muddy boy

Back in the inpatient department, Zhang Xun's mood was completely different from that in the morning.

It's not easy to say, but it's not too heavy. Worry and irritability coexist, and other emotions are mixed.

Chen Linhu had no expression on his face, and followed the elevator upstairs with his luggage, because his stature and figure were too conspicuous, and no one else wanted to stand next to him when he squeezed into the elevator, so Zhang Xun couldn't help but want to laugh.

"Don't be nervous, don't get excited," Zhang Xun told Chen Linhu in a low voice, "Take your things and leave, it's not very good to fight here."

It's not very good to fight anywhere, but Chen Linhu doesn't care.

"I thought they were going to another institution for you, and they were going to buy a stick along the way," Chen Linhu said, "There's no need for it now, so there's nothing to be nervous about."

He said it very casually, because of his appearance, he had the temperament of a big brother, and the others in the elevator looked at him in horror.

Zhang Xun: "..." Then don't make others nervous!

"Are you nervous?" Chen Linhu looked at him slightly sideways, "It's okay, I've already thought out the steps, enter the door, grab your phone, and go."

Zhang Xun was amused by his short plan of "it takes a few steps for an elephant to put in the refrigerator", and he also tasted some comfort from Chen Linhu's tone.

Even children have learned to comfort people like this.

Taking a breath, Zhang Xun rubbed his cheeks, and brought up the energy that someone eight years older than himself should have: "Don't be nervous, I brought a daoist back home, anyway, it's not the two of us who should be nervous."

Chen Linhu laughed.

The elevator came to a complete stop, and the two of them came out with the crowd. Zhang Xun instructed again: "No matter what they say for a while, you should pretend that you didn't hear them, and pretend to be farting, you know?"

"Well," Chen Linhu nodded obediently, "Which ward?"

His obedient and non-provoking appearance made Zhang Xun feel distressed. He really didn't want Chen Linhu to face his parents face to face, so he walked up to the door of the ward, and while he was about to knock on the door, he calmed down and said, "I'll just tell them when I go in. Don't……"

As soon as the word "don't" came to mind, Chen Linhu opened the door of the ward with a bang.

What etiquette and knock on the door, no!

The people inside and outside the door exchanged glances, and the members of the Zhang family were all dumbfounded, staring at Chen Linhu in a daze.

Zhang Xun: "..." Damn it!I forgot it was a tiger!

Apart from Zhang Cheng, Chen Linhu didn't know anyone in the room, so he just looked at Zhang Cheng: "Where's the phone?"

"...You are the one..." Zhang Cheng recovered and recognized who it was, with a complicated expression on his face, his eyes swept over his brother and Chen Linhu, "Did you call him here?"

Zhang Xun was completely paralyzed by Chen Linhu's non-sensical behavior. Looking at the shocked faces of Zhang Haisheng and his wife, he suddenly felt a sense of joy, and walked into the ward: "I'll get my phone."

"The mobile phone is worth more than your parents, right? You still have the guts to come back!" Zhang Haisheng jumped up like a thunder, jumped up from the stool, pointed at Chen Linhu and asked, "Who is this? Are you trying to piss me off? Anyone dares to bring it home! "

In Chen Linhu's life, he was most annoyed by people shouting and shouting in front of him, and both of them carried their heads on their shoulders.

Eyelids lifted, Chen Linhu raised his eyebrows: "Who are you?"

"I'm his father!" Zhang Haicheng stared at him, as if he couldn't speak well, so he could only yell.

"Oh," Chen Linhu walked into the ward, disapproving, "I didn't see it."

There is a kind of person in this world who usually speaks very little, but when he speaks, he will almost die of anger and lose his temper.

In the past, Chen Linhu would dare to yell at anyone when he was strong, but recently he restrained himself a little. Zhang Xun almost forgot his innate skill. Unexpectedly, when he suddenly showed power, Zhang Haisheng's lungs almost surpassed those five words. It exploded.

