my sick white moonlight

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Going back that night, Shi Zhiqing had a dream again.

Upon waking up, Shi Zhiqing wanted to laugh at herself, at this age, still relying on such low-level fantasies to satisfy selfish desires, it's sad, sad.

However, Shi Zhiqing comforted himself that it was difficult for him to hold back for so many years and not disturb Zhang Youming in real life, causing trouble to him, it was already very good.

That's right, you can play hooligans in your dreams, but you can't disturb other people's happiness in reality, so Shi Zhiqing restrained the desire to contact Zhang Youming, and insisted on holding back until the day Shi Zhenzhu was discharged from the hospital.

He sent a text message to Zhang Youming, a few concise words, but edited abruptly for about 10 minutes.

After Zhang Youming received the text message, he called back. He just said that he was busy recently and would visit Shi Zhenzhu again when he had time.

Regarding Zhang Youming's attitude, Shi Zhiqing was a bit depressed. In these two difficult situations, the person whom he had been thinking about for so many years, but now he was treated like this again when they met again, was worse than a stranger.

When strangers first met, it was much easier to get along with hypocrisy than this.

But Shi Zhiqing thought about it again, maybe it's just that she was in such pain, all these years, maybe Zhang Youming didn't treat him as a friend at all, let alone understand her own feelings.

On the other hand, maybe I was too greedy. When I didn’t meet, I prayed before going to bed every day. Even if I met once, it would be good. After the meeting, I wonder why the other party’s attitude is so cold and anxious.

The key is to bear the sense of gap between the beautiful dream and reality.

Shi Zhiqing sometimes felt that she should see a psychiatrist, how could there be such a perverted guy in this world, how could she love someone so persistently for so many years?

Speaking of which, what exactly do you like about Zhang Youming?His mind is full of Zhang Youming's perfectly muscular calf.

However, Zhang Youming suffered from leg disease again. Theoretically speaking, his left calf muscles will not be the same as before.

Contradictory, quite contradictory.

Just like Shi Zhiqing felt that she liked Zhang Youming to death, but never had the courage to tell him, or even tell the people around her, that she was actually gay.

So sometimes Shi Zhiqing herself can't understand, what exactly is he in love with?Is it the self-pity that cannot be loved, or the torment of being deeply in love without any response, or the self-movement of insisting on planting the bitter fruit for ten years, or Zhang Youming himself.

Thinking about this problem was on a day off, he finished his night shift and sat in the office waiting for Guo Li to pick him up.Guo Li poked her head and called him several times at the door of the office, but he didn't hear him.

It was the head nurse who came in to get things, and jokingly said, "Doctor Shi, your girlfriend is here to see you."

Shi Zhiqing woke up as if awakened from a dream, got up and said with a smile: "Doctor Guo is my good friend." After speaking, he went out, took the bag from Guo Li's hand, and said softly: "Go to my house Eat, and bring these?"

"It's not for you, I haven't seen Shi Niang for a long time."

"My mother said you went on a blind date some time ago?"

"Aha, the other party is not bad, he is a university teacher."

Shi Zhiqing made an exaggerated expression, leaned back a little, wanted to exclaim in the end but lowered her voice, and asked in a low voice, "Does it mean something?"

"It's hard to say, go everywhere first, hey, don't talk so much, go back to eat quickly, I'm starving to death, I heard from Shi Niang that Zhang Youming is also here, you told me last time that his temperament has changed a lot and he is not easy to get along with. What if I have nothing to say and am embarrassed?" Guo Li said a lot in one breath, and successfully changed the subject.

"With your Shi Niang here, don't worry."

Guo Li has a carefree personality, and she grew up with Shi Zhiqing, even if the two of them can't achieve a marriage, there is no barrier between them. When they get off the car, they start talking and laughing. Zhang Youming is in the yard Funny cats can hear their voices.

Zhang Youming was sitting on the rattan chair under the grape arbor. He didn't intend to get up when Shi Zhiqing and the others came in. He just met Shi Zhiqing's eyes, then looked at Guo Li with a smile on his face, and said softly: "Long time no see." See you, Guo Li, you haven't changed at all."

"Sorry to say, when we were three people, you ran away halfway. You still can't get in touch. Tell me, why did you go these few years? Why did you open a shop when you came back? You don't know how many of us are alone? Worried." Before meeting Zhang Youming, Guo Li was still worried about embarrassment, but as soon as he saw the words, he couldn't hold back, and said whatever was on his mind.

"I can't tell right away, let's talk slowly later." Zhang Youming said with a smile.

Shi Zhiqing stared at him, he figured out that Zhang Youming just had a bad attitude towards him, seeing Zhang Youming chatting with Guo Li, he didn't say a word, and entered the room in a muffled voice.

The aunt invited in the kitchen was very busy. Shi Zhuzhu was watching the live broadcast. When she saw Shi Zhiqing coming in, she glanced at it, then put down her phone and asked, "Where's Guo Li? Didn't you come with me?"

"Chat with Zhang Youming outside."

"I thought she wouldn't come. After all, the three of you have time. It's been many years since we had dinner together. Xiao Zhang came early and played with the black girl all the time. The black girl is not afraid of him and gets close to him. Let them be together Let's chat outside for a while, go to the kitchen and help Zhao Niang." After Shi Zhenzhu finished speaking, she continued to play with her mobile phone.

