, or even quarreled with red faces. Xu Rui usually only shed tears cowardly, as a way to make people who are not easy to talk Forest Pheasant's bargaining chip.

Xu Rui's general ability is generally effective in front of Lin Zhi, and he rarely makes mistakes.

Lin Zhi quickly devoted himself to this love affair that he wanted. After Xu Rui finished his winter vacation, he seemed to have finally freed up some hands, or squeezed out some time desperately.

He began to gradually fulfill his original promise to Xu Rui, try to fly over once a week, at the latest in half a month, spend the night with Xu Rui in Xu Rui's apartment building, and then catch the early morning flight the next day. Leave in a hurry.

Lin Zhi became a frequent visitor to restaurants near Xu Rui University.

The bed affair between Xu Rui and Lin Zhi became a new way to divert Lin Zhi's attention when Lin Zhi was about to get angry or trouble him because of the long-term running-in between Xu Rui and Lin Zhi. .

When Lin Pheasant is about to have an attack, deliberately bring him to the bed, the current success rate is still [-]%.

No matter what, Xu Rui went to college, unlike the high school where Lin Zhi was always by his side. He even ran into Lu Xinyuan a few times in school. He smiled and greeted her from a distance, but she avoided her eyes. The girl lowered her head, holding a stack of books in her arms, and hurriedly disappeared into the crowd.

After the hopes of becoming lovers and friends with Lu Xinyuan were shattered, Xu Rui became acquainted with the people in his former dormitory, playing games together on weekends or when there was no class, and having dinner together at night.

In the summer of the second year, Lin Zhi and Xu Rui participated in their dinner parties several times.

Xu felt that he was not by Xu Rui's side. Xu Rui was too lonely to study and eat alone. It was rare for Lin Zhi to let Xu Rui's behavior of making friends like this, and he quickly became familiar with Xu Rui's friends. Funny and beautiful image.

After a period of time, the beautiful image really attracted the attention of some people. Lin Zhi, a handsome boy who is lavish, polite, knowing how to advance and retreat, and after participating in two association activities of the painting club with Xu Rui, some girls came to look for Xu Rui. Rui inquired.

Under the hot summer sun, the air conditioner in Xu Rui's apartment building was turned on very low, but fine beads of sweat overflowed from Xu Rui's back just after a hearty bed affair.

He was poking something with Lin Zhi's mobile phone. Lin Zhi leaned over and kissed him on the shoulder, and asked him, "What are you doing? Are you checking my mobile phone?"

Xu Rui shook his head.

Lin Zhi moved his gaze to the screen of the mobile phone in his hand, and found that Xu Rui passed a friend on his mobile phone.

"Who is this?"

Lin Zhi's chin rested on Xu Rui's shoulder. Xu Rui was a little inconvenient, so he typed on the phone dialog box.

"The vice president of our painting club."

"What do you add me to?"

Xu Rui crackled and typed a string on the phone screen, "I don't know, but she said that if I can help her add you as a friend, she will give me a collection of paintings she recently collected."

After the voice fell, an emoticon popped up after passing through the friend, it was a red-faced kitten.

Lin Zhi's expression gradually cooled down. His WeChat is very simple and clean. He doesn't have many friends, and the only few are business partners that he thinks can be used.

Why Xu Rui, the vice president of the painting club, wanted to add Lin Zhi to WeChat can be said to be obvious at a glance, but Xu Rui unconsciously used his mobile phone to help add him.

Lin Zhi snatched the phone from Xu Rui's hand and deleted the friend who had just added it less than 2 minutes ago in front of Xu Rui.

Xu Rui didn't understand why Lin Zhi was suddenly angry. After all, Lin Zhi often checked Xu Rui's mobile phone without authorization to organize the location of Xu Rui's friends.

But Xu Rui only did this once.

He raised his eyes and looked at the displeased Lin Pheasant, a little sullen.

"You're not happy anymore, can't you see why she added me?" Lin Zhi said bitterly, "Could it be that she wants to take your place with me, and you don't feel it?"

Xu Rui's eyes were blank for a moment, and soon he understood what Lin Zhi said. He told Lin Zhi, "If Lin Zhi wants to fall in love with a girl, he will not be angry."

Lin Zhi's eyes moved from Xu Rui's naked body with traces of ambiguity after the affair to his black and white eyes. He wanted to peep out the slightest hint of jealousy and anger or other strange emotions from inside, but Xu Rui's eyes were clean And seriously.

His answer seemed to be a kind of vow, so as to reassure Lin Zhi.

Lin Zhi felt that his body, which was still burning hot just now, was gradually cooling down, and he couldn't help lowering his voice: "Then if I marry a woman in the future, but I still want to continue to maintain this relationship with you?"

This question seemed a bit complicated, Xu Rui thought for a long time before answering.

"It doesn't look good."

There was no anger on Xu Rui's face, no signs of losing control of his emotions or feeling humiliated or betrayed, he just answered Lin Zhi calmly and seriously.

He feels bad.

A year ago, on the way back from the nursing home, that imperceptible feeling of something wrong resurfaced again, even clearer than last time, so clear that the forest pheasant could not be ignored, and it could be caught by reaching out.

Lin Zhi suddenly went to kiss Xu Rui, kissing his lips deeply and flusteredly, as if he wanted to make sure of something.

After the kiss was over, he looked at Xu Rui panting slightly, with flushed cheeks.

Unlike Lin Zhi, who just touched Xu Rui's body or a kiss could arouse his body's emotional response, when Lin Zhi reached out to touch Xu Rui, he found that Xu Rui didn't respond.

Thinking about it carefully, Xu Rui's every reaction seemed to be after Lin Zhi's touch on his sensitive parts.