Zhang Xun couldn't find a word to describe his current feelings, so the words he tried to sum up should be: it's so fucking cool.

"My phone is here, right?" Zhang Xun coughed, not intending to make Chen Linhu fight with his father, he pulled Chen Linhu's arm to keep him still, "Take it and leave, don't leave it here to be an eyesore."

The movement of pulling the arm did not avoid people, and several members of the Zhang family saw it.Zhang Cheng's face was complicated, but he didn't say anything. A trace of disgust flashed in Zhang's mother's swollen eyes from not sleeping well, don't start.

"No, now even the lost mobile phones are piled on the heads of the family members." Zhang Haicheng sneered, curling his lips as if nauseated, "It's not disgusting."

Chen Linhu frowned suddenly.

Zhang Xun was already indifferent to this level of words. Looking at Zhang Cheng, his brother nodded wearily, meaning that the phone was indeed with Zhang Haisheng.

"Either pay me back now, or call the police to find out." Zhang Xun said to Zhang Haisheng, "You choose."

Zhang Haisheng did not expect that Zhang Xun was more determined than before and would not give him face. The time he left did not make him feel regretful. ! Let people see what kind of thing you are, let people see how you really treat your parents!"

As soon as the voice fell, a cheerful bell rang in the jacket pocket.

Zhang Haicheng's face was slightly stiff, and he lowered his hand to cover his pocket.

"It's in your pocket." Chen Linhu raised his chin at Zhang Haicheng, holding up the mobile phone that had been calling Zhang Xun, "With this little ability, why call the police is a waste of public resources."

This time I couldn't even control Zhang Cheng's expression, he looked helplessly at Chen Linhu, sat down on the empty hospital bed next to him, and expressed with his body that he didn't want to care about this.

Before Zhang Xun came here, he was afraid that Chen Linhu would be wronged by listening to those gossips, but now he realized that Zhang Haisheng would be relieved if he didn't get mad.

"It doesn't matter what other people think or think," Zhang Xun said to Zhang Haisheng, "I don't care anymore, and I won't care in the future. This last visit can be regarded as making it clear that no matter what happens at home, you don't need to care about me. If there is no such thing as my son, if you really have any major birth, old age, sickness and death, just let Zhang Cheng know to me, and I will not let it go. Our family will be like this."

There was a sob on the hospital bed, Zhang's mother covered half of her face and cried: "Xiao Xun, that's not what you said, you were born and raised by me, how can the blood relationship be broken?"

"I just don't want to be responsible, selfish," Zhang Haisheng said, "I gave birth to you and raised you for so many years, how did you repay me? Engage in those inappropriate relationships! Zhang Xun, have you thought about how much you will hurt your parents by doing this?" Heart, I took you to see a doctor for your own good, and after you are cured, you can return to a normal life, this is your home after all!"

"Yes, yes, as long as it's cured, your parents are doing it for your own good," Zhang's mother seemed to have found another convincing statement, half sat up from the bed, and said while wiping her tears, "So don't hate us, never I just love you when you are small, and your dad did it just to train you. Xiaoxun, please forgive mom, I will be on the operating table soon, are you making such a fuss to keep me from getting off? Other patients said, resentment Too much is a curse, it will kill you..."

The patient on the bed next to the door in the room has already seen that something is wrong. There are only five people in the room at the moment, but the movement is as lively as singing a big show. Zhang Haisheng's angry scolding and Zhang's mother's whining filled the ward. He frowned so loudly.

He could hear it from the broken tone of the couple, it was only after pressing Zhang Xun's head to let him say "I love you, my dear father and mother".

Just standing in the room for a while, Chen Linhu already felt chest tightness and oppression. He looked at Zhang Xun, maybe he was too disappointed, or maybe he was used to it. Zhang Xun's face was numb and calm. Feeling Chen Linhu's gaze, he turned his head to the side. , showing him a small comforting smile.

Chen Linhu's heart seemed to be pierced by this smile, and it ached sharply.

