My deskmate absolutely has a crush on me

In retrospect, it was a bit hypocritical, but at that time Xie Le'an really confessed to Sheng Ling with the heart of death.

In his opinion, sixteen or seventeen-year-old boys are the most self-centered, don't care about other people's feelings, and are full of self-confidence. If they hear that they like men, they will definitely feel disgusted, and then worry unnecessarily that they like them.

So from the moment Xie Le'an realized his sexuality, he didn't dare to have close relationships with anyone.

Be friends with girls?Not realistic, girls are not necessarily happy to play with boys.Be friends with boys?Xie Le'an was afraid that if someone found out about his sexuality one day, he would be ridiculed and avoided by the boys.

I'm even more worried, if I can't control my thoughts and fall in love with someone secretly, when that person knows his true face, he will show a disgusted expression.

Sheng Ling is his best friend now, Xie Le'an just doesn't want to see the disgusted expression on this person's face.

So after saying that sentence, Xie Le'an regretted it. He clearly planned to keep it a secret, so why did he accidentally say it?

He lowered his head in panic, not daring to look at Sheng Ling's expression again.

Sheng Ling had just recovered from his surprise, he wasn't surprised that Xie Le'an liked boys - after all, he had already guessed it.

He was just surprised that Xie Le'an would admit it to himself at this time.

Sheng Ling stepped up, stepped up the steps, and sat down beside Xie Le'an.

"So?" Sheng Ling's voice was calm, and Xie Le'an was relieved by this peaceful attitude, "I know you like boys, so what?"

Xie Le'an raised his head blankly, let go of the hand holding his head, and looked at Sheng Ling.

Sheng Ling continued to say calmly: "Do you want to confide in me? It's okay, if you feel it's better to say it, then tell me."

His attitude was too ordinary, as if Xie Le'an just failed in the exam and told him his unhappiness, instead of knowing that Xie Le'an liked boys.

"You...don't you feel shocked?" Xie Le'an asked slightly trembling.

Sheng Ling thought about it seriously, and answered honestly: "A little bit. But this kind of thing is not very rare now, let alone shocking."

"Don't you feel disgusted?" Xie Le'an asked.

Sheng Ling shook his head, and put his hands on his back, the slightly scalding heat from the big boy's palm passed through the skin and flesh, and reached Xie Le'an's heart.

"Don't think too much, you have to accept yourself first." Sheng Ling said, "This matter has nothing to do with others, it's just your personal choice. Only you can trouble yourself with this matter."

Xie Le'an pursed his lips, lowered his eyes and said, "But others will discuss it."

"Let's talk about it." Sheng Ling shrugged indifferently, "If you don't care about other people's opinions, it won't affect you. If it doesn't affect you, it's like farting."

Sheng Ling frowned in the middle of speaking, feeling that this situation seemed familiar for no reason, as if he had said something similar at some point in the past.

At this time, Xie Le'an let out a long breath, showed a relieved smile, and looked sideways at Sheng Ling beside him.

He said, "Thank you, I actually guessed you would say that."

Sheng Ling looked thoughtful, and the memory of what had been thrown into a corner was slowly recovering.

Before Sheng Ling could come up with the result, Xie Le'an continued: "Didn't you ask me why I knew you when I was camping?"

"I did know you a long time ago, but you have no impression of me, because you don't even know that person is me."

Sheng Ling still has no clue, the memory is like a mess, intertwined and chaotic in his mind, he doesn't know where the story related to it is placed.

Xie Le'an saw Sheng Ling's serious face, as if he was racking his brains to remember, and kindly reminded: "Let me give you a hint, the psychological counseling room."

what.

Sheng Ling was taken aback for a moment, but suddenly realized the next moment.

That was a whole year ago, and it was also such a season of late summer and early autumn. At that time, they had just become freshmen in No. [-] Middle School.

No. [-] Middle School attaches great importance to the construction of students' mental health, and also specially allocated funds to set up a psychological counseling room, and invited several qualified psychological counseling teachers to be on duty.Students who have questions and confusion can go to consult.

Shengling's youngest aunt had just been a teacher in the psychological counseling room, so he went to the counseling room that day when he had something to do with his aunt.

But when I went to the consulting room, I found that my aunt was not there, and my mobile phone was still left on the desk, but I didn't know where she went.

Thinking that since the phone is there, the person will definitely come back soon, Sheng Ling plans to find a place to sit down and wait for the person.

The consulting room is beautifully decorated, and the overall color is a light avocado green, which makes people feel a natural sense of intimacy, and can't help but feel relaxed.

Sheng Ling sat down on the seat of the psychology teacher, put his toes on the ground, and turned around with the chair.

"Teacher, are you back?"

Suddenly, a voice came from inside. It sounded like a student, a boy.

Sheng Ling's movements stopped immediately, he felt embarrassed to be caught doing something bad, even though he didn't do anything.Embarrassed by this idea, he didn't immediately answer the question from the insider.

