Spring is coming

At ten o'clock in the morning, Yin Yuanchang took Chun Xin out and said that he would take her to the hospital for treatment.

This is really a bit of a fuss, there are so many medicines in the house, every time Chunxin has a slight sign of a cold, grandma will feed her four pieces of Andrographis paniculata without saying a word.

If it doesn't get better, take five tablets on the second day and six tablets on the third day, increasing day by day.

Chun Xin could eat up to nine slices at a time.

Now grandpa’s pension is still very low, grandma is not an employee, and andrographis is very cheap, a few yuan for a big bag, a bag of 100 capsules, the whole family eats andrographis for colds, one bag is enough for a quarter.

The children's school is a private school with high tuition and miscellaneous fees, and grandma is worried about sending Chun Xin outside, so she can save as much as she can.

Now Chunxin's father is back, and when he was leaving, grandma entrusted her: "You take her for a few checks by the way. A few days ago, she said that she had a stomachache. It might be roundworms. Go and prescribe some medicine."

Yin Yuanchang said boldly: "That's for sure, I am her father, I don't care about her, who cares about her."

Grandma just sneered, "I don't care about you, I will see the hospital registration form when I come back."

Grandpa began to put on his coat, "I'll be with you and take you to the hospital. You haven't come back for so many years, I'm afraid you won't be able to find it."

Chun Xin couldn't wait a long time ago. She rarely left Team 153. She usually played in the community and never went out with anyone other than her grandparents.

Today, her father asked her to go out to see a doctor. Although she firmly believed that she was not sick, she was going out with her father!

Excited and apprehensive, she changed into clean clothes after getting up, tried to smooth out the fluffy curly hair with a comb soaked in water, and brushed the uppers of her shoes clean.

She was very happy when she went out, she called out "Dad" while holding back her awkwardness, stood at the door and waved, "Bye bye, grandma, bye Dongdong."

Xueli nodded and said nothing. After they left, she went upstairs and came back and said to grandma: "My mother asked me to go to her unit to deliver something."

Grandma was worried, "Are you going alone? I'll take you there."

Xueli shook her head, "I can find it, I go often."

Most of the time, she has no expression on her face. In the eyes of adults, this is a show of stability and she is not happy.

Chun Xin's family is especially fond of the paralyzed face. Her cousin, Upstairs Xueli, are all obscene words that adults like.

Grandpa personally sent them to the nearby traditional Chinese medicine hospital, watched Yin Yuanchang go in with Chunxin to register before leaving, Xueli followed, and hid in the corner with his hands in his hands to observe secretly.

Grandma wanted to see the ticket, but Yin Yuanchang had no choice but to spend money to do some inspections and buy insect repellent.Chun Xin was by his side, from the beginning to the end, he never held her by his side, nor did he say to buy her some snacks.

Coming out of the hospital, Yin Yuanchang answered a few calls and was about to go back to 153. Xueli followed from a distance, and saw Chunxin stop at the entrance of the roadside supermarket, pointing to the rocking car, meaning he wanted to play.

Yin Yuanchang gave her a push, and walked away with her by the collar, like a kitten.

Sure enough, they went to Zheng's house.

It won't work this time, and the Zheng family is not stupid. Grandparents will definitely not agree. If they give away tens of thousands of dollars, the child will be asked to leave again. How to calculate?

Xueli folded her arms and waited by the coal shed downstairs. After half an hour, Chunxin bounced downstairs, saw her at a glance, and flew over, "Dongdong!"

The three adults followed behind, and their faces were ugly for a while.

Xueli pretended not to know, "I went to find my mother, and when I came back, I saw that your father took you to Aunt Zheng's house to play, and I will wait here for you to go home together."

"Dongdong, you are so kind! I am so happy today! Let's go home and play, I will catch dragonflies for you!"

Sitting on a small bench in the yard, Xueli asked her: "What are you doing at Aunt Zheng's house?"

Chun Xin dug out two thin wires from the sundry pile, punched holes in the plastic bag, and prepared to make a small net for catching dragonflies.

