His baby is reborn

The instruments are cold and huge, completely covering the emaciated sick body on the bed, as if they are the masters of this space.

Xing Ke lay quietly in it, looking out the window with an indifferent expression.

At the same time, Xu Zhuo was rushing back to Beicheng from Linxi.

In the process of running towards the special sanatorium in Beicheng, along the way, someone gave him the green light and covered him so that no one else could see him.

The nursing home is so big, and those people pick them up one by one.

Dressed in black, it looks like the tentacles of the devil, covering it, leading the beloved little dessert to the devil.

The cute little dessert didn't realize it, and ran straight into the dark room, buried her head in the complicated instrument room, leaned in front of Xing Ke's face, and said worriedly: "Xing Ke, why are you hospitalized!"

Two years ago, Xu Zhuo was still weighed down by life amid the news of his father's death and his mother's serious illness.But maybe it was because of his optimistic nature, since Xing Ke appeared by his side, such a big trauma was quickly healed by himself.

Xing Ke arranged Sun Fangli for him.

At the same time, he also prepared a notice for Xu Zhuo to study abroad-it was not Xu Zhuo's favorite, but his choice due to the needs at the time.

Now that all burdens are cleared, life should move forward with his brisk mood.

But he came to Xing Ke's side again.

"...a small matter." Xing Ke lightly raised his hand and pushed Xu Zhuo away.

This seems to be that he does not want to get too close to him, but in fact Xing Ke does not want him to see his disabled face too clearly.

"How could it be a trivial matter? You definitely wouldn't come here for such a trivial matter, just ask Mother Liu to call the family doctor." Xu Zhuo didn't believe it, and stretched his neck: "There are so many instruments..."

Xing Ke interrupted him: "It has nothing to do with you."

Xu Zhuoyuan was studying those instruments. Hearing this sentence, his eyes lowered and fell on Xing Ke's face again.

But Xing Ke didn't look at him, his eyes were still looking out of the window.

There are no tall trees here, and the sunlight blocked by the glass fell on his face just right, illuminating his sickly face in an inescapable way.

Diseases can eat away at a person's body, and people like Xing Ke are eaten up very quickly.A trip to the hospital can make him a different person from before -- although Xing Ke didn't look too healthy in the past.

Xu Zhuo stood there, stared at Xing Ke for a long time, reached out and rubbed his head, then sighed helplessly and said, "Are you still angry?"

Xing Ke still looked out of the window.

"Because I kissed you before, so you don't even want to look at me now?"

Xing Ke's eyelashes trembled.

"I know that I have a problem, and I apologize, and I won't do it again. But you have helped me so much, I can't even come when you are sick, can you understand?" Xu Zhuo looked straight at Xing Ke and said : "Take good care of your body, and I promise that after you leave the hospital this time, I won't bother you, okay?"

Xing Ke didn't speak.

His lips moved, but he said nothing.

Xu Zhuo who was at the side stared at him for a while, seeing that there was nothing unusual about him, he ran out to ask Mama Liu if Xing Ke needed to eat anything.

Mama Liu prepared a fruit plate, Xu Zhuo brought it in and put it on the table, Xing Ke didn't eat it.

Xu Zhuo didn't feed him either, as if he was worried about Xing Ke's stronger resentment.In the end, he actually exited the room and handed these over to Mama Liu to deal with.

The room fell silent in an instant, falling into a deathly silence.

Xu Zhuo lived in Beicheng.

His university is in Beicheng, and he is familiar with Beicheng, so he rented the house by himself.

After he settled down, he didn't regard accompanying Xing Ke as his main task.

In fact, he lives by himself most of the time.Every day I only go to Xing Ke Na for two hours in the afternoon, and leave at sunset, never staying longer.

He doesn't eat with Xing Ke, and he doesn't accompany Xing Ke for examination.

After coming here, I read books and newspapers for Xing Ke, and nothing else, as if the two of them were really just the simplest friendship.It was as if that kiss did not exist before Xu Zhuo was sent away from Beicheng.

He didn't even touch Xing Ke.

