The honest person is you

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Sorcerers who use evil spells are sometimes called warlocks, and sometimes "cursers".

In the past, Ashiya Michimi was a sorcerer.

You have heard from him a method of divination with the flesh and blood of your closest relatives.

"Because there is a relationship between the blood, the results will be closer to the truth."

Ashiya Michimitsu smiled happily, and in front of him was that person sitting—at this time, the person you fell in love with has not died yet.

You perform horary in the flesh and blood of Kamo Chusumi, trying to find out the possibility of continuing your relationship with that person.

Even if there is only a faint firefly possibility... at least don't deprive you of your only hope.

Facing the result of the divination, a crystal tear flowed from your eye socket.

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Kamo Chusumi still talks to you on his own, because you have called his name affectionately, which is regarded as your response to him.

And after the divination result came out, you returned to that unresponsive attitude in front of him.

You didn't seem to hear half of his words.

Sometimes you sit on the porch, and sometimes you stay indoors. Even if the barrier door is closed, he never opens it, just sits outside the door and talks to you.

The arm that hadn't fully healed had faint blood oozing out.Kamo Chusumi's face was almost pale...but even so sick, he had no resemblance to that person.

A feeling of boredom gradually climbed up your face like this.

Kamo Chusumi, who was still talking to you in a murmur, suddenly became furious when he saw your look. He questioned you, asking why you didn't want to look at him, why didn't you want to answer him.

He (they) love you so sincerely and from the bottom of their hearts.

"I hate you……"

Kamo Chusumi strangled your neck, obviously he was hurting you, but he kept crying, as if he was so sad.

His tears fell on your beautiful and fair face. At this moment, you suddenly realized some truth.

——Only when you love someone with your heart, can you feel the other person’s mood, understand him, and empathize with him.

May has said something similar.

The reason why Mei can see your heart is not because she has such a powerful ability, but because she loves you.

And just because she loves you.

Her love is more pure than other angels, it is not love for a "sage" who is high above, but for you as a whole individual, because she loves you, so she can see the flaws under your cold appearance, look Until you close your heart in order to overcome the difficulty of seeking the Tao.

Although you don't want to admit it, you actually love Mrs. Bian. You left Penglai not because you were afraid that she would use your "Qi" to make alchemy, but because you were afraid that you would not be able to share the pain with her.

The "sage" in your heart does not allow you to have any thoughts of deviating from the immortal way.

So you left Penglai and came to a place where no one knew you.

Ping An Jing.

In Heianjing, no one will look at you with the eyes of a sage, and no one will regard you as a "beacon" for their pursuit of Taoism.

It's like you've been given a new lease on life, so you need to love something too.

You, who have never experienced "love", just poured all the "love" into one person - that person accepted them all with a tolerant attitude.

You know that he loves you too, and you also know that his love for you is extremely sincere, but you can't find any memory of his "heart" from your memory, you only remember his pale and weak face, And eyes that look at you with love.

What was going on in his heart?

You are totally unimpressed.

The other gods are not afraid of the gods, but Taohua is very afraid of those creatures. The other gods can't understand her feelings, only Chrysanthemum sees her fearful heart.

That person is the love of your life, but you can't remember what kind of gesture his heart once showed in front of you.Even at the end of his life, he still looks at you with that perfect tenderness.

Kamo Chusumi's tears wet your face, but you have denied and questioned countless times in the past memory, which seems indifferent to him.

Hate and love sometimes involve the same emotion.

Kamo Chusumi really wanted to kill you.

His whole body is tense, all his strength is poured into the palm of his hand, he strangles your neck, that is a face full of madness.

Until a wave of blood spread, Kamo Chusumi fell on your body weakly.You narrowed your pupils slightly and returned to a little consciousness.

There is a child standing beside you with blood on his hands.

Nostalgia for you appeared on that immature face, he stroked your face with his blood-stained hand, and took it back suddenly after realizing the blood on his hand.

He stared at you as if staring at a fragile treasure—there was only your figure in those round eyes.

You whisper to the child, "What's your name?"

"Kamo Kenron."

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Kamo Xianlun wants to protect you, and from the moment he saw you for the first time, there was a feeling of emotion spontaneously.

