you restrain yourself

The door was closed with a click, Duan Zhi left, and the room became quiet again.

However, Ji Shuyan still maintained his original posture, sitting on the edge of the bed without moving. After a long time, he raised his hand and gently touched his lips with the back of his hand.

His lips were cold and dry.

Duan Zhi didn't kiss him, as Duan Zhi himself said, he can control himself, he is not a ferocious beast, he only uses his brute strength to force others.

He promised to let Duan Zhi come up, originally he wanted to talk to Duan Zhi, so that Duan Zhi would stop being so ambiguous with him, and let the relationship between the two return to the original place. They are still Ji Yuan's parents and classmates, and they get along in a normal way. Indefinitely, Duan Zhi has found his beloved, and he can still attend Duan Zhi's wedding.

But all of this was broken just now.

Duan Zhi asked him coldly, "Why are you waiting for me to kiss you?"

This sentence is more embarrassing than anything else, his body is far more honest than his mind, he said to keep a distance from Duan Zhi, but his body never refused Duan Zhi's closeness.

Then why did he ask Duan Zhi to be calm and inviolable all the time?

Not even himself.

He didn't look like an elder when facing Duan Zhi, and he never treated Duan Zhi the same as Ji Yuan.

Ji Shuyan simply doesn't know how to mock himself. He has lived for more than [-] years, and he has never been so helpless as he is today. Whether it is his studies or his career, he has gone smoothly and decently along the way. It is not that he has not encountered difficulties, but he is confident. You can solve it yourself.

But only feelings, he is like the most failed student, he can't solve the formula, can't find the algorithm.

He only had two failed relationships, which were so long that he almost couldn't remember them, and even his memory became blurred.

He has never loved anyone passionately, nor has he been saddened by anyone, but with a sense of responsibility, he wants to go on with the other party.

He never thought that one day he would be upset about another person, and it would be a man 13 years younger than himself.

Ji Shuyan raised his hand to cover his face, and sighed softly.

At the thought of facing Duan Zhi tomorrow, he felt hopeless.

What should he say?

No matter which choice you make, it seems like a dead end.

That night, Ji Shuyan suffered from insomnia unsurprisingly, but woke up very early the next morning. He woke up as soon as the sky turned gray. He lay on the bed for a long time, still feeling dazed in his mind He picked up his phone and took a look, only to confirm that it was already morning.

He sat up slowly, stared at the ray of sky leaking by the window, lost his mind for a while, and then lifted the quilt to wash, he was not falling asleep anyway, why not get up and go for a walk, maybe he could find a reason not to When he comes back, he can avoid meeting with Duan Zhi.

He knew it was a bit cowardly, but Ji Shuyan brushed his teeth, looked at the two dark circles under his eyes in the mirror, and felt that he had no other way but to escape.

His mind was in a mess, and he couldn't cope with another round of questioning from Duan Zhi.

After washing, he picked out a beige windbreaker from the closet, took the keys and mobile phone, and went out. When he opened the door, he was a little guilty. He was afraid of waking up Duan Zhi who was at the end of the corridor, so he walked very lightly. .

But when he got downstairs, he knew that he had been careful just now.

Duan Zhi was sitting downstairs, wearing the black sweater he wore last night, and he didn't seem to have slept well, his eyes were light blue, and there were two extinguished cigarette butts in the ashtray in front of him, he seemed to wake up better than him. morning.

Ji Shuyan froze on the stairs, not knowing for a moment whether he should continue to go down, but Duan Zhi had already heard the sound and turned to look at him.

Seeing him, Duan Zhi was not surprised, but seemed to be expected, he chuckled helplessly, and said to him, "You got up very early today."

Ji Shuyan didn't speak, he hesitated for two seconds and walked down the stairs, not planning to go for a walk anymore, and sat opposite to Duan Zhi.

What are you hiding from?

Duan Zhi clearly waited for him here on purpose.

Ji Shuyan sighed, feeling like he was being manipulated to death.

He sat on the sofa. In the autumn morning, even the indoor temperature was not high, especially when Duan Zhi opened the window. He felt a little cold even in the windbreaker. Seeing that Duan Zhi was only wearing a thin sweater, he I couldn't help asking, "Aren't you cold?"

Duan Zhi glanced at him, "It's not cold."

Ji Shu was at a loss for words and didn't know what to say, but the doctor's occupational disease made him feel that Duan Zhi would catch a cold, so he stood up and went to the kitchen to heat up two glasses of milk, one for himself and one for Duan Zhi.

Duan Zhi took the milk, looked at him in surprise, but didn't refuse, and took a sip with his head down, his mouth was covered with foam.

Ji Shuyan looked up, couldn't hold back, and smiled slightly.

It's useless to say it, Duan Zhi has been keeping a cold face today, he is actually a little flustered.Now that Duan Zhi had milk on his lips, he finally looked a little more normal, which made him feel a little relieved.

He didn't want to escape anymore, he took the initiative to say to Duan Zhi, "You are waiting for me here today, what do you want to tell me?"

He looked at Duan Zhi in a little confusion, "Actually, I'm already afraid of you. Whenever you talk to me, I seem to become extremely confused, and I'm taken away by you every time. I can't let me decide."

He's not stupid, he's also aware of this, Duan Zhi is far more comfortable than him in this relationship, and he clearly knows what he wants.

This little bastard said that he would never see him again and would leave him, most likely because he lied to him, maybe from the very beginning, Duan Zhi never wanted to let him go.

However, he was already panicked by Duan Zhi, blinded, unable to see anything, and fell headlong into the layers of spider webs.

Ji Shuyan also bowed his head and took a sip of the milk, and he was willing to admit defeat in his heart. He was full of loopholes, so he couldn't blame others for taking advantage of them.

Duan Zhi didn't expect Ji Shuyan to speak up.

He was indeed sitting downstairs waiting for Ji Shuyan early in the morning, but he was not waiting here to continue to press Ji Shuyan.

A string stretched too tight will break.

He was silent for two seconds, put the cup on the table, and said, "I'm going to participate in a competition, programming, and the location is in Yundu."

Ji Shuyan was ready to be interrogated by Duan Zhi, but Duan Zhi suddenly brought up an irrelevant matter. Before he could get over his emotions, he said "Huh?" in confusion.

Duan Zhi continued, "The match is on the [-]th, so I will be very busy for the next few days. I will go to the venue with the team next Friday. You won't see me for at least a week."

When he said this, he was a little helpless. Ji Shuyan would feel a lot more relaxed after he left.

"But when I come back from the competition, NO.12 is my birthday. On my birthday, can you give me an answer?" He asked softly.

What the answer is, he doesn't need to say, Ji Shuyan also knows it well.

Ji Shuyan didn't expect Duan Zhi to say this, so he froze on the spot.

He thought that Duan Zhi would continue to circle around with him, asking him to back down and recognize himself.

Who would have thought that Duan Zhi would go straight to the point and ask for a result directly.

He was caught off guard.

Duan Zhi didn't give him much time to think, and said, "Both of us are not calm now, and what you said is not the result of your deliberation, so I don't want to listen to your answer right now. What's more, this competition is still very important to me. It's very important, let's just wait for my birthday."

"At that time, whether you reject me or agree to me, I will accept it." He smiled at Ji Shuyan, but his brows did not stretch, "It will be your birthday present to me."

No matter what the result is, it can be regarded as a joy.

It's better than now, cutting flesh with a blunt knife.