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The bathroom was filled with mist and hot air. Warm water gushed out from the shower and fell on Zhou Nan's bright body. The water droplets slid down her hair to the floor. Speaking up, the incident on the third floor should be just an accident, the school is very safe, the horror is purely my own psychological effect, and if I live with others, I think it's too out of harmony, in case she doesn't like to be clean , in case she talks nonsense, in case she brings messy people in, in case...

Well, these are all excuses, Situ Che doesn't feel like that kind of person to her, wait, whoever said that she is going to find her as a roommate, Zhou Nan despised himself for a second.

The matter of the physical examination a few days ago is still seared in my heart. Although she said that she performed well tonight, but one size counts for one size. When has she been so embarrassed, can't she go through the motions and listen to the meaning on the spot?In fact, she didn't do anything wrong, but Zhou Nan couldn't bear it in her heart, and she was glad that she had no impulse tonight, otherwise she didn't know how it would end.

Emotionally speaking, the hand that was wiping the soap paused. When she sent herself upstairs today, she felt very safe in her heart. This was different from the feeling when she came up with Ji Yao last time. It was this inexplicable feeling that made her She almost lost her mind, what's the difference?Maybe it's because Ji Yao is as scared as she is. She doesn't seem to be that scared. Also, she is a doctor, and she is very familiar with corpses and death.

How to explain walking alone at night?She looks like this often, and when I see her figure, my fear subsides a lot, and I always feel that she has a power in her body. If the scene tonight is replaced by Ji Yao, it must be two people running together, If it was my own bodyguard, I would feel uncomfortable again.

In fact, she has learned close combat and often exercises in the gym. Zhou Jing taught her to protect herself since she was a child. It was only subconscious. She still wanted to run when she was in danger. In terms of strength, she did not have the advantage.Although Situ Che is tall, he is a woman just like himself. Why is she not afraid at all?

The room next door is also vacant. It was used as a guest room when Ji Yao came last time, but Ji Yao is very busy. He usually doesn't come here when he has nothing to do. If he wants to rent it out, he can make the best use of it. Che's phone seems to have found the house.

Therefore, Zhou Nan finally dismissed the idea.

On Friday night, she didn't go back until nearly ten o'clock. When she left the teaching building, she called Ji Yao and chatted with Ji Yao along the way. She wasn't so scared in her heart. Ji Yao Taunting her that she regarded herself as a temporary boyfriend, but her actions were very considerate, stopping her work and concentrating on chatting with her,

Zhou Nan suddenly stopped talking, Ji Yao shivered, his tone became tense,

"Ah Nan? What's wrong with you?"

"Ah, it's okay." Zhou Nan hurriedly replied to her. When he walked to the side of the playground just now, he saw Situ Che doing pull-ups by himself on a single pole. He was a little surprised and didn't pay attention to Ji Yao's words.

"I thought you were in some danger, hurry home",

"Understood." Hearing her urging, Zhou Nan quickened his pace.

As long as she has time, Situ Che will come to the school playground in the morning and evening for strength and physical training. This is a habit she has maintained for many years. She started when she was very young, and the training was much stronger when she was in the police academy. Now that she is a doctor, she has not relaxed her demands on herself.

She is obsessed with strength and fitness, and this raw physicality makes her feel secure.A large part of gender inequality comes from the disparity in strength. As a modern doctor, she certainly knows that there are physical differences between men and women, but in her opinion, the disparity should not be.One is the long-term oppression of women, which has resulted in women's strength being weak and their height significantly reduced. Now that living conditions have improved, the obvious increase in women's height is the best proof; In everyone’s impression, girls don’t like sports. They eat less and lose weight. They look thin, short, and weak for beauty. Nowadays, many girls want to grow taller because they want to look good in clothes, while boys love sports and take pride in their physical strength. , Under the guidance of this kind of distorted values, it is strange that there is no disparity in power between men and women.

The first time she wanted to be eager to have power was when she was very young, when her parents quarreled, she watched her father push her mother to the ground, and she ran to stop her, but was thrown away by her father. Since then , she secretly made up her mind to make herself stronger so that she could protect her mother.

It's just that as time went by, she gradually discovered the duality of this power. Being strong can protect herself and the people she wants to protect. This is undoubtedly a good aspect, but this kind of power is not easy to control, and it is easy to lose control and develop into violence. , and in most cases, using violence to control violence is the most effective and simplest method. If this goes on, it will be endless. Presumably those who want to dominate the martial arts in the novel have this kind of fantasy and finally go crazy.

