After writing the book, all of Yokohama wanted to hunt me down

"Writing is a creative instinct.No matter how desperate the story is, the core is redemption.That is the desire for all good things. 』

Shibusawa Tatsuhiko's "intervention" made Mori Ogai's long-planned plan, and even sent Ango Sakaguchi to Europe as a double agent to implement the plan-the plan to obtain the permission to open the business was aborted.

This is a huge blow to Senouwai.

However, because of this, the idea of ​​using Oda Sakunosuke as Gide's opponent in Mori Ogai's plan, as a victim of the same death with the opponent in exchange for the "permission to open the ability" failed to materialize.

——It should have been Oda Sakunosuke's "fate" to die in the mimic incident with Gide.

Just like the fate of Atsushi Nakajima, he was supposed to join the Armed Detective Agency four years later.

There is nothing in this world? What is one thing? Unchanging, even fate is the same, because someone changes his own destiny, so the fate of other people will also be affected to a certain extent, and the change that Osamu Dazai sees , the root of all this lies in a young girl.

The girl who wrote "Taki Yashahime" and "Memory"—Yuan Xuan.

There was a breath of hope in her body.

Osamu Dazai thought Yuan Xuan was very interesting. From the moment he saw her for the first time, he could vaguely see that she was unusual, and everything she did later proved that she caused the world to appear. Signs of derailment.

Because of her appearance, many things have changed, especially Shibusawa Tatsuhiko who lived with her. In the trajectory of fate that Osamu Dazai saw, Shibusawa Ryuhiko should have already died.

He was killed by Atsushi Nakajima - years ago?.

And Atsushi Nakajima will always bear the pain that is hard to get rid of because of this. He will always be immersed in the pain of taking the lives of others.

Until a certain event came, until he faced this person again (Shibusawa Tatsuhiko).

It was Yuan Xuan's appearance that brought changes.

Osamu Dazai thought, isn't this an interesting thing?

Couldn't this be called a "miracle"?

She herself is simply the embodiment of a "miracle".

Yuan Xuan was opening letters from readers one by one. After the new novel was published, the mailbox of editor-in-chief Kurata was soon full of letters from readers.

Among these letters from readers, most of them are readers who have read "Memory" before, but there are also a small number of readers who became interested in her novel after watching the movie.

Among the pile of letters, Yuan Xuan found several special letters.

She found a letter from Oda Sakunosuke inside.

The other party didn't? He used a pseudonym, and he was so calm that there was no cover.Yuanxuan saw that his signature was "Oda Sakunosuke".

Yuan Xuan suddenly remembered that there was still an unopened letter in her hand, which was left to her by Oda Sakunosuke.

What would he write in the letter?

Yuan Xuan put the previous letter in the bottom drawer. She thought it would never be possible to open it again, but wonderful things happen every day.

In that letter back then, Oda Sakunosuke left her words like "I hope you will always be happy".

He is not an eloquent person, but he is often regarded as a confidant. Most of the time, it is Oda Sakunosuke who accepts what other people say, but no one cares about his own thoughts.

Osamu Dazai is one of the rare people who wants to listen to Sakunosuke Oda, so they become friends.

But writing requires far less courage than speaking, because you don't have to face the person you are talking to.

Yuanxuan saw the letter written to her by the current Oda Sakunosuke.

"A few days ago, my friends and I went to the cinema to watch "The Ultimate Bliss".When I saw that poster on the wall at the entrance of the theater, for some reason, I felt as if I had seen this actor somewhere—the actor who played "Bie Tian Wang".

I recalled for a while and remembered a name.

More than two years ago, I met a girl named "Yuan Xuan". 』

Oda Sakunosuke already knew that the novelist "Yuan" was "Yuan Xuan" whom he met in the coffee shop.

If you were just a little bit "confused" when you saw the poster, then after seeing the face of "Bie Tian Wang" in the movie and Yuan Xuan's name on the cast list, Sakunosuke Oda was completely confused. Guarantee.

In addition, after the movie ended, Dazai Osamu also told Oda Sakunosuke that he had gone to the "Yuan" signing event.

Osamu Dazai said reminiscently that Mr. Yuan still had pink and purple hair at that time, but of course, the white hair now is also very beautiful.

Oda Sakunosuke didn't know what he was thinking, and when he realized it, he realized that he had already walked to the bookstore. He saw? In the bookstore? There were new books published by Yuanxuan.

—— "Taki Yasha Ji".

Oda Sakunosuke bought a novel.

