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"Look at the shoes on her feet, why are they so worn out?"

"Where is there, I should have saved up for a long time to buy a discounted model a few years ago, right?"

"Okay, okay, don't talk about it, people should check it out."

"So what can I do if I look at it? I laughed so hard, I look like a poor man."

"Hahahahaha you really know how to say, poor and poor □ hahahaha!"

Xiaohua clenched her hands into fists, lowered her head, stared at a group of girls talking and pointing in low voices, walked quickly through the corridor, and the moment she returned to the classroom, she breathed a sigh of relief, but her heart turned into a burst of sadness.

Xiaohua’s family background is not very rich, and she grew up in a very traditional family. All the family’s source of income is earned by her father’s transportation and unloading, and her mother is a pure housewife. Except for grocery shopping and cooking at the vegetable market, she rarely goes out. , and no friends.

When she was young, she was carefree, even though her life was not so rich, Xiaohua lived happily all day long.

But as I grew older and went to elementary school and then junior high school, there were many strange eyes around me.Those eyes will stare at others closely.Looking at the style and brand of the clothes, a group of people then gather together and say two or three sentences of inferences about the person based on the information they get from their eyes, and finally add embellishments to finalize the shape, either extremely high praise, or down to the bone belittlement .

She didn't have something that many people her age had.

This is different from everything she has experienced since she was a child, and everything has changed.

She has good grades, is obedient, and well-behaved. She always gets praise and attention from her elders. Children of the same age also like her very much. She never knew that besides these things, there are so many other things about money. s things.

Hearing their piercing voices, Xiaohua couldn't help but clashed with them, directly provoking the conflict between them and herself.

The war has changed from being sneaky in the dark to being upright on the bright side. Finally, with the advantage of numbers, it intensified, and finally evolved into blatant attacks and ridicules.

What is increasing day by day is Xiao Hua's growing inferiority complex day after day.

Why did they have them and she didn't?

Why can those of them who only poke other people's backs in the back, wear those expensive clothes, become so flamboyant?

But she studied hard every day, but she couldn't get the respect of others, and even people who didn't know her would listen to the rumors fabricated by those people.

Xiaohua returned to her seat. Bu Chongming noticed the frustration in her expression, and took out a square acrylic box with a few leaves and a grasshopper in it: "Look, I caught a grasshopper."

But Xiaohua is not in the mood to look at the grasshopper in Bu Congming's hand.

Bu Congming pushed the box onto Xiao Hua's desk, and said, "Don't worry about what those stinky mouths say, I don't believe what they say, I know what kind of person you are."

"You don't believe it, but what about others? Others believe it! The way they look at me, do you know how they look at me? You don't understand, you don't understand at all!" As he spoke, tears of grievance flowed down his face.

Bu Congming panicked, and quickly comforted him: "Hey, hey, don't cry! We have grasshoppers!"

After comforting for a long time, Xiao Hua stopped crying.

The voices and movements of the two attracted the attention of people around the class.

Some smiled maliciously, some whistled to Bu Congming, and some were whispering to the people next to them.

The actions and demeanor of the people around were caught in Xiaohua's eyes one by one, magnifying the inferiority and sorrow in her heart. She pushed the square box on the table suddenly, and the box fell to the ground, and the lid opened, and the grasshopper inside took the opportunity to He jumped out and jumped onto the clothes of the girl next to him, causing her to panic for a while.

Bu Congming quickly stood up, and amidst the clamor of the whole class, he went to catch the green grasshopper and shouted, "My grasshopper!"

When Xiaohua saw Bu Congming's actions, she was angry, annoyed and ashamed.It was already humiliating enough, and these faces were even more dishonored.

After a long time, Bu Chongming grabbed the grasshopper again and put it safely into the square box.

Xiaohua questioned, "Bu Congming, don't you feel ashamed?"

Bu Congming was stunned for a moment, then scratched his head, not knowing why: "Uh, what's there to be ashamed of?"

"They're all laughing at you!"

"No way... Didn't everyone catch grasshoppers just now? It's just that when we play together and have fun, we laugh and make noise. When I caught grasshoppers just now, I laughed too."

"..."

"Besides, the grasshopper I caught is for you. I don't think it's a shameful thing."

Seeing that Bu Congming didn't understand her thoughts at all, Xiaohua didn't want to continue the conversation with him, so she turned around angrily and wrote the homework left by the teacher in class.

