my sick white moonlight

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After sitting in the yard for about half an hour, Shi Zhiqing called Zhang Youming, but no one answered.

It was only then that Shi Zhiqing became anxious, at first he thought it was Zhang Youming who was angry with him, but after thinking about it, a person with Zhang Youming's character should disdain to do such a thing.

Shi Zhiqing still planned to go and see for herself, whether it was intentional or something really happened to Zhang Youming, it was an explanation.

There are fewer cars at night, and there are not many traffic jams. Shi Zhiqing only took half an hour for the usual 10-minute drive.

From a distance, Shi Zhiqing saw Zhang Youming's shop with the door half closed and the light very weak.

He walked a few steps at a time, bent down and entered the store, only to find that there was no one in the main room, but there was a painful sound from the back room separated by the curtain.

Shi Zhiqing walked in anxiously, opened the door curtain, and found Zhang Youming curled up in a ball, with a painful expression on his face.

"What's wrong with you?" Shi Zhiqing squatted beside Zhang Youming, checking his vital signs.

Zhang Youming took a difficult look at Shi Zhiqing, stretched out his hand tremblingly, and said in a low voice, "Help me up."

Shi Zhiqing put Zhang Youming's hand on her shoulder, and then hugged him by the waist, with a little effort.

For Zhang Youming's height, Shi Zhiqing felt that he was not heavy enough.

After carrying Zhang Youming to the chair and sat down, he stood in front of Zhang Youming and asked him seriously: "Did you do anything illegal or disciplined?"

In Zhang Youming's state, it's hard not to think about that.

"No." Zhang Youming stretched out his hand and held Shi Zhiqing's hand, as if absorbing nourishment. "a little cold."

"It's summer." Shi Zhiqing said so, but she still held Zhang Youming's hand and gently rubbed it to give him some heat. "Go to the hospital and have a look."

Zhang Youming shook his head, Shi Zhiqing was enough.

"Go and have a look, has this happened before?" Shi Zhiqing said, he actually had other ideas, he didn't fully trust Zhang Youming, if this guy really did something bad, he wouldn't be able to afford it walk. "I see you are very uncomfortable."

Zhang Youming is so smart, of course he also knows Shi Zhiqing's scruples, he nodded and said, "Okay."

As a result, after going to the hospital for an examination, there was no organic disease at all.

Did a blood test and found nothing else.

Just as she was going downstairs to wait for the elevator, she met Dr. An who came up again. She hadn't seen Zhang Youming for a long time, so she asked, "How is Nian Xing recently?"

"Everything is fine." Zhang Youming replied.

Shi Zhiqing smiled foolishly at Dr. An. In such a big hospital, he and Dr. An didn't deliberately contact each other, and they couldn't even meet each other. Shi Zhiqing was still thinking, why did Dr. An still know Zhang Youming?How come he also knows about Nian Xing across the house?

Just when Shi Zhiqing was in doubt, Dr. An asked again: "What's going on? Xiaozhang's legs are not feeling well?"

"It's been checked, and there's nothing wrong with it, but he's just in severe pain." Shi Zhiqing replied.

As a doctor in the psychiatry department, Dr. An, of course, was extra careful and asked, "Is Xiaozhang under a lot of pressure recently?"

Zhang Youming glanced at Shi Zhiqing, and then replied: "Fortunately, it's normal, but there are some things that bother you."

"If there is anything you can talk to me about, I want to open it up." Dr. An said with a smile.

After entering the elevator, there was no one inside, so Shi Zhiqing asked, "What's bothering you lately?"

In fact, Dr. An also hinted more clearly that Zhang Youming was usually a quiet person, but now his body hurts, but he couldn't find out the reason, which may be related to the somatization of anxiety.

"Nothing." Zhang Youming said lightly.

This is not easy to explain to Shi Zhiqing.

"You can tell me something." Shi Zhiqing didn't want to embarrass Zhang Youming, indeed, almost everyone will have this kind of stage.

Sometimes it is the last word not to force your way into other people's inner world, and you have to let them voluntarily confide in it.

"You don't actually like me that much, do you?" Zhang Youming said suddenly.

He was a little concerned that Shi Zhiqing didn't come to him right away.

Or a gap.

You don't know how to cherish until you lose it. This is the eternal truth.

