my sick white moonlight

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Speaking of Chen Yandu, Shi Zhiqing remembered that Chen Yandu had a plane tomorrow afternoon, and he had promised to see him off, so he had to catch the car early tomorrow.

"When are you leaving tomorrow?" Shi Zhiqing asked.

Seeing that Shi Zhiqing didn't want to talk to him about Chen Yandu, Zhang Youming didn't ask any more questions, so he replied: "Morning, I haven't bought a ticket yet, Ah Guang and the others are leaving today."

Shi Zhiqing nodded, thoughtfully, and then said: "Why don't you go back with the car from our hospital, it happens that there is more space for me, I have to catch the train early."

"Why?" Zhang Youming asked.

After thinking for a few seconds, Shi Zhiqing still answered honestly: "Chen Yan is on the plane tomorrow, I have to rush to the airport to see him off, the hospital car may be delayed."

"Do you have to be escorted by a plane?" Zhang Youming missed the point.

But Shi Zhiqing ignored it, he was too lazy to explain to Zhang Youming, this explanation will inevitably bring up the problems between the two of them, after all, Chen Yan is from a far away place, and the two are not dating in a foreign country, the problem is not 01:30 ordered.

Although Chen Yan kept saying that he would always like him, obviously everyone's understanding of liking is different. Chen Yan and them are, yes, I like you the most, but it doesn't prevent me from having dewy feelings with others.

"Aren't you a clean freak?" Zhang Youming asked.

Shi Zhiqing frowned, this was his own business, and Zhang Youming didn't need to remind him.

When I called that night, Chen Yan did bring the other man home. As for what he would do, Shi Zhiqing could almost guess, and he didn't bother to ask. In fact, Chen Yan sent him a text message in the early morning of that day , Say you miss him, say you love him.

When these words were spoken at that time, Shi Zhiqing completely regarded it as a way for Chen Yan to relieve his guilt.

Of course, self-deception is not ruled out.

Exactly isn't it?He himself was not completely loyal to Chen Yan, and he could not resist Zhang Youming's "tease" that night.

Treating Zhang Youming's behavior as a tease will make him feel better, and put the burden of responsibility on Zhang Youming, so that he will not be so entangled.

Having said that, Zhang Youming's deliberate behavior can also be called teasing, Shi Zhiqing thought, maybe Zhang Youming just wanted to gain balance by humiliating himself.

It's not unreasonable, perhaps in Zhang Youming's eyes, this is one of the few weaknesses in Shi Zhiqing's life, and it happens that this weakness can be controlled by him, so the crooked thoughts naturally come.

Just like Zhang Youming knew that he had a cleanliness fetish, but still asked him in such a blatant manner, what did he want to know?

Do I want Shi Zhiqing to tell him that I haven't had a complete and real sex with Chen Yan, or should I say that I, Shi Zhiqing, am actually a bitch and have always liked you, Zhang Youming.

"So, let's not cross the line in the future." Shi Zhiqing said softly, thinking for so long, he really couldn't say those hurtful words.

Besides, what's the use of those angry words?The arrow that left the string finally returned to him.

Zhang Youming smiled, he stared at Shi Zhiqing like he was staring at prey.

"It doesn't count as crossing the line, ours doesn't count." Zhang Youming said.

If he had to say it, Zhang Youming believed that Chen Yandu was the third party who broke his relationship with Shi Zhiqing.

Although this feeling has never been acknowledged by anyone.

But it really started many years ago.

"Zhang Youming, can you be a normal person? Your current behavior is disgusting. You are a third party, you know? You don't change yourself. Why do you drag me into the water? You are like this It's too much, you know?" Shi Zhiqing thought she was crazy before.

Now it seems that Zhang Youming is similar.

After being told by Shi Zhiqing like this, Zhang Youming seemed very wronged, he didn't talk to Shi Zhiqing much that night, and he slept with his back to Shi Zhiqing.

Just like a quarrel when I was a child, if you engage in cold violence, you have to act like you are hurt.

Early the next morning, Shi Zhiqing went to catch the train, and he told Zhang Youming to ride along with the hospital.

As a result, he was on the train at that time, looking at the scenery comfortably. The people from the hospital called and said that Zhang Youming didn't meet with them, so they left first.

The signal on the train was not good, Shi Zhiqing couldn't get through to Zhang Youming on the phone, so Shi Zhiqing simply broke the can, let him go, Zhang Youming was so willful not once or twice, and made himself worry about it every time.

After Shi Zhiqing got off the train, he hurried to catch up, and still met Chen Yan. The parting between the two didn't seem so sentimental. Chen Yan hugged Shi Zhiqing for a full 2 ​​minutes before leaving, and he still felt wronged Said: "I miss you so much."

"Reluctant to let you go abroad?" Shi Zhiqing showed a weary smile.

You see, Chen Yan wants to go to a better place that belongs to him, and Shi Zhiqing came back from the free clinic all the way, dragging his tired body just to sleep well, but he hasn't contacted Zhang Youming yet.

"Are you angry?" Chen Yandu asked.

Shi Zhiqing shook her head, said with a smile: "No, it's just a pity that they didn't say goodbye properly."

"It's not that we haven't seen each other anymore. I'm going out to study. I'll come back to see you when I'm on vacation, but you have to promise me one thing." Chen Yan even discussed the conditions with Shi Zhiqing.

"You said."

Chen Yan moved closer to Shi Zhiqing's ear, and said softly, "I'm not here, you are not allowed to get close to Zhang Youming."

Shi Zhiqing's body froze, and he was stunned for two seconds, but he immediately came to his senses, imitating Chen Yandu's tone, and said, "Yes, but you have to promise me one thing."

"You said."

"Don't be a flirt outside." Shi Zhiqing said softly.

Chen Yan didn't hesitate at all, and nodded with a smile.

But compared to Chen Yan agreeing so straightforwardly, he hoped that Chen Yan would play tricks on him and talk about too many temptations outside, but he didn't.

This means that Chen Yandu's heart is not the same, and it seems that he has reached the point of perfection.

Just 15 minutes ago, Chen Yan was still holding hands with other boys of the same age, talking and laughing.

Before Shi Zhiqing called Chen Yandu's name, she called him specifically, saying that she had arrived, and asked where he was, just to avoid embarrassment.

Shi Zhiqing thought, if they were ordinary friends, Chen Yan would definitely not let that boy leave first, and if he had other relationships, he would definitely avoid him.

Facts have proved that Shi Zhiqing's caution is justified.

On the way back from the airport, Shi Zhiqing thought of Zhang Youming again. After dialing his phone, Shi Zhiqing asked him where he was. Do not take the hospital car.

Shi Zhiqing looked at the scenery passing by outside, and felt that all this was meaningless.

Both Chen Yan and Zhang Youming.

It seems that only he, Shi Zhiqing, cares about every relationship.

In fact, at the airport, he wanted to talk to Chen Yan about breaking up, but when Chen Yan was hugging him, he wanted to wait a little longer.

Knowing that Zhang Youming was fine, Shi Zhiqing had no desire to speak, so she hummed and hung up the phone.

After arriving home, Zhang Youming was helping Shi Zhenzhu wash the vegetables in the kitchen. When he heard a movement at the door, he put down his work.

Zhang Youming wore that ill-fitting short apron, leaned against the door of the living room, watched Shi Zhiqing change his shoes, and asked abruptly, "You are in such a hurry to hang up on me?"