"Have you said enough?" Zhang Xun walked weakly to the hospital bed, "Give me the phone."

Zhang Haisheng took out his mobile phone from his pocket, and the screen displayed several missed calls from Chen Linhu. He waved away Zhang Xun's hand, and the slap was about to fall on his face: "What about after I give it to you? Don't you understand what I say? Call back!" Home! Cure! Get these dubious people out of my presence!"

"He's my boyfriend!" Zhang Xun raised his arm to block him, and finally shouted unbearably, "It's not Zhang Haisheng who is a dude, how many times do you have to tell me to understand?!"

Zhang Haicheng's eyes were red with anger, he grabbed Zhang Xun's collar, and raised the phone in his hand to smash it, but someone grabbed his wrist.

"I understand," Chen Linhu looked at Zhang Haicheng, and took the phone out of his hand, "You don't feel worthless if you don't bother your son, right?"

He appeared silently, and his movements were crisp and quick, neither Zhang Xun nor Zhang Cheng noticed.

Zhang Haicheng was taken aback. Chen Linhu's tall stature and disgusted expression gave him an astonishing deterrent effect. Unlike his two sons, Chen Linhu had no moral ties to him, so he didn't need to worry about being angry. Looking at Zhang Haisheng's eyes is like looking at a bad person.

"This is our family business!" Zhang Haisheng came back to his senses, and withdrew his hand, "You are him..." After a pause, his expression was as ugly as eating a fly, and he didn't say anything after all, "... I don't care. I don't think you are very old. If you are sensible, just

Hurry up, what kind of tutoring is it to fight with the elders—”

"Zhang Haicheng!" Zhang Xun interrupted loudly, and pulled Chen Linhu behind him, "You are an elder, don't put gold on your face."

"Shut up! I'm doing it for him," Zhang Haisheng patted the wall, looked at Chen Linhu and said, "Have you ever thought about your family like this? Will it last long? Your parents raised you so big, not to mention passing on the family, it's considered a You can't even give them a normal big family, aren't you ashamed?"

Zhang Xun's face turned pale in an instant, and Zhang Haicheng's questioning was also the same question he asked himself countless times. Although as time went by and became closer to Chen Linhu unreservedly, these heart-wrenching questions gradually diminished, but they still existed.

Chen Linhu felt that Zhang Xun grabbed his hand with his backhand, and his palm was covered with sticky sweat.

Chen Linhu felt a little angry, if this old boy hadn't been for Zhang Xun's own father, and at such an old age, he would have beaten him so hard that he couldn't speak.

"I'm with Zhang Xun for a long time." Chen Linhu's voice was not so loud, but Zhang Haisheng couldn't answer, "If he wants to, no one can stop me from being with him."

He spoke calmly and seriously, and Zhang Xun's palm was pinched, as if pinching the softest and hottest place in his heart.

Zhang Cheng raised his head and looked at the two of them, his lips parted slightly, and his eyes were a little emotional.

"As for what my family thinks, that has nothing to do with you. They each have their own lives, but one good thing is that they talk about people and things." Chen Linhu changed the subject, his cold eyes fixed on Zhang Haisheng's face, " No one blames you for being so stupid that you can't understand, but if you think your family is 'normal', you look down on other normal families a bit."

Zhang Haicheng had never seen such a thorny person before, and he was stunned for a while before realizing what he meant: "What did you say?!"

"You establish your prestige by beating your son," Chen Linhu patted Zhang Xun's, raised his chin, and pointed to Zhang's mother who was so frightened that she was holding the quilt on the hospital bed, "She was forgiven by emotional threats before going to the operating table. I haven’t felt uncomfortable watching my son being beaten for several years. Now I’m afraid and I just want to ask for peace of mind. Isn’t this fucking just holding Buddha’s feet temporarily, and if Buddha doesn’t like it, he cuts people’s ankles with a knife? Wickedness always picks big flaws, awesome .”

The room was quiet for two seconds, Zhang Xun looked back at Chen Linhu, and the corner of his mouth couldn't help twitching.

