My years as a soldier

Facing Hu Jiuzhang's rhetorical question, Chen Fan just smiled wryly.

"Some things can't be answered for a while. Besides, everyone has their own scale in their hearts. What they care about and what they don't care about, you will only know when something really happens."

Chen Fan said frankly.He is seven or eight years older than Hu Jiuzhang, and the positions of the two are completely different.I can't say who is right and who is wrong, but Chen Fan has seen more things than Hu Jiuzhang.

After the two talked, it was time to do something else.Dozens of unscrupulous people had already formed a team, and Cao Yi's body was lying on a broken wooden board, covered with the rags that the bad guys found temporarily.

Hu Jiuzhang bowed to the corpse three times.

"It would be great if we could meet in the army..."

Facing Cao Yi's body, Hu Jiuzhang sighed softly.Chen Fan patted him on the shoulder several times.

"do not think too much."

He seems to have recovered from the incident just now.

"Jiuzhang, you still have a long time to live. Chen Fan is envious of being able to make friends like King Su's son, so don't sigh here. A man, a big man, the vast world is waiting for you, don't let it go Great time."

"I understand, Brother Chen, thank you very much."

"Hehe... You don't need to thank me. If you have the opportunity to introduce me to the prince, it will be serious."

Chen Fan put on a smile again, and then he waved to Hu Jiuzhang.

"Okay, it won't be long before dawn, and the road ahead is long, so you go in and rest too. I have to lead the team back to do some business, so let's leave now and see you again!"

"Goodbye by fate!"

Hu Jiuzhang stared fixedly at Chen Fan, biting those few words very deeply.

In fact, the two had already said goodbye to each other earlier, and no one wanted to say goodbye at this time.It's just that the sky is big and the earth is big. After a farewell, I don't know when I will see you again. Although I say goodbye, but no matter how reluctant I am, I can only bury that emotion in my heart and finally turn it into a parting message.

Goodbye.

At this time, it is no longer an empty conclusion, but a sincere expectation.

After seeing off Chen Fan, Hu Jiuzhang went back to the small temple lightly.He thought that Li Muyun had already fallen asleep, but when he entered the room, Li Muyun still opened his eyes and looked at him thoughtfully.

"They've all gone?"

"They're all gone. But you, why do you look so bad? Are you sick these days?"

Hu Jiuzhang sat beside Li Muyun as he spoke, warming his hands towards the bonfire, without turning his head to look at Li Muyun.

Hearing his words, Li Muyun was slightly taken aback.He forgot that Hu Jiuzhang was not from the Chang'an circle, and he didn't know that his paper body and lingering on the sick bed were just normal.

But since Hu Jiuzhang didn't know, Li Muyun didn't want to tell him either.

"It was frozen before, so it will be fine after a few days. Let's not talk about this, what happened after I fainted, how did Cao Yi die?"

Li Muyun raised his head and looked at Hu Jiuzhang's back.

He did wake up shortly after fainting, and Cao Yi's slap on him was done with force.But Li Muyun's body was too weak to hold back, the moment he woke up, his head hurt so badly, and he couldn't relieve it even after a long time, even now, his brain was throbbing, although it was still vague He vaguely heard the voices in the small courtyard at that time, but he really didn't know what happened in the process.When he was most uncomfortable, he couldn't even hear the words of the military doctor next to him.

"This..."

Hu Jiuzhang heaved a long sigh, turned around and picked out important things to talk to Li Muyun one by one.In the end, he took out Cao Yi's worn-out wooden signboard from the skirt of his clothes with no lack of sentimentality.

"Before he died, he asked me to give this wooden sign to General Gao. Who is General Gao of the Anxi Army? General Gao Xianzhi?"

"General Gao?"

Li Muyun was slightly taken aback, but he didn't say anything for a long time.

"General Gao... this... is the General Gao that Cao Yi was talking about, it should be the former General Gao Xianzhi of Anxi Jiedu. After he returned from the Great Food, he entered the court and accepted the post of General You Habayashi. This is It wasn't that the An Lushan Army rebelled in Youzhou last year, and General Gao was transferred to the east to resist the rebels early in the morning."

"What? Rebellion?"

Hu Jiuzhang was quite surprised.He has been recuperating at Chen Fan's home for the past few months, but Chen Fan has never mentioned any war or civil strife.Moreover, Hu Jiuzhang, a border soldier, never thought in his life that he would hear news of the war in the Tang Dynasty.This was more than a shock, it was shocking, it stunned Hu Jiuzhang.

