On the bone

Leaning his head on the window frame, opening the curtains a crack, looking at the people walking downstairs in the night, until Cayenne drove out of the hotel and completely disappeared from sight, Ning Huiran let out a heavy breath, feeling almost empty and lonely. Killed him.

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The lighter keeps rubbing dry and won't come out.

Damn, recognize someone.

Ning Huiran couldn't figure out why Mu Mingyi had it when he rubbed it, and he didn't see a single spark for a long time, so he fiddled with the lighter puzzledly, wondering if it was really Mu Mingyi who gave it to him, his brain just touched this person Ning Huiran's heart throbbed suddenly, and Ning Huiran exhaled carefully.

Staring at the air in a daze on the bed, he suddenly remembered that Mu Mingyi told him before leaving that he must take sleeping pills to sleep, and that he had to check before boarding the plane.

Ning Huiran picked up the soda water and swallowed it. A video invitation came in from his mobile phone. He was stupid, how could a sleeping person answer it.

Throwing the mobile phone on the bed, half of his shirt was taken off, Ning Huiran suddenly seemed to be enlightened, crawled on the bed with hands and feet, and rushed to accept the invitation - he said that he could not wake him up all the time, and his acting skills were also very explosive, okay? good.

Of course, he didn't pick it up, and when he called again, it turned into flight mode.

Annoyed with foul language, he grabbed the pillow and threw it at his face. In response to the suddenly dimming light, Ning Huiran closed his eyes impatiently. In less than 5 minutes, he sat up like a dead body, panting heavily, In a cold sweat.

After reading the instruction manual, I found that the ingredients of the sleeping pill would take effect in half an hour, half, half an hour... Ning Huiran stared, raised his head speechlessly, and forced himself to let go, expel all the images about Cheng Xinhai in his mind.

Pulling open the curtains with a swipe, Ning Huiran stood in front of the window with his pockets on his back, his eyes involuntarily moved to the big round moon on the top of his head, emitting pure light, it hung quietly in the night sky, ostentatiously, Attracts everyone's attention.

……

The moon made his eyes sore, dry and painful. Xia Pei kept blinking, but no moisture came out. In the third month after Cheng Xinhai left, getting wet eyes became the thing Xia Pei dreamed of most.

Tightly closing his eyes, putting his feet on the berth, Xia Pei arched his back and hugged his knees, curled up in a corner of the single soft berth on the train, and swayed with the body of the train.

In the dim light of day, Xia Pei opened his eyes, and there was a tingling pain in his eyes. He covered them vainly, reached into his backpack to take out eye drops, heard the station name reported in advance, wiped the liquid overflowing from the corner of his eyes, and Xia Pei went to the ground Put on your shoes and start packing your luggage.

This is a zero-pollution, pure and natural, typical rural landscape full of earthy smell and cow and horse manure. Xia Pei walked on the dirt road and coughed unaccustomedly. The person driving an electric tricycle next to him glanced at him and stopped the car , the man yelled at him, "Where are you going? Do you want to take a car?"

He lifted his straw hat with his fingers, and the glare of the midday sun was shining brightly on a person in the car. It seemed safer if someone was riding with him, but Xia Pei was also afraid of getting too close to strangers. He hesitated and stood where he was. Daze.

Unable to wait for him, the driver turned his head back, Xia Pei hurriedly called out, hurried a few steps, and got into the car.

As soon as he got in the car, he felt the gaze of the man in the car. Xia Pei didn't dare to look at each other, let alone look more. money.

The one who came with the money was a small voice, the old man couldn't hear it clearly, let him speak louder, Xia Pei exerted all his strength, and shouted a series of words: "I want to ask you if there is a family named Cheng here, do you know?" I don’t know how there is a person named Cheng Xinhai, how to get to their house.”

In the car together, the person who was jumping down paused. He glanced at Xia Pei, put his feet on the ground, patted the ashes on his hands, and walked towards the village.

