only love

In the middle of the night, it rained suddenly, and the crackling raindrops hit the glass with a deafening sound.

Ke Zhenghui opened his eyes, the night outside was still on and off before going to sleep, the lights were shining, day and night.

He put his hands on the pillow, listening to the scattered raindrops hitting the glass outside, the misty light, the faintly visible rain curtain, slanted down, and hung into the ground.

He was drowsy, the heat in the room was flowing wantonly, the plush blanket on his body was too thin, so thin that he felt very cold, enduring the piercing coldness, he didn't want to wake up, he just wanted to sleep like this in a dream.

A dream that can't distinguish reality. In the dream, he felt that his 20-year-old body was plundered and oppressed. The feeling of being out of breath, dry breathing and hesitation, and the turbid breath coming in and out. He didn't know this dream What is the root cause of this? He felt, as if, at the age of 20, this body was no longer his own. He could not recall the unbearable scenes and pain that happened that night. He only remembered that there was a passionate body. Enough to overwhelm his own heavy body, oppressing from above, the overwhelming aura made him, who had never been oppressed, feel uncomfortable.

He wanted to push away, he wanted to get up, the intoxicating alcohol, the alcohol that paralyzed the nerves, his resistance was like a scratch in the boots, it was useless at all, for this reason, he hung his head and struggled, he felt a sudden heart-piercing pain , That kind of pain, pain all over the body, from inside to outside.

Ke Zhenghui couldn't tell if it was just a personal nightmare or if it really happened.

On his 20th birthday, he got drunk for the first time, woke up the next day, and he was lying in his elder brother's room. When he opened his eyes in the morning, he felt like his whole body was falling apart, hurt, and there was a dull pain everywhere , he felt uncomfortable.

At that time, Ke Zhenghong, who was guarding the bedside, seemed to have not slept all night. His face was full of exhaustion and tiredness, and he was trying his best to guard his sleeping brother who was waking up repeatedly in his dreams. His outstretched hand , the gentle palm fell on the forehead of the confused person, and he said, "Zhenghui, where is it uncomfortable? Is it uncomfortable?"

Ke Zhenghui struggled in a daze, turned his face, approached the palm on his forehead, and fell asleep again in a trance.

Ke Zhenghui had a problem since he was a child. He liked the warm feeling. Even if it was holding hands tightly, he wanted to get close to him for warmth. He especially trusted and relied on Ke Zhenghong.

Ke Zhenghong never allowed his fourth brother to get blood on his hands, he said, "You are different from our three brothers."

He tightly protected this pure white younger brother, and he did not allow the youngest him to walk on their path.

Ke Zhenghui couldn't understand, he asked, "Then why, the second brother and the third brother can do it, but I can't."

He didn't want to be told by other students that he was like a man with no power to restrain himself. No matter what he did, it was his brother who did it, and he didn't have any decision-making power.

Ke Zhenghui remembers that the first time he saw his elder brother, he beat the bad-mouthed senior until the blood flowed all over his face, because the boy who insulted the junior was not only good at studying, but also more attractive to men. Distinctive.

It was the first time for Ke Zhenghui to hear such insulting words. He clenched his fists and rushed forward. This was an instinctive reaction of a boy. He was protected by his three older brothers. Yes, he was isolated by other students. Yes, he It's just that I'm not used to the hypocrisy of other people.

It may be the root cause of his illness when he was a child. He was isolated by his grandfather's brothers and sisters since he was a child. He was out of tune with everyone. For this reason, he returned to his father. He has a special relationship with those brothers. Ke Zhenghong, Ke Zhengxin and Ke Zhengyu don't understand Why is the youngest brother afraid of their approach.

When he was a child, Ke Zhenghong tried every means to untie the boy's heartache. He devoted all his heart to caring for the only younger brother who grew up with only mother's love but no father's love and brother's care. He said, "we will protect you, even if mother is gone, but you still have us?"

Ke Zhenghong grabbed his younger brother who was trying to break free, and said, "Zhenghui, I am your brother, we will be with you, and we will never neglect you."

Ke Zhenghong tried his best, and Ke Zhenghui finally let go. At the age of 16, Ke Zhenghui slowly changed his timid character and adapted to the protection of his three older brothers in the new environment. All shook completely.

