fictional spring

Oni Wu Tsuji always thinks of someone inadvertently.

That... the person who made a promise to him when he was a human being.

Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi actually doesn't like himself as a human being, the one with a weak body, who can't do anything, can't do anything.

So in the years after becoming a ghost, he always deliberately avoided recalling his past self, and even deliberately suppressed all those past memories when they appeared in his mind.

But as if it had been engraved into his mind, even after hundreds of years, the figure of that person was still shockingly clear when it resurfaced.

Weakness of the body is the sorrow of birth, and a life that is too short is also a fate that cannot be escaped. It was once asserted that Oni Wu Tsuji would never live past the age of 20, but now he has existed for more than an unknown number of 20 years old.

When he was a human many years ago, what existed in his memory was not only the eyes full of pity and the whispers of the maids.

And that person's gentle gaze.

Oni Wu Tsuji still remembered her name.

He just didn't expect that one day after hundreds of years, he would hear this name from someone again.

It's a wonderful fate—or so it can be said.Guiwu Tsuji Wumi overheard someone talking on the road.

The beautiful but weak Mutsuki Hime in the nearby city has reached the marriageable age.

When hearing that name, Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi was only slightly stunned for a moment, a strange thought suddenly rose in his heart, but it disappeared after a while.

impossible.he thinks.

Guiwu Tsuji Wuchan once witnessed the death of the person in his memory. He watched her eyes lose color and spread hollow, and felt her body lose temperature and become pale and cold.

Mu Yueji is dead, this is something he is absolutely sure of.

Furthermore, even if she did not die at that time, it is impossible for her to survive as a human being to this day.

But by a strange coincidence, as if he was guided by something in the dark, Guiwu Tsuji Wuyou still came to that city.

He wanted to meet that person—even if this Mu Yue Ji was actually not half the same as the Mu Yue Ji he remembered.

What is the significance of doing this, Ghost Dance Tsuji Wumi himself is not clear.

He even used mimicry to turn into a woman, pretending to be a passing priestess, and fabricated the reason for staying overnight.Because I didn't want to leave too many traces for the members of the Ghost Killing Squad to notice, I also planned to fabricate one at random along with the name, but...

When the words came to his lips, the name that came out was—"Wu Mi."

Oni Wu Tsuji was also taken aback.

After hearing about her identity and origin, the city lord and his wife didn't know what kind of thoughts they had, so they placed "her" in the courtyard where Mu Yueji lived now.

But this is also in line with Onimu Tsuji's intentions.

Originally, he just wanted to meet Mutsuki Hime, who had the same name as her, and left the city the next day, but he just walked to the gate of the courtyard, and when he heard the sound of the pipa coming from inside, Kimai Tsuji stopped in his tracks .

All thoughts disappeared.

"What's the matter with you?"

The maid who led the way for him looked at him suspiciously, as if she didn't understand why he stopped.

Oni Wu Tsuji moved his lips, his voice felt strange even to himself.

"The person who plays the pipa... who is it?"

The moment he got the maid's answer, Oni Wu Tsuji's thoughts suddenly changed, and his heart was even vaguely entangled with treacherous thoughts, distorting his thoughts.

When he passed the barrier door, he deliberately stopped.

After the barrier door was opened, what I saw was a girl sitting in the room, holding a pipa in her arms, and looking sideways at him with bright eyes.

Familiar face and strange eyes - those eyes are full of surprise and curiosity.

Even under the dim light, it didn't damage her beauty, but Gui Wu Tsuji Wuyou vaguely sensed something inharmonious——her body was entwined with a sickness called "weakness".

It's hard to say what Gui Wu Tsuji's mood is at this time, it's probably happy, or more unbelievable, but the reality is just like this, unexpected things are always happening.

Mu Yueji appeared in front of him again, in a...familiar but unfamiliar appearance.

Oni Wu Tsuji walked into the room uncontrollably with his body. It was clear that his mood was so complicated that he couldn't figure it out, but what was unexpected was that Oni Wu Tsuji sat down in front of her with a calm expression. The tone spoke.

As if his body and consciousness were completely separated, his undisturbed performance surprised even himself. When he realized it, Mutsuki Hime was playing the lute for him.

It was a tune that he was very familiar with a long time ago.

