I want to live, get married

It seems to be awake and it seems to be asleep.

gradually.

He Qingqing felt that everything was dizzy and unreal. She clearly felt that she couldn't move, but she felt extremely sensitive, as if she was trapped in a nightmare, but she couldn't move when she was conscious.

The things happening around seem to be fake, but they seem to be very real, so real that every detail is so realistic, so real that it is difficult to distinguish between real and fake.

Some things that she couldn't explain clearly began to grow quietly in the darkness.

This is something that has never happened in my previous life. It is like scratching my heart and liver but I can't find an exit. I feel empty when I am crowded in my heart.

He Qingqing felt that she was very strange, her throat was dry, she desperately wanted to take a sip of water, opened her mouth to make a sound but couldn't make a sound, she could only pant heavily to relieve the dry mouth .

In the nightmare, she felt that she was soaked in a pool of warm spring water, and her whole body was rubbed, bumped, swayed, comforted, and wrapped by a gentle force.

Her mind was a little dull, and she was in a daze, but she felt that this was dangerous and had to be stopped immediately.

But she longed for more in her heart, and the two strange feelings intertwined forced her to have nightmares again and again.

But in these terrible dreams, she actually thought of a vague figure, with a graceful figure, gently pursed lips with a gentle smile, a cinnabar mole looming between the brows, a man wearing a blue and white shirt reading candles at night under the lamp. Lonely, lightly rolled up and secretly slid down the few strokes of blue hair on the forehead, and the handsome font jumping under the slender fingers.

"Liu, Miss Liu..."

He Qingqing felt that she must have cried out to break through the nightmare.

"what……"

After a cry of surprise, I suddenly felt that the world was collapsing, and my body was weightless. With a "gudong", I fell down firmly.

Although the person was still dizzy, his body began to feel a little bit, and the lingering numbness gradually subsided.

"Ouch..." Clutching the back of her painful head, she realized that she had rolled off the bed completely, including the person and the quilt, and was lying sprawled on the ground at the moment.

"I have never fallen out of bed since I was a child, what's going on today!" Looking at her hopeless and embarrassed look at this moment, He Qingqing slandered.

What was even more frustrating was that she still vaguely recalled some scenes from the dream. The woman in the blue and white clothes in the dream made He Qingqing even more embarrassed for no reason.

She murmured to herself.

"It's okay, it's okay, He Qingqing, calm down, calm down, you must keep your head down every day and you can't look up to see you, and you can't be at peace even in your dreams, yes, that's right, that's right..."

She mentioned this to herself over and over again.

He Qingqing was very anxious because he couldn't clean it up and still be in a mess.

She could only comfort herself and stop thinking about it, and calm down before talking.

He doesn't even want to wake up completely, because after waking up, he has to face these wild thoughts in his head, and face up to every trace of his charming feelings that can't be put on the table.

Every time I think about this, it makes people extremely frustrated. I can only be a quail with my head shrunk, and shrink into what I think is a safe range to save my life.

So, he didn't dare to disturb the servants, he hugged the quilt obediently, lay down on the bed, and continued to sleep with his head covered.

All in all, people insisted on lying down all night in this chaotic state.

In the blink of an eye, the next morning, I woke up in a trance, stared blankly at the surrounding scenery, and after a moment of stupor, my mind gradually came to my senses.

I didn't expect that it was just a night of random dreams, which made me so tired, I only felt sore all over, as if I had put in a lot of effort to live.

He Qingqing barely supported her upper body and sat up wobbly. She stretched out her hand to rub her sore eyes and her head, which was arched like a chicken coop at night, and found that the sky was only hazy.

Suddenly, there was a sore pain from her lower abdomen, which shocked her heart.

"Ouch...it hurts...hiss..."

She clutched her stomach, lifted the quilt in disbelief, and suddenly found a dazzling bright red on the bed.

"No... it's not..."

"too suddenly……"

"how so……"

Because He Qingqing was weak and sickly when she was young, and her body was very weak. The girl from another family had moon water when she was in her teens, but she didn't move for a long time.

For this reason, Mrs. He invited many doctors to diagnose and treat her. They all asserted that she was born with a heart failure, and her whole body was empty of energy and blood.

This situation made Mrs. He very sad for a while.

Now, it came here somehow, and so suddenly, it caught people off guard.

Fortunately, He Qingqing is a big girl, and she knew what was going on, otherwise she would have fainted from fright when she saw her bloodstained body early in the morning.

