The honest person is you

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Maybe even Mei herself didn't understand what kind of feelings she had for you, but when she saw you, she hugged you tightly—even in Penglai in the past, you never had such feelings. Such an intimate touch.

Mei, who can only maintain the appearance of a little girl, looks weak and pitiful, without you even needing to ask her, she will tell you in detail what happened after you left Penglai.

"Lian was not like this at first..." Mei said, "In the past, Lian was very gentle."

But later, Lian also changed, it didn't allow anyone to go against its will, that's why Mei was destroyed by it and expelled from Penglai.Until now, Mei still can't understand why Lian became like this.

You knew all this from Mei's mouth. When you knelt down and stroked her cheek, there were still tears on her immature face.

You comforted her softly, saying that she must have had a very hard time after going through so many hardships. If you had taken her and left Penglai, maybe it would not have become like this.

Such language melted Mei's heart, and Mei wept silently in front of you.

It's not your fault that things turned out like this.In the past, you would go to find her before leaving, which already proved the weight she holds in your heart—although you didn't realize it yourself, but at that moment, you did have the desire to "save" her idea.

However, for you at that time, the far-reaching "Tao" between heaven and earth is your most persistent desire.

Back then, you held Mei's hand and wanted to take her to leave Penglai together, but she was not ready to face the outside world. Mei, who knew nothing about the outside world, dared not leave Kuize at all.

Reunited after a long absence, Mei told her missing you with tears, perhaps mixed with other emotions, regret, regret... But these are not important to you, you want to know more than Mei's feelings for you It is whether Mrs. Bian is still alive.

But May didn't know either.

Before being expelled from Penglai by Lian, Mei hadn’t seen Madam Bian for a long time, but her instructions had been passed on to others through Lian. .

Mei showed that hesitant expression again.

You hold her hand, her palm is so small, and she is also short, but she is more courageous than you remember—the former Mei, even your words, seemed to be afraid of something of.

But now she dares to say to you: "You shouldn't come back..."

You left so decisively at the beginning, but now you come back to this place again. Although you did not use your original body, since Mei can recognize you, then Madam Bian must be able to, too.

May asked why you came back again.

The question silences you for a moment.Mei doesn't understand the changes in Lian, and she doesn't understand people's hearts, let alone understand what you are doing now.

You tell May: "I have to."

A look of ignorance and bewilderment appeared on her little girl's face.You know it's useless to explain to her, let alone you didn't intend to explain.

But Mei also realized something in her ignorance. She asked you if you plan to enter Penglai.

You're still saying, "I have to."

Mei wants to help you, but she doesn't know what else she can give you. It's not easy for Mei, whose ovules have been destroyed, to survive.

"Then wait for me here."

You talk to Mei about the outside world, and you tell her that you will come to her again before you leave: "At that time, we will leave Penglai together..."

Mei, who failed to muster up her courage hundreds of years ago, nodded heavily this time, her eyes full of anticipation, that is exactly her love for you.

May loves you.

But she doesn't know whether you love her or not.

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Love is the most terrible thing in this world, it makes people suffer and tortures deeply.

After many years, you have forgotten many details, but the encounter with that person has always been entrenched in your heart, and you will always return to that night in your dreams, and the turbulent memories come like a tidal wave.

You think of his fingers holding your hand, that he slowed down his speech to try to make you understand what he meant, and that he insisted on taking you home with unknown history despite the advice of his entourage.

You love him and watch his every move with incomparably focused eyes. You who are placed in the mansion of Ka Mao's family are waiting to meet him all the time.It is both anticipation and apprehension, beating together with your heart in your chest.

Unlike Penglai, which is like spring all the year round, the winter in Heian-kyo is extremely long, and the land is covered with thick layers of snow. He walked through the long verandah to your residence, carrying the cold wind and snow on his body.

His body is so weak, just like a plum blossom crushed by the wind and snow, you reach out and stroke his cheek, that bloodless face is as cold as ice.

So you mobilized the "qi" around you, and those qi turned into warm currents, you held his face, and the warm air lingered around you.His almost pale face finally became warm, and you pressed against his forehead and the tip of his nose, pouring out your love for him from the bottom of your heart.