This time the story is a "despair" story.

The protagonist of the story, Takiko Ji, has been bound by human words from the very beginning. She is extremely envious of the people she can see in front of her, who can freely express her inner thoughts.Even this person has always been distorted and darkly envious? She, Takiko Hime has a healthy body that Wu Mi couldn't have.

She has always wanted to get rid of the shackles of human words, so she keeps working hard? She wants to pursue what she desires, but until the end she can't escape the trajectory of fate, and can only enter that predestined ending.

People live? You can't just live for yourself.

But people should not live just for others.

Oda Sakunosuke recalled in a trance that when he heard the man say "you will write the ending of this story", he seemed to have found the meaning of his existence in an instant.

Before that, Oda Sakunosuke seemed to be just a living corpse.

Human words have powerful power, which can make the aimless people find their destination, but it can also torture the ordinary people.

From her story this time, Oda Sakunosuke could not see any trace of "hope".

Even the segment of Takiko Hime and Ubayashiki Muyou's love affair written in an extremely dreamy way, there is no possibility of happiness permeated in it.

Takiko Ji exhausted all her courage to woo her, but Wu Mi didn't give her any "love".

She never got half of what she longed for—until she died.

This is a complete tragedy.

Therefore, almost half of the letters Yuanxuan received from readers this time were pouring out "accusations" of her work this time.Yuan Xuan used to write stories of "hope", but this time she crushed all "hope".

In the story of "Taki Yasha Hime", there are also two men who have a relationship with the protagonist Takiko Hime.One is the obstetric house, and the other is the two-faced Nuo.

But the main theme of this story is not the love story between Takiko Hime and them. Its essence lies in everything Takiko Hime has experienced in her short life, a sad life that has been foreshadowed since she was young. .

In the letters from readers, some people asked Yuanxuan, "Would you love Takiko? Ji?" 』

Yuan Xuan felt that she should not be the one to answer this question, because she also "didn't know", and Wu Mi had never said a word of love to Takiko Ji himself, but he had never told her.

For the same reason, the same is true for the two-faced Nuo.These two men who had a "marriage contract" with Takiko Hime never said a word like "I love you" to Takiko Hime.

Maybe they all thought it was unnecessary, or maybe it was because of other things.

Takiko Hime couldn't find any relationship that could make her feel at ease from her memory - the only closest thing was a false deception.

King Xingshi - her father's ally, His Excellency who has always loved her very much, just wanted to use her to achieve his purpose of conspiracy.

No one is purely "in love" with her.No one will love her unreservedly.

She can't get a shred of happiness from others, and she can't find a shred of hope from her own life.

After reading the novel, Sakunosuke Oda was shocked by the strong despair between the lines. He even began to wonder whether Yuanxuan had encountered something that made her feel unbearable, so he wrote such a story.

"Just like two years ago? I still hope that you can live happily ever after. 』

Write the stories you want to write and have a happy life.

As long as Oda Sakunosuke thinks that Yuanxuan is living such a life, he feels as if he has also absorbed the nutrients of happiness from her life.He seemed to feel this kind of life too.

After reading his letter, Yuan Xuan wrote him a reply for the first time.

She told Oda Sakunosuke that this is not a story of despair, but a story of hope, and she wrote such a sentence at the end of the letter.

『At least it was her own decision when she went to her "destiny". 』

Takiko Hime will definitely die, but the way of dying can be chosen by herself. In a sense, this is also the last bit of hope—at least, she once had the chance to choose by herself.

If Osamu Dazai read this letter, he would definitely agree with it—people have the right to choose, just like the death of Oda Sakunosuke he saw in "Non-Existent Memories".

He could have avoided confronting Gide, but he did in the end.Because Oda Sakunosuke knew that this was his own choice.

The bright moon is shining, and the brilliance like water penetrates into the room through the glass window.

Atsushi Nakajima is in his apartment in Port Mafia, sitting in front of a desk with a small lamp on and a sheet of letter paper and a pencil on it.

Back in the orphanage, pencils and paper were rare luxuries, even more precious and difficult to come by than chocolate or candy.

Most of the children in the orphanage are illiterate, so even if they get pencils, they are definitely not used for writing, but for drawing—realizing and projecting the scenes that emerge in their minds on paper. For children, It's a very fun activity.

But while in the orphanage, Atsushi Nakajima barely touched pencils and paper.

So when Yuanxuan left the orphanage and Atsushi Nakajima was released from the confinement room, how exactly did he write the "letter" to Yuanxuan and how did he deliver it to the newspaper? figure it out.