He doesn't know what kind of emotion it is, but this emotion is always driving him to take action, making him sneak into your residence secretly, even just looking at you from a distance is enough to calm the boiling heart heart of".

So when he sees someone trying to hurt you, his heart instinctively makes his body react.

He just wants to protect you.

Kamo Xianlun repeated this sentence to you, his black pupils staring at you tightly: "I just want to protect you."

"I know." You answered him softly.

The harm Kamo Chusumi brought to you was gradually revealed after his death.There is a dazzling mark on your neck, which made Kamo Xianlun feel restless and uneasy again.

He pushed Kamo Chusumi's body away from your body, knelt down beside you, and stared at you.

"Are you going to die?"

You reached out to him, and his body gradually relaxed, and the child just lay down beside you.

He curled up, his forehead pressed against your arm, your eyes stayed on a certain point in the air, and an extremely illusory emotion enveloped you.

You finally turned sideways and looked carefully at the child's face - on this immature face, you can vaguely see a little bit similar to that person.

"Xianlun," you revealed his name in a soft voice, and you asked him, "will you visit me often?"

Just like back then, that person often came to see you.It was not long after you met.

You don't remember what the fairies looked like when they were young, you only remember Mei's young face, and before that, you also remembered what she looked like when she grew up.

There will also be differences between the grown-up Mei and the young Mei, so you imagine that person's younger appearance, and those fabricated memories fill your heart like this.

And you are trying to confuse reality with those memories.

Whether what you are looking at is Kamo Xianlun or that person, even you yourself have not been able to tell.

Although Kamo Xianlun is a concubine's child, but because he always comes to you, he is getting more and more attention in the family.Those envious or jealous eyes fell on him, and years passed in a blink of an eye.

He has been fulfilling the things he promised you, always coming to you, but you watched his face gradually change, and the only part similar to that person disappeared with the passage of time.

This causes you to look at him less and less, and the time you look at him is getting shorter and shorter.

Until he no longer has any place to attract you.

Kamo Kenron is nothing like that person.

They don't look alike, nor do they have a similar personality. Your idea of ​​trying to use him to confuse reality has finally come to naught one day.

Because you can no longer see any resemblance to that person in him no matter what, so when he came to you as usual, what he faced was your calm and indifferent face.

You have a gentle and beautiful face, but you also have a cold heart.

At this moment Kamo Xianlun finally understood the mood of Kamo Chusumi in the past, and he sympathized with Kamo Chusumi's mood at that time.

Because you are always ruthlessly and capriciously destroying the hearts of others.

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"I hate you……"

Someone is always saying such words to you, showing resentment and hatred to you.

But you can't understand their feelings at all, and you never empathize with their hatred.

Just as they can't understand you - the love born of the curse has gone to their heads, and they are immersed in it for no reason.

They don't even know you.

But Kamo Kenron... is a little different.

Because he grew up by your side since he was a child, saying that he came to see you "often", but in fact he spent all his free time by your side.

If it wasn't because you didn't propose that you teach him the spells, then he would probably be by your side and accompany you all the time.

At least he can see your mood from your expression and know your subtle preferences... Because he has been watching you all the time, he also knows that you have not been watching him all this time.

"Can't we go on?"

Kamo Xianlun asked you, can't you continue to treat him as that person?

You gently caressed his face, this face that is no longer similar to that person, it can no longer make your heart fluctuate.

In this way, Kamo Xianlun escaped from Kamo's house.

When you heard the current Patriarch come to report to you, you just responded calmly.

"I thought you'd be sad," he said.

There was a weak tenderness in this voice.

You turned to look at his face.The current head of the Kamo family has a face very similar to that person.

"What's your name?"

You ask him so.

"Kamo Kenji."

Although he is the younger brother of Kamo Xianlun, he is the child of the royal family, so the current head of the Kamo family is him, not Xianlun.

"Xianshi." You called his name softly, and you said it was a very good name.

Because he reminds you of that person.

You feel a little bit regretful, because you didn't meet Xianshi earlier, if you had met him earlier, then you would not have chosen Xianlun, but would have chosen him.

It is from this time that the children of the Kamo family will be sent to you for your review after they are born.