Thinking of this, the summer vacation of the third year of high school came to mind. I have forgotten the reason why I quarreled with my father. In anger, my father shook his fist at her. My mother came to stop her and was pushed several times by my father. Usually, it was because of my mother. In her memory, she had almost no experience of being beaten. Her mother was always in front of her. Once again, her mother was pushed in front of her, and her father picked up the small wooden stool beside her. Situ Che seemed to be ignited. She silently pulled her mother behind her. Under the shocked eyes of her parents, she firmly grasped her father's hand holding the stool with one hand, snatched the stool from his hand with the other hand and threw it aside, and grabbed her father's clothes again. The collar, she is almost as tall as her father, the anger in her eyes spewed out, and she said word by word through gritted teeth,

"If you hit mom again, don't blame me for doing it to you." After finishing speaking, he pushed him while loosening his collar. I don't know if he was shocked by the strength of Situ Che's grip on the wrist, or was burned by the hot flames in her eyes. Burning, my father was so angry that he was trembling all over, and he kept saying "reversed, reversed", without any other actions.

This incident had a great impact on her. When she saw her father do it, she was furious, and knew in her heart that she was about to lose control. At that time, she wanted to go up and beat him up, just like he usually did to his mother, but she I finally endured it, knowing that my appearance at that time should be terrifying.After calming down, she felt very scared. She didn't feel happy because of this violent method, but only suffered pain. How good would it be if there was no violence in this world?

Since then, her body has become stronger and stronger, but she has retreated more and more when encountering problems. She always keeps in mind that violence is not the fundamental way to solve problems. Her sobriety and kindness keep her from falling into the abyss of violence.

I went to see the house with Jiang Ziyu on weekends. Jiang Ziyu grew up with Situ Che, a few years younger than Situ Che, and liked to follow her. The two lived opposite each other, and their parents had a close relationship.

When Jiang Ziyu was in high school, Situ Che was originally studying in the police academy, but somehow his eyesight deteriorated, so he couldn't continue his studies in the police academy, so he came back to retake the college entrance examination, which made Jiang Ziyu very happy. I never thought that I could study with Situ Che and work hard, and finally I was admitted to the medical school of H University with Situ Che, and entered the affiliated hospital with her, but Situ Che was too crazy to study, and there seemed to be 28 hours a day It seemed that it didn't take long for him to be admitted as an attending doctor, and he was still a resident doctor, but he was not annoyed, people at the same level as them were basically still resident doctors.

"Archer, just ahead." Jiang Ziyu looked at Situ Che tenderly. The house he found for Situ Che was not far from the place he rented, so that he could spend more time with Archer. He is not indifferent to him, she is like this to everyone, Jiang Ziyu hopes that one day he can impress her and get closer to her, he believes that companionship is the longest confession of love.

"Well", Situ Che didn't look at him. She understood Jiang Ziyu's thoughts. The parents of the two families seemed to regard each other as in-laws. She rejected him several times, but it didn't help. Everyone was immersed in this In the unrealistic dreams and imaginations, she was always the only one who was dissatisfied, and she didn't want to talk about it after several times, just let them dream, and one day, they would wake up from the dream.

The house is well-prepared, with one bedroom and one living room. The kitchen and bathroom are very small. It can be seen that a large house has been isolated, but it is enough for Situ Che. She only asks for a small world of her own.The landlord is a middle-aged couple. The male host looks greasy, his hair seems to have not been washed for a long time, and he came out in pajamas. The hostess dressed herself up a little bit, her eyes sparkled. The rent price proposed by the two is moderate , but there is a clause in the agreement that as the price changes, the rent price may increase.

Situ Che walked around the room. She is obsessed with cleanliness. The clothes of the two landlords really made her scalp tingle. She can bear everything. It is absolutely impossible to not pay attention to hygiene. But there are some hairs scattered in the corner of the wall, which should be left by the previous owner. The range hood in the kitchen is a little greasy, a layer of moss has formed in the corner where the water pipe in the toilet is, and the filter bag of the washing machine is full of fluff, like It has never been cleaned, and her complexion is becoming more and more ugly. If she moves here, she will have to clean up for several days. How can she have so much time?

"I want to take another look." Situ Che didn't hesitate any longer, glanced at Jiang Ziyu, and walked out the door.

"Our place is very good. The outside environment is good, the inside is complete with appliances, and the price is cheap. Where do you rent this kind of house?" Hearing what she said, the hostess became unhappy, and her snobbish eyes kept gazing at Situ Che. Looking around, her house was only vacant yesterday, and the previous tenants signed the contract after just a glance, and this person is actually dissatisfied.

"Your house is very good, we are too picky, sorry", Jiang Ziyu apologized to the landlord, not knowing what Situ Che was dissatisfied with, but since she didn't want to rent, she had to look for it again,

"Humph", the landlord locked the door and left angrily.

The author has something to say:

Zhou Nan: It is absolutely impossible not to love cleanliness.

Situ Che: My daughter-in-law is right.