my sick white moonlight

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Zhang Youming hesitated for two seconds before walking over. The sudden strange feeling invaded every cell in his body. Should he sit next to Chen Yandu and wait for the common goal?

Seeing the appearance of young people, there is always a strong sense of substitution. At that time, the sky is not afraid of the earth, and there is a super high consciousness that I can't help my fate. Under the blow, recalling those past events, he could only give up with a wry smile.

More importantly, in front of young people, it always seems that there is not much competitiveness.

Zhang Youming walked over, and even before he sat down, Chen Yan noticed him.

Indeed, a man like Zhang Youming who is perfect except for his legs, everyone will pay more attention to him, most of them have a sympathetic attitude, and sometimes they will blatantly say: "It's a pity, it's a pity, Nice lad."

Zhang Youming is already immune to this kind of rhetoric. In this mortal world, everyone always likes to define beautiful things. Few people can fully accept the beauty with regrets, not just the body.

Zhang Youming didn't intend to talk to Chen Yan, they were just people who met once, he told himself in his heart, don't care about his relationship with Shi Zhiqing.

"Are you waiting for Dr. Shi too?" Chen Yan put away his mobile phone and planned to chat with Zhang Youming to pass the time. He thought of coming to see Shi Zhiqing after class. He had a performance tonight, so he wanted to Invite Shi Zhiqing to go with her.

Zhang Youming turned his head slightly, glanced at Chen Yandu, and after turning his gaze away, said politely: "Yes."

"Are you his friend?" Chen Yan sighed in his heart. Sure enough, the handsome guy's friend is also a handsome guy.

This question made Zhang Youming hesitant to speak, how to accurately describe their relationship with one word?High school classmate, or good brother?

In the end, Zhang Youming chose to acquiesce, and sometimes friends can cover all relationships.

"Ah."

"Do you have an appointment with Dr. Shi?"

Chen Yan didn't even know who this "friend" of Shi Zhiqing was, but he still kept a little bit of vigilance on the people he met on social software, in case he was just one of Shi Zhiqing's candidates, then It doesn't make much sense anymore.

"No, he wants to introduce me to a psychiatrist." Zhang Youming replied.

"Ah, I'm sorry." Chen Yan thought it was Zhang Youming who was going to see the psychiatrist, and felt a little sorry.

Zhang Youming knew he had misunderstood, but he was too lazy to explain.

"What about you?" Zhang Youming asked.

"I'm Dr. Shi's friend. I have a performance today and I want to invite him to see it." Chen Yan said with a smile. He hoped that Shi Zhiqing could see his bright moments on stage. Seeing Zhang Youming looking at him, Chen Yan Both added: "In New Century Plaza, you can go and see it if you have time."

Zhang Youming shook his head, apologized slightly, and said softly: "I have something tonight, I'm sorry."

"It's okay, you can go with Dr. Shi if you have a chance in the future." Chen Yan didn't feel threatened by Zhang Youming's words and deeds.

In his opinion, Zhang Youming is not very interested in Shi Zhiqing.

When Shi Zhiqing was still in the operating room, he heard the interns who changed shifts say that someone was looking for him, hurriedly changed his clothes and came down, and saw Zhang Youming and Chen Yan sitting in the waiting area, this scene was quite weird.

In addition, Shi Zhiqing was inexplicably guilty. No matter how he thought about it, it was unexpected. Who knew that Chen Yan would come to the hospital to look for him. He had to think about how to explain it to Zhang Youming. The problem is that Zhang Youming doesn't seem to care much about these things about him.

Based on the principle of prioritizing appointments, Shi Zhiqing asked Chen Yan to wait for him for a while. He took Zhang Youming to the psychiatry department to find a doctor. Chen Yan looked at the time, hesitated for two seconds, and agreed.

After entering the elevator, Shi Zhiqing stared at the whirring electric fan, not knowing what to say to Zhang Youming, the two really had nothing in common.

Because Shi Zhiqing had greeted Dr. An in the psychiatric department beforehand, saying that he had some problems to consult with. After arriving, Zhang Youming followed Dr. An into the consultation room. Before entering, Zhang Youming did not forget to tell Shi Zhiqing: " You go first, the young man is in a hurry, he asked you to go to the show."