Such avoidance made the defensive wall in Xing Ke's heart become lower and lower, and finally even collapsed across the board.

Xing Ke is sure that there is something wrong with his psychology, Xu Zhuo will come to accompany him for two hours every day, which is better than anyone Xing Ke has met, but he still feels that it is not enough.

He began to envy the full 22 hours that Xu Zhuo gave to the outside world beyond these two hours.

He even wanted to tie Xu Zhuo to this dim ward, and let him take root in the mud with him.

...His original intention to stay away from Xu Zhuo was right, and there was no benefit at all in getting together with someone like him.

Xing Ke was hospitalized for a whole month, and his body had recovered long ago, but he despicably did not leave.

During this month, there were about ten times when Xing Ke wanted to stop Xu Zhuo when he turned around and left, telling him that he didn't reject the kiss, he was just afraid that Xu Zhuo would reject him, would reject him Rejecting his touch, rejecting his reaction, rejecting all the dark thoughts in his heart.

He tossed and turned ten times, but still failed to speak, but Xu Zhuo disappeared.

Yes, Xu Zhuo didn't show up in the nursing home that day.The only explanation he gave Xing Ke was "My friend has returned to Beicheng, let's have dinner together" and a group photo of being dragged to the bar on the same day.

In the photo, Xu Zhuo was obviously drunk, his cheeks were flushed.

He never went to such places when he was in school, so the posture looked obviously unfamiliar.Not only is he unfamiliar, but he also looks like he was being teased by his friends, smiling at the camera with a good-natured smile on his face.

Xing Ke only glanced at it, then turned off the phone.

Jealousy follows the night into people's hearts. It eats people's hearts and puts crazy obsessions into it, making people sleepless all night.

The next day, Xing Ke almost stubbornly sat on the hospital bed and waited for the whole afternoon.

Xu Zhuo didn't come yesterday, he owed him two hours. In 24 hours, he only gave two, and still owed one day.Xing Ke felt that Xu Zhuo would make it up, and Xu Zhuo had to make it up.

But Xu Zhuo still didn't come the next day.

Xing Ke's body is actually not suitable for sitting for a long time.However, he sat obsessively until late at night, until his eye sockets were pierced blood red by the pain, until he received a polite WeChat message from Xu Zhuo saying, "Sorry, I just woke up with a hangover."

And a photo of a friend sleeping in a mess to testify.

Xing Ke's fingers were tightly tightened, so thin that the hand bones were too distinct to pierce the skin of the palm desperately.He didn't know how long it took before he closed his eyes and took a deep breath, grunting almost painful screams from his throat.

Looking out of the window again, I feel like a ghost on the glass.

Obviously there is nothing left, but because of a little remnant, the evil ghost clings to the world.The whole body is covered with the desire to eat people.

On the afternoon of the third day, Xu Zhuo finally came again.

"Mother Liu said you should eat more fruit." After Xu Zhuo read two pages of the book, he placed the fruit plate in front of Xing Ke.

Xing Ke didn't even look at it, he turned around and moved his legs off the bed.His black hair was a little longer, sweeping across his thin cheekbones, after landing, Xing Ke asked the nurse to pick him up.

Seeing this, Xu Zhu was puzzled: "What's the matter, are you going out? Didn't you finish the test today?"

Xing Ke sat in a wheelchair, lowered his eyelashes and said, "Yes."

Then he motioned to the nurse to push him outside: "There are still a few tests, it will take a long time, go back, there is no need to wait."

Xu Zhuo was stunned and said, "What's going on? Is the condition getting worse?"

"No." Xing Ke said, "I'm about to be discharged from the hospital."

His words fell to the ground, and the room suddenly fell into silence.

Xu Zhuo stopped talking, and Xing Ke didn't speak either.The two are like beasts facing each other silently in the room, but they don't look at each other.Only the nurses were following their duties and pushing Xing Ke out.

When passing by Xu Zhuo, Xu Zhuo who had been silent all this time suddenly stretched out his foot and stepped on Xing Ke's wheelchair.

The nurse probably had never seen anyone dare to step on Xing Ke's wheelchair, and he almost lost control of his strength, the chair was bumped, and he looked at Xu Zhuo in surprise.