"How could there be a rebellion? When did this battle start? How did it win?"

Hu Jiuzhang was very excited, but Li Muyun sighed softly.

"The Anlu Mountain army is powerful, but it only took a few months to attack Luoyang. The imperial court ordered Gao Xianzhi, together with Feng Changqing, the new envoy of Anxi Jiedu who came to Beijing to meet at that time, to block the Anlu Mountain Army in Tongguan and defend Chang'an. How did the emperor listen to the slander? , on the grounds that the two generals were too timid to fight, Tongguan executed the generals. Now General Gao Xianzhi is no longer in this world."

"This……"

Hu Jiuzhang stared wide open, his mouth opened wide, and he didn't say a word for a long time.

"General Gao is dead...but...how is the battle going? Has Tongguan fallen now?"

"Tongguan is now guarded by the elderly Longyou Jiedu envoy Ge Shuhan. Although Tongguan is still there, Luoyang, the eastern capital, has fallen. Li Yu and Yushi Zhongcheng Lu Yi, who stayed behind in the eastern capital, were captured because they refused to surrender to the rebels. Later, he was killed by Anlu Mountain, Henan Yin Da Xixun surrendered, and Henan fell. Last year in the twelfth lunar month, the Anlu Mountain Army captured Luoyang, changed the name of the country, and proclaimed himself emperor... Now our Tang Dynasty is not just the Li family. The world is over."

As Li Muyun said, there was a self-deprecating smile on the corner of his mouth, which made the corner of Hu Jiuzhang's mouth twitch.

"No, Xiaobai, don't say that... How can this become the world of other families? If Datang didn't have the surname Li, wouldn't this not be Datang? Besides, how many catties and taels did the Anlushan rebels have?" , I haven’t fought a battle in the pass for nearly a hundred years, and I only won a few battles in the pass, so what is my ability? If you have the ability to compete with the Northwest Army, if there is a debate, our Northwest Army has never been afraid of anyone!”

"yes……"

Li Muyun was willing to give him this face, but when he talked about it again, he didn't seem very convinced on the surface.

"Before I left home, I also heard that the Holy Majesty was urgently dispatching troops from Anxi and Beiting. I guess... the Northwest Army is already on its way to the east, but as for how to get through this chaos, I don't know." I know, but I can't think of the result."

"But this battle has to be fought!"

"However, how to fight can only be decided by those people in Chang'an City...Under this general situation, you and I are nothing more than ants and flies."

"But... this..."

Hu Jiuzhang hesitated for a while, but he never said that.

He wanted to say that it was not bad to compare a soldier like himself to an ant.But the dignified son of Prince Su, the authentic royal nobleman, has become an ant?Couldn't King Su's Mansion do something in this chaotic situation and save Datang from the fire?But this matter is just an unfounded fantasy in the minds of ordinary people like him.Li Muyun must know better than him what the situation in Chang'an City is like.

But now, Li Muyun, who is aware of the situation, has already left Chang'an. Obviously, if he can stay in Chang'an City, he will definitely not take advantage of this chaos and enter the world alone.So when Hu Jiuzhang's words came to his lips, he was swallowed back.

"Then what are you going to do in the future?"

"Me?" Li Muyun was slightly taken aback when he asked this suddenly.A slight blush suddenly appeared on his uninterested face a second ago.

When he left home that day, he came here for Hu Jiuzhang. Now that he saw the Lord, he wanted him to speak out what was in his heart, but he felt awkward no matter what he thought.

"Why didn't you speak?"

When Hu Jiuzhang saw his slightly flushed face, he felt a little dazed.

"Are you running a fever?" He casually placed a hand on Li Muyun's forehead, but his brows frowned even tighter.

It doesn't seem to burn...

"Eh...no."

Li Muyun quickly blocked Hu Jiuzhang's hand, and he was about to shrink into the quilt.

"Didn't you ask what you plan to do in the future? Then how do you plan?"

"I..." Hu Jiuzhang sighed softly, his eyes were quite tangled.

"Originally, I wanted to go back to Chengzhou to see my mother. After all, Hu Yan is dead. I have to go home anyway and give my mother an explanation. But now the situation... If the scope of the war continues to expand, even if I stay in Chengzhou Besides, my family has been a military household for generations, if my mother knows that the Eastern Capital has fallen and there is civil strife in the Tang Dynasty, she would rather die on the battlefield than stay at home and wait to die..."

"But you have an injury on your leg. If it's really a fight, can you do it?"