If she was skeptical at the beginning, she couldn't believe this situation, but in those moments when the tunes flowed from her fingertips, Onimai Tsuji was sure-she was that person.

Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi didn't know the reason why they met again, nor why she could reappear in this world—is there really reincarnation after death?A long time ago, Onimi Tsuji Wumi actually asked her this question.

"Do you wish there were?"

At that time, the girl asked him back with a smile on her face, "Does Wu Mi want to be reincarnated?"

Guiwu Tsuji has already forgotten his answer at that time, it doesn't matter what he said, all he wants to remember is her answer.

But Mumai Tsuji forgot—he couldn't remember her answer back then.

The memory that popped out of my mind suddenly, and even the follow-up has been forgotten, has been proved by facts at this moment.

There is.

Oni Wu Tsuji had no regrets, that's why they met again.

But this time, everything will be completely different from before.

Because the current him is Ghost Mai Tsuji.

The current "she" is Wu Mi.

Speaking of the woman Wu Mi is most familiar with, it is the one who has left countless traces in his heart. Her every move, word and deed have been reproduced countless times before Wu Mi's eyes.

So after he tried to imitate, when he looked in the mirror to check if there was any problem, he suddenly discovered that this appearance, if his expression was calm, would be four or five points similar to that person.

Whether it's the outline of the face or the traces of the eyebrows, it's clear that he didn't deliberately move closer to that direction, but what actually showed made Kimai Tsuji Muchan himself fall into silence.

It's hard to say what kind of intentions he had, but he didn't deliberately change it, and even followed the appearance in his memory, using her tone and demeanor to show it vividly in front of Mu Yueji now.

Mu Yueji also noticed something unexpectedly.

A strange atmosphere circulated among them, and no one said anything clearly, and the specious words brought about an overly ambiguous relationship.

If you look at it from an ordinary perspective, you will just feel that the relationship between Mutsuki Hime and this new shrine maiden is surprisingly close.

But it's not impossible.

Mutsukihime, who can only stay in the room all year round, can't do anything that requires physical strength. She has almost no contact with the outside world. When she meets a shrine maiden who came all the way from Kyoto, it is very common for her to be curious about her. .

But the extremely ordinary relationship between them in the eyes of others is actually not the case. The false beginning that has been distorted from the root causes Guiwu Tsuji to fall into a deadlock.

—what am I doing?

he thinks.

——What's the point of everything I've done?

Appearing in front of her as a woman brought both good and bad results—Mu Yueji quickly became close to her, and they were even able to be alone in the room from time to time, with an intimate distance, like ear-to-eye leaning against each other's sides.

But what followed was the positioning of this relationship.

Oni Wu Tsuji played for her the piece that Mutsuki Hime played for him, the familiar girl unconsciously shed tears, the clear tears rolling down, Oni Wu Tsuji subconsciously wanted to reach out to wipe her, Before reaching out, he dismissed the idea again.

But in the end he did nothing, and even when she asked the name of the song, he just said casually: "I forgot."

This is a lie.

Oni Wu Tsuji never forgot, her favorite piece, the piece she played most often, the noble but approachable Mutsuki Hime played in front of him gently with a pipa in her arms.

This is the past that Gui Wu Tsuji cannot forget.

But she forgot.

Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi was probably disappointed, and there was a sense of blame mixed in it-even though he knew very well that he had no reason to have such an idea at all.

But as if to relieve the depression in his heart, he still put the blame on another person.

Mu Yueji had forgotten about Wu Mi, and the past between them, and even Heianjing was a place she had no yearning for at all.

Guiwu Tsuji's mood suddenly became gloomy.

He can't control himself all the time.

Speaking of it, there is also the reason why he was weak when he was a human being in the past. Oniwu Tsuji has always had a bad temper. Sometimes even a little thing can make him angry, even if it is very common to others. In his eyes, it will also carry an unusual meaning.

Onimai Tsuji was once immersed in pain and struggle. Mutsukihime, who was as bright and hot as the sun, just stood in front of him without doing anything, and it was enough to make his heart suffer.

It was too hot, almost burning temperature.

But the person he sees now seems to be countless times dimmer than before.

As if all the sickness and weakness that had been peeled off from him were piled into her body, the Mutsuki Hime that Oni Wu Tsuji met now was even paler than he was when he was a human. .

