My years as a soldier

In the end, Hu Jiuzhang and his party still chose a relatively conservative route. They first went to the south of the Yangtze River to avoid the chaos of war, then went east to the sea, and took the sea route north to Liaodong.Calculated by distance, this road is much longer than the land road to the north, but the waterway in the south of the Yangtze River is convenient, and the time spent on the trip is far less than Hu Jiuzhang expected. In addition, Chen Fan and Yan Zhaozhong, one rich , one powerful, with the joint efforts of the two, the journey was smooth, not to mention unimpeded, but they did not encounter too many troubles.Even Hu Jiuzhang had to lament that it was the same war and suffering, but different people faced it in completely different states!

And it was during the journey that he really understood the origins of these two Beiting veterans, one was a young master from a family in Luoyang, and the other was a gentry from the Fuyu clan in Anton.Hu Jiuzhang originally thought that these two people were just like him, they were all ordinary military households, but now it seems that these two people are completely different from him. really clear.

It is impossible to say that Hu Jiuzhang does not envy these two people.It's just that he is more concerned about the future than envious of other people's family background.

Even with his father's precepts and deeds, Hu Jiuzhang didn't care much about those material enjoyments since he was a child.When he was young, other people's children could sleep until dawn in the warm quilt, but he could only survive the cold in the dark, and had to go up to the mountains with his father to practice martial arts at five o'clock.

Of course, Hu Jiuzhang was not born with hard work.Who doesn't know that lying down comfortably and standing is tiring, but Jiuzhang is a very tough father. Whenever a child complains of suffering and tiredness, he will beat him head-on. Said, it has been able to make him hurt for several days.

In a moment, it seemed as if it was yesterday, Xiao Jiuzhang was beaten by his father, and he was terrified and resentful, but at this moment, his father put on a sarcasm again, and threw the horizontal knife in front of him.

"Huh... not convinced? You have to bear it if you are not convinced! If you want to hit me, you can rely on your little effort... tsk tsk tsk, I don't think so!" Hu Luan said while smacking his lips, Xiao Jiuzhang was so angry I can't even care about the pain, only anger is left in my heart.

"If you stay like this, you won't eat my fists when you go to the battlefield in the future. If a barbarian's scimitar strikes your head, it will kill you." Father Hu said and made a movement of wiping his neck, his eyes He glared sharply at Xiao Jiuzhang.

But how can children be so easily convinced?Hu Jiuzhang still dared to stare back at his father, saying, "Why am I going to the battlefield? Why am I the only one going out to practice these things, why doesn't Xiaoyan use it?"

"You boy..." Hu Luan was so angry that he blew his beard, but he didn't do it anymore. He just explained in a sullen tone, "Our family is a military household, and it is our destiny to serve in the army for generations. There are many people who want to ask for it. No! You have to go to the government to spend money to change your household. But your brother is weak, even if I force him out, he won’t be able to practice much. On the contrary, he may lose his life. You are the eldest brother, the generation of the Hu family All the honor and disgrace are tied to you, and you have to bear this responsibility!"

As Hu Luan spoke, he kicked the horizontal knife on the ground again, and asked his son to pick it up.But Xiao Jiuzhang's body was already in pain as if he was about to fall apart, so he didn't say that his muscles and bones were sore, he just said that the punch his father gave him on the arm just now was so painful that he dared not lift his arm again.

"... But... Grandpa, my body hurts."

After all, the child is still a child, and when Xiao Jiuzhang opened his mouth like this, crying was mixed into Xiao Jiuzhang's delicate voice.But Hu Luan was unmoved, he turned his wrist as if he wanted to throw a fist, but he still couldn't bear to swing the fist, he just bent down, his expression became more and more severe.

"Jiu Zhang, if the person in front of you is not grandpa, but a barbarian who came to burn, kill and loot, would you be able to lift a knife?"

"If it's a barbarian, I..." Xiao Jiuzhang met his father's extremely sharp eyes, as if a cold light shot straight into his heart, he couldn't help shivering, his face turned pale, and his heartbeat accelerated.

"……I dare."