"Hehe... If that time really comes, we will have to do it or not!" Hu Jiuzhang said with a smile on his face, "After all... If the world is really chaotic, we people will only live in a more miserable life. At that time, If even living is a pain, I would rather choose to die in battle."

"..."

Hearing his words, Li Muyun was speechless for a long time.

He actually admired Hu Jiuzhang's ability to say such words easily, and when he said these words, he still had a smile on his face.

"Sometimes, being able to choose... is also a kind of happiness."

Li Muyun said calmly, his eyes suddenly seemed to drift into the distance.

"Hey, isn't this forced? If you can live well, who wants to live on the tip of the knife all day? In fact, as long as you want to choose, you can choose at any time. It's just that some people are afraid of making the wrong choice. That’s why I told myself that I had no choice but to do whatever.”

When Hu Jiuzhang said this, he was thinking of Cao Yi.He felt that if a person did what Cao Yi did, then he could really be called fearless.Even if you choose wrong in the end, as long as you don't regret it in your heart, it will be worth it.

"You are standing and talking without back pain."

Li Muyun did not buy his account.

"If a choice could bring disaster to those around you, even your closest relatives, can you still choose so calmly?"

When he asked this question, Hu Jiuzhang was really speechless.And Li Muyun's face did not seem to be much relaxed, he spoke quietly again.

"...I'm not afraid to tell you, my father, King Su, he, the chief protector of Anton, is actually an official under An Lushan's subordinates. During the Chinese New Year this year, he did not return to Beijing to see him, nor did he send a letter back to the mansion. Guess what?" What could have happened to him? Is King Su already detained in Andong by An Lushan, or King Su was originally a member of Anlushan's rebellion... I still can't figure it out."

"There are other things..."

Hu Jiuzhang was dumbfounded.He never imagined that Li Muyun would have something to do with the rebellion.

"But that's your father after all... If it's really related to the rebellion, wouldn't it bring disaster to the whole family?"

"How can you call it a full family? Your Majesty killed his own son, but he was never relentless." Li Muyun couldn't hide the sarcasm in his eyes.He has never had the chance to experience the precious family affection in Hu Jiuzhang's mouth.

"But even if you are only suspected of participating in the rebellion, it is not a trivial matter..."

In fact, the situation Li Muyun talked about had already exceeded Hu Jiuzhang's ability.After all, he was just a small soldier, and he had never even been a captain, let alone involving the emperor or the major affairs of the country.

"So I escaped by myself."

Li Muyun spoke lightly, but seemed to be indifferent.

"Even if there was no such thing, I couldn't stay in Chang'an anymore. But now that something happened, where do you think I should go? If the Great Tang Dynasty dies, how can we, the royal relatives, survive."

"Datang will not perish!"

How did you know that Hu Jiuzhang's voice suddenly became firm.

"The army of the Tang Dynasty is still there. The Anxi Army, Beiting Army, Shuofang Army, and Longyou Army, which one is not brave and good at fighting, and one can beat ten? Back then, the Northwest Army expelled the Turks and wiped out all the countries in the Western Regions. These elites who have truly experienced battlefield experience are still there, and Datang will not perish!"

Hu Jiuzhang's impassioned statement actually made Li Muyun's heart surge with passion.

He was originally born in an emperor's family, no matter how weak he was and how unpopular he was, how could he never have dreamed of guiding the country?

Back then, Li Muyun had imagined himself standing on top of the court, as a generation of powerful ministers pointing out the heroic appearance of the country.Originally, this beautiful dream had long been deeply buried in his memory, and he hadn't asked about it for many years.

Now Hu Jiuzhang's words actually brought out the ambition buried in Li Muyun's bones.His unwillingness and resentment seemed to explode at that moment.

Thinking of the past, even if he hated Zhao Shi very much, in the end, he just wanted to escape from Chang'an and the life controlled by Zhao Shi.

But now that he escaped, he suddenly felt his eyes light up.He may not have to remain anonymous and roam the world.Doesn't this sudden chaos herald the alternation of old and new eras?Even though the turmoil brings pain, for him, it should be more of an opportunity.

Even if you don't want to be under one person and above ten thousand people, if you can take this opportunity to fight for your own world in the court, even if you are just an ordinary courtier, it is not in vain to come to this world.

The more Li Muyun thought about it, the more excited he became.Even though he was ill, he seemed to be more energetic than usual at this moment.With firm eyes, he straightened up from the quilt and fixedly looked at Hu Jiuzhang.

"Old Hu, if I say that I want to take advantage of the chaos in the world and fight for a way out for myself, will you follow me?"