What is the reason for this?

When he heard the so-called "curse", Gui Wu Tsuji seemed to understand some indescribable meaning like a revelation.

The little girl who held his hand and said "name is the shortest curse" to him, and the girl who has grown up a lot but still hasn't let go of his hand and said "words are curses" to him, all They all overlapped with Mutsuki Hime in front of her.

Hearing the so-called "like" word from her mouth, hearing her call Wuyou's name, and asking him if he would like to stay, something in Guiwu Tsuji Wuyou's heart suddenly burst.

He once thought that after he became a ghost, he would no longer care about the past when he was a human being, and he also thought that after that person died, everything would disappear with her death, but the thoughts and sorrows accumulated day after day were too heavy. Almost buried him.

Even if she becomes a ghost, even if she has been dead for hundreds of years, Ghost Dance Tsuji Wuyou... still can't forget her.

That's why he said to her, "I like you too..."

always.

This is not at all like the idea that Gui Wu Tsuji would have.

When he realized this, even he himself was stunned for a long time.But the palm on his cheek was soft and eerily warm.

He should have pursued what he wanted the most—that is truly perfect immortality, the only cyan flower that could allow him to overcome the sun and become a perfect creature. It was for this purpose that Ghost Dance Tsuji was looking for it. but……

Looking at her face, meeting those glass-like black eyes, Wu Mi can't hold anything in his head.

There is no more, need to get out of here to do things.

In other words, there is actually no need to say whether there is any.

At least at that moment, even if it was only for a moment, he really felt that it didn't matter if he stayed here forever.

because--

"I will always be by your side."

What she had said to him in memory, blurted out again at another strange time, and the two parties who exchanged each other, in the view of Guiwu Tsuji, everything he had now was enough for them to be together forever.

Oni Wu Tsuji had the idea of ​​turning her into a ghost for a short time.

What a ghost possesses is a long lifespan and a healthy body. It doesn't matter even if she can't walk in the sun. Anyway, with her current physical condition, she can't actually stay in the sun for a long time.

But this idea was denied by him again, and he recalled the previous scene in a trance, Mu Yueji's body fell in front of him, and he wanted to turn her into a ghost, but it was useless...

Not yet.

Onimai Tsuji thought, there is no need to go to that point.

On the night of the first meeting, Onimai Tsuji mentioned a person, and in front of the current Mutsuki Hime, he mentioned the person he once admired.

It was clearly her face that Mutsukihime was staring at when she said this, but Mutsuki Hime didn't mean to connect that person with herself at all—because Wu Mi at this time was not only in the form of a woman, but also in the form she saw. The stranger who came to meet her for the first time.

But Guiwu Tsuji still couldn't help but want to tell her the past, the things they had experienced together, those thoughts that he had never told her, but had been running through his heart all the time.

That person is excellent and dazzling, with outstanding talent and noble status, and it can even be said that seeing him is condescending, but Gui Wu Tsuji got everything from her that he shouldn't have imagined.

It was because of him that she lost everything.

Oni Wu Tsuji originally thought this way. When he saw Mutsuki Hime in the castle, he recalled the thoughts after a long, long time later, and found that... at this time, he still thought too little up.

Compared with Mutsuki Minamoto later, the Mutsuki Hime at this time... can barely be called "happiness".

Provided he didn't show up.

Oni Wu Tsuji often falls into such entanglements, not so much thinking about other people, but more because of the unstoppable thoughts arising from his own character flaws—even though he himself has never admitted anything himself.

Oni Wu Tsuji is always in the leading position, and the power of the ruler should be in his hands—but the facts are always different from the general meeting and expected, and strange ideas often appear, always in the future The distance between him and Mu Yueji is getting farther and farther.

He was always sulking inexplicably.

Because of some very strange reasons, maybe because of her words, or because of something she did.Rather than saying it was pure anger, it was more like an awkward situation.

—Come closer to me.

Probably wanted to tell her so.

But Oni Wu Tsuji had never said such a thing, not even once.

This kind of overly blunt and coquettish speech was really too embarrassing for him.

But Mutsuki Hime has never been stingy with such language, whether it was then or now.

A few moments ago, they were still in the cold war—Gimai Tsuji called this a cold war, but not long after, they were able to soak in the same hot spring again...