Before dawn and when everyone in the house hadn't woken up, he secretly changed his embarrassing body.

I quietly touched the back kitchen, fetched a bucket of water and brought it back to the bedroom, intending to wash the clothes and mattresses that were soiled in the night by myself.

If anyone saw something so embarrassing, there would be nowhere to put her face.

Unfortunately, on the way back to the bedroom, I ran into Butler Li who loved getting up early.

"Oh, miss, why did you get up so early today! The sun is coming out from the west." Li Butler asked puzzled.

He Qingqing smiled helplessly: "Heh, heh..."

The excuse said: "After these days of recuperation, my spirit has improved a lot, so I naturally got up early."

At this moment, Steward Li noticed the bucket in He Qingqing's hand, and asked which pot to lift.

"Hey Miss, what are you doing with the bucket of water?"

He Qingqing gritted her teeth helplessly, and blamed the butler Li for meddling in her own business, but she couldn't show it on her face, so she could only stammer and explain.

"This...uh...I...I'm going to take it to the study and wash...wash my 'Four Treasures of the Study', yes, yes, that's it."

"Hey, such a trivial matter is not worth doing by the lady herself. Just let the old man come down and wash it for you. Don't worry about it."

With that said, Butler Li raised his hand to pick up the bucket in He Qingqing's hand.

He Qingqing immediately walked away, and repeatedly declined: "Don't...don't... Butler Li, I'd better do it by myself. I have a set of Huzhou Langhao in my 'Four Treasures of the Study', which is quite precious. Don't wash it for me all the time. It's bald."

The two of them were arguing, when they suddenly heard someone calling from behind: "Miss He, Housekeeper Li, good morning."

At some point, Liu Yanhan appeared behind him.

Now, He Qingqing complained in his heart: "If you don't come when it's time, why are you showing up at this juncture?"

With all kinds of helplessness, I can only face it with a forced smile.

"Uh...Miss Liu, early...early, why do you get up so early, don't you want to sleep more?"

"Oh! I'm used to it..." Liu Yanhan smiled gently and said, "Miss He, you just recovered, and you still need more rest."

At this moment, Butler Li echoed, "That's right, what Miss Liu said is true, it's fine if you get up so early, but you have to carry a bucket of water, wash the four treasures of the study, and wash the Huzhou writing brushes. If you get sick again, what's the matter?"

"Oh?" Hearing this, Liu Yanhan narrowed his eyes, and glanced at the bucket He Qingqing was holding.

Under her gaze, He Qingqing felt as if she couldn't hide any secrets. She was so embarrassed that she could only smile awkwardly.

Looking at the uncomfortable look of the person in front of him, Liu Yanhan seemed to realize something.

"let me see……"

Before he realized what was going on, He Qingqing felt that Liu Yanhan's three fingers had already put his wrist in his hand.

Just in an instant, she was called to the pulse door, she saw the corner of Liu Yanhan's mouth slightly twitched, but there was no expression on his face.

I am afraid that I will be exposed in public.

In the end, she just nodded slightly and said, "Well! Miss He, your body has recovered really well recently. If you wash the 'Four Treasures of the Study' or something, it shouldn't be a big problem. Housekeeper Li doesn't need to worry too much."

"Then...then I'll go first."

Under this kind of atmosphere, He Qingqing couldn't stay still for a moment. After saying this, she ran back to her bedroom with the bucket in her hand without looking back.

In this way, the Oolong storybook incident can be regarded as subsided.

It's just that after breakfast that day, He Qingqing was very puzzled by the daily routine soup and medicine that the servant brought over.

In addition to the usual bitter Chinese medicine, there was also a porcelain cup on the tray.

He Qingqing didn't know what it was, opened the lid and saw that there was a cup of maroon soup with a few red dates floating on it.

She stirred it with a spoon, and found that besides the red dates, there were some red beans and purple-skinned peanuts at the bottom. It smelled a little sweet like sugar water, and she didn't know what it was for.

Then he asked the boy, "What kind of soup is this?"

"Return to Miss, Miss Liu said that this is called Sihong Soup, and she made it for you in the fire room this morning, and she told the young lady to drink it, she said that you have been wasting a lot recently and need to replenish your body. "

After hearing this, He Qingqing understood what it meant, her face turned white and red, so she could only bite the bullet and pour all the soup into her belly.