old lily no spring

University classmate Niu Jie is one of Song Han's close friends, but she didn't study in H city as a graduate student, but went to a university in Beijing.The direction is also biased towards serious news.Her dissertation is also going to write about women, but the starting point is women workers in the construction industry.After returning to H city with humid air, after meeting Song Han in a coffee shop, Niu Jie pointed at her face, "Look at Song Han, I have been going north for two years, and my skin has aged by five years."

Looking at Song Han's still fair and shiny skin, "Is this the south's water and soil nourishing people? Or is it nourished by love?"

Song Han said that she just absorbed the essence of the world of H City, and when talking about love, she couldn't help but calm down and think of a number: she had broken up for almost half a year.The status of her circle of friends is still a lonely thread, while other people's circle of friends is all kinds of worlds: Niu Jie wearing a hard hat and installing steel bars behind a several-story-high protective frame, Bai Shuang's frigid Wen Qingwen and her relationship with her. Boyfriend Lei Guangguang clenched hands, various players posted photos of fat-reducing meals or masturbating, Xiao Jiu posted company business updates every few hours, and his father with a pot of tea posted comments on the stock market, bond market, foreign exchange market, etc. A new round of deception...

The fingertip touched the word "Ge Hua" and a few bunches of pear blossom umbrellas were leaning against that weird box. Only then did Song Han realize that it was the protein powder box he bought for Ge Hua.

In fact, I just looked at her construction site photos under Niu Jie's reminder, but Ke Songhan's eyes stayed on the pale pear blossoms, and then locked the screen with a smile, admiring Niu Jie, "You are for a doctoral thesis I'm working hard on my master's thesis."

"I really have a direct blog, just to prepare for my doctoral dissertation." Niu Jie also came this time for a field trip to City H, and by the way, he stopped at the residence of an old classmate. "But I have to wait until the summer vacation. I'm not sincere, so I'll apply to you in advance." I also brought a thoughtful gift.

"What do you want to do after finishing your Ph. D?" Song Han doesn't want to study further at the moment, and the little things in the ivory tower can't fool smart people.But for the future work, she is quite confused.

"I haven't made up my mind yet. Maybe I'll be a reporter, maybe I'll be a self-media, or enter a university. Do what I find, and 'safety' is the priority." Niu Jie returned her gaze to the computer, and she looked at Songhan shyly. Laughing, "Wait a minute, I'll close the market right away." Since high school, she has never missed a side job. "I won't give up on stock trading. Over the years, I have earned a lot and lost a lot, so I have some savings. Songhan, it is too expensive to be a scholar." Project? You also know how difficult it is to apply for a project in the humanities. If there is no project, no results, no title or status... What if you get married and have children in the future? This life is over."

What makes Song Han and Niu Jie congenial is that she is sober. "So people think that I am a young man who is interested in money. When I was a freshman, I was watching the market. They don't understand that there is no difference between money and youth, energy, beauty, and personality. For me, save more. In the future The mentality of being a social animal will not be too unbalanced." That's why Niu Jie has no time to fall in love, and the time is not enough to earn some money and entertain herself. "I'm really not in the mood for such a mess between men and women. The cost is too high."

Song Han thought that things about his daughter would be bad too.

Niu Jie finished today's stock market operation, immediately closed the computer and continued to drink coffee with Song Han, "Where is Fu Zhilan? I heard that she has changed her major to study design." She casually glanced at Song Han, but paid special attention to him expression.

"That's right." Song Han's answer was quite informative.Niu Jie often saw that Song Han and Fu Zhilan were in and out of the same place in college, and sometimes they didn't return home.She had speculated about the relationship between the two, but Song Han didn't say anything, and she didn't take the initiative to ask.This classmate looked deserted, and his words were thoughtful and restrained.If she is not willing, outsiders will definitely not come up with the answer they want.

The Muffin in front of her was gracefully poked into small pieces by Song Han, she put down the spoon after taking a bite, "I broke up with Fu Zhilan for half a year. So I don't know much about her current situation."

The classmate on the opposite side almost lost his grip on the spoon, but was embarrassed for a moment, as if he couldn't sit still.After being curious about other people's gossip for a few years, Zhen was suddenly thrust into a heavy straight ball, and Niu Jie almost didn't hug her. "Ah,..., so... You bastard, you didn't tell me a long time ago, you will tell me after we break up."

"Haven't you been curious for a long time?" Song Han felt that maybe he had too strong Ji Qi, causing some people around him to visit him in a roundabout way.She used to think that ignoring it was the best protection for her territory.Now she doesn't see it that way, ever since her mother mentioned Fu Zhilan to her, Songhan found that slowly, she can say "I like girls" to her mother.Give up some space, and also exchange some space.She calmly told the truth to her good friend.It's really comfortable, liking girls is not like having moles or hemorrhoids, you have to suppress yourself and be cautious, survive among close people, and the living are squeezed into half zombies.

"I haven't told anyone else, it's only my mother who knows." Song Han tilted his head at Niu Jie calmly, "So, you understand."

Niu Jie understood, and was very moved, "You and Zhilan have been together for several years, isn't it difficult, the past six months?"

So to make friends, you have to find someone who is interesting and knowledgeable, Song Han's eyes just twitched, "It's okay, I just came here like this. After all, life is my own."