Bu Congming still didn't understand, he just stood there in a daze, watching Xiaohua write vigorously, and didn't dare to talk too much.

The love between the two was carried out in secret, Xiao Hua didn't want others to know, and ordered Bu Congming not to tell others, he has been strictly obeying Xiao Hua's order, deliberately creating the illusion of unrequited love for everyone.

When we first got together, Bu Congming tried his best to catch grasshoppers for her to make her happy. Her body was covered in dust, and there were bumps and untreated wounds on her elbows, which moved her to tears. The two People come together.

But now, Bu Congming's technique of catching grasshoppers is getting better and better, but Xiaohua no longer likes to look at the grasshoppers and smile.

It's not just a matter of a grasshopper, Bu Congming noticed that Xiao Hua has undergone earth-shaking changes inadvertently.

For example, a month later, the pair of pink sneakers with a well-known brand logo on her feet.

As soon as Xiaohua came to the classroom, Bu Congming noticed: "Xiaohua, you look good in these shoes."

After hearing this sentence, Xiaohua was very helpful. She put her schoolbag on the desk and said proudly: "That's right, this is a famous brand, why doesn't it look good?"

"It's really beautiful, and it suits you very well." Seeing Xiao Hua happy, Bu Congming was also happy.

"That's not it!"

It's just that this joy was broken not long after.

"Are those shoes on Mei Naodai's feet real or fake?"

"Fake, fake, I searched, and there is no such style at all."

"Yes, yes, and look, the thread of her shoes is not smooth at all, and there is such a large piece of glue on the back, it must be a fake!"

There is a new handle that can be used for chatting, how can I let it go.One pass ten, ten pass one hundred.Everyone knows that Xiaohua wears a pair of fake ones on her feet.

This pair of shoes was bought by Xiaohua in a roadside store for 200 yuan after saving money for a month. Compared with the shoes she usually wears, the price is already much more expensive.

She didn't know that those so-called authentic products could be more expensive, so expensive that she couldn't afford them at all.

The inferiority complex in her heart was magnified infinitely by her shame, and her grades plummeted accordingly.

"Xiaohua, why don't you wear those pink sneakers of yours? They look great." Bu Congming carefully corrected Xiaohua's test paper, and asked casually.

Stuck on Xiao Hua's sore spot, she suddenly became angry like a cat whose tail has been stepped on: "Stop talking!"

Looking at Xiao Hua's angry face, Bu Congming felt mixed feelings.

After a long time, he said: "Okay, I won't say any more, don't be angry." After speaking, he lowered his head again and continued to draw the mistakes on the test paper with the red pen.

He looked at the lovely girl beside him in silence, changing day by day, but he couldn't bear to criticize, followed her, let her, and gave her all the protection he could give.

Until one day in the third year of junior high school, Xiaohua walked beside the gangster who did all kinds of evil in the school, laughing and cursing with him.

Speaking of joy, the little gangster raised his head and laughed, raised his hand, and scratched Xiaohua's head a few times, messing up her hair, and the frown on her face was a sign of pain.

But in the next second, she put on a happy expression again, and echoed what the little gangster said.

Bu Congming ran up in two steps, and punched the little gangster in the face, knocking him down to the ground.

"What are you doing!" Xiao Hua's scream sounded from beside her.

The little gangster clutched his bleeding nose and got up tremblingly from the ground. Xiao Hua hurriedly stepped forward to pat the dust on his body, but the gangster threw his hand away violently.

He stood up, looked at Bu Congming, who was much stronger than himself, and guessed in his heart that he would not be an opponent in a duel, so he pointed at Bu Congming who was glaring: "Very well, I will remember you. You can’t eat and walk around, and walk with your eyes open at night.”

After speaking, he walked away.

After watching the little gangster leave in embarrassment, Xiaohua screamed at Bu Congming: "What are you doing!"

Bu Congming frowned, gritted his teeth and said: "That grandson is not a thing, he bullied you! Does it hurt?" As he said, he stretched out his hand to comb Xiaohua's hair that was messed up by the gangster.

But was slapped off by Xiaohua backhand: "He didn't bully me."

Bu Congming's hand stopped in the air, and he was stunned: "But I clearly saw him..."

Xiaohua quickly interrupted him, and met his eyes full of surprise: "I voluntarily."

"what……?"

The silence between the two was prolonged, and after a long time, Xiaohua said slowly, "Bu Congming, let's break up."

