My years as a soldier

When he was dragged out of the gate of the county government office, the flesh on Hu Jiuzhang's legs was bloody and congealed with the clothes, his leg bones were completely crushed, and under the impact of severe pain, even he, a veteran who was used to injuries, , and the pain almost fainted.But Hu Jiuzhang was not dizzy by nature. He gritted his teeth and forced his nerves until his gums were broken. Then he squeezed out some strength from somewhere, supported his upper body with both hands, and raised his head to identify the direction.

Hu Jiuzhang was abandoned on the small street at the back gate of the county government office. The street was narrow, but it could only accommodate two people walking side by side.And as the gate of the county government closed behind him, there was no one else on this street except him.Hu Jiuzhang supported his upper body with his arms. He hadn't looked back at his legs yet, but he knew that the rest of his life would probably be ruined by this.He broke his legs, it is impossible to return to Beiting to fight, but Hu Yan is dead, Hu Yan is dead...

Hu Jiuzhang was still very concerned about these words.He could never have imagined the tragic death of Hu Yan in Chang'an.Unexpectedly, and dare not think, when Zhang Si uttered those words, tears subconsciously poured out of Hu Jiuzhang's lacrimal glands. Xiaoyan died... Just thinking about it, Hu Jiuzhang's throat choked up. I can't say a word.

Hu Yan is their family's hope, and when Hu Yan dies, the only remaining hope of the Hu family will be lost...

Hu Jiuzhang clenched his fists, tears welled up in his eyes again, but it wasn't because of the pain.Even though there was no one on the street, Hu Jiuzhang still didn't want to expose his tearful face to anyone. He lay on the ground and buried his face in his arms, his upper body trembling slightly, but he didn't say a word.

When footsteps were heard on the street, Hu Jiuzhang didn't even look up. Passing by the county government office this time, he almost gave up on this capital that once only existed in his fantasy.Such a prosperous and prosperous city of Chang'an is not a place where a man like him, who has fought bloody battles for the Tang Dynasty for five years, can live. , They lived in peace, too much in peace, those days were not for people like Hu Jiuzhang, Chang'an was not his, he was not qualified to live in peace like that!

Thinking of this, Hu Jiuzhang even felt a little bit of anger in his heart—Chang'an owed him more than just justice!Chang'an owes him too much——

But Hu Jiuzhang's grief and indignation were interrupted by a gentle stroke on his back.He froze when someone patted his back lightly.who is it?Who would care about him in a place like this?Ah... Maybe he thinks he is a cripple who has become a Taoist, so he came to chase people away?

Hu Jiuzhang immediately suppressed his tears. He rubbed his face against his sleeve several times in a daze before raising his head.But when Hu Jiuzhang raised his head, he was taken aback by the person half kneeling in front of him——

Bai Muyun.

Hu Jiuzhang never imagined that he would see Bai Muyun here, and Bai Muyun was still wearing the same white dress with dark silk and satin patterns. The dress was too beautiful and expensive, but it still felt insufficient for him.Hu Jiuzhang is now prostrate on the ground and looking at Bai Muyun from bottom to top. He suddenly feels that Bai Muyun's exquisite face is like a heaven and a man from the lower realm.He stared blankly, and didn't even have time to react.He didn't know how he could react to Bai Muyun now, there were tears in his eyes, his eyes were red and swollen, and his appearance was extremely ugly.But Hu Jiuzhang couldn't hide the embarrassment on his face, he had no choice but to hide all the grief and anger in his heart, and instead put on a stubborn appearance that he still didn't bother to admit his mistakes after being punished by the stick.

"...what are you doing here?"

Hu Jiuzhang's voice was hoarse, his leg injury and the turbulent emotions in his heart had caused him to have a high fever, but he himself hadn't noticed it at all.The sharp pain in his leg numbs all his senses. He didn't feel his body temperature rising, and he didn't care about the throbbing pains and chills all over his body due to the high fever.He only knew that he was uncomfortable, and he didn't bother to think about why he was uncomfortable.

"you……"

Bai Muyun half-kneeled on the ground and bent over to look at him, but his voice trembled slightly.

"Your legs..."

"I was beaten with twenty sticks, which is still light..."

Hu Jiuzhang clicked his tongue lightly, refusing to show any timidity in front of others.But after only a few words, he was too weak to lift his head, the grief and anger faded, and even his consciousness began to blur.

"What are you doing here..."

Hu Jiuzhang still had a lot of questions to ask Bai Muyun.He wanted to know why a rich man would temporarily stay in a hotel in Chang'an West City, and he even wanted to know why Bai Muyun would take the initiative to chat with him and listen to him talk about Longyou's past.That is not a past event worth talking about—Longyou, Beiting, and Han Haijun may sound majestic, but the life in Longyou is actually very hard. Hu Jiuzhang has suffered so much in the past five years. Whenever possible, he I don't want anyone in this world to be like them border guards, who are so miserable that they can't even eat a hot meal, and can't even sleep well for a night.

But no matter how much, Hu Jiuzhang couldn't tell. He fainted, and lay there directly in front of Bai Muyun. He even forgot when he fainted.