Shi Zhiqing looked at the back of Zhang Youming going in, and wanted to call Zhang Youming a fool, why didn't he understand?Why is it necessary to push yourself out, and then act like you have done something good.

Out of anger, Shi Zhiqing immediately decided to sit on the back of Chen Yandu's motorcycle and go to the show with him, regardless of Zhang Youming, friends with postpartum depression, and shit love.

But the facts proved that Shi Zhiqing really didn't appreciate the music aesthetics of young people nowadays. Chen Yan's so-called live performance was to play explosive electronic music, and then the people below held hands and jumped around.

It's not because I'm more mature that I feel superior.

It's just that Shi Zhiqing thinks that she might be more suitable for sitting on the balcony in the evening, enjoying the evening breeze, tasting the new tea she bought recently, listening to a slow-paced ballad song, looking into the distance, and reminiscing about the past.

Shi Zhiqing never imagined that she would often experience painful feelings of unbearable memories of the past when she was only 27 or [-] years old.

After Chen Yan got off the stage, he pushed against Shi Zhiqing's side against the crowd, and whispered in his ear, "What are you thinking?"

"I was thinking that you are now college students, and your life is so colorful." Shi Zhiqing smiled at him, if he could stay up all night like before, he would also be willing to carnival under the neon lights.

"Really? Then you should contact me more and promise to make you ten years younger." Chen Yan joked.

Shi Zhiqing took a piece of paper, handed it to Chen Yandu, and asked him to wipe off his sweat. After a few seconds, she calmly said: "That's it, but no one will be young forever."

"Then you just don't want to hang out with me." Chen Yandu said.

He was a little disappointed, Shi Zhiqing didn't seem to have much interest in him.

"No." Shi Zhiqing smiled, wanted to say something else, or found an excuse, but found that the reason was really clumsy, so it's better not to say it.

"Forget it, I don't care about this with you. You are very tired at work, and I dragged you out. Next time when you are on vacation, can I go directly to your house?" After Chen Yan finished speaking, he felt that something was wrong. I was very casual, and continued: "I mean...that's..."

"No problem, the weeds in my yard should be removed, and I just need your labor force." Shi Zhiqing smiled. "Then this weekend?"

"I don't have time this weekend, my grandma's birthday."

Speaking of birthdays, Shi Zhiqing suddenly remembered that Zhang Youming's and Guo Li's birthdays were coming soon.

Guo Li has been by my side all these years, and even invited out for dinner on his birthday, while Zhang Youming, counting it, has not celebrated his birthday for almost nine years.

The sense of ritual of celebrating a birthday seems unnecessary to people born in society, but Shi Zhiqing always has expectations.

His birthday was one month behind Zhang Youming and Guo Li's. From junior high school, Zhang Youming would give gifts to Shi Zhiqing every year until the year when he disappeared.

So, will you receive a gift from Zhang Youming this year?

Shi Zhiqing set a limit for himself again, if he wanted Zhang Youming to give him a gift and surprise him, then he would like him for a while longer, if Zhang Youming forgot or didn't express anything, then he would give up Zhang Youming completely and find other people.

People are so strange, they always like to set up some rules to make their stupid behavior seem reasonable, Shi Zhiqing is also like this, in fact, she has a clear mind, whether to give gifts or not to give surprises is useless, as long as she is not around Together, it is no use.

But how could I and Zhang Youming be together?

After sending Chen Yan back home, it was around twelve o'clock, Shi Zhiqing quickly took a shower, lay on the bed, read the WeChat messages, and then fell into a drowsy sleep, but for some reason, she couldn't sleep well.

At four o'clock in the morning, the raindrops slapped on the glass window, Shi Zhiqing was woken up, barefoot, got up and closed the window, drank another saliva, and lay down on the bed again, feeling no longer sleepy.

Listening to the sound of rain outside, Shi Zhiqing thought about looking through the chat records between herself and Zhang Youming.

He doesn't know if others are like this. He often looks at the dialog box over and over again when he misses someone. Those few simple contents that are kept in his heart seem to carry too much hope.

Nowadays, everyone communicates directly on WeChat when they have something to do, so Shi Zhiqing's text messages are set in a do-not-disturb mode, and they usually read them at night when they sleep, and they will read them together, and reply if there is any need.

Before going to bed last night, because I was too sleepy, I only read WeChat messages, so I only saw the text message from Zhang Youming at four o'clock in the morning.