The life of a despised omega

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Back at the hotel, just as the production team was finishing work, Yun Zhan came out of the RV first, but only Xiao Mo followed, Wang Jue was not there.

I didn't step forward this time, I'm a mental patient, what should I do if I hurt Yun Zhan.

Zhu Lin and I were waiting for the elevator on the first floor when Xiao Mo and Yun Zhan walked over.

I consciously stepped back and kept a distance away, Xiaomo stopped waving to me and even lowered it slowly, with a look of loss and doubt on her face, I smiled at her to express my apology.

The elevator came down quickly, Yun Zhan stepped into the elevator first, Xiaomo followed and pressed the floor, when the elevator door was about to close, Xiaomo pressed the button and asked me: "Mr. Tang, are you not going up?"

I waved my hand: "Go up first, I'll wait for the next one."

Yun Zhan raised his eyes and glanced at me, as if to say that I finally got a sense of humor.

I smiled at him indifferently, "Goodbye, Mr. Gu."

He retracted his eyes impatiently, and the elevator door closed slowly, blocking my eyes from looking at him.

This can be regarded as controlling myself, and I didn't move forward any more annoying.The doctor told me to control my emotions, so I try to keep as little contact with Yun Zhan as possible, and just watch him from a distance when he doesn't want to see me, so that the mood swings will be less.

Zhu Lin asked, "Was that Yun Zhan just now?"

I asked: "How do you know?"

"It's the first time I've seen your eyes like this," he said, "forbearance and restraint, but the love will still spread from your body."

"But he can't feel it, everyone knows it, only him."

When the elevator arrived, I stepped in first. Zhu Lin looked at me through the elevator door, with the emotion I was most familiar with in his eyes. He asked in a low voice, "Since you can't feel it, why don't you choose another person you like."

I pressed the button to open the door and waited for him to come in. He stood outside the door without moving. I looked at him quietly. After a long time, I answered his question: "But that's already instinctive, and I can't let go."

He smiled, pulling out a wry smile on the surface.

"I see, you go up first." He waved at me, "I'm going to talk to the crew about resigning."

"it is good."

The elevator door closed again, blocking Zhu Lin from looking at me.

I know what is in Zhu Lin's eyes. I have seen others with the same eyes, and no one knows better than me what those eyes represent.

It's just that I can't respond.

The nature of some things will change once they are exported. In this case, it is fine for both parties to pretend that they do not understand.

Even if you understand, there is no need to say it.

Right now is the best state.

Because I had an extra assistant, Ling Jia was sent by me to handle the studio, and Zhu Lin stayed with me every day when filming.

At first, Wang Jue came to visit the class every day, and he and Yun Zhan were inseparable. Zhu Lin would try to divert my attention every time.

Most of my scenes are against Yun Zhan, I can't get into the role very well, every time I want to play the part of the tormentor, I always think of the past things unconsciously, they all come up, I don't seem to be The abuser, but the abused one.

But Yun Zhan is different, as long as the director calls out, he immediately transforms into another person, immersing himself in the world of the character.

Everyone is fine except me.

Although the staff didn't say anything, I could clearly see the impatience in their eyes.

The director really couldn't continue filming. I heard him complaining to the screenwriter that the film was probably going to be ruined by me.

I took two days off to go back and try to figure out Yu Hyuk’s heart. In these two days, I searched all the movies about bullying. I imitated what the abuser did in it, but I couldn’t feel it. I was always talking to the victim. empathy.

I will follow the victim's fear, I will follow him to hurt, and I will follow him to breed darkness and despair.

I learned how the abuser in the movie turned himself into a victim.

I even smashed two tablets because I couldn't control it.

Zhu Lin was always by his side, pulling me ashore at the right time when I was on the verge of drowning, and he advised me: "If it really doesn't work, let's give up, so you will feel more relaxed."

I stubbornly shook my head.

This is what I snatched by means, so there is no reason to give up.

After this time, there is a high probability that the chance to act with Yun Zhan will be gone.

The doorbell rang, and Zhu Lin went to open the door. I continued to click on the video to study.

Xiaomo walked in respectfully, I looked at her suspiciously, and she said, "The boss asked you to go to him with the script."

The first time Yun Zhan took the initiative to find me, I was not sure and asked, "Did you really ask me to find him? Could it be that you heard wrong?"

"It's really you, the boss said it himself, he asked me to take you there."

I took the script and quickly put on my shoes, smiled and looked at Xiaomo, "Let's go."