He actually wanted to say this a long time ago, but after all, he is his own father and mother, and he felt uncomfortable when he said too much. He didn't expect Chen Linhu to throw it all out, because he said it too straightforwardly and confidently, even more than he said. It's hard to say by myself.

Also more relieved.

"You—" Zhang Haicheng was furious.

Mother Zhang didn't know whether she was guilty or frightened, she hiccupped while covering her face and crying.Zhang Cheng circled around twice, and finally turned his head away, out of sight and out of mind.

"If I didn't have a tutor, the hospital bed next door would be where you spend the night now." Chen Linhu looked down at the phone, it was not broken, it probably couldn't be unlocked, so Zhang Haisheng didn't bother with Zhang Xun's phone much.He stuffed the phone into Zhang Xun's coat pocket, and said, "Let's go home."

The room on the second floor of the old family courtyard flashed through Zhang Xun's mind. The lingering pain and boredom that had been lingering since he entered the door faded into the memory of that little kingdom, and it was time to go home.

"Which home?" Zhang Haisheng said, "His home is here!"

Chen Linhu ignored him and pulled Zhang Xun away.

Zhang Xun's cell phone is about to come back, and it would be superfluous to spend it here, he glanced at Zhang Haisheng and Zhang's mother: "It's still the same sentence, I will come back when there is something important, and at other times, let's go our separate ways. You two let me go, and I won't come to bother you any more."

No one spoke in the ward, Zhang Xun waited for a few seconds, apparently unable to wait for any response, smiled wryly, patted Chen Linhu on the shoulder and pushed him to the front, walking out.

Just two steps out, I heard Zhang Haicheng's roar: "Nie Zi! Unfilial things!"

As soon as Zhang Xun turned his head, he saw a teacup thrown by Zhang Haisheng. Because of his lack of accuracy, he flew past him. When he was approaching Chen Linhu, Zhang Xun quickly waved his hand and knocked the teacup down on the ground.

"Dad!" Zhang Cheng came to his senses and hurried to pull him.

Zhang Haicheng seemed to be mad with anger, he smashed everything, Zhang Xun got a teacup lid and two books on his body, Chen Linhu was also hit along with it.

Zhang Xun hurriedly separated Chen Linhu, and the room was in a panic. Zhang Haisheng's curses, Zhang Cheng's persuasion, and Zhang's mother's crying and crying blew up the pot in the narrow room.

Chen Linhu had never seen such a battle before. He turned his head and saw that Zhang Haisheng was still barking, but he groped for the waistband of his trousers and made a motion to untie his belt.

Almost instantly, when he lost his belt that day, Zhang Xun's habitual shrinking image flashed through his mind, and Chen Linhu only felt his heart burning, and he was about to rush forward after cursing something dirty.

Out of the corner of his eye, he saw Zhang Xun bent down and picked up something, and slammed it on the ground.

There was a loud bang, and the thermos bottle exploded to pieces in the house.

Zhang Haicheng's roar was immediately blocked in the throat, and before he could smooth it out, Zhang Xun pulled Chen Linhu back again, walked over the steaming water and debris, pushed Zhang Haicheng, and pushed him hard To the hospital bed pressed.

"Before I was ten years old, I saw you two very few times. After ten years old, I tried my best to reach the standard line of 'good son' in your two hearts." Zhang Xun's tone was flat, and there was no trace of extraneous emotion on his face. "When I was young, my grades, living habits, and every word and deed were all faults and unacceptable 'diseases' that this family could not tolerate. Now my sexuality is also a part that must be corrected in the eyes of both of you. I have thought about it for the past few years. , maybe I am an outlier in this family, not existing is better than forcibly blending in."

Zhang Haicheng regained consciousness and struggled to stand up, but the hands on his shoulders made him unable to move.

He suddenly realized that Zhang Xun was no longer the kid who could only shout "I was wrong" when he was whipped by his belt.