At the same time, Xu Zhuo also looked up at him: "Go out and wait, I have something to say to him."

Nurse: "This..."

"After I finished speaking, I'll leave. I'll buy a ticket to go back to Linxi at night, is that okay?" Xu Zhuo seemed to be talking to the nurse, but it was not the case, and his eyes were fixed on Xing Ke in front of him.

Xing Ke could feel his Adam's apple rolling up and down.Consciousness flicked over the message "I'm leaving tonight" countless times before finally nodding almost inaudibly.

The nurse left the room, knocked lightly on the door, only Xu Zhuo and Xing Ke were left in the room.

Xu Zhuo didn't take the initiative to speak, so Xing Ke opened the door for him: "From now on, don't step on my wheelchair."

When he said this, he clenched the armrest with his palms, and it seemed obvious that there was some emotion throbbing in his chest, and even his Adam's apple had an unnatural sliding gesture, as if he was holding back something.

Xu Zhuo was stunned for a moment, in fact, Xu Zhuo would not have dared to do it when the two of them met again.

Yet two years passed: "...if you fall, I'll catch you."

"I don't need it." Xing Ke said disgustedly: "Don't do meaningless things."

"Is it meaningless to help you?" Xu Zhuo wondered: "Is it meaningless to kiss you and like you?"

"...Of course." Xing Ke said word by word.

"Why?" Xu Zhuo was puzzled and asked.

Xing Ke pulled his lips, looked at Xu Zhuo with those gloomy eyes and said, "Because no one would like someone like me, no one would have desire for someone like me..."

"I will."

"...You're out of your mind."

"My brain is not clear." Xu Zhuo frowned: "You are not a doctor, so don't give me a diagnosis."

Xing Ke squeezed the armrest tightly and looked at Xu Zhuo, and Xu Zhuo met his gaze and said, "I'm sure I like you, even if your body is like this, I still like you, how far I have to go before you believe it What? Is it okay to give you oral sex?"

Xing Ke seemed to never expect to hear such dirty words from Xu Zhuo's mouth, his eyes suddenly widened, and he almost said sharply: "Are you crazy?"

"I'm not crazy." Xu Zhuo once again looked at Xing Ke with that "you're not a doctor" look: "It's you who are always dishonest. Last year when I was sick and had a nightmare, it wasn't you who coaxed me all night ?"

Xing Ke pursed his lips and said, "I haven't."

"Then I was bullied, and I don't care about it. Isn't it you who turned the corner and insisted on venting my anger for me?"

"I do not have."

"You made me have no friends at school, everyone is afraid of me, so I can accompany you, isn't it you?"

Xing Ke's pupils suddenly contracted, and he resolutely objected: "I don't."

But Xu Zhuo seemed to be talking to himself: "Since these are all you, then you are the one who got better and got out of the hospital after two days because I didn't come because of something, isn't it you?"

"Xu Zhuo--" Xing Ke said angrily and embarrassed.

"Don't be fierce with me," Xu Zhuo's eyes turned red at some point, "They are afraid of you, and I am also afraid of you. I thought about it for a long time before I decided to break up with you. No matter how fierce you are, I won't be able to hold back." Stop it. You don't know how hard it has been for me these past few months, you said before that you don't like men, you hate this kind of relationship, you--"

Xing Ke stared at Xu Zhuo closely.

"You're not annoying at all, you're just being dishonest. But it took me a long time to figure it out." Xu Zhuo scratched his hair a little irritably: "Don't look at me on the surface, but I have to do it in advance when I come to you." A day of mental preparation is the only way to ensure emotional stability. I like you, and you like me. When I kissed you, you reacted, and I saw it. You are just dishonest and don’t believe me.”

When Xu Zhuo spoke later, his voice was a little choked up.

In fact, he is far from being as strong as he looks on the surface, but because he didn't want to put his emotional burden on his parents since he was a child, he learned to cover up early.

His skill is so proficient that even Xing Ke can't see it.

But there will be times when he can't hold back.