He forgot his previous home, and he merged into the newest home. Even though his mother is not there, he still has his father and three older brothers. He kept telling himself that he was also constantly changing and becoming stronger. For example, he also Learn to beat people, fight with others, just like that time, he fought with the older seniors, his behavior frightened all the teachers and classmates, in the eyes of everyone, he is obviously a very quiet child, even some Depressive tendencies.

That day, Ke Zhenghong went to school to pick up his younger brother who was late at school. For the first time, he saw his younger brother who was trying to protect him was beaten until he bled.

Ke Zhenghong stopped the car, got out of the car, immediately picked up the umbrella in his hand, and hit the tall man. The students around him who had left school after school stopped one after another. They watched this bloody scene in shock. Violence.

At that time, it was raining, and Ke Zhenghui was alone and weak. He was fighting against others. After he was pushed away, relying on his strength, as a senior, he mercilessly gave two punches to the defenseless junior. Those two punches made the corners of Ke Zhenghui's mouth bleed. No one knows what kind of mood he was in at that moment. Although he was isolated by the children around him when he was a child, even though he was 15 years old, he had a brother behind him, But he had never received such a blow and insult, so he stood up, staggered and wanted to fight back, but before he even got up, he was pushed and even kicked by the big bully again. kick.

Ke Zhenghong was beaten to death that day. Ke Zhenghui was sitting on the ground. He wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth. There was blood on the corner of his mouth, and a red and swollen face, and even his forehead was bleeding.

Ke Zhenghui was afraid of his life, so he went up and hugged Ke Zhenghong, who was beating madly, and said, "Brother, brother, stop beating, stop beating."

Ke Zhenghong still wanted to go up, but Ke Zhenghui hugged his brother who was about to kill him. He kept calling him. The rain that fell from the sky washed away the consciousness of the furious man. He turned around and hugged his injured brother. He said, " Zhenghui, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

The person he was trying to protect was one day beaten so weakly that he could not resist. Ke Zhenghong held the person in his arms and trembled. He said, "It won't happen in the future, it won't happen in the future."

Ke Zhenghui nodded, Ke Zhenghong sent his younger brother to the car, he still wanted to fight, but Ke Zhenghui turned around and stopped him, he shook his head.

Ke Zhenghui didn't have time to pay attention to the teachers who rushed out after hearing the news, as well as the approaching police cars. He pulled the elder brother who wanted to continue beating him to death, and said, "Brother, go home."

Ke Zhenghui held his elder brother whose hands were stained with blood, and Ke Zhenghong sent his younger brother to the car.

Ke Zhenghui thought at the time that this matter could have passed like this, but, the father of that crazy senior who didn't know his life and death happened to be the son of a certain official in the city. For this reason, Ke Zhenghong was called to the police station for questioning.

Ke Zhenghui also wanted to go with him at that time. Ke Zhengxuan took care of his fourth brother. Ke Zhenghong and Ke Zhengxin went to the police station together. The two brothers were responsible for the cause of the incident, and Ke Zhenghong was responsible for the process.

That time, because of this matter, Mr. Ke was so angry that he was half dead. The old man thought that although his son could solve the matter with a strong fist, he must not bully others and act recklessly. Besides, that was the school Ke Zhenghui attended. There is trouble there, how can the youngest brother study there with peace of mind?

The old man blamed the three older sons. Ke Zhenghui wanted to go forward to explain, but Ke Zhengxin knelt in front of him. He waved his hand and punched his eldest brother. Ke Zhenghong glared at him and said, "Zhengxin, do you still want to do something?"

Ke Zhengxin said, "I just thought, why didn't I beat that kid to a cripple."

Master Ke's blood surged, and the crutch in his hand almost greeted the three elder sons who were kneeling neatly in front of him in a hurry.

Ke Zhenghui was standing behind him. He saw Ke Zhenghong turning his head and beckoning, "Don't talk!"

They will bear all the mistakes, and he, Ke Zhenghui, must study hard.

Ke Zhenghui was not held accountable in the end, but three unrelated older brothers who were punished. They knelt in the ancestral hall in the back garden from morning till night.

Ke Zhenghui had a deep memory of this, because his third brother fainted, and he said that it was really uncomfortable to admit that he was wrong, and he would rather fight with others.