Bu Congming suddenly became at a loss, and asked stutteringly, "What's wrong, Xiaohua? Is it something I did wrong? Are you angry with me? It's because of the incident at the fried yogurt shop last time." What's the matter, Xiaohua?"

Xiaohua showed an impatient look on her face: "You can't give me what I want, but others can. How can you be so selfish and want to keep me by your side?"

"No, I don't, it's not like this. Xiaohua, are you going to hang out with that little gangster just now? He is not a good person, everyone knows that. Xiaohua, what happened to you? Tell me, we Let's solve it together, you don't want to bear it alone, okay?" Bu Congming's expression was on the verge of tears.

"Okay, since you want to say that, let me ask you. When those girls scolded me, did you do anything other than tell me to ignore them?

Your family is not much richer than ours, and a pair of shoes is priced at tens of thousands. What can you do?What else can you do besides catching grasshoppers and correcting test papers? "

Bu Congming was silent for a long time, tears finally fell, he reached out to wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes, and said softly: "You can break up with me, whatever is good for me.

But you don't want to be with him, he is a very bad person, he won't cherish you. "

"It's just touching the chest. Being touched by you is also touching, and being touched by him is also touching. What difference can it make?"

Bu Congming raised his head and almost shouted, "Little Hua!"

This was the first time he yelled at her like that, which shocked Xiao Hua too.

Taking another look at Bu Congming, Xiao Hua left without looking back.

Not long after, Xiaohua and the gangster walked together in a fair manner, the number of people who bullied Xiaohua gradually decreased, and the gossip about Xiaohua also gradually disappeared. She wore various famous brands on her body and walked confidently Heads held high among the crowd.

Except for Bu Congming, who once saw a gangster and beat him once.

In the days that followed, Xiaohua often changed boyfriends, and she was soft when she got gifts. She was no longer that submissive little girl who would only follow the gangsters and get bullied. Although her reputation was not very good, she didn't care.

After going to high school, when I met Zhang Ailin, who was so wronged, I had to look for Jiangman. I met someone in kindergarten, and I almost forgot her face. How could I still remember?

But this big injustice is rich, a lot of money, Xiaohua hangs her, pulls her, and gets extraordinary benefits.

Later Man Man discovered that she had already started to affect her life, so she simply kicked her away, but she couldn't be kicked no matter how hard she kicked, so she told Zhou Zhou.

Later, a sports student named Yang Kangyu was transferred to the class. He looked dumb and was a very nice person. The most important thing was that he was rich.No matter how hard he tried, he couldn't penetrate into his heart, so he had to give up.

I spent too much time and energy on Yang Kangyu, so that during that period of time it was a window period, and there was no source of income at all. The things that my ex-boyfriend around me gave away had almost been given away by her. In order to continue to maintain In the eyes of her friends, she has no choice but to borrow money.

Unexpectedly, since no new victim was found, the creditors pressed her every step of the way, sending people to look for her every three days, and the slaps on her face were too numerous to count.

After Xiaohua finished this paragraph with tears, she felt exhausted: "I really have no other choice, can I lend you some money, and I will pay you back right away, right away."

Zhang Ailin took out her mobile phone and wanted to transfer money, but Zhou Zhou quickly stopped her: "I'll give you some more money, so I can spend it again?"

Xiao Hua cried out in remorse: "I really know I was wrong, I don't dare anymore, really."

Seeing Xiao Hua like this, even though she knew she deserved what she deserved, she still couldn't help but soften her heart: "How much did you borrow?"

"One thousand seven."

Zhou Zhou transferred 2000 yuan to Xiaohua: "I transferred [-] yuan to you, you can take it and pay back part of it first, and they shouldn't embarrass you too much for the time being when they get the money.

For the rest of the money, you can figure it out yourself, and it is impossible for others to always bear the mistakes you make. "

Xiao Hua burst into tears, thanked her quickly and left.

Zhang Ailin's drunkenness completely dissipated, she looked at Xiao Hua's back, and asked, "Can she pay back the money herself?"

"As far as I know, no."

"Then why are you...?"

Zhou Zhou turned his head, looked at Zhang Ailin and said with a smile: "Why did you stop you from helping her? You are my girlfriend, why do you want to help other women?"

"No..." Zhang Ailin argued feebly, for the three words "girlfriend".

"Sooner or later it will be."