Shi Zhiqing moved her lips, but didn't say anything, he was brewing emotions, what should I say?He is very contradictory now, he likes it, he really likes it, and he can still fall in love with him at first sight after forgetting Zhang Youming.

If you want to say how much you like him, it's really hard for him to give a quantitative standard. Zhang Youming is right, if you really care about him so much, shouldn't you drive to him right away?Why even consider it?

The reason for this has to start with the phrase "he dumped you" in Shi Yang's mouth.

Did you get along with Zhang Youming before?Did Zhang Youming really dump him?What is the reason?Does Zhang Youming like him or not?A series of questions were in Shi Zhiqing's mind.

"If you don't like it that much, you don't need to start." Zhang Youming said again.

"Ding", on the first floor, Zhang Youming took some difficult steps, catching up in front of Shi Zhiqing.

He actually blushed.

How can people be so fragile?Zhang Youming also couldn't figure it out.

No, he is not a "human", so it is not that he is weak, but that his feelings are so fragile.

Vulnerable.

If I hadn't chosen to die from the beginning, if I had accepted my life completely from the beginning, if I had confessed to Shi Zhiqing from the beginning, wouldn't it have been easier?

At least not the current situation.

Zhang Youming even wondered if he was greedy for the sense of existence given by this pain. Only when the pain in his body invaded him over and over again would he feel his existence.

"Hey, why are you walking so fast?" Shi Zhiqing caught up and grabbed Zhang Youming's elbow.

He didn't understand Zhang Youming's sudden emotion.

"I heard what Shi Yang said." Shi Zhiqing paused, let go of Zhang Youming's hand, and continued: "You dumped me earlier."

"I want to know why? Did we have a holiday? Or what happened? Can you tell me?" Shi Zhiqing said.

Zhang Youming stared at the ground and said, "We don't have festivals, but our parents do."

Shi Zhiqing frowned, thinking of all kinds of things about Shi Zhenzhu.

"What did my mother do to your parents?" Shi Zhiqing said, behind him was Shi Zhenzhu's cell phone. "Then I should ask for your forgiveness."

"No, the night before Shi Niang's death, I said something to her, those words may be..."

Shi Zhiqing was silent for a long time before she said: "It's not entirely your fault. A long time ago, she had the idea of ​​suicide."

In fact, in retrospect, Shi Zhiqing felt that Shi Zhenzhu should have been suffering from anxiety after the second hospitalization, and she had been planning. She often sat in the living room, from eight or nine in the evening to four or five in the morning.

She was hit by Shi Zhiqing several times, but for this situation, really, even the closest people are helpless.

Shi Zhenzhu's falling from the building did not happen overnight, with just a few words. She went through a long period of self-reconciliation.

Apparently self-reconciliation didn't help either.

"I am the fuse." Zhang Youming emphasized.

Things have to be made clear.

"No, if you have to say it, it's my dad."

Shi Zhenzhu was destroyed by his father, or she destroyed it herself.

Men long to love many people, women long to be loved by one.

In the end, loving and being loved are all falsehoods.

"Calm down for a while longer." Zhang Youming said.

Shi Zhiqing fell into silence, how long is this "a period of time"?

Zhang Youming added: "If you still like me after a month, then we will be together."

"it is good."

Zhang Youming looked at the aggrieved Shi Zhiqing, wishing he could hug him and kiss him now, he also wanted to be impulsive, but he didn't want Shi Zhiqing to regret it.

Give Shi Zhiqing another month to chew and digest the past, by then, it will not be too late to make a decision.

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It was raining heavily that day, the windows were open, and the blue sheets were wet. Wen Sheng covered He Xiqian's mouth to prevent him from making a sound. During those three or ten minutes, one thing was proved, He Xiqian It is indeed "no".

"Did my sister-in-law dislike you back then? Senior brother." Wen Sheng asked intentionally.

"Otherwise it's your turn?"

He Xiqian's terrible self-esteem, he knew that Wen Sheng didn't like to hear that.

In fact, Wen Sheng had already taken a fancy to He Xiqian, since he was in graduate school.Seeing him graduate and get married, and then get divorced and leave the house, now he has picked this astringent fruit and tasted the taste.

"Then I took advantage of it, but my brother's taste is indeed better than others, better than any of my previous ones."

"Don't disgust me."

He Xiqian had heard about Wen Sheng's romantic affair for a long time, and it was just a joke. At this time, He Xiqian felt the pain caused by it...]