Zhu Lin followed behind: "I will go too."

"The boss only called Mr. Tang." Xiao Mo refused embarrassingly, but Zhu Lin stubbornly insisted, "I am his assistant, I must follow."

I discussed and asked: "He is my assistant, can I follow?"

Xiaomo nodded hesitantly, "Okay."

In the process of looking for Yun Zhan, Zhu Lin took out the medicine for me, and Xiao Mo asked, "Is Teacher Tang feeling unwell?"

I shook my head, Zhu Lin explained for me: "He has a headache recently, take some medicine to relieve it."

"Oh, then Teacher Tang, take care of yourself."

I said, "Well, yes."

The place Xiaomo took me to was not Yun Zhan's room, she took me out of the hotel and took a taxi.

Ten minutes later, the car stopped at the entrance of an entertainment venue. Xiao Mo opened the car door for me, "Teacher Tang, let's go."

"Why are you here?" I asked.

She just said, "The boss ordered it."

Passing through the noisy and feasting area, and then taking the elevator on the third floor of the basement, Xiaomo said that this is the destination.

Apart from white, there are no other extra colors here, and the surroundings are very quiet, so quiet that people feel inexplicably panicked.

Xiaomo opened a door and said, "Teacher Tang, go in, the boss is waiting for you inside."

The room is very big and empty, and you can see the whole thing at a glance. There is a pure white bed in the middle. Xiaomo accepted my script and asked me to lie on it. I looked at the empty room and asked, "Where's your boss?"

"The boss said he would come to see you later, so I have to trouble you to wait here now."

Zhu Lin pulled me down and questioned Xiaomo: "What exactly do you want to do, let's make it clear first."

Xiaomo: "The boss is just helping Mr. Tang to overcome obstacles and act."

Zhu Lin also wanted to say, I held him back, "I believe he won't harm me."

I lay on the bed, and Xiaomo dragged Zhu Lin out of the room.

The door closed with a click, and I wanted to get up to look, but my limbs were fixed on the bed, and I didn't feel anything when I wasn't moving. Only when I wanted to get out of bed would I feel restrained.

I asked the empty room, "Yun Zhan, are you there?"

My only answer was an echo and a suddenly reddening light.

All around is dark red.

Dark, depressing.

I closed my eyes to get rid of this disgusting color, but they penetrated everywhere, and my closed eyes were forced to open.

I don't know how long I've been here, it could have been an hour, it could have been months, and I'm dying, extremely anxious.

My eyes have no other color except redness, my ears can't hear sound, even my lips can't speak, my body is still not real, I seem to be placed in a void, I can't see, hear, or touch.

Lost all five senses.

Yun Zhan, he really lied to me.

I broke down and struggled, but I lost my strength after a while.

I seem to be alive and yet feel dead.

Can't tell the difference between fantasy and reality.

who am I?

where am I?

What am I doing?

I can barely remember it all.

Suddenly, the red light disappeared, and the surroundings fell into darkness.

I heard a small sound, and smelled the faint fragrance of sandalwood, and there were lights of various colors not far away.

I turned on my brain and came back to life. After thinking about it, I tried to open my mouth and ask, "Is...is it you? Yun... Zhan?"

The long-lost voice resounded in the room, echoing wave after wave.

"Want to come out and see me? Then do as I say."

It was Yun Zhan's familiar voice.

I nodded and agreed to him: "Yes, what do you want me to do?"

An extremely violent video was played on the ceiling. The abuser was trampling on the victim's body, mind and dignity, and subjected him to various physical and psychological bullying and insults.

The victim is like a little white rabbit, unable to resist or run away.

I tried to empathize with the victim, but I couldn't bring emotion.

On the contrary, the various behaviors of the abuser can make me feel extremely excited.

He stepped on the little white rabbit's head, I want him to continue to push harder, and harder, he laughed at me as if he heard my appeal, and then turned to the little white rabbit who was tortured so inhumanly on the ground, Crazy crushing, crazy kicking.

All of this excites me beyond words.

Just when I was watching it vigorously, the picture disappeared, and the dazzling white light came on again. I closed my eyes physiologically, but I was still so stimulated that I shed tears.

After a few minutes of slowing down, I tried to open my eyes again. The restraints on my hands and feet were no longer there. I tried to sit up, and a puppet white rabbit appeared in the corner of the room. Yun Zhan’s voice filled the room, “Go and do something to it. Do what you want to do, and I will reward you if you do it well.”