The tricycle driver pointed at him and said to follow him.

Xia Pei hurriedly looked at the figure that was about to disappear, thanked this side in a panic, dragged the box and ran, and did not really see clearly until the distance between the front and rear feet of the person.

A tall and thin young man, with the appearance of sixteen or seventeen, with a childish face, wearing a school uniform, full of youthful vitality, Xia Pei rarely stares at people, but he can't move his eyes in a daze. There was an inexplicable sense of familiarity in every posture, and he felt palpitations.

At this moment, the boy suddenly turned around, and Xia Pei, who was rubbing his chest, almost jumped up in fright.

"What are you looking for from him?"

Xia Pei didn't slow down, and stared at him dumbly.

The other party obviously had a hot temper: "Why are you pretending to be stupid?! Why are you looking for Cheng Xinhai?"

"...Let's take a look."

The rhetoric he had planned was all messed up, Xia Pei shrank his neck, and took a step back in fear.

"He's dead." The boy gave him a white look, threw his backpack over his shoulder, turned around and left, restraining the pain caused by these three words, Xia Pei stopped in front of the boy.

He first made a big ninety-degree bow, saying that he was a student of Teacher Cheng Xinhai, and wanted to see if there was anything he could do to help, and try his best.

The young man looked suspiciously at Xia Pei from the top of his head to the soles of his feet. The person in front of him was fair-looking, handsome and refined, with a modest demeanor and a cowardly student air. The young man probably believed it.

Nod, let Xia Pei follow.

The two wandered around the village for a while, and came to a vermilion lacquered iron gate. The young man pushed the door open without patting and entered, shouting: "Wang Shuqin, someone is looking for Cheng Xinhai."

The middle-aged woman who was sitting on the steps picking vegetables raised her head when she heard the sound, and fired at the boy without saying a word: "Xinrui, why do you call your brother that?! Fuck you!"

"I called you that too, I didn't hear you." Cheng Xinrui said without looking at his mother, and jumped over the threshold to enter the house.

The almost cannibal face visibly softened when seeing Xia Pei behind Cheng Xinrui, Wang Shuqin blinked, Xia Pei made another big bow, and called "Auntie Hello".

The other party hurriedly stood up, wiped his hands with an apron, and asked who Xia Pei was.

It was still the same thing, Xia Pei called Cheng Xinhai as Teacher Cheng, Wang Shuqin was surprised at first, Cheng Xinhai had terminated the employment relationship with the school before his death, Wang Shuqin failed to get any condolence money from the school, originally thought it had nothing to do with this school relationship, yet another student came looking for him.

Letting Wang Shuqin into the room, Xia Pei didn't sit down, and stood aside uneasily with his hands twisted, his eyes moved with Wang Shuqin who was busy making tea and water, until he met Wang Shuqin's eyes again, Xia Pei let out an 'ah', and he squatted down I came down and took out snacks, fruits, milk and some convenient and expensive supplements from the box. After placing them neatly on the table, the suitcase was basically emptied.

Wang Shuqin's eyes were full of light, his face was full of joy, and he said politely, "Why are you here?" In the meantime, he pulled out an apple from the plastic bag, wiped it casually on his clothes, and just took a bite.

Seeing that it was too late to stop, Wang Shuqin was so angry that she twisted Xinrui's ears. On the way to return the hand, Xia Pei had already taken out a golden bank card and handed it to Wang Shuqin.

This time it wasn't just Wang Shuqin, who was biting the apple, tilting his head to avoid her mother's Xinrui, who was also stunned.

"Ah...that's right, I borrowed money from Teacher Cheng before, and this is to pay him back."

The room fell into silence, and Wang Shuqin, who was the first to react, yelled. She took the card and looked at it over and over again, swallowing, as if she wanted to eat the card.

"How much?" Cheng Xinrui asked.

"Fifty thousand." Xia Pei lowered his head, looking uneasy.

Wang Shuqin yelled in surprise, there was a frightened vibrato, Xia Pei looked up quickly, and saw Cheng Xinrui holding up the card with two fingers, and the other hand holding an apple blocked Wang Shuqin, saying that it was time to pay the tuition .

Wang Shuqin's strength soared in an instant, and he grabbed Cheng Xinrui's hair and pulled it. The women who have been doing farm work for a long time have big arms and strong hands.

When the card was snatched back, Wang Shuqin blew with his mouth cherishingly, wiped it with his hands again, and put it close to his body, when he raised his head, Xia Pei stood several meters away from their mother and wife. Xia Pei laughed, saying that Cheng Xinrui's child is ignorant, so don't take it to heart.

Xia Pei went to see Cheng Xinrui, and when he realized that the other party was also looking at him, he immediately looked away and asked Wang Shuqin; "I heard Teacher Cheng said that he seems to have only one younger sister, but he never said that he has a younger brother..."

"Isn't my village not allowed to have more children, for fear of fines, he has been adoptive at his cousin's house. Now that Xinhai is gone, both of our children are gone, so let him come back..." Wang Shuqin's tone was tainted. There was a layer of darkness, and his expression also dimmed.

Xia Pei lowered his head very deeply, he couldn't let others see his appearance.

Gritting his teeth for a while, Xia Pei raised his head, smiled at the people in the room, put his bag on his back, and pulled up the box to say goodbye to them. Wang Shuqin seemed to be shocked, and dragged Xia Pei to refuse to leave, and insisted on staying. After he had dinner, Xia Pei didn't answer the question, and took out a small note written in advance, on which was his mobile phone number and detailed address, and nodded shyly to Wang Shuqin, saying that he needed help if there was any difficulty If you want, find him anytime.

Similar to the fate of that card, the note was snatched by Xinrui before it was warmed up in Wang Shuqin's hands.

Wang Shuqin's yelling and cursing got farther and farther behind him. Xia Pei was dragged and ran to the village. The diet is extremely irregular. Most of the time, I only eat one meal a day or don't eat at all, and my stomach is very weak.

Enduring the tumbling energy, Cheng Xinrui touched Xia Pei's heel with the tip of his shoe: "Hey you! Cheng Xinhai didn't lend you any money at all, did he?"

Xia Pei spit out a few mouthfuls, stood up slowly, and looked at him timidly.

"Everyone is dead, and I don't have an IOU, so I ran all the way to pay back the money, brother, do you know that you are sick?" Cheng Xinrui snorted coldly.

Xia Pei didn't speak, but lowered his head.

Ever since I saw this thin and lonely person, I haven't seen him lift his head a few times. How heavy is it?

Cheng Xinrui looked impatient: "It's useless if you give our family money!" He clicked fiercely, scratching his head with his hands: "I don't know why you are doing this! What are you trying to do...Wang Shuqin might have made something up. Well, how much money she can spend in a week, she would rather lose at the poker table than pay my tuition fees, fuck, I have to drop out of high school in the second year of high school," the voice amplified when talking about the pain, and the anger became even bigger: "How dare you put Give her a call! Wait until she clings to you every day and asks you to borrow money, and then cry when you're gone, your head is stuck!"

"Your tuition before that..." Xia Pei interrupted him.

Cheng Xinrui pursed her lips: "Chen Xinhai, he will pay for me."

"I'll add you on WeChat." Taking out his phone, Xia Pei said calmly, "I'll pay for you."

"Who are you?!" With a loud volcanic cry, Cheng Xinrui seemed to regard Xia Pei as a patient, or the one who escaped from the mental hospital. He waved his hand; People." After finishing speaking, he turned and walked forward.

In desperation, Xia Pei made a pulling action, and Cheng Xinrui not only turned around and pushed him, but also coaxed him like a fly: "Go, go, go! I warn you not to bother me."