"...Stop talking." Xing Ke withdrew his gaze, looked elsewhere, and said with difficulty.

"How can you trust me? If words don't work, can you use your body?" Xu Zhuo said, "I can kiss you many times a day. I guarantee that if you let me touch you, you will definitely see my liking. If you don't think so A sense of security, then if you touch me, I promise that I will like it very much, is that okay?"

Xu Zhuo said while reaching out to hold Xing Ke's hand.

However, before he touched it, Xing Ke quickly withdrew his hand, frowned and looked at Xu Zhuo: "Why did you--"

Xu Zhuo didn't let him speak.

Those words just now have exhausted all of Xu Zhuo's brains and courage.Just as he was far less happy than he looked, he was also far less brave than he seemed.

Xu Zhuo knew how to imitate those confident and happy people since he was a child, but the curtain of the drama will fall, and there will be times when he can't pretend.

Let Xing Ke say one more word, and he will collapse.

So he kissed Xing Ke's lips hard, and even knocked his teeth because of his greenness.

Xing Ke wanted to reach out to push him away, but Xu Zhuo was unwilling.

He didn't even care if Xing Ke's leg hurt or not, he just bullied him, venting all the anxiety and panic under his skin with actions.

Rather than saying that he is giving, it is better to say that he is taking.

Xu Zhuoyuan was not as strong as he looked, before Xing Ke reappeared, he was really unlucky.

His backbone has long been severed by life, and it was Xing Ke who appeared and became his new center, giving him support.

Xing Ke had no choice but to give, if not, his baby would collapse.

Probably gradually realized this from Xu Zhuo's kiss, Xing Ke gradually stopped struggling and let Xu Zhuo absorb the temperature and smell from his body.

The patient's body didn't smell good at all, and no one knew why Xu Zhuo could fall into such a state of confusion and obsession with such a body.

When they were separated, there was even a light red, ambiguous filament attached to Xing Ke - it was just that Xing Ke didn't want to eat it, but Xu Zhuo tasted the residue of a cherry.

"You must be crazy." Xing Ke closed his eyes and said a little tiredly.

"I don't." Xu Zhuo leaned forward, sucked Xing Ke again, retracted the filament, and touched Xing Ke's lips lightly with his soft lips: "I'm very awake."

"I don't live ten years."

"That's because you don't work hard. If you work hard, the doctor said more than this number."

"Twenty at most."

"That's enough." Xu Zhuo backed away a little, looked up at Xing Ke, his eyes were full of infatuation, and when he looked into Xing Ke's eyes, his nerves throbbed thrillingly: "I am so unlucky With you for 20 years, what more do you want?"

Xu Zhuo lay on Xing Ke's lap and rubbed him lovingly: "I will be very scared when you are not around. You know the situation of my family. No one... No one can give me such strong support. I It has been spoiled by you."

"But my body is bad." Xing Ke said hoarsely.

Xu Zhuo raised his head, picked up Xing Ke's hanging hand, put it on his head, and continued to lie on his lap: "What does it matter, I become half of you, you can play with me Wouldn’t it be nice to transfer the sense of loss of control over my own body to me, and I can rely on you to survive?”

"This is sick." Xing Ke's hand hanging on Xu Zhuo's head became stiff.

A normal person's love should be two independent people walking, the relationship between him and Xu Zhuo is pathological.This is not because Xu Zhuo is sick, but because Xu Zhuo fell in love with him who is disabled.

"It's not fair." Xing Ke pursed his lips tightly.

"Hush." ​​Xu Zhuo said softly, then reached out and took a cherry from the fruit plate on the bed, half-filled it between his lips, and looked up at Xing Ke.

There were tears in the corners of his eyes, because of their bumpy relationship and their deformed fate.

However, before he took the cherry in his mouth, he still asked Xing Ke tenderly: "Eat? I'll feed you."

There was a sincere love in Xing Ke's life that he had never seen in his life, and he bravely embraced him on the road destined not to end well.

The author has something to say:

After the episode of the previous life is over, it will be very sad to write it later, woo woo woo, I love writing about this kind of morbid obsession.

The next episode is this life-v0, Bobo

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