I approached the little white rabbit and stretched out my hand towards it.

I imitated the appearance in the picture and used various violent methods on it. The cotton wool burst out of its stomach, and the little rabbit finally turned into a ball of rags. I got great satisfaction in my heart.

The feeling of sadism is so good, it's a feeling I've never experienced before.

"Well done, this is your reward."

Accompanied by Yun Zhan's voice, there is also a strong scent of sandalwood.

This is Yun Zhan's pheromone, a taste that can make me intoxicated.

In the room filled with the smell of sandalwood, the lights went out again, and more bloody and violent pictures appeared on the wall. I was so excited that my blood was rushing.

At the end, Yun Zhan's voice sounded again, and a live little white rabbit in a cage appeared in the corner, and various tools were placed on the console next to it, such as cloth strips, hammers, daggers, scissors...

Yun Zhan said: "Go, do what you want to do, and you will still be rewarded if you do it well."

I approached the frightened little rabbit and held out my sinful hand towards him.

It tried its best to avoid my approach, but the cage restrained it, and it couldn't escape no matter how hard it tried to hide.

I took it out of the cage and stroked its back with my hand. Finally, it was no longer afraid and nestled in my arms obediently.

I followed its fur, and slowly slid my hand from its head to its neck. It was soft and fluffy, and it felt good to the touch.

It's so good that I want to destroy it.

The strength in my hands became heavier and heavier, and the little white rabbit looked at me tearfully with big blood-red eyes. I watched the two smooth blood-red glass beads turn into matte matte little by little, and the broken beauty appeared. Right in front of my eyes, I really want to pick them out.

When I stretched out my hand to its eyes, two tears fell from its eye sockets, and the tears fell on my wrist, which gradually turned from warm to cold. When I looked at it again, its forelimbs overlapped and fluttered up and down, It looks like a person begging for mercy with folded hands.

At the same time, there were chaotic sounds from all over the room, and another voice came out of nowhere, "Tang Yuan, wake up quickly!"

It was Zhu Lin who told me to stop, and I stopped what to do next.

I looked at the rabbit who was trying to survive, and looked at it. Through its round eyes, I saw a person inside, that Tang Yuan, who was once cowardly enough to be bullied by others, he begged in those red pupils I put the little white rabbit in front of me.

I listened to Tang Yuan's reasons.

He said: "You have come here in the same way, don't let it go into this pain again."

"Let it go and let yourself go."

"Listen to me, let it go, don't hurt it."

I looked at the person in the red pupil, and gradually let go of my hand.

The little white rabbit paused on the ground for two seconds, and then ran to the corner farthest from me. I looked at its shivering appearance, and thought that it was really pitiful, just like Tang Yuan once.

"If you don't meet the requirements, take back your reward."

As soon as the words fell, all the sandalwood fragrance in the room disappeared.

"This is your punishment." The room was once again filled with redness, no sound could be heard, no color could be seen, and I was placed in the void again.

The feeling of powerlessness and unconsciousness hit me again, and I yelled and apologized in fear: "I was wrong."

After a long time, the red light disappeared, and the violent and bloody scenes played in the dark again, and the dead blood in my body became active again.

"Give you one last chance. The abuser in the empathy screen kills the rabbit. If you can do it, you can leave this place and see me."

After the screen was played, the rabbit had already reached my feet. I pulled it up and said sorry to it with a knife.

The warm liquid dripped on the ground along my five fingers, and the clear ticking sound was especially loud in this empty room. My heart beat rapidly and my hands moved quickly, and the little rabbit soon lost its movement and breath.

Yun Zhan said, "You did a good job."

Little white rabbit, I'm really sorry, Yun Zhan is everything to me, I will listen to everything he says.

The door opened with a click, and I stood up and looked at the person in front of the door. He was dressed in a windbreaker, tall and tall, and looked proudly at everything in the room against the backlight.

I said to myself: God came to save me.

The feeling of unrealism disappeared and I regained my existence.

Regardless of my dizziness, I ran towards him. When I was two or three meters away from him, I couldn't support my body and fell to the ground.

Without giving up, I gathered my energy and crawled to his feet little by little.

Finally, I climbed to the bottom of the god's feet.

Pulling his trousers with bloody hands, I looked up at him piously and told him: "I did it."

The second before I lost consciousness, I seemed to be watching the gods squatting down for me, and there was a seemingly innocuous voice in my ear saying, "Is it painful? That's how I came here."

You have worked hard……

The concern that was too late to express has become what is in the heart.