Shi Zhiqing looked out, Guo Li was talking about something vividly, Zhang Youming rarely showed such a casual smile.

Shi Zhiqing thought, Zhang Youming must have resentment towards him.

There were five people at the dinner table, Zhang Youming and Shi Zhiqing sat on one side, the square table was not big, their elbows touched from time to time, Shi Zhiqing moved a little to the side for fear that Zhang Youming would be offended, Zhang Youming glanced at him, didn't say anything.

"It's time for our family to buy new furniture. You two are crowded when you sit. In the past, the three of you could sit side by side." Shi Zhenzhu sighed.

"What about sitting in rows? Zhang Youming moved here and he was already in junior high school. He was not small at that time." Shi Zhiqing retorted.

Guo Li smiled, but kept silent.

"I'm ashamed to say that you were still comparing yourself to Xiaozhang at that time. You were afraid that you would not be able to win him, so you secretly begged me to buy you calcium tablets. You see, you are still shorter than Xiaozhang." Shi Zhenzhu said mercilessly Expose the son's shortcomings.

Back in junior high school, the desire to win was very strange, and Shi Zhiqing didn't know why he had to compare his height with Zhang Youming's at that time, but in fact, the difference was not much, but he just felt uncomfortable in his heart, and wanted to catch up with Zhang Youming in everything. Front.

If Zhang Youming wanted to fall in love at that time, Shi Zhiqing would probably have rushed to find a girlfriend before him.

But how did he think that he would like Zhang Youming in the future?

"Almost, they're all over 1.8 meters." This time Zhang Youming spoke up, and said with a smile, "If my legs were straight, I might be taller than him."

"It's taller than me even if it's not straight." Shi Zhiqing said.

It's strange that he is still humble at this time.

"Come on, both of you are quite tall and handsome. I think I was envied by others when I was in high school." Guo Li said proudly, which was considered smooth.

"Then why didn't you get the moon first?" Aunt Zhao who was at the side suddenly said.

This was originally an embarrassing question, but Guo Li has always been good at resolving embarrassment. She winked at the two people across the table and said with a smile: "Rabbits don't eat grass by the side of their nests, but then again, I was at the same table and wrote a lot. The text of the two of you also told me that I must never fall in love with either of you."

"Familiar with humanities?" Shi Zhenzhu asked.

"You know this, Shi Niang." Guo Li said in surprise.

Shi Zhenzhu glanced at Shi Zhiqing, lowered her head, took two mouthfuls of rice, and said in a low voice, "I've read those novels recently, so I know a little bit about them."

After finishing speaking, Shi Zhenzhu cleared his throat again, and said, "You little girl, you told me when you were young that you would not marry me, little Shitou. Now it's good, go on a blind date, and don't recognize me as a mother-in-law anymore."

Listening to the conversation between the two of them, Shi Zhiqing was so nervous that her toes were scratching the ground, a bit like a public execution.

"Don't worry, even if I get married, I will visit you from time to time. I am already your half daughter." Guo Li had a rare voice, and flirted with Shi Zhenzhu.

Guo Li really liked Shi Zhiqing, but she only expressed it a few times and was matched up a few times, but Shi Zhiqing always refused, and Guo Li is not a shameless person, so she doesn't care about that. think.As a man, you don't need to hang yourself on a tree. If you move forward, you will always meet someone who suits you.

After dinner, Shi Zhiqing and Guo Li were helping Aunt Zhao to clean up the dishes in the kitchen. Shi Zhiqing was suddenly called out by Shi Zhenzhu, saying that she was going to send Zhang Youming.

I thought Zhang Youming was going to go home directly, but after getting in the car, Zhang Youming reported the name of the place, Shi Zhiqing frowned and didn't start the car, thinking for a while, she decided to ask Zhang Youming.

"The last time you left the hospital, my mother said she saw you getting into a luxury car."

Zhang Youming tilted his head and looked at Shi Zhiqing inexplicably. Shi Zhiqing didn't dare to look at Zhang Youming at all. After coughing lightly, he stared at the steering wheel and continued, "My mother asked me to ask you."

When Zhang Youming heard it, he turned his face away and said softly, "Customer, it's not what your mother thinks, I'm not so downcast that I'm taken care of by others."

"Are you going to her place now?"

"Ah."

"What client?"

"It's inconvenient to say."

Shi Zhiqing didn't speak anymore, the social skills accumulated in the past seemed to be completely useless to Zhang Youming.

However, it is really inconvenient for Zhang Youming to say that the Taoist priest who did not know where the rich woman found taught her the secret art of eternal youth. This woman was also bewitched. I really believe it. Finding young men to have sex to gain yang energy, and you have to count the horoscope.

Go to Zhang Youming now, just to count the horoscope.

Although Zhang Youming was doing fortune-telling for others, it was a serious business. Besides, he couldn't understand those charlatans cheating people out of money. Most importantly, he ruined their reputation for fortune-telling.

So he brought Shi Zhiqing with him, thinking that it was really impossible and asked the doctor to explain to her.

But when the two arrived, they were dumbfounded. It was the first time they saw such a big battle, with more than a dozen male models sitting in a row, waiting for Zhang Youming to choose a suitable one.