Broken Iron Clothes

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Gu Nanxing had already walked a stick of incense in the corridor, not far from him was Jiang Yu's bedroom.

He knew that sooner or later he would step forward to knock on that door, but he didn't know how to take steps there.He has never been an indecisive person, but he just couldn't make up his mind on this matter.

After silently counting fifty more in his heart, Gu Nanxing finally persuaded himself to walk to Jiang Yu's room.

Just as the bent fingers touched the door panel, the door just opened.Standing in front of the door, Jiang Yu seemed to know that the person coming would be Gu Nanxing, without any surprise.

"Go south." Jiang Yu hooked Gu Nanxing, signaling him to enter the house.

After seeing the person, Gu Nanxing let go of his worries, closed the door and followed Jiang Yu inside.

Jiang Yu walked slowly to the table, stopped and stood there.He stood with his hands behind his back, like a lonely shadow with no way forward and no way back. When he stopped moving forward and had no way to retreat, only sadness and silence remained.

"You know everything, right?" Jiang Yu's voice rang out in the silence.

Gu Nanxing looked at the back and was silent for a moment, feeling that when the gentle gentleman who was always immersed in pen and ink stood like this, people couldn't understand.

"Sir, are you talking about Huaichuan?" He asked.

Jiang Yu lowered his head and said, "Is this the reason you went to Qinzhou this time?"

"Yes," Gu Nanxing replied very simply, "So I also want to ask my husband, do you want to talk to Huai Chuan about this?"

Jiang Yu turned her body slightly: "You are hesitant, is it because I, as an insider, have kept this matter hidden for so many years, so you think it's not right to say it?"

"That's right, and it's not, because I still want to ask clearly," Gu Nanxing paused, "Why did you hide it from Huai Chuan, sir?"

This question has been circling in his mind for a long time, and now after asking the question, his heart is a little relieved.

Jiang Yu lowered her head and shook her head, mocking herself: "I'm ashamed to say it, but if I mention the reason, I'm afraid the phrase 'Mr.' you call will be ruined."

Gu Nanxing's heart sank back to the original place: "Why did you say that, sir?"

Jiang Yu closed his eyes and remained silent for a long time. He was trying to face himself, but the figure sketched in his mind was splashing ink and talking loudly, but he was still thinking every day about transforming a person who had no intention of calling himself emperor into a monarch in his heart. It was really ridiculous.

After a while, he spoke slowly: "Huai Chuan lives with the belief of revenge, but I want him to be the emperor. If he knows the truth, he may bear more hatred and may be even less willing to seize the throne, and I The monarch he likes should not have too much love and hatred, he should be ruthless, so that he can firmly sit on the throne of the monarch and guard the Dali country... The reason why I didn't want to tell him at first was this."

"What about now?" Gu Nanxing asked.

"Now," Jiang Yu raised her head and sighed, "I realize that I am a layman. Apart from political ideals, I also hope that you will be happy and peaceful in your later years. However, foreign enemies have invaded our kingdom, wars have burned our borders, and internal disturbances have disturbed our court. How powerful and long-lasting the mountains and rivers under this boundless world are!"

That figure was overlooking the mountains, rivers and land, but he didn't dare to let the world see his true face, and the court that could be touched by hand can only appear in the dreamland now.Jiang Yu leaned on the table, as if her pride had been shattered: "I can't let go of the ideal of serving as a government that I have pursued for half my life, but I also know that Huai Chuan doesn't want to be an emperor, so I won't force him, and I don't want to lie to him anymore, but I don't want to lose my old face, and I dare not say a lot of words, because I am afraid that he will blame me and hate me."

Gu Nanxing looked at the back of the man leaning against the table alone, resting his forehead and sighing, and the light and shadow coming in from the window made the man even more lonely and desolate, but he could only respond with silence.

Jiang Yu wiped his face, turned around and said, "Nan Xing, if you know that your beloved husband has been deceiving you for being nice to you all these years, and wants you to become a tool to fulfill his ideals, you Can you forgive him?"

Gu Nanxing lowered his eyes, nine years of getting along day and night is not a dream, the right and wrong between them has long been unclear.

