My years as a soldier

When Gan Ruoshan and Hu Jiuzhang saw the top of Tongguan City, the battle was almost over.

Most of the remnants of the Tang army who were still alive disarmed and became prisoners.Some were led by generals to surrender, and some were surrendered to the enemy by the captains and lieutenants below after the general died.After all, there is no possibility of winning at all. Surrendering is not an option that can bring more benefits.After all, soldiers can realize their value to the greatest extent only when they are in the army.

The Tang army was defeated so thoroughly that when Hu Gan and Hu Gan were surrounded and cut off their way, the rebel squad that surrounded them didn't even draw their knives.

That's right, there are only two of them, and one of them is still a wounded person. In this state, it's totally unreasonable not to surrender.

The leader of the rebel army was the first to speak out.The veteran with the scabbard slantingly smiled and made a pause gesture to Gan Ruoshan.

"Hey, hand over the knife, big brother?"

The man seemed to have a relaxed smile, but Gan Ruoshan's expression became more serious.He subconsciously took a few steps back, and a little bit of cold sweat oozed from his head.

"Old Gan..."

Hu Jiuzhang lay on Gan Ruoshan's back, and he clearly felt Gan Ruoshan's body trembling.He was trembling, not as if he was trembling from fear, but as if he had fallen into some kind of uncontrollable excitement.

But what is there to be excited about in this scene?The battle is over, surrendering with the knife, although it is a bit humiliating, at least one life can be saved.And here, the enemy is also from the Tang Dynasty, which is better than surrendering to another country outside the region.It's not guaranteed that he can find an official position in the Northeast Army in the future.Anyway, what is the orthodox thing in the world, what does it have to do with these little soldiers?

Even Hu Jiuzhang, a cripple who has lost the ability to protect himself, can see through the situation in front of him at a glance, but Gan Ruoshan, who has always been shrewd, doesn't seem to understand.

"Old Gan, what do you think?"

Even though the enemies were all around, Hu Jiuzhang still had to ask a question.Gan Ruoshan's reaction at this time was too unreasonable, he felt flustered when he saw it, and he was very restless.

"Old Hu...I'm sorry for you."

Gan Ruoshan's voice sounded muffled as if covered in felt.Hu Jiuzhang became more suspicious.

"Excuse me? Where do you start with this?"

He was in a hurry.

What Gan Ruoshan was thinking now, he couldn't understand at all.

Hu Jiuzhang even set his sights on the small leader of the rebel army on the opposite side.He was confused and flustered, and the small leader of the rebel army also had a dazed look on his face.

What are these two people going to do?

But the Northeast Army is still more calm than Hu Jiuzhang and the others.After all, this battlefield is already dominated by the rebels. How can two enemy soldiers disturb anything?

"Hurry up and hand over the horizontal knife!"

As if responding to Hu Jiuzhang's bewildered gaze, the team leader urged, his voice much more severe than before.He also wanted to end the matter in front of him as soon as possible. After all, the battle had been fought for so long, even if they were the winning side, they had already expended too much energy on it.

As soon as he finished speaking, he saw Gan Ruoshan let out a long sigh, and the trembling on his body gradually weakened, but Hu Jiuzhang didn't feel at ease at all. The depression and crisis that is about to come.

"Old Gan, you—"

Before Hu Jiuzhang could finish his sentence, Gan Ruoshan suddenly bent down and half knelt down.He put Hu Jiuzhang on the open space behind him, and said something back.

"Old Hu, I'm sorry for you."

Hu Jiuzhang will never forget Gan Ruoshan's look when he looks back at him.A pair of eyes were cloudy, and the whites of the eyes were covered with bloodshot eyes, but the gaze in them was firm and decisive.In that kind of determination, there is deep hopelessness, like a person who has fallen into the abyss. In the process of falling, he looks desperately at the fading sky in front of him. There is no salvation and nowhere to go.

Hu Jiuzhang's eyes were fixed on Gan Ruoshan's movements.He watched him bend down, let go of his hand, and then, the loose hand held the handle of the horizontal knife at his waist again.Gan Ruoshan buried his head very low, and his upper body seemed to be curled up.It looked like a kneeling posture, but Hu Jiuzhang saw Gan Ruoshan's front knee lifted from the ground, and he stepped on the ground with both feet, supporting his body steadily with the strength of the soles of his feet.

"Old Gan, what are you doing..."

Hu Jiuzhang opened his eyes wide. When he said this, his voice was very low, but it was still within the range of Gan Ruoshan's hearing.But Gan Ruoshan did not respond.In other words, his next move is already the clearest answer.

Hearing a "shua", the horizontal knife in Gan Ruoshan's hand came out of its sheath, and it struck the team leader's forehead in an instant.

This attack came too suddenly, but the soldiers of the Northeast Army were not given in vain.The leading squad leader had only a small cut on his forehead, and he had already leaned over to dodge the blow, even taking a few steps back.

"Your grandma! You don't want to give you a way to survive, are you crazy? Or think that our Northeast Army is all on soft food!"

The squad leader was already angry, and several soldiers around him also drew their horizontal knives.What they hold in their hands and Gan Ruoshan's are exactly the same horizontal knives, but some are severely worn, while others are sharp.

Although the Northeast Army drew their swords, they did not rush up directly.They were still observing Gan Ruoshan's reaction, thinking about it, they also wanted to save as much life as possible.

But Gan Ruoshan's attitude did not change at all.He looked around at the surrounding enemy soldiers, and the attack of the horizontal knife in his hand became more and more fierce.He rushed straight towards the leader of the squad leader, and the Northeast Army cooperated with each other even more tacitly.The three of them formed a small formation and blocked Gan Ruoshan's attack without any effort.Not only did they block it, but the two people in front also left a bloodstain that was not deep and not shallow on Gan Ruoshan's chest as if inadvertently.