"I came here because I wanted to have a good chat with you, at least my mother." Zhang Xun glanced at Chen Linhu, "I have had a good time, I am very happy, and I have met many people, all of them are very good. I am in a relationship, and my partner will think about the future with me, and we can move forward in a down-to-earth way. I thought about waiting for a few years to ease up, and I will introduce him officially to you. He is very good and outstanding. Who has seen such a young man? Anyone would love it."

When Chen Linhu saw Zhang Xun's look at him, his mouth was sour.

No one knew better than him that Zhang Xun came back with the last bit of hope and affection for his parents.

There was no hope of that now.

"But now I understand that you don't want to see me, and because of me, you don't want to see him, but people around me." Zhang Xun smiled, "Don't do this, really. After so many years, I I would be scared when I saw the belt thrown at me, when I put the toiletries, I would always think of the time when I was pressed on the sink and choked on water when I was a child, and if I smell a little sweat, I would think of the beating you dragged out of the house."

Needle drop can be heard in the room, Chen Linhu has never heard Zhang Xun say these things, after all, he is not a person who has personally experienced violence in the name of love, let alone understand the memory engraved on the body of the person who has experienced it.

He just felt that if he listened to a few more words, Zhang Haisheng would have to be beaten and sent to the hospital on the spot.

Zhang Cheng's face was also extremely pale, and he stuffed his slightly trembling hands into his trouser pockets, turning his face away.

"I did it for your own good!!" Zhang Haisheng said what he had said countless times over the years, "Your mother and I—"

"It's my nightmare." Zhang Xun said.

Mother Zhang took the quilt and covered her head, as if she didn't have to hear these words that would embarrass her even more.

"It will take me many years to forget the nightmare," Zhang Xun let go of Zhang Haisheng's hand, and took two steps back, "Don't come to Baoxiang, don't harass the people around me, I don't want my nightmare to affect them. Dad , Mom, I have to go back to my own home, there are cats to feed, friends and neighbors waiting for me, that is my home, not here."

Chen Linhu swallowed all his anger, leaving only unspeakable sadness, and walked out while holding Zhang Xun's hand.

It took a while in the ward to hear Zhang's mother's voice: "Xiao Xun, don't hate mom, don't curse me—"

"Trouble!" Zhang Haisheng jumped up from the bed, "Trouble!"

Looking at the paranoid father and bewildered mother in front of him, Zhang Cheng suddenly felt some grief and anger. He grabbed Zhang Haisheng's clothes and pushed him back on the bed. Spare him, spare us!"

The door of the ward was closed, blocking the absurd chaos in the room. Chen Linhu and Zhang Xun almost left the inpatient department at a running speed, holding hands and running out like being chased by dogs.

The wind at night was cold and strong, and I felt like I was stepping on a wind blade while running.

"Where the hell are we going to go!" Zhang Xun asked loudly, his mood was blown high by the wind, and he felt like he and Chen Linhu were two monsters escaping from the trap in Loulin House.

Chen Linhu was so angry that he had nowhere to vent, he dragged Zhang Xun and dragged him away: "Baoxiang!"

"Fuck!" Zhang Xun laughed and said, "We can't even run back on our hands and feet, you're stupid!"

Chen Linhu slowed down a bit, turned his head and frowned at him: "Go home!"

"Home," Zhang Xun accelerated suddenly, threw himself on Chen Linhu's back, fumbled into his suit with one hand, pressed on his heart, and chuckled softly, "My home is here, and it will be here from now on."

Wherever you are in the future, our home will be there.

It could be an old family home, it could have just one bedroom, it could have a fat cat who is always harassing people.

It could be two beating hearts carrying virtual kingdoms and ruling each other's territories.

"Hey," Zhang Xun said, "I want to kiss you."

Chen Linhu pressed the tip of his tongue against one of his canine teeth, squinted his eyes and said, "I want to bite you."

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To be reasonable, one should listen to Mr. Zhang, and to be angry, one should listen to Chen Linhu (狗头