"Teacher, you are right, maybe I shouldn't think too much about this right now... Whether I like boys or girls, it's not the most important thing I should think about right now..."

The people inside were walking out, and Sheng Ling heard his footsteps getting closer.

What's more, that person was talking about his own thoughts while walking.

Sheng Ling knew that there were rules in the consultation, that no one else could be present, and that the contents of the consultation were all one's most secret thoughts, so it was not good for him to listen to it, so he had to stop at this moment.

What's more, what this guy said was quite terrible, and I heard it as soon as I came.

Sheng Ling made a decisive decision: "Stop talking, I'm not a teacher."

The people inside stopped immediately and asked in panic, "Who are you?"

"I... just a student, I have something to do with the teacher." Sheng Ling replied.

The people inside fell silent, feeling embarrassed together with Sheng Ling.

In this toe-scratching moment, the quieter the air, the harder the embarrassment.Sheng Ling couldn't take it anymore, thinking that the people inside didn't know who he was anyway, and he didn't see the other person's appearance, so he said something more.

"Actually, it's normal to like men, and there's nothing to make a fuss about. Don't trouble yourself."

After finishing speaking, Sheng Ling almost bit off his tongue, annoyed at himself why he couldn't open which pot and which pot to lift.

The atmosphere was even more strange.

The people inside remained silent, Sheng Ling was on pins and needles, and even wanted to just stand up and leave.

Finally, at the last moment when he was about to be unbearable, the person inside spoke again and asked, "Then what should we do when others talk about it?"

And Sheng Ling had already stood up at this time, he thought he should come to find his aunt at another time, in such a flustered mood, when he heard the question from the person inside, he answered unceremoniously——

"Just treat them as farts!"

With that said, Sheng Ling rushed out of the consulting room in a hurry.

It was just such a coincidence that Shengling's little aunt just came back and saw her eldest nephew rushing out of the consultation room, and unexpectedly called him: "Sheng Ling?"

Sheng Ling was not in the mood to say anything to his little aunt now, and left without looking back.

Sheng Yanwu was confused, looking at the direction Sheng Ling left, wondering: "What is this kid doing?"

She turned her head and saw that the shy boy who came for consultation had come out of the inner room, stood by the partition, and looked over timidly.

That boy was Xie Le'an. He heard Sheng Yanwu call that boy's name just now, and asked a little embarrassedly: "Teacher, do you know who that was just now?"

Sheng Yanwu didn't think too much, and replied with a smile: "That's my nephew, his name is Sheng Ling, he is a freshman in high school like you, maybe you will know each other in the future."

Seeing Sheng Ling's expression gradually become clear, Xie Le'an knew that he remembered.

Sure enough, the next moment Sheng Ling suddenly said: "So that person is you."

Looking back now, it's still a bit weird, Xie Le'an stroked his hair, pursed his lips and smiled, and nodded.

Looking at his revived expression, Sheng Ling thought in his heart, could it be that from then on, Xie Le'an secretly liked him?

Xie Le'an was still laughing, Sheng Ling suddenly felt a little afraid to look directly, and looked away.

I thought, that's been a long time.

"At that time..." Sheng Ling wanted to explain, "I didn't comfort you."

"Huh?" Xie Le'an blinked and looked at him.

Sheng Ling said seriously: "What I said at the time was my true thoughts, not to comfort you."

Xie Le'an smiled relievedly: "I know."

It must be so, after all, if it is not true, why are Sheng Ling's two words so similar?

Sheng Ling looked at Xie Le'an's eyes, and felt that his eyes became more and more like cat's eyes, they were round and the pupils were also round, too clear and free of impurities.

"You haven't told me, who is that sports student?"

After thinking about it, Sheng Ling still asked, he didn't know why, anyway, he just cared about this.

Speaking of Yi Yao, Xie Le'an became a little depressed. He never thought that Yi Yao would do such an impulsive thing and embarrass himself so much.

He averted his eyes, and briefly introduced: "It's a brother who my neighbor knew since childhood. His grandmother and his grandmother have a good relationship, and his grandmother asked him to take care of me."

"I didn't know he would be like this..." Xie Le'an was very annoyed, and reached out to lift his forehead hair.

Seeing Xie Le'an like this, Sheng Ling felt that he didn't care that much about the sports student anymore.

After saying this, the two of them sat shoulder to shoulder in the corridor for a while, until the bell rang for the official start of evening self-study.

Xie Le'an woke up suddenly, and felt scared after knowing it: "It's over, class is over, will Teacher He know what happened today?"

Sheng Ling didn't reply, but both of them knew that He Shu would know about this matter sooner or later, from the cause to the consequence.

"Let's go." Sheng Ling stood up with his thighs propped up, turned around and pulled Xie Le'an's wrist.

"Go back and wait to be scolded."

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Sheng Ling: He hates that sports student (secretly happy)