don't like me

It's been so long, I know Zhao Yin's thoughts like the palm of my hand, but the number of times I say it openly like today is rare, why?Because I saw my old lover, I was touched somewhere in my heart, and want to talk about bad love and love?

It doesn't make sense, it should just be provoked, I don't like being provoked, being surrounded by Zhao Yin's blatant protection and eyes again and again, no matter what he is, I have already said it, can I take it back?

Zhao Yin listened to my words, his expression did not change, also, if he wanted to see any panic on his face, he might have to wait for many years.

I don't know how long I can live, so I'm shy when I wait for the next one?I don't want to embarrass myself.

Zhao Yin looked at me eagerly, he especially liked to stare at me, he would not restrain himself in front of others, and he was even more presumptuous afterward, he said: "You know best the trick of playing hard to get."

Thanking him for his compliment, I said bluntly: "You are not bad if you have a trick."

Is he my boss?At least not at this time, my attitude towards Zhao Yin has always been like this, I don't respect him much in the company, how can I treat him in private?It's not that I deliberately want to provoke him, it's just that he likes it, how much he likes me to fight him, man.

Zhao Yin stopped arguing with me, it sounded like he was mocking himself, or making fun of me, he shook his head, gave up the fight with me, leaned on the steering wheel and asked, "Where are you going?"

I put my legs down, lay back down again, and said comfortably, "You decide."

He invites me to go anywhere.

It is already past eleven o'clock in the evening, there are not many pedestrians on the road, and there are no traffic jams. I always feