nosy on you

reject and avoid

After returning to the room, Gu Xi stood on the balcony and smoked one cigarette after another until his throat was so dry that it hurt.

There seemed to be a lingering warmth on his lips, he stretched out his hand to touch it, and smelled the smoke from his fingertips in his nose.

tsk...

Probably got sand in my head.

After the verification failed that day, I thought it was just a false alarm, but just now, some kind of impulse that had been aroused before came back again, and the body reacted unexpectedly, and it was even more violent this time.

Gu Xi remembered the paragraph he read when he checked Baidu Encyclopedia.

"The so-called "acquired homosexuality" refers to bisexuals who have never had love and sexual desire for the opposite sex and realized their sexual orientation too late. "

Does he belong to this group?

impossible!

For beautiful girls with exquisite faces, tall figures, long breasts and thighs, Gu Xi can't help but look twice more, and he still feels excited when he is alone with them.

Among the ex-girlfriends taken away by Dongfeng trucks, there are a few that he never forgets.

But after taking a closer look, I feel that none of them seem to have anything to do with love and sexual desire.

At least he won't take the initiative to kiss his ex-girlfriends, and he hasn't had a similar reaction to anyone.

Gu Xi couldn't find a suitable word to describe his mood at the moment, he had grown up so much, he never thought that he would fall into confusion and self-doubt because of such a problem.

Although he only spoke half of the rigorous words, he had already guessed the second half of the sentence long ago.

I like you……

If it was in the past, if any man said these four words to him, as long as the other party was not hideous or horrible, he would politely reply thank you, and then laughed it off.

But today he used "I'm sorry".

Even if he knew that once he said this sentence, he and Yan Jing might not even be friends.

But at this moment, he really couldn't think of any other way to respond, or he couldn't respond at all.

The sound of the crashing waves was a bit harsh, as if a bloody hole had been pierced through his heart, he watched Gu Xi's back turning into the brightly lit back door of the hotel, and he was stunned for a long time before he came back to his senses.

got rejected……

There is no imaginary pain and heart-piercing.

Maybe I guessed the result from the very beginning. It is inevitable to be uncomfortable and depressed, but it is not enough to hum a "I want to cry but I can't cry" for myself.

Just now, the whole person was immersed in the various bitter scenes that emerged in his mind. After recovering his perception at this moment, he suddenly noticed a figure flashing past under the coconut tree not far away from the corner of his vision.

"Who's there?" Yan Jing was taken aback, and ran after her.

The man didn't run fast, he just crossed the road and fled into the opposite grove, stood rigorously on the side of the road and looked in, it was pitch black, and it was difficult to hide behind any tree. Get people out.

Judging from the back view, the man should be a man, not tall, but the light is too dark to see his clothes clearly, but he fled in the opposite direction from the hotel, so he definitely couldn't be an employee of the logistics center.

Yan Jing doesn't know how long he has been watching by the side, and he doesn't know why he is so interested in peeking at two men kissing on the beach at night, if he insists on a reason——

Maybe it's the same kind.

Those of the same kind were probably very disappointed, after all, he and Gu Xi didn't have a scene of dry fire.

When they went out, they both brought their room cards, but Yan Jing didn't want to go back now. The night was long, and after being rejected, they sat face to face and stared at each other. It was embarrassing to think about it.

He took out his mobile phone and clicked on Moments, skipped the message in the comment area, directly deleted the post that Gu Xi sent during the day, stared at the dark screen for 2 minutes, and Chang Feng's condolence call came after him.

"Why?" Yan Jing answered the phone.

"I should ask you this question..." Chang Feng said, "Why did you delete the post? Did you two quarrel?"

"It's not noisy..." Strictly sighed, "As you wish, I just confessed my love to him."

"Then..." Chang Feng clicked his tongue, "He rejected you?"

"Do you think my current state looks like he agreed?" Yan Jing gritted his teeth at the receiver for a while, "You'd better not appear in front of me these days, or I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself and stab you with a knife."

"Don't be like this..." Chang Feng chuckled, "You still have me, brother loves you."

"Get out..." Yan Jin wished he could put Xiao Yan's darts into the phone and fly over to nail him to death, "I don't know how to get along with him in the future, I feel quite ashamed."

"There's nothing to be ashamed of..." Chang Feng said lightly, "You can deal with it as you like. When you rejected me before, I didn't have any problems."

"Can I compare with you..." Yan Jing smiled, "You are the thickest-skinned person I have ever met."

"Hey, I won't take someone like you..." Chang Feng said, "Although the new love is good, you can't trample on the old love."

"Fuck you..." Yan Jing listened happily, "When did you become my old love, don't ruin my reputation, I'm still a clean Chinese cabbage."

"Yes yes yes..." Chang Feng started to be serious again, "When will you let me arch your cabbage."

"Gong your sister..." Yan Jing scolded, "Be careful, I will castrate you when I go back."

After chatting with Chang Feng for about an hour, after hanging up the phone, his rigorous mood calmed down a little, and when he put the phone back in his pocket, he touched the wooden lacquered box again.

Gu Xi probably hasn't slept yet, in fact, his "sorry" is already a more euphemistic and soft rejection.

Taking a deep breath, he walked back to the hotel rigorously, slowly pressed the elevator button, and slowly took out the room card and swiped it on the door lock. The moment the door was opened, the lights in the room suddenly went out.

Fuck!

Is it necessary to make it so obvious?

He didn't reach out to turn on the light, walked to the bathroom in the dark to wash his face, and then quietly crawled back to his bed.

Gu Xi lay motionless, as if he couldn't even hear the sound of breathing, but rigorously knew that he was not asleep, if he could fall asleep at this time, it would be a hell of a thing.

If you can't mention ghosts, Gu Xi will be afraid.

fuck it...

So be it, whatever you like.

I tossed and turned for most of the night, and my arms and back went numb 360 times five times.

At dawn, Yan Jing fainted for a while, and the alarm clock rang shortly after closing his eyes.

The room was exceptionally quiet, Gu Xi didn't know when to leave the door, and the quilt on the bed was not wrinkled.

Yan Yan stood up and sat up, heaved a sigh of relief when he saw the suitcase he put next to the closet, picked up the phone and opened the address book, flicked his fingers back and forth on Gu Xi's name for a long time, but finally didn't dare to click on it.

He was not found in the restaurant or lobby. The hotel staff set up a small stage on the beach early in the morning, and the logistics department simply arranged it with KT boards and balloons.

After the ceremony started, everyone gathered around the stage.

There was noisy talking and laughing all around, and the scene was a bit chaotic. Yan Jing encountered a lot of bad hands in the push and bustle, but every time he looked back, he couldn't tell who was the suspect.

The top three teams were announced first. He had never heard of the names mentioned by Lufen. He had a vague impression after seeing their appearance. The awards were presented by several directors of the operation department.

The moment they saw the prize, many female colleagues exclaimed with envy and hatred.

The skin care product set represented by the company is expensive, but Yan Jing is not too cold about the gift boxes they are holding in their hands, maybe he has already got a better gift.

No.4 is a combination of athletes. Although this pair of buddies won two first places, it is really a pity that they won the last place with an "excellent" performance of guessing 0 questions correctly in the "Mind Consonance" session.

"The group ranked fifth is very popular in this event. I know that many female colleagues are knocking on their CP."

Lu Fen looked over here, "Please Yan Jing and Gu Xi come to the stage to accept the award."

Rigorously froze, his mouth opened wide in disbelief.

Want to go?

But right now he was alone, and Ruffin forcefully added a comment to the two of them at an inopportune time.

This is a bit embarrassing.

As he squeezed towards the steps, he quickly found an excuse for Gu Xi's absence in his mind, and after thinking about it, only the tried-and-tested excuse of diarrhea was more appropriate.

As soon as he got to the front row, someone next to him suddenly grabbed him, and he turned his head rigorously, followed by another burst of astonishment.

"Close your mouth." Gu Xi said in a low voice.

The supervisor of the stock preparation team walked up to them with a gift bag and said some polite words with a smile.

Yan Jin took the prize with both hands, bowed to the leader, Gu Xi hugged him on the shoulder with a calm expression, raised the bag and shook it towards the melon-eating crowd: "Thank you..."

Before the host could speak, he stepped off the stage in a serious manner and walked straight to the back of the crowd. His arms shrank back instantly as if they had been burned.

you sir!

Do you want to sterilize your bottle of alcohol?

"I thought you weren't coming..." Yan Jing was a little uncomfortable, and asked casually, "Where did you go early in the morning?"

"Turned around on the beach." Gu Xi looked ahead.

"Oh." I answered rigorously, and then I didn't know what to say.

Gu Xi was silent for about 2 minutes, and sighed three times before turning his head to look at him: "There is something I have to tell you clearly, if I make you unhappy, I apologize in advance."

"There's no need to apologize..." Yan Jing bit his lip, "Just tell me..."

"I have always regarded you as a friend, and some actions may have caused you to misunderstand..." Gu Xi spoke slowly, and every word he uttered was very clear, "No matter what you like, it is impossible between me and you, I don't like men."

"Hmm..." Yan Jing lowered his eyelids, "I see."

From the time they packed their luggage until they got on the bus, neither of them spoke again.

Gu Xi leaned against the back of the chair with his earphones on and looked out the window. These words had been pondering in his mind all night, and he didn't feel relieved the moment he said them.

When he realized that there seemed to be another possibility in his sexuality, the only emotions he could capture were shock and confusion.

In the end, he chose to escape and insisted on bringing the ostrich spirit to the extreme.

It was already evening when we returned to the park. Gu Xi took out the suitcase from the luggage compartment, and when he turned around, he met the rigorous gaze. He seemed to have something to say, but before he could open his mouth, Gu Xi's cell phone rang.

Picking up the phone and looking at it, it was the second aunt calling.

"Hello?" Gu Xi pressed the answer button impatiently.

"Gu Xi, hurry to your grandma's house, it's urgent." Second Aunt's piercing voice came out of the receiver.

"Okay, I'll go over now." Gu Xi sighed, the urgent matters that the second aunt said were usually trivial matters, and she would be straightforward and unambiguous when encountering problems that couldn't be solved.

But he had to go, if he left it alone, Second Aunt could talk about it tirelessly for a year, or even longer.

After hanging up the phone, he looked carefully again. It seemed that there was no reason to take the initiative to report the itinerary. If he deliberately explained it, it might cause unnecessary reverie.

Gu Xi carried the suitcase, turned around and walked towards the parking lot.