"You kid is crazy!"

The squad leader standing in the middle stared angrily.But what was released in his eyes was still shock and confusion.

"I'm not crazy!"

Although Gan Ruoshan was injured, his attacking movements were more sensitive than before.He waved the horizontal knife and moved around, and he was really fighting with the enemy in front of him.

Not only Hu Jiuzhang was dumbfounded by this scene, but even the Northeast Army in the battle was dumbfounded.None of them could figure out why the defeated soldiers were fighting with their lives at this time.

But Gan Ruoshan swung his saber faster and faster, even though the rebel army had a large number of people, they did not dare to lose their minds while fighting for their lives.

Soon, several soldiers from the rebel side were slightly injured, and Gan Ruoshan had already been cut with several bloody long cuts.

"This is a madman!"

The squad leader shouted more than once.

People say that the soft ones are afraid of the hard ones, and the hard ones are afraid of the deadly ones.After all, Gan Ruoshan was also a veteran of the Longyou Army. At this time, he gave it a go, and he really fought with the momentum of one against ten. After a rampage, a young soldier in the rebel squad was actually forced to almost The degree of death.

How could the captain be willing to ask his subordinates to lose their lives for no reason after the battle.Even if they were convinced that Gan Ruoshan could not communicate with common sense, they no longer restrained themselves.A few veterans of the Northeast Army cooperated left and right, and chopped Gan Ruoshan to the ground with a few blows.Those few people stepped on Gan Ruoshan's arms, one left and one right, and Gan Ruoshan on the ground was already blood-stained all over the ground.

"Your head was kicked by a donkey!"

The team leader condescendingly yelled at Gan Ruoshan who was dying.But Gan Ruoshan, who was lying on the ground, sneered instead.

"I am a Tang soldier... not a surrendered soldier. The Longyou Army is gone. If I am still alive, what did Captain Wang die for? What did the brothers on the road die for? 20 Ten thousand people have been beaten, so I have no reason to live alone!"

"This guy has a sick head, let's not talk nonsense with him!"

Under Gan Ruoshan's roar, the team leader responded immediately.He cut Gan Ruoshan's throat between the collars with a knife, the knife was accurate and ruthless, it was a terrifying act that can only be done by a resolute veteran.

A stream of blood gushed out from Gan Ruoshan's throat, and this man was completely dead.

During the whole process, Hu Jiuzhang could only sit on the ground and watch quietly, until Gan Ruoshan died, he felt in a daze.

Dead people are the most common thing on the battlefield. Of course, Hu Jiuzhang would not be so shocked by the tragic death of his friend that he lost his mind, but he still couldn't figure out why Gan Ruoshan said sorry to him before going to die.

Why say sorry?Where exactly are you sorry?

He froze there, thinking for a long time.Until the group of rebel soldiers pulled him onto the cart, he watched Gan Ruoshan's body getting farther and farther away from him. For a moment, he seemed to have figured it out.

It seems that from a certain moment, Gan Ruoshan became different from usual.

And when was that moment?

Hu Jiuzhang thought that he still needed to think about it for a long time, but in fact, he thought of it as soon as he changed his mind.That was the day when they saw Wang Zheng's dead body on the side of the road.

That day, in front of Wang Zheng's rotting corpse, not only Gan Ruoshan and himself were present, but many soldiers who accompanied him also knew Wang Zheng.But Gan Ruoshan was the only one crying bitterly at the corpse.

Thinking of the situation that day, Gan Ruoshan's cries still seemed to be lingering in Hu Jiuzhang's ears.

He said your legs are gone, you are not.And I still am.

I am a soldier... I am Tang Bing, and I will be Tang Bing all my life.

Just this one sentence, when I think about it again, Hu Jiuzhang can't stop the chills down his spine—he originally thought of today's ending on the day he saw Wang Zheng's corpse.

Gan Ruoshan, he said he was Tang Bing, and Hu Jiuzhang had only heard two people say this face to face with him in his life.One is Cao Yi, and the other is Gan Ruoshan who just died tragically.

Thinking of this, Hu Jiuzhang's nasal cavity couldn't help being sore.There was a bit of water vapor in his eye sockets, and there seemed to be a deadly stale air in his chest, which was stuck in his throat, making him open his mouth wide and take a few breaths, but he still felt oppressed.

Once upon a time, this was also the truth he believed in.But until he arrived in Chang'an, until Chen Fan asked him the question of who to fight for.

At this moment, Hu Jiuzhang only felt pity, but besides pity, he couldn't change even the slightest bit of this desperate reality.Unwilling emotions welled up in his heart, and sitting on the cart being dragged by rebel soldiers, he suddenly figured out why Gan Ruoshan had to say sorry to himself before starting the fight.

At that time, Gan Ruoshan should have thought of the present ending.He knew that as long as he died, Hu Jiuzhang, who had lost the ability to resist, would inevitably become a soldier and a prisoner.That's why Gan Ruoshan said sorry.He didn't want Hu Jiuzhang to be a pawn, but he was already powerless to reverse the situation.

So at that time, he even said a few words.Hu, I'm sorry for you.

Thinking of this, Hu Jiuzhang couldn't control his tears.Covering his face with his arms, he wept bitterly in the rebel cart.

"I'm not worthy...Old Gan."

He said in a miserable voice, no longer caring about the people and things around him.At this moment, he just wanted to be trapped in his own emotions. If he didn't, he wouldn't even have the face to continue to breathe and survive on this avenue full of Tang Jun's corpses.