He really wanted to write to her.

Atsushi Nakajima felt that there was a voice in his heart urging him to write a letter to Yuanxuan, but his fingers could not control the pencil to write what he wanted to say to her, as the voice in his heart said. Words? Language.

Atsushi Nakajima and Yuanxuan have not seen each other for nine years, during which time there was no contact between them.

So Atsushi Nakajima thought, will she really remember me?

Yuan Xuan was Atsushi Nakajima's first friend, and she was also the only friend Atsushi Nakajima had ever had.

Until now, Nakajima Atsushi has not been able to find his second friend. Mr. Dazai told him that Akutagawa-kun might be able to become his friend.But every time Atsushi Nakajima saw Ryunosuke Akutagawa, the other party was very angry and even hated him.

There is no feeling of hatred among friends.

Atsushi Nakajima thought that he and Ryunosuke Akutagawa could not become friends.

In front of him? This blank paper Atsushi Nakajima thought of a lot of things, and finally his memory stayed in the night in the orphanage. He was curled up in bed alone? With his fingers, he gently stroked the palm of his hand. Say "I love you too"?

Atsushi Nakajima picked up the pencil, and he wrote a sentence on the blank letter paper.

"I still love you. 』

Yuan Xuan felt that this letter was really strange, it was neither signed nor signed, and there was even only one sentence in the letter, only that sentence——

"I still love you. 』

She thought this might be a prank by a certain reader. Compared to writing some vicious or even curse words? She felt that the person who wrote this sentence should be a kind person.

In Yuan Xuan's mind, for some reason, a white figure suddenly appeared - a young figure curled up.

The figure of Atsushi Nakajima.

After leaving the orphanage, Yuan Xuan never went back even once. At the beginning, she just didn't dare to make such a request with Shibusawa Ryuhiko, but later she gradually got used to not recalling the orphanage anymore.

The friendship between her and Atsushi Nakajima, her former friend in the orphanage, had already ended on the day she left, and the current orphanage has nothing for her to go back and worry about.

Yuan Xuan's heart seems to be talking to her?

It said, "You're lying."

If she really felt that there was nothing worthy of her concern, then she would not remember Atsushi Nakajima anymore.The figure and the name that existed in her memory just proved her affection for Atsushi Nakajima.

She said to him, "I love you."

Although at that time, Yuan Xuan did not hear any response from Atsushi Nakajima.

Atsushi Nakajima saw that plot in the novel "Taki Yasha Ji"-Takiko Hime asked Wu Mi, "Do you love me?" Wu Mi didn't answer her.

Later she asked the same question on both sides of Su Nuo, but this time she still didn't get the reply she wanted.

She doesn't want to know when the flowers will wither completely, nor does she want the promise that the two-faced Su Nuo will protect her.

Takiko Hime just wanted to hear their voices, and she hoped that the other party could say "love" to her a little bit.

Atsushi Nakajima remembered that Yuan Xuan also said "I love you" to him in the orphanage when he was a child.

At that time, did Atsushi Nakajima speak?

It was because he felt that he should compensate Yuan Xuan for this sentence, so he took up the pen.

Yuan Xuan did not? Recognize him (the letter).

But she didn't? Ignoring this strange letter, Yuan Xuan found a blank letter paper, and she wrote "thank you" on the letter paper.

The words "thank you" were sent back to Atsushi Nakajima.He couldn't understand what Yuan Xuan's reply meant.

Maybe it's just a thank you from a stranger, or maybe I recognized him, but I don't want to communicate with him anymore.

Atsushi Nakajima's fingers unconsciously began to caress the collar on his neck again. After clarifying this state, it seemed that he could gain some kind of reassuring emotion.

He put Yuan Xuan's reply letter in the inner pocket of his coat?

On the second day after receiving the reply, Atsushi Nakajima heard the news that Yuan Xuan was going to hold a second autograph session.

Osamu Dazai sat on the chair, raised his fingers slightly, "Don't be so nervous, Atsu-kun."

On the issue of titles, Akutagawa Ryunosuke and Nakajima Atsushi had conflicts more than once, because Osamu Dazai would call Nakajima Atsushi by his first name, but only Akutagawa Ryunosuke's surname.

This kind of cognition made Akutagawa Ryunosuke start to reflect on why he should be inferior to others.

Moreover, Osamu Dazai never? He said to Ryunosuke Akutagawa, "Let's go to the signing event together."