Ke Zhenghong and Ke Zhengxin moved the third child to bed together, while Ke Zhenghui was busy serving tea and water, he said sorry many times, Ke Zhenghong pulled his guilty brother, he said, "Zhenghui, the reason why we protect You, in fact, hope that you will not rely on fists to solve problems like us brothers in the future."

That's what Master Ke meant, his three eldest sons, who grew up with a rough guy, they can pick any stupid things, stupid words, but they have no ink in their stomachs, and they can't hold a pen in their hands.

After that, Ke Zhenghui was never bullied by his classmates again. Later, Ke Zhenghong found out that it was his younger brother, and he solved it himself.

Ke Zhenghui, who grew up to be independent, patted his elder brother on the shoulder and said that men's affairs can only be resolved by themselves.This is the deepest understanding he has gained after his three brothers took responsibility for him after being beaten.

When Ke Zhenghong dealt with things later, he understood the severity. Every time he resolved disputes between gangs, as long as his fourth brother was present, he would not do anything. , he will start.

Ke Zhenghui has never killed anyone, let alone maimed anyone. When the eldest brother was still alive, he had no blood on his hands. Until Ke Zhenghong was framed by someone from the same gang. Fourth Master Ke, he finally picked up the gun, aimed at the man's head, and pulled the trigger.

He was calm and expressionless. Xu Ming was shocked by Ke Zhenghui at that moment, and after the shock, it was a matter of the past.

Yes, they all have to learn to protect themselves. If they are unable to protect themselves, they can only wait to be slaughtered.

Xu Ming said, "Your elder brother really protects you."

Ke Zhenghui said, "I know."

Just because he knew, one day, he would pick up that cold gun.

No one could imagine the fear and pain that that young man felt in the face of the person who lost his loved one.

No one will protect him like that anymore; no one will stay by the bed and take good care of him during the three days and three nights when his high fever persisted.

Ke Zhenghui didn't get any explanation for the injury that time. Facing the ambiguous marks on his younger brother's body, Ke Zhenghong only said that they were the scars left by the beating.

Ke Zhenghui had no memory. He didn't remember who did it to him. It seemed that he and Ke Zhenghong knew about it.

Ke Zhenghong tied up Jiang Yaoguang after Ke Zhenghui recovered from his high fever. He said, "If I'm not here one day, then, this person, he will protect your safety. Zhenghui, you can say that you don't need him. You can also get him to nod and make a commitment."

Ke Zhenghong trampled Jiang Yaoguang, who was tied up in a big way, under his feet. He threatened the lives of the bound people, and he asked his younger brother to make a choice.

If Ke Zhenghui said no need, then Jiang Yaoguang has only one end, that is, death without a place to die!

Ke Zhenghui didn't think about asking Jiang Yaoguang to protect him at that time, he just didn't want to see the gun in his elder brother's hand explode, so he said, "Leave him alone."

He didn't know that if he was willing to keep him, he would fall in love with him later.

Because Jiang Yaoguang fulfilled his promise, he promised Ke Zhenghong that he would guarantee Ke Zhenghui's safety, so he risked his life to protect his security, let him live for so many years, and even let this young master who once exposed himself as an undercover agent give up. In order to tell Master Ke about his identity.

For these things that have passed, there are too many darkness, Ke Zhenghui doesn't want to recall, he thinks he can forget, but the premise of forgetting is to remember first, and then sift through the memories to forget them.

He couldn't tell why he liked Jiang Yaoguang; he also couldn't figure out why that dream had trapped him for so many years, and he felt that this body was no longer himself, but he would humbly beg for the love of an undercover policeman.

He turned his head to look at the rain that was still falling outside the window, and remembered that the first fight was also raining. The first time, the dream that had been confusing for many years made him feel disgusted.

He got up, went to open the refrigerator in the dark, took out another bottle of wine, sat in the dark, and kept pouring himself, sip after sip, bottle after bottle, in the feeling of drunkenness, he seemed to remember the 20th birthday drink That night when I was drunk, how I was suppressed by others, and how I resisted, in the end, all the struggles and struggles were replaced by hoarse choking.

He dropped the wine bottle in his hand, he held his aching forehead, he stood up, wanted to go out, wanted to get out in the rain, but when he walked to the door, he was pulled into his arms by the person behind him, and he He picked it up and took it back to the room.

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