Such a thing would happen, and Gui Wu Tsuji could even be said to be caught off guard.

Even if they are all women, this state is too intimate—Oni Wu Tsuji thought this way just now, but then remembered staring at "her" intently at that time, and said to "her": "I have always liked Wuyou very much. My lord..."

Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi suddenly realized something - she still hasn't changed at all.

Mutsuki Hime was far more frank than him.

She will tell him frankly what she likes, and she will also give him what she thinks is good, and she will directly express her feelings for him.

Whether it was Mutsuki Hime back then or Mutsuki Hime now, they all told him clearly——I like you.

But Mutsuki Ji, who liked him, turned into the appearance he had long since abandoned.

Just because he has had such a past, he can understand more deeply the pain caused by this appearance. He was once distorted and hideous because of his own illness, and he was once shy and cowardly because of Mu Yueji's brilliance.

The two, who clearly shouldn't meet under any circumstances, have developed a bond because of a chance encounter.

It was the curse she once said, so that Guiwu Tsuji Wumi could get love from her.

Recalling the past is actually a very painful feeling, which is equivalent to going through things that are impossible to start again—it cannot be changed or changed, and the blow to oneself is not insignificant.

But remembering how he used to face her, Guiwu Tsuji suddenly felt that he never seemed to take the initiative to do anything for her.

Mu Yueji has always been approaching him and doing those things for him.Realizing this, Ghost Dance Tsuji suddenly wanted to do something for her.

For some reason, he had such a mood.

But Mu Yueji's reaction was very calm, even when he took the initiative to ask her if she was in pain and why she didn't find it unbearable, Mu Yueji didn't show the slightest expression that he would have shown in the past.

Oni Wu Tsuji couldn't understand.

It is always difficult for him to understand Mu Yueji's thoughts, it was like this before, and it is still like this now.

But Mutsuki Hime said he didn't need to understand.

Guiwu Tsuji Wuyan was a little stunned for a while, even after hearing her explanation, she still felt that

For the first time in his life, he has someone worth caring about. After experiencing the complexity and joy of losing and regaining, Guiwu Tsuji suddenly understood his clearest wish that had been born a long time ago.

- I just want to...

For ordinary people, it is probably a very common wish, but it seems to have an unrealistic sense of delusion when placed on Oni Wu Tsuji, and this feeling continues in his usual every move.

The only thing that will change him is that person.

What she did for him was always subtly changing him.

Those things that Ghost Dance Tsuji Mumi used to be difficult to access will always appear at unexpected times and under unexpected opportunities.

He started to learn to pull his hair.

Because Mutsuki Hime combed her long hair for "her" who was dressed as a woman, and put those curved black hair on her head, and decorated the bun with jewelry...

Mumai Tsuji wants to do the same for her.

He is trying to change himself.

Things that I didn't understand in the Heian era jumped up when I met the second time. If you want to do something, you should do it—you should give her what you think is the best, just as she did for her. as you do.

Such thoughts lingered in Gui Wu Tsuji's heart, at first it just made him pull up her hair, but later some strange changes happened.

Oni Wu Tsuji once thought that everything he did would definitely become a push to make their relationship closer, but what he didn't expect was... everything developed in the opposite direction as expected.

The strangeness and nameless anger that arose due to the arrival of the drug seller with unknown origins reached its peak when the family negotiator from Kyoto arrived.

Oni Wu Tsuji suddenly had a strange sense of familiarity, as if he was facing the same old scene again—even though his identity at this time was completely different from that at that time, and his position in Mutsuki Ji's mind was also different from that of that time. Times were very different.

But Muma Onimai Tsuji just feels similar—even if in reality they have nothing in common.

Mutsuki Hime will marry to Kyoto and become the wife of a stranger. The "always together" agreement they made between them is like a joke between children, and it can be forgotten and discarded casually Words.

Gui Wu Tsuji Wu Mi absolutely could not accept such an ending.

What's more, their wedding date is after the Spring Festival - in the warm days after the end of winter.

This should have been their agreement.

Guiwu Tsuji remembered their previous agreement, and it was actually them who should get married after the Spring Festival.

But in the past time, they have not been able to wait for this day to come.

But for Mutsuki Hime now, "Wu Mi" is just a woman, for her... definitely not a lover.