"I don't know," Gu Nanxing replied truthfully, "but no matter what the reason why you chose to stay in Hegu in the first place, Mr. Yu Huaichuan and I have been kind enough to educate you. Huaichuan and I put you and Lin Meng together. Mister is regarded as a adoptive father, and in the future I will try my best to repay the kindness of the two of you, if you want to count all these as grievances, it is hard to say who owes whom these years."

Jiang Yu swallowed the hot tears in her throat, and walked towards Gu Nan step by step.

"Go south——" Jiang Yu reached out and patted him on the shoulder. With a choked sound, she lowered her head for a long time, then patted him on the shoulder again with more force, "I know he has been unhappy so far. Scolding, he took revenge when he was young, and now he even lost half his life, he didn't have to do this."

"Talk to him," Jiang Yu said softly, turned around and walked to the table, bowed his head and choked again, "...Talk to him."

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Ci Gu led Ji Dong to cook the dinner, Ji Dong followed Grandpa since he was a child, and later followed Gu Nanxing to Crane Valley without a woman by his side.In the past, she wanted to find someone to cuddle with each other, but she still had some fears about Jiang Yu's teaching of "the incompatibility between men and women". Now that Cigu is here, she can finally be like those women with mothers, someone gets close, someone hugs, Naturally also happy.

Cigu is over half a century old and has not yet married. Her youthful youth is buried in the misery of half her life, and she is often sentimental. She is already soft-hearted, but now she sees a little girl like Ji Dong, and she feels pity for her, so the two of them get along for a day. They are as close as family members.

After dinner, Jiang Shiqing sent the bracelet and pen container to Zhong Dingshan and Jiang Yu's room separately, and then went back to his bedroom alone.

An exquisite red sandalwood box was placed open and quietly on the table, and Jiang Shiqing leaned against the window and watched silently for a long time.The wolf fangs looked eye-catching, mixed with the smell of scorching sun and thick blood, and also had the arrogance of standing on the top of the mountain and howling.

He succumbed to this kind of wildness with sunshine and mountain wind like a ghost, and now he has a heart of taboo, only daring to look at it from a distance.

It was as if he had to retreat a few steps timidly after approaching Yuan Mucheng.

He always felt that the light on Yuan Mucheng's body was too warm. He longed for it for a long time, and when he touched it again, he tried to bring this enthusiasm to the dark underworld where he was hiding, but found that this kind of light could only stay in the human world.

So he couldn't take it with him, so he just didn't want it.

With a few "clicks", the raindrops hit the eaves and splashed downward.

It's raining.

Jiang Shiqing stretched out his hand out of the window, caught a few breezes, caught a few grains of rain, and threw all the warmth he stole from Yuan Mucheng into the wind and rain.

He buckled the lid of the box, bent his back to the side of the couch and fell asleep.The pattering rain rang for half the long night, Jiang Shiqing buried half of his face in the quilt, but slept very peacefully.

He dreamed that he was wrapped in the fluff of a big dog, and all he felt was warm breath and heaving chest all night. The roars and blood splashes in those fights had nothing to do with him. The insults were also crushed under the big dog's feet...

The sound of rain breaks and the sound of leakage lasts for a long time. It was a peaceful night's sleep.

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During the day, the sky was cloudy, and after a while, the rain continued to fall in waves like last night.

"It's raining." Sitting sideways by the window, Yi Qinchen said bitterly after drinking the medicine Zhong Dingshan prepared.

Gu Nanxing put away the empty bowl, stuffed a candied fruit into his mouth, and said, "It fell last night, and some splashed on the porch. Now the ground outside is wet, so you have to be careful when you leave."

Yi Qinchen smiled, and whispered in the direction of Gu Nanxing: "Xing Nan."

Gu Nanxing turned his head: "What?"

Yi Qinchen raised his hand in front of him, and when he didn't meet anyone, he put his hand on his lap and said, "I'll call you."

Gu Nanxing put down the bowl in his hand, walked towards him, leaned his back on the window sill and said, "Jacheng is no better than Qinzhou, don't you believe in anyone, stupidly carry me back and knock yourself down?" It’s okay to have an injury, Lin Song just paid for the medicine for you and took him home again. After your eyes are cured, I have to take you to recognize him.”

"I can't see with these eyes, but I got good luck twice, and the people who bring their heads home are all good people." Yi Qinchen raised the corners of his mouth, so pure that he was not stained with dust, Gu Nanxing looked at him , shook his head helplessly.