That's a biological instinct, not a love reaction.

Such a fact had a severe impact on Lin Zhi. Before being with Xu Rui, Lin Zhi was still a sexual repellent, but he was able to arouse his desire for Xu Rui's body because of his desire for Xu Rui himself.

But Xu Rui is a normal man and has no subjective desire for his boyfriend.

The sense of spinning around Lin Qin's life and death struck again, even more intense than that time, and Lin Zhi couldn't avoid looking at Xu Rui's inquisitive, clean eyes.

Lin's pheasant even started to turn black in front of his eyes. If he hadn't grabbed the sheet with both hands, he might have fallen out of bed because of the dizziness.

Why did Xu Rui do this?

He recalled Xu Rui's growth process. He carefully recalled every inch of detail. He always thought that he took good care of Xu Rui. He really took good care of Xu Rui, built a small court for Xu Rui, exercised his body, and drank milk to supplement his nutrition. Xu Rui was in good health and rarely fell ill. Bringing it to such a big age has also cultivated hobbies for him. Even though he has no talent, he still actively encourages him and gives him the greatest support.

When Lin Zhi was in his teens, he was undoubtedly very satisfied with Xu Rui's new toy. Even when Xu Rui crawled into his bed and cried in fear, when he hugged his face expressionlessly and said some comforting words, he would also be heartbroken. There is a kind of sigh, like the rest of your life after a catastrophe.

Fortunately, he hasn't really ruined Xu Rui yet, fortunately, fortunately.

He is satisfied with Xu Rui's well-behaved, not very smart but obedient enough, and kind-hearted and sympathetic to small animals. He has strong empathy and is easy to cry, and his emotions are easily fluctuated, and he can be easily forgiven if he is not sincere enough to apologize.

All of these characteristics are things that are far away from Lin Zhi, but when Xu Rui is by his side, these things will be very close to him, and he will scruple Xu Rui's behavior from his reaction to what he has done.

He hoped that these characteristics of Xu Rui would be preserved forever so that he could enjoy them.

Just like he could tell at a glance before that Xu Rui's father was very kind to him, and children who grew up in love are so good at acting like a baby, because every time he acts like a baby, he will have a response.

Lin Zhi has been pretending for a long time, and he also wants Xu Rui to grow up in an environment with love, so that Xu Rui can always remain soft and have natural love when he grows up.

But at this moment, Lin Zhi realized in a trance that love cannot be faked, just like at this moment, it is the same if he does not love.

Xu Rui's frank and clear expression was interpreted by Lin Zhi, who was blind.

It's not that he has low EQ at all, but that he has no love for Lin Zhi at all.

Lin Zhi always thought that Xu Rui was a part to fill his life, including the incomplete psychology, but suddenly found that Xu Rui was not complete either.

Xu Rui didn't understand the reason for Lin Zhi's sudden silence that night, he just felt that he was in a bad mood, and mistakenly thought that he was displeased by his behavior of adding friends without authorization, so he observed his expression carefully.

But Lin Zhi didn't get angry that night and didn't do anything to hurt Xu Rui.

Before going to bed, he also shared some funny videos with Lin Zhi to adjust his mood, but it didn't seem to have any effect.

The low-pressure environment does not have to endure for too long, because the hard-working and busy forest pheasants still have to leave in the early morning of the next day.

Xu Rui went to the airport to see him off as usual.

At that moment, Lin Zhi suddenly wanted to ask him if Xu Rui would feel as sad as himself every time he left Xu Rui.

Could it be that in Xu Rui's eyes, everything he did was running back and forth, more than 2 kilometers, making love, kissing, and eating together. There was no superfluous meaning behind these actions?

Xu Rui gave Lin Zhi a lot, docile, companionship, moist tears, and sex that he could ask for.

But he won't give Lin Zhi the love of a normal person, no matter how good Lin Zhi is at manipulating people's hearts, and how powerful he is, he can't take what his lover doesn't have.

He recalled that when Xu Rui kissed him for the first time at the age of 17, he felt that he had everything Xu Rui had but gained something new, and just like today, when he hugged Xu Rui, he felt a kind of equivalent deprivation.

The words that had warned and ridiculed Lu Xinyuan echoed in his ears. Lin Zhi suddenly raised his eyes and looked at the pupils of Xu Rui who could see to the end in front of him at a glance. Then he realized consciously that he was the next "Lin Xinyuan".

At the airport where they were about to part, Lin Zhi burst into tears. He clearly understood that he had no way to let go of Xu Rui, even if Xu Rui could not give him what he really wanted, such a state of drinking poison to quench his thirst might last until the end of his life.

Such a fateful sense of despair made Lin Zhi unable to stop crying.

Xu Rui couldn't understand why Lin Zhi's tears flowed, but when he saw a couple who were parting next to him, the girl was also crying and hugging the boy who was pulling the suitcase.

Xu Rui began to imitate Lin Zhi's face again, wanting to wipe the tears on Lin Zhi's face with a paper towel, but Xu Rui did not have the habit of carrying paper tissues with him, so he could only touch Lin Zhi's pocket, and Lin Zhi's pocket would be full of tears. Bring a pack of paper towels to wipe your mouth with the food from the food stall with Xu Rui.

After wiping Lin Zhi's tears, Xu Rui tried his best to appease him, and kissed Lin Zhi lightly on his lips.

Although Lin Zhi began to know that Xu Rui's kisses were the same as his sex and did not have any emotional meaning, but Lin Zhi, who was always unwilling to suffer, had to willingly accept kisses from Xu Rui that were not equivalent to himself.

When he distanced himself from Xu Rui's nervous and confused gaze, Lin Zhi only whispered, "I hate long-distance relationships."