end of marriage

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What does it feel like to die?

The blood in the whole body is drained, like a fish dying of thirst on the beach, it is clear that there is a river returning home, but it will never return to the shore.

Zhou Luoyan's consciousness collapsed bit by bit, the pain in his throat was no longer so obvious, perhaps it was already numb.

Blood stained the floor.

He watched his neurotic mother lying quietly beside him, with a relieved expression on her face that she had never seen before.

At that moment, his brain trembled and he suddenly became sober.

What is she relieved, is her life meaningless?

but……

Zhou Luoyan's pupils shrank suddenly, but his life had just begun, and there were infinite possibilities.

Why should he die like this, what did he do wrong?It's fate for Zhou Cheng's Alpha son to be held in his palm, but is it fate for him to be killed by this crazy woman?

But he doesn't believe in fate.

At this moment, he was hateful, paranoid, sick, and his desire to survive had never been stronger than before.

He was not reconciled, nor did he want to, his soul shouldn't rot in the loess with the woman, and he shouldn't end his life in this way.

Zhou Luoyan finally exhausted all his strength, covered his throat, let the blood trickle from his fingers, and crawled out of the room step by step.

His strength is too weak, I don't know how long it took, it's just that he is too strenuous.

He passed out behind the door of the living room, and weakly shouted out of the door: "Is there... anyone..."

"Is someone...in, outside?"

Every cry for help involves a hissing and throbbing pain in the throat.

Holding the last trace of luck, he bet whether he would be lucky enough to be discovered.

But he knows better than anyone else that no one else has ever stopped by the gate of his house, and no one wants to have anything to do with the lunatic's son.

Zhou Luoyan lay on his back on the floor, staring blankly at the ceiling. The only thing waiting for him was death.

The night outside the window is getting darker.

Zhou Luoyan slowly closed his eyes, and then——

With a "squeak", a few strands of moonlight shone on his quiet cheeks.

He thought it was a dream.

In the next second, someone suddenly rushed to his side: "You..."

"What’s wrong with you?!"

Zhou Luoyan opened his eyes suddenly, and saw a thin figure squatting in front of him, with a panicked expression: "Shut up, I'll call an ambulance."

At this time, there was a rustling sound while lying on his side, and the man wanted to go in to check the situation while taking out his mobile phone.

Zhou Luoyan grabbed her ankle: "Don't...don't go..."

"help me……"

"help me……"

"I want to go out, I'm...afraid..."

So, the man stopped, helped Zhou Luoyan up with some difficulty, dragged him halfway, and left the room.

When Zhou Luoyan turned his head, in the dark living room, that crazy woman had hatred in her eyes.

But the woman was clearly in the bedroom, so how could he see her eyes.

Zhou Luoyan was rescued.

He was in a coma for three days and three nights, and when he woke up again, the mad woman had already been buried.

He was rescued by Ji Qing. When Ji Qing passed by, he happened to hear his cries for help.

Zhou Cheng knew that after the mad woman died, he planned to send Zhou Luoyan a fixed maintenance fee, but Zhou Luoyan refused.

He later went to a nursery.

At that time, Zhou Luoyan's personality became more withdrawn and indifferent, and he didn't like to have much contact with strangers.

Seeing him like this, Ji Qing felt pity in her heart, and often went to see him.

After such a period of time, the two gradually became acquainted.Ji Qing saved him, Zhou Luoyan trusted and appreciated her.

Later, when Zhou Luoyan entered junior high school and had the ability to support himself, he moved out of the nursery and returned to the house where his mother died.

He had nowhere to go, and at that time, the only person in the world who treated him sincerely and kindly was Ji Qing, and he wanted to be closer to Ji Qing.

At that time, their relationship was already very close, and Zhou Luoyan's personality also gradually changed.

He is a lot more cheerful than before, but he is getting more muddy, smoking and fighting, not bad or muddy, and doing nothing.

Or, he's just too lonely and looking for something to vent.

But in front of Ji Qing, he behaved more well-behaved and sensible than anyone else.

He has never thought about his feelings for Ji Qing, but trust, respect, gratitude, and a little bit of dependence. In short, he is a very important person, not a relative, but better than a relative.

Undoubtedly, his feelings were blocked and incomplete, and he never thought of distinguishing them at that time.

Until one day, when he was a freshman, Ji Qing brought back a fiancé.

Zhou Luoyan saw that Alpha's elegant and self-cultivated appearance, and for the first time knew what the gap was.

Alpha picked up food for Ji Qing in front of Zhou Luoyan, stroked her hair, and even bumped into them to kiss.

He admitted that he was jealous.

His sister, the person who treats him the best in the world and the person he trusts the most, finally has her own home.

This shows that Zhou Luoyan's sense of existence to her will gradually weaken.

And Alpha was so gentle when he laughed, no matter how he looked, he was a person in the sun, Zhou Luoyan had the blood of a crazy woman on his hands.

No matter how much you pretend, your soul is already dirty.

In fact, after he returned to the old house, he had nightmares every day. He dreamed that after he was taken out by Ji Qing, the crazy woman looked at him resentfully.

But in fact, that look never really existed.

Then, he met An Mo, and for the first time he could distinguish those indescribable emotions in his heart.

Zhou Luoyan was a publicity throughout the university, so people would naturally pay attention to his family and life circle.

Slowly, Zhou Luoyan had a mother with a mental illness. Zhou Luoyan's family background was not good, and he was born in a humble background. Rumors slowly spread about where he went to work.

However, this made the girls in the school even more favored.

They only knew that his mother was a lunatic, but they didn't know that the lunatic died when he was nine years old.

Zhou Luoyan was never willing to explain anything. His mother was a lunatic, dead or not.

He was also a murderer.

It was like he had his throat cut by that crazy woman. After waking up from the hospital, Ji Qing looked at him and asked, she said, you know your mother has a mental illness, why didn't you persuade him to receive treatment, and why didn't you get along with her? She isolates and protects herself.

Zhou Luoyan laughed at that time. A child who just escaped from the gate of hell has a calm and calm smile on his face. It is extremely uncomfortable to watch.

He replied, my grandma also has this kind of disease, which is inherited and cannot be cured. As for——

"I didn't choose to leave, but I felt that, at the very least, there are madmen willing to want me."

He wanted someone who was willing to accept him, and when he came home, it could be anyone.

However, his crazy mother finally abandoned him, and she wanted to kill him.

But Zhou Luoyan wanted to live a good life.

So, that woman had to die.

He didn't want to say that death was actually a relief for women, even if it was.He knew that he was tired of such a life and wanted to get rid of it.

In the end, Ji Qing, who was in the dark and left him a candle, is now leaving him.

In the late summer, there were countless snowfalls in the middle of winter. In the past six years, no one was willing to stay for him.