You love him, but don't know if he loves you too.Regardless of other people's obstruction, he brought you back to the mansion and placed you in He Mao's house. He always took time to see you, and sometimes he would sit with you for most of the day.He taught you the language here with gentleness and patience. You talked about scriptures and spells, Tang Guofengya... You stared at his slightly lowered head when he sat in front of you, revealing his fair neck and thin back.

His voice is louder than any scriptural teaching you've ever heard.

You heard the rumble in your chest like a torrential rain, and at that moment your heart seemed to be beating for him.

"I heard that conjurers think that the name is the shortest spell."

He agreed with a smile, so you asked his name, you asked how to pronounce and write his name, and he held your hand, and the brush soaked in ink dropped his name on the paper.

"Zuo Suo..." He whispered in your ear, every word was very clear.

That breath makes you feel that he may also love you, because he is surrounding you from behind you and holding you in his arms.So you wrote your name next to his name, and you told him it was the new name he gave you after you joined the master.

"Why it?"

The Tao is far away, and there are countless scriptures. Why did the master give you such a name?

Because the master has great expectations for you, he said that you have an extremely huge "Tao" in your body, and you are the most likely to become a Taoist cultivator.

"Become an immortal..." Ron Suo murmured and repeated, he asked you if you want to become an immortal too.

You tell him that this is the lifelong desire of all practitioners, without exception.

The snow outside the window was blindingly white, the sun was covered by thick clouds, the sunlight fell from the gaps in the clouds, and the wind and snow rustled.

Your back is against his chest, and his breath is so hot at this moment that it almost melts the cold of winter.He held your fingers, and kissed the side of your face with his soft lips.

Hearing your name uttered from his mouth, you reached out and stroked his face, his eyebrows and eyes were full of affection.You ask him if he loves you, just as you love him.

"I love you," he said, "and I will always love you."

You are so overjoyed that you almost shed tears because of this, the "Qi" between the heaven and the earth is mobilized according to your mind, and the day turns into night, and a darkness covers the surroundings.There are countless stars shining in the night sky of the northern sky, falling down and blooming brilliantly.

This is also the "Tao". Everything in the world is vast, and the "Tao" exists in every gap, allowing you to call day and night.

Yansuo kissed your back, he whispered, you are the most beautiful treasure he has ever seen in his life.

You are also the most gifted alchemist he has ever seen.

Two-faced Su Nuo, Taki Yashahime, Ka Moo Tadayaki... Those who are regarded as the top figures in the magic world will all be eclipsed in front of you.

At that moment, his heart was also trembling, and the more intense feelings almost ignited his life.

You tell each other your love, you make him repeat over and over again that he will always love you, and you kiss his lips and cheeks with great joy.

Since you started practicing Taoism, you have spent thousands of years. Those extremely peaceful times passed like water, but the moment you met him, your heart that should have been calm and desireless began to burn.

"I will love you forever, too," you tell him, "my love for you will not change even in another thousand years."

That is the very sincere and sincere promise you made to each other.

So he went against all odds to marry you, and you held the wedding when the winter snow melted, and you didn't care whether other people agreed or blessed you, you only cared about the way he looked at you.

The gentle, focused gaze...that's the kind of romance you want to keep no matter what.

Because of his weak body, you also tried to distribute your "Qi" (life) to him, but all this was in vain. You can warm his cold body, but you can't make him get closer to the end. Life is extended.

You agreed to go out to enjoy the flowers when the next Kamo Festival comes, and he will fetch you the first cherry blossoms from Kamo Shrine.However, you see that his "Qi" is about to wither as easily as this fragile flower.

The feeling of powerlessness and unwillingness made you panic, and you woke up in the night, holding his palm tightly and sticking to his face.

He was woken up by your actions, but he didn't show any impatience. Instead, he kissed your fingers and whispered softly to comfort your restless mood.He said that his love for you did not come from fiction at all, just as if you loved him very sincerely.

Ren Suo also loves you.