"There are a lot of dolls and toys in her house, just like the ones in your room. One is very big, the same size as me! They talk in the living room, and I play in it, and there are candies and biscuits."

Speaking of this, she remembered, and took out two packs of fruitan skins from her trouser pocket, "I brought them for you, hehe, Aunt Zheng said you can eat whatever you want."

The Zheng family really wanted a child, and as long as they wanted a girl, they arranged the room early.

I also have ideas about Chunxin, but of course I have more worries. Grandparents are determined not to agree, let alone a powerful aunt who is the principal.It's against the law.

What does Yin Yuanchang think of children?Just like the stray kitten and puppy, I only saw the fur child being raised to be smooth, smart and cute. When it was lying on the side of the road dying, covered in blood and sores, I never thought of picking it up.

This is still his own child.

Xueli remembered something that Chunxin told her a long time ago.

The time is probably the past and the present. In the scene of the family reunion of three generations in the TV commercial, there is a little girl with shofar braids and a red dress, bouncing up to her parents and snuggling close to the adults' arms.

The atmosphere is very good, the family sits together and watches TV, the only light source in the dim environment, the dirty and unbearable is covered by the high-saturation picture, cheerful music, and hypocritical smiles.

Chun Xin pointed at the TV. He didn't remember what he said at the time, but he was very envious and wanted to be hugged and patted like this.

She looked expectantly, and Yin Yuanchang said: "Look at others, and then at you, are you worthy?"

Are you worthy?

——"I'm such an idiot, why should I say such a thing, and humiliate myself, what do you mean I am worthy? What does he look like? Is he worthy?"

I didn't understand it when I was a child, but one day when I grew up, I suddenly remembered this incident, and I was inexplicably angry.

——"It's not that I'm not good enough, it's that he doesn't deserve it."

That night, after dinner, the family sat in front of the TV, and the scene reappeared.

When the commercial was played for the first time, Chun Xin stared wide-eyed, staring intently at the little girl on the TV.After the ten-second commercial ended, her back slowly relaxed, her thoughts diverged, and her eyes began to wander.

After figuring out the rules, she stood up when the commercials were inserted for the first time in the TV series, pretended to drink water, and stood beside Yin Yuanchang in advance.

When the music started, she straightened her back, her small face was facing the light, and her big eyes were shining.

At the end of the countdown of five seconds, she mustered up her courage, endured the shyness of wanting to get into the cracks in the ground, tugged at Yin Yuanchang's sleeve with two fingers, and pointed with the other hand, "Dad, look at the dad on TV. .”

——Hug me, praise me, or touch my head, like the dad on TV.

Yin Yuanchang looked her up and down with a critical gaze, the light and shadow floated and distorted, like a poisonous snake spitting out a letter, exuding a chill, every word was cruel and bloody.

"Are you worthy?"

Shocked and unbelievable for two or three seconds, her eyes quickly filled with tears, she pursed her mouth tightly, and walked back to the room step by step.

Seeing all this, Xueli stared at Yin Yuanchang quietly for a while without saying anything.He is hopeless, and what he says is a waste of words.

Grandpa and grandma didn't speak, until the two children went back to the room and closed the door, only then did they hear grandpa vaguely say, "That's your girl, what kind of animal words are you talking about?"

Beside the wooden bed, Chun Xin was already in tears, Xueli walked over and hugged him, she raised her head, frowned deeply, the corners of her lips drooped, trying to suppress her crying.

"Dongdong, am I really, really bad, so everyone doesn't like me..."

Xueli's heart was about to break.

"No, Chunxin is very good. Chunxin is the best. It's his problem. He's not a good person. His wife doesn't want him anymore. He's taking out your anger and hates you."

Chun Xin didn't understand, "Why does his wife not want him? Is it because of me? That's why she doesn't want me?"

"No, no..." Xueli hugged her tightly, tears streaming down her face, and her heart ached like twists.

——Chun Xin, Chun Xin.

——What should I say, none of this is your fault.