Ryunosuke Akutagawa, who was supposed to be taking over, opened his eyes wide, staring at the two of them in disbelief.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke didn't understand at all why Nakajima Atsushi seemed to have done all the things he could and couldn't do but wanted to do with ease.

"Anything else? Akutagawa-kun."

The cargo replacement work has been handed over successfully, but Akutagawa Ryunosuke is still standing in Osamu Dazai's office.

Hearing Mr. Dazai's questioning voice, Akutagawa Ryunosuke gritted his teeth. As if he had made a huge decision, he raised his face and stared into Osamu Dazai's eyes.

He said very seriously, "I can go too."

In many cases, Akutagawa Ryunosuke is unable to master the art of language, and he often says some misleading words?.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke is not as well-rounded as his teacher Osamu Dazai.

Osamu Dazai said with a smile, "But I don't need you."

His words? Akutagawa Ryunosuke clenched his fists.

In fact, with Osamu Dazai's ingenuity, before Akutagawa Ryunosuke opened his mouth, he had already guessed what the other party would say.And Osamu Dazai could understand the meaning of Akutagawa Ryunosuke's words, he just simply pretended not to understand.

Then he said a refusal that embarrassed Ryunosuke Akutagawa.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke felt that his lungs were heating up, and the burning sensation almost scalded him, but he also felt that his whole body was cold, and even his teeth began to tremble faintly.

Osamu Dazai narrowed his eyes and looked at the two of them from the corner of his eye.

Although at the beginning Mori Ogai asked Osamu Dazai to no avail for Nakajima Atsushi, but in the later time, as the leader, Mori Ogai successfully transferred Nakajima Atsushi to his subordinates.

This is not the result of Osamu Dazai's compromise after losing to Mori Ogai, but the scene he had expected and planned long ago.

Osamu Dazai did not want Akutagawa Ryunosuke to be a subordinate of Akutagawa Ryunosuke. In his opinion, both Akutagawa Ryunosuke and Nakajima Atsushi were very talented children, but he never praised Akutagawa Ryunosuke. Because Osamu Dazai knew that for Akutagawa Ryuukai, the constant anger was the foundation that supported him to find the meaning of his existence and to keep him growing stronger.

He wanted them to be companions, to be partners.

Atsushi Nakajima cannot be a party that is dominated by Ryunosuke Akutagawa at will.Atsushi Nakajima cannot be a party ignored by Akutagawa Ryunosuke.

The meaningful eyes were in Osamu Dazai's eyes.

The second signing will be far more appropriate than the first arrangement.Because of the overturning of the front car before, this time Yuanxuan communicated with Shibusawa Tatsuhiko before the start.

"Can you trust me a little more?" Yuan Xuan asked Shibusawa Tatsuhiko, "Trust me that I can handle these things well."

Her voice was still very soft, but Shibusawa Tatsuhiko could clearly feel the changes in her expression and feeling when speaking.

There is nothing wrong with Shibusawa Tatsuhiko.

But he still took the position of Yuan Xuan's "assistant". After separating a small room with a screen, he stood behind Yuan Xuan.

This time, the default arrangement for the signing event is a full day.

If there are not many people coming to participate, then end early? - Shibusawa Tatsuhiko said to go out for dinner tonight.

After dinner, you can still go shopping - it will be Christmas in a few days, and the shops on the street are starting to prepare.

Life is gradually calming down and getting on the right track bit by bit.

Although... although Yuanxuan and Shibusawa Tatsuhiko, they never had a conversation about confirming their relationship.

They lived the life of a family, living with each other like lovers, but they didn't clearly say "sexy" words like "we are lovers".

With her face down halfway down, Yuan Xuan signed the title page of the novel placed on the table. Perhaps she should be thankful that her pen name was very short, so she signed very quickly.

This time, she saw the boy again.

This is the third meeting between them.

Yuanxuan met Dazai Osamu for the third time, but she still didn't know the name of the other party. Yuanxuan didn't intend to ask deliberately, but Dazai Osamu happily greeted her.

"See you again! Teacher Yuan!" He said to Yuan Xuan with a smile, "This is the second time I've come to your signing event!"

Just from the words like this, it sounds like Osamu Dazai likes her or her works so much, that's why he attends her autograph so graciously.

But Yuan Xuan remembered very clearly that the last time he came over with that orange-haired boy, he didn't let himself sign at all.

Last time at the book signing, Osamu Dazai didn't even have it? Bring her novel along.

He didn't come here to get Yuan Xuan's autograph at all.