Thinking of the time in Qinzhou, Gu Nanxing felt lingering fear.That night he was dizzy from fever and was carried home by Yi Qinchen. When he woke up again, he found Lin Song sleeping next to his bed.After further questioning, he realized that Yi Qinchen didn't even know that Lin Song was the thief who stole him twice, and only heard Lin Song say that he wanted to find someone to repay his kindness, so he brought him back.

To this day, Yi Qinchen still doesn't know what Lin Song did before, and thought that he was just by his side to repay Gu Nanxing's kindness, and he still remembered that Lin Song had paid for the medicine for him, so he went to It is taken for granted that Lin Song is a good person.

Gu Nanxing didn't expose it either, thinking that if Lin Song could really change his ways, it would be good to repay some of his guilt to Yi Qinchen in the name of repaying his kindness, so he took Lin Song with him.

"Fool." Gu Nanxing said softly, then bent down and squatted in front of Yi Qinchen, and took the man's hand to find his own face.

Gu Nanxing led his hand from forehead to chin, then let go, and said, "Remember, I look like this, you can see me later, don't misunderstand me, a kind-hearted person like me There aren't many bad guys left."

Yi Qinchen smiled lightly, then stroked the outline carefully again.The man's soft fingertips ran across the bridge of the nose from his brows, then slowly stroked the corners of his lips and finally landed on his chin. Gu Nanxing felt this delicate touch, and the hazy feeling in his heart suddenly exploded. After disappearing, there is a clarity that has never been seen before.

He stared blankly at Yi Qinchen, but heard the man say with a smile: "Sword eyebrows and star eyes, a little tear mole, and a high and straight nose, the son is a rich and happy man. Even if he is lonely in the past, he will surely survive the disaster." , in the future, I will surely have great blessings and a happy family.”

As if possessed by a demon, after listening to this passage, Gu Nanxing sat cross-legged on the ground, put his chin on Yi Qinchen's knee, took the man's hand, and said, "Touch again, I will See what tricks you can come up with?"

Yi Qinchen was stunned for a moment, then stroked his eyebrows with his hands again, and said, "My lord has a mark on his brow, and he is depressed. I think he is troubled by trivial matters."

In fact, Yi Qinchen always knew that he had something on his mind.

Being poked in the middle of the ridge, Gu Nanxing suddenly felt that there was a support on his side, as if he was alone in the endless sea, when he suddenly found a small boat, and the boatman stretched out his hand to pull him onto the boat. Take him away from the sea that traps him, and swim to the shore.

"Qinchen." Gu Nanxing held the man's finger and called out in a low voice.

Yi Qinchen responded, "Huh?"

Gu Nanxing straightened up and said, "If someone lived in ignorance for more than twenty years, would you tell him the truth after you knew the truth?"

Yi Qinchen thought for a while, and replied, "If he's having a bad time, why didn't you tell him?"

"Because he won't be happy after he knows the truth." Gu Nanxing said, recalling the appearance of Jiang Shiqing crawling back to the world with hatred every time in these years.With one more hatred in his heart, he didn't know what choice Jiang Shiqing would make, after all, this way of living was really too hard.

Yi Qinchen was still gentle: "Since it's all unsatisfactory, why not let him live a little more clearly?"

Gu Nanxing was silent for a moment, and then said: "But if he knows the truth, it will be easier if he still feels unclear?"

Yi Qinchen sighed softly: "Although you have thought so much for him, have you ever given him a choice? Once some lies are told, he must be prepared to be exposed at any time. At that time, he will not only have to bear the burden of knowing The pain of the truth, and one more pain of being deceived, will it really be better?"

It will not be easy.From the moment Jiang Shiqing came into this world, it was doomed that this life would never be better.

Gu Nanxing thought about it, and was stunned for a long time, then heard Yi Qinchen lower his voice again, and said: "You are not sure that you can hide it from him for the rest of your life, so don't hide it for a while."

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"The sound of rain rests, and the sound of leakage lasts long" is adapted from "the sound of rain at the beginning of a rest, and the sound of leakage lasts long" in Zhang Yuanqian's "Huanxi Sand·One Pillow in Autumn Breeze, Two Cool Places".