my sick white moonlight

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In detail, there are many such things that Zhang Youming has done, but he just went through them in his head, and there is a feeling that the past is unbearable. When did Zhang Youming's emotional outburst happen?That has to start with that trip to Shigatse.

Before that time, Zhang Youming had no experience of riding a green leather train. The night before the departure, he was almost in a state of insomnia. His mind was over and over again about the things that might happen, and more of them were unrealistic fantasies. .

Did people have such fantasies when they were young, especially before going to bed, simulating sitcoms one after another, feeling unsatisfied after being moved by themselves, and bringing those fragmentary emotions into the dream.

After waking up the next day, I stubbornly believed that it was a good thing that happened in parallel time and space. Of course, there were some tragedies, but I could always find an excuse to comfort myself, so I was immersed in self-fantasy day by day when I was young, quietly pass away.

Zhang Youming felt that he was unlucky, but at the same time he was lucky. His life trajectory might have been a bit bumpy, but in the end he was by Shi Zhiqing's side, so it was great luck.

In mid-May, Shi Zhiqing applied to the director of the department to take the leave accumulated over the past few years. There were about [-] days in total, but the department was really empty, so Shi Zhiqing gave it half a month. s holiday.

For this hard-won vacation, Shi Zhiqing didn't make any arrangements at the beginning. His material desires were not high, and he used to focus on Zhang Youming. Now that Zhang Youming is by his side, it seems that he has become even less pursuing, and the two of them are not passionately in love. Period, there is an illusion that we were together many years ago.

It was Zhang Youming who proposed to go to Mount Everest Base Camp again. He felt that the living conditions of the two were not quite right and needed some reconciliation.

"Mount Everest Base Camp?" Shi Zhiqing had a half-smile, not sure if it was a mockery or a playful one.He was watching a bloody Thai drama at the time, and he was getting excited. After asking such a question, he continued to focus on the TV drama.

After he took a shower, he realized that Zhang Youming had already organized the strategy and almost packed his luggage, so he was waiting for Shi Zhiqing to speak.

"Really, I thought you were just joking." Shi Zhiqing squatted beside the suitcase, looking through Zhang Youming's packed things. Maybe his actions were too careless, which made Zhang Youming feel frustrated for no reason. He always felt that Shi Zhiqing didn't care as much about him as before.

A change is the kind of change that you don't cherish after you get it.

"Do you want to stay at home for half a month? It's hard for you to have such a long vacation." Zhang Youming said lightly.

Shi Zhiqing nodded, then lay flat on the bed, as if very tired, and said softly: "I'll listen to your arrangements."

"You don't have to go if you don't want to." Zhang Youming said.

"I didn't say no." Shi Zhiqing smiled.

Zhang Youming stared at Shi Zhiqing for a few seconds, sighed lightly, and continued to pack things, but there was an accident in the middle.

The disposable bed sheet for travel is placed on the top of the closet. When Zhang Youming was holding it on the stool, the sole of his foot slipped and fell off the stool. The pain caused by touching the floor was negligible. Leaning against the bed, looking at the anxious Shi Zhiqing, only at this time can she feel that she is loved.

"I'm fine." Zhang Youming didn't want to use special abilities to restore himself to normal immediately, so after saying that he was fine, he moved his left leg and made a "hissing" sound expressing pain.

Shi Zhiqing tilted her head, expressing that she looked at Zhang Youming helplessly, he did not believe that Zhang Youming would fall off the stool, this guy did it on purpose.

But now everyone seems to understand this little trick, Shi Zhiqing feels that Zhang Youming is really pitiful and cute.How could he be such a person who deliberately garnered attention?In fact, Zhang Youming is, and it's not the first time he has done this.

"Your leg is injured, so is it tonight? I still want to have a big fight tonight. Forget it. I'll talk about it when I get back."

"What? What are you going to do?" Zhang Youming was a little ashamed, wondering if it was what he was thinking about, it was terrible.

How could Shi Zhiqing say such rude words?

"That's what you think." Shi Zhiqing held Zhang Youming's chin, like a local hooligan leader.

"I told you it's fine." Zhang Youming muttered softly.

Shi Zhiqing pretended not to hear, pulled the curtains and said softly, "Zhang Youming, it's raining."

In the past, Shi Zhiqing liked rainy days very much, but when she first realized that she liked Zhang Youming, it happened to be the rainy season, and it rained for a whole month, so she would be young and full of energy, Shi Zhiqing always nestled under the quilt , Sweating profusely, waiting for the moment of release, the sweat on the back wet the clothes.

But there was one night that was an exception, the rain was heavier than usual that day, Shi Zhiqing went to bed after finishing the physics test paper, nestled in the quilt, looking for some excitement, but just after turning on the phone, she heard Zhang Youming's voice coming from the living room sound.

He said that he forgot to close the window when he went to school in the morning, and it rained heavily in the afternoon, and the bed sheets were wet when it drifted in, so he wanted to come to Shi Zhiqing's place to stay for one night.

Shi Zhiqing got out of bed, opened the door, and stood at the door of the bedroom, looking at Zhang Youming who was hugging a pillow and wearing pajamas. How to say, exciting.

After lying on the bed, the two of them turned back to each other without speaking, and the heat between them suddenly rose. Shi Zhiqing thought about that matter again, but she didn't dare to move, especially after Zhang Youming turned to face him.

He could clearly feel the heat behind him, as well as Zhang Youming's uncertain little movements. It seemed that his waist was lightly touched, and his ankle was also lightly touched.

"Are you asleep?" Zhang Youming asked.

Shi Zhiqing straightened up, sat up, was dazed for two seconds, and said, "I'm going to the bathroom."

Zhang Youming looked at the flustered Shi Zhiqing and didn't speak. When Shi Zhiqing returned to the bed, Zhang Youming seemed to have fallen asleep.

Shi Zhiqing leaned closer to him unconsciously, her arms touched together, the tingling sensation spread to her whole body, the more Shi Zhiqing tried to calm down, unexpectedly the heaving of her chest became more obvious, and her bottom was sticky.

In the beginning, Shi Zhiqing felt a great sense of guilt for Zhang Youming's physical reaction, which seemed to be a dirty liking.The situation formed later was that Shi Zhiqing blamed herself for repeating "fantasy" over and over again.

So much so that now that he is with Zhang Youming, he still feels ashamed, and that kind of indulgence is naturally magnified a lot. For example, tonight, thinking about the journey in the next few days, Shi Zhiqing thinks that he will have to overdraw in advance.

People are like this, the more suppressed they were in the past few years, the stronger their desires are now.