Not daring to do anything more, Xia Pei gritted his lips and looked at the back of the person in front of him, just as he pulled up the luggage on the ground and turned in the opposite direction to Cheng Xinrui, a broken voice came from behind: "Where are you going?! Go here! "

Xia Pei turned around, and at some point, Cheng Xinrui slanted a straw in his mouth, feeling annoyed and annoyed, but undeniably there was still some warmth coming out, maybe it was just what Xia Pei insisted on, there was At that moment, he really felt like his brother.

Something uncontrollable surged up, and Xia Pei felt his chest swell and ache, as did his eye sockets. He touched it with his hands, but there was no change at all.

Taking a step forward, he stepped on the shadow of Xinrui falling on the ground.

In the end, Xia Pei still scanned Cheng Xinrui's WeChat, added a phone call, and his avatar was safely placed in the address book. He took out a small book from his bag, and typed out a few lines, and another line was crossed out. go down.

The strokes of the pen deepened back and forth, the train swayed suddenly, and the paper was torn. In fact, Xia Pei had been distracted all the time. Only now did he suddenly realize that, after sucking his nose, he wanted to cry again, and this impulse would only stay at the level of feeling , which cannot be achieved physiologically.

He was diagnosed with damaged lacrimal glands and could not cry.

Too much crying and poor rest, the doctor told him.

So fragile.

Xia Pei said this to himself, lay down on the train table, and closed his eyes.

"Xiao Pei, it's not that Auntie didn't offer it to you. This shop was originally set up against the regulations..." Liu Guilan lowered her voice and approached Xia Pei: "I know your grandma so well, no one can fool you, let's talk about this movie. The place is going to be demolished soon, it’s really not worth it.”

Xia Pei was very stubborn, whether it was his answer or his firm eyes, Liu Guilan persuaded another load of words with reason and emotion, but she still showed no sign of letting go, so she complied in desperation.

After handing over the keys to the grocery store to Xia Pei, Liu Guilan followed her daughter into the car at the door, and her son-in-law got off and put the luggage in the back of the car. This time she was going to live abroad for a long time, so Liu Guilan reckoned that she would come back here It was dismantled and there was nothing left.

With some reluctance, she took one last look at the shop, and the boy who saw him off at the door smiled slightly at her.

After the people left, Xia Pei entered the shop. Having experienced the baptism of the last rainstorm, the small shop looked loose, as if he would be able to get down on the ground if he just got a little wind from his superiors. He did repairs all morning. Pei put the guy down and straightened his sore back. Just at this moment, someone pushed in the door and said to buy a bottle of green tea.

The person who came lowered his head and took out his mobile phone from his pocket, then raised his head, startled as if seeing a ghost, the boy in front of him not only stared straight at him, but tears rolled down his eyes.

The man was more than just embarrassed. The expression of the question mark in capital letters on his face made him grin from ear to ear. Just as he was about to repeat the simple request of buying water, the boy started laughing through his tears, and even touched his face blindly.

"Fuck," the man backed away in horror, muttering, "Crazy." The plastic curtain was lifted, and just as he stepped out, a ray of sunset just hit him in the face, the man squinted his eyes uncomfortably, and quickened his pace of leaving.

Even though it was the setting sun, it was extraordinarily high-profile, dyeing the entrance of the small shop golden.

In the shop, a boy kept wiping away the water from his eyes with the back of his hand, the palm of his hand, and even his wrist. He couldn’t tell whether he was crying or laughing. The mix of crying and laughing was mixed, even the tone of voice was the same. Looking at the scorching sun, he slowly He walked in slowly, felt the temperature of it sprinkled on the top of his head, fell on his shoulders, and brushed his cheeks, which was so hot that his heart would melt. He closed his eyes, raised his head, and enjoyed something like immersing himself in life.

This is the last shot of the film.

The author says:

At this point, the play within the play is over. I have written a huge card for this ending. I don't know how to make Xia Pei get better, or how to get better... The degree of abuse has exceeded the standard.