But when Niu Jie looked at Song Han, she couldn't find any exquisite money-seeking energy in her. "Song Han, I think you are still suitable for research. Because you don't have any career snobbery." In other words, Song Han is too polite.

Not only Niu Jie saw it that way, but Xiao Jiu also noticed it.Song Han and his colleagues were in charge of the operation of the City H Division of the college basketball league that started in March and April. The plan was well written and the budget was well controlled.With the joint efforts of college student associations, the attendance rate has also increased by more than [-]% compared with last year.When the bonus was issued at the end of the month, all the colleagues actively applied for the credit, and even took the credit from Song Han.Only Song Han didn't ask questions.Xiao Jiu was upset in private, "Song Han, you still don't think of yourself as a member of our company."

Anyone who really wants to take root in his position and make progress must learn to compare.This is Xiao Jiu's advice to Song Han.Song Han also realized that during the years of drawing a line with her father, she gradually learned to care.But in the workplace, she is still a rookie.Things are currently so-so, and being a person is still too tender.

After seeing Niu Jie's progressive status quo, Song Han didn't think clearly about the future, or she didn't do enough to "consider" the matter itself.Songhan doesn't like those evaluation criteria that she has heard since she was a child, such as the size of the house, where it is located, clothing taste, savings balance, grade point ranking, job title... A child from an intellectual family like her is instead caught by these eyes I was tied up so that I couldn't move.

"Let's go back to school, let's play ball?" Niu Jie suggested.

As soon as he mentioned sports, Song Han became energetic. "Okay." She really likes this kind of export, and devotion itself is happiness.The two men who had changed their clothes were attacking and defending on the court, their pace was tense, and their shots became more and more relaxed.Song Han took the opportunity to find out the hair rope and braid it. After more than a dozen rounds, Niu Jie suddenly asked Song Han while dribbling, "It's really different when you play than when you were in the coffee shop."

"That's because this is a hobby I chose." Song Han said.My childhood hobbies were almost exhausted by my studies and family arrangements.Wanting to learn to play drums, she was sent to the pipa class by her mother, and the science fiction books she liked to read were replaced by more reference materials under the pressure of entering a higher school.Basketball is her persistent, self-conscious hobby.This hobby also triggered a wonderful fate.

The sweaty two sat on the side of the court to rest after playing for almost an hour.Niu Jie looked at the blue sky and said, "Actually, I don't like making money." Her parents are also divorced, and she lived with her mother in the countryside with her uncle's house for several years, and rented a house after she finished high school.Up to now, the mother and daughter have not had a real house of their own. "I'm anxious, our family is too poor. The most eye-opening thing I learned during the years I lived at my uncle's house was to trade stocks. I worked for two months during the summer vacation of high school and saved 4000 yuan, my mother said Let me buy some clothes I like. I invested all in the stock market. Fortunately, I caught up with the big bull market, and my mother gave me the courage to continue, so I made some money.”

But that income is only enough to buy a bathroom in Kongwei’s family.Song Han didn't expect Niu Jie to reveal his hidden emotions.

"I think, Songhan, it's great that you can tell about He Zhilan. I couldn't tell that my family is so poor before. My mother is divorced when she leaves the house. The mother and daughter live in their hometown I have been wandering for more than ten years. Savings can give me a little confidence, so that I will not be depressed by other people's lives. People always need support to be strong and strong, right?" Niu Jie pointed to the clothes on her body, "Uniqlo's down jacket is 390 yuan, and Uniqlo's fleece cotton pants are available at a discount of 99 yuan. You may not think that this is the most high-quality clothes I have worn since I was a child. When I was young, I lost the clothes of my relatives. Me." Her mother made siu mai and steamed buns in a food processing factory, and she didn't earn much every month.

Poverty exists in every region.There are children from families like Niu Jie in the city, and there are children like Ge Hua in the countryside of S Province.They all have the wildness of being in the jungle, and the fierceness to seize every opportunity to improve themselves.Song Han and Niu Jie became friends and appreciated Ge Hua so much because she grew up under the model of a good girl and lived a stable life since she was a child. Although she is not very rich, she is much better than Niu Jie and Ge Hua.The living environment has worn away the invisible edges and corners of Songhan.The living environment also forced Niu Jie and Ge Hua to develop edges and corners, to climb up, and then up, to climb out of the dark moat, to live more selfishly and tougher.

Song Han was lying on the lawn, "No wonder, if you need something, you have to look for it."

"What do you lack?" Niu Jie also lay down and looked at the sky.

"I'm so obedient." Obediently applying the standards given to her by her family and her surroundings, she has worked hard for more than [-] years, but in exchange for her current ignorance and confusion. "When I was a teaching assistant, I taught a student whose family was extremely patriarchal. Some time ago, she beat her father. Later, she told me that her father's attitude towards his daughters has changed a lot. As long as this child is a little better, Now I'm probably working at my in-law's house with my belly up." Thinking of Ge Hua's big belly, it was a little funny, Song Han snorted, "Fortunately, she is not good. She will be admitted to university in H City this year."

Be good, just fold yourself twisted and hideously, and stuff it into small boxes.Used as a gift.

"What do I lack? I still lack the courage to face myself. My life is so comfortable that I don't know how to reject what others give me. I can only accept it passively. For example, accepting love, but I can't give it to me. scale feedback. Or you can only accept other people’s standards, to be a top student, to study for a Ph. The momentum of the world fxxkoff."