"Then if you dare, why are you still sitting there?" Hu Luan said, already in the posture of attacking, and was about to strike down with a condescending knife in an instant.

Xiao Jiuzhang was terrified, he was only in his early ten years old at the time, he was just an ordinary man, he would have killed half his life if he saw a knife slashing in the air, let alone Hu Luan who had experienced countless life and death crises Veteran hands!

At that moment, Xiao Jiuzhang's trousers were wet with fright. He randomly picked up the horizontal knife on the ground, regardless of the pain in his arm, turned over and hid aside.Before he could stand firmly on the ground, he heard the laughter of the old man beside him like a drum beating.

"Hahaha... my good son! About peeing your pants, do you want to tell your mother when you go back?"

Xiao Jiuzhang was originally a "survivor after the catastrophe", and his face was still pale.Immediately afterwards, he heard his father's words, and his face quickly turned red.

He wished he could find a crack in the ground and get in, but his heartless father still laughed loudly with a knife in his hand, and he squinted his eyes and looked at his son until he had laughed enough.

"Are you aware of being afraid this time?"

"Grandpa came too suddenly, otherwise I wouldn't..."

Xiao Jiuzhang lowered his head and glanced at his wet pants, the three words seemed to be stuck, unable to speak out.

His father didn't care, walked over and bent down again, staring at his son's blushing face.

"It's normal to know you're afraid. Only when you know you're afraid will you force yourself to react. But you can only run, and you can't protect anything. You have to protect your brother and your mother in the future. Now you have to Tell yourself, you can't run." Hu Luan said in a deep voice, reaching out and touching his son's chest heavily.

"But I don't want you to become a reckless man who doesn't know how to be afraid, Jiu Zhang. You have to keep in mind the feeling of being afraid now, you know?"

Hearing his father's words, Xiao Jiuzhang showed a trace of surprise on his originally firm face,

"Remember... be afraid? Isn't it better not to be afraid?"

"Hmph... People who are not afraid don't live long. Jiuzhang, remember, you have to be afraid, but even if you are afraid, you can't run away, you have to find a way to fight back, remember?"

His father's words seemed to still ring in his ears.Hu Jiuzhang suddenly opened his eyes, his clothes were soaked in sweat.

On the river, the quietly falling moonlight dyed the water surface silvery white. In the boat, Li Muyun was sleeping peacefully beside him. The gentle breeze from the river quickly dried the damp sweat on his forehead.

Jiangnan, this rich land that only exists in the mouths of businessmen, is now presented in front of Hu Jiuzhang in every detail.He never imagined that he would have the opportunity to go to the south of the Yangtze River in this life, but now he has done all the things that he never thought of in the past. Suddenly thinking of the past, and comparing the current situation, Hu Jiuzhang only felt palpitations and could not stop the cold sweat Straight up.

Thinking about those years in Beiting, was there any battle that he didn't fight with fear while risking his life?I don't know if my father is still alive now. If he is still alive and knows that his son has defected to the rebel army and left the army without authorization to become a deserter, the old man is afraid that even if he has only one breath left, he will have to kill this son who has humiliated his family. up!When Hu Jiuzhang thought of this, he couldn't stop sweating.

But if you want to ask Hu Jiuzhang if he regrets it later, he really can't think of a reason to regret it.

Live for yourself, why should you regret it...

Looking at the peacefully flowing river outside the cabin, his brows gradually tightened, as if he was breathing with his father in memory.

This time, I'm afraid my son won't listen to you anymore...

Hu Jiuzhang murmured secretly in his heart, but the sweat on his forehead kept oozing out several times, as if it would never end.

In terms of prosperity and prosperity, the water towns in the south of the Yangtze River are not comparable to Chang'an, but Hu Jiuzhang is still surprised by the peace and tranquility here.On the way down the river, you can still see refugees fleeing chaos with their families on the shore, but on the other side of the river, there are more of them just the ordinary life of small bridges and flowing water, melon fields and plums.The war in the north has become a talking point in people's mouths, rather than a bloody fact.