This time, Hu Jiuzhang didn’t know how long he slept. In his terrifying abyss of wildfire, he saw Hu Yan being abandoned on the street. It was late at night. Like the countless corpses that have passed by, it is horribly pale, and even somewhat inhuman.Hu Jiuzhang knelt in front of his younger brother's corpse and wept bitterly, but a raging fire was burning all over his body for no reason. Hu Jiuzhang was about to be swallowed by the fire, and the fire spread to his whole body, especially on his rotten legs. Burning.The pain was so painful that it seemed to burn his legs, but he saw his legs disappear in the flames, but the fire did not weaken at all——

In the severe pain, Hu Jiuzhang cried out almost hissingly, he didn't want to hide anything anymore, all the resentment and unwillingness in his heart were released in the severe pain.He cried, and tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes, and slid across his haggard, burnt face.But what confused Hu Jiuzhang was a slight touch on his face in the mist.

"Hey...it's okay, don't cry..."

Bai Muyun's rather flustered comforting voice came from beside his ears, and that voice pulled Hu Jiuzhang back from the illusion to reality, which made Hu Jiuzhang even more uncomfortable.

Bai Muyun——

With other people present, how could Hu Jiuzhang reveal the slightest weakness.He forcefully opened his eyes, and saw a blurry figure in front of him, sitting beside him with a handkerchief in his hand, and there was an even more blurred figure standing beside the figure, but Hu Jiuzhang couldn't see clearly At most, he could only see Bai Muyun's hand holding the handkerchief, and he couldn't even see the expression on Bai Muyun's face.

"...Thank you so much."

"How can I thank you now—" Bai Muyun's voice became more urgent when he saw him speak. "Take a good rest and don't talk. I know you're uncomfortable. I've invited the best doctor in Chang'an to treat your injury. You'll be fine soon... Don't be sad, get a good night's sleep."

When Bai Muyun said this, his tone was as hurried as that of a half-grown child trying to hide his panic. Hu Jiuzhang's nasal cavity was sore just hearing that voice.

"Why did you save me..."

He tried his best to half open his eyes, but his eyes still couldn't focus clearly on Bai Muyun's face.But Hu Jiuzhang didn't intend to close his eyes at all. There were still tears in the corners of his eyes, but a relieved smile suddenly appeared on his face.Now that there is such a person in Chang'an who is willing to take care of him like this, even if this life is lost, it is probably worth it!

"I will tell you when your fever subsides. The doctor just treated your leg injury. Fortunately, I found it in time and the injury did not deteriorate. Otherwise, your life may not be saved."

"Now say..."

Hu Jiuzhang was so weak that he refused to back down even half a step.His voice was all false, and there was still a slight tremor in the tone, which made people feel panicked.

"Hey...you..."

Bai Muyun couldn't help adding a little helplessness to his anxious voice, but he didn't dare to be serious with Hu Jiuzhang, so he just sat there and let out a long sigh, then waved his hands at the figure behind him until the figure disappeared, and then Open your mouth quietly.

"Old Hu... I sneaked out from home..."

He bent down, but he only said this to Hu Jiuzhang.

"I'm ashamed to say it... I've lived so long, but I only found out last month that my biological mother was killed by the concubine who raised me. That woman kept it from me for 21 years... a whole 21 years..." Bai Muyun let out a long sigh, his eyes were lonely, but there was a little alienation, as if the emotion was not his, and he was just lying beside Hu Jiuzhang telling stories.But his voice was too heavy, even Hu Jiuzhang, a wounded man who might fall asleep every minute, followed his deep tone and sighed softly.

"My father is not around all the year round... The two half-brothers in the family have always been at odds with me. But I always thought that my mother was always good to me. But last month... I didn't even My mother is gone. That woman is nice to me on the surface, but secretly, she hates me... She hates my mother, and also hates me. That family... I can't stay any longer. I wanted to leave here, but when I got to the city gate, my father sent someone to stop me."

"Old Hu...Actually, I think it's good to be a soldier like you." Bai Muyun's gaze cast on Hu Jiuzhang's face, and his voice became softer.

"Although I am the third son in the family, I am the legitimate son. Since I was a child, I can't say a single word that is outrageous, and I can't even behave indecently. Originally... if I didn't have my mother to accompany me every day, I'm afraid I'm going to be driven crazy a long time ago, but now, the woman I only care about and serve as my own mother has been resenting me all the time... It's me, my son-in-law, who has taken away what should belong to me. The benefits and power of her two biological sons. But how have I ever been happy? In this life... I have never had a moment of freedom. No one in the family treats me sincerely. When they open their mouths and keep their mouths shut, it is their interests. Entanglements... To be honest, before I met you, Hu... I wanted to die..."

Having said this, Bai Muyun closed his eyes and took a deep breath, and then spoke again after a while.

"...But if I die, my life is useless. Hu... Actually, I really want to be a soldier. At least if I become a soldier, my life will always be useful. So when I met you that day, I just took the initiative to chat with you, but I didn't expect that you would actually tell me everything in detail. I like to listen to you... Laohu, what you said...is true, I listen to it as soon as I hear it Come out, you never lie to me..."

When Bai Muyun said this, he lowered his eyes to look at Hu Jiuzhang's face again, but Hu Jiuzhang's eyes were already closed.

"...Hey, go to sleep... Take a good rest."

Bai Muyun sighed lightly, and then straightened up from Hu Jiuzhang's side.But Hu Jiuzhang fell asleep, but he didn't leave.Holding a white handkerchief in his hand, he has been sitting beside Hu Jiuzhang's bed, as if guarding something.But whether he is guarding Hu Jiuzhang, or whether he needs Hu Jiuzhang to guard him, it is hard to tell who this is...