Seeing this, Hu Jiuzhang even had a little nostalgia for Chen Fan's idea of ​​staying in the south of the Yangtze River to seek medical treatment. Perhaps they should really seek medical treatment in the south of the Yangtze River in peace, which is better than being swallowed by wind and waves at sea, or dying in Liaodong Stronger in severe cold.But when Hu Jiuzhang thought of this, he broke out in a cold sweat belatedly.

He couldn't help but raised his hand and patted his cheek, using so much force that half of his face turned red.

Hu Jiuzhang, you were not such a person before!

He said to himself secretly in his heart.It's as if the tough and resolute soldier before has died, replaced by a coward who is nostalgic for ease and timid.Hu Jiuzhang looked at Li Muyun who was sleeping soundly, his fists were clenched even tighter, his nails were embedded in his flesh, the pain was not enough, he had to squeeze blood, and then he slowly loosened his fists.

For a moment, he closed his eyes, wanting to separate himself from the misty rain in the south of the Yangtze River.

Not long after, the sun rose from the east, and Hu Jiuzhang looked at the sun intently.Facing the fire wheel, Hu Jiuzhang narrowed his eyes slightly, but his eyes became sharper and firmer.

After going south, the group took a boat along the river to the east.But in a few days, the salty smell of the undulating waves beating can be smelled on the waters.And when the real sea slowly unfolded in front of everyone, even Li Muyun, who was still ill, was shocked by the scene in front of him. The ocean that swallows everything.

Looking at the boundless land with rolling waves, Hu Jiuzhang took deep breaths one after another. He leaned over to support Li Muyun's back, held him behind his back and kissed him several times.

"Your illness can be cured..."

Hu Jiuzhang lowered his head and whispered in Li Muyun's ear.And Li Muyun's response at this time was rare.

"Well, everything will be fine."

Li Muyun looked at the boundless sea as if fascinated.He decided to say that his expression didn't look like he was looking at the sea, but more like he was looking at someone or something that was happening.But even if he had thousands of thoughts in his heart, they all became insignificant in front of this vast blue ocean.

When changing ships at the harbor, Chen Fan bid farewell to the group for the last time.When he got here, he would go back to reunite with his family.

After the fall of Luoyang, the Chen family took refuge in Jiangdu all the way. This powerful and powerful aristocrat who had been prominent in the Wei and Jin Dynasties still had enough energy to allow the members of the family to survive the troubled times.But in Chen Fan in front of him, he could no longer find the proud demeanor of a disciple of a powerful family. Instead, he was more like a martial artist passing by on the street, who could blend into the streets of ordinary people in an instant.

Before leaving, Chen Fan paid for Li Muyun's medicine enough for a month, which can be regarded as taking good care of Li Muyun.Although Yan Zhaozhong was still laughing that he was clinging to the royal family and leaving a way out for himself, Hu Jiuzhang still thanked Chen Fan for countless times, and only said that if there was a chance to meet again, he would do his best to reciprocate.

"Hey—don't talk about the repayment," Chen Fan put his arms around Hu Jiuzhang's shoulder and said with a smile, "Just one thing, you won't regret it later, will you?"

"Regret?" Hu Jiuzhang was slightly taken aback.

"Going to Liaodong here is not like navigating the waterways in the south of the Yangtze River. If you leave here, it will not be so easy to contact the Central Plains. Do you regret it later?"

After Chen Fan asked, Hu Jiuzhang couldn't help but twitch his eyebrows. He thought for a moment, his eyes swept between the land and the sea, and the wrinkles between his brows gradually calmed down.

"No regrets. I'll be back."

He said in a deep voice, then turned his eyes to the side of the sea, and a smile suddenly appeared on his face.

"Besides, it's too late to say regret it today..."

The author says:

The time to code this chapter is July [-]th, and this is the last chapter of the manuscript (ㄒoㄒ) The work in July is much busier than expected, and I need to travel frequently and work overtime. I thought it would be July I can keep updating every Wednesday, but I didn't expect to spend nearly a week writing this chapter.After this chapter, there will be no continuous updates, but because there is no manuscript, it may become updated every Monday or twice a week. Thanks to the little friends who have been reading here/(ㄒoㄒ)/~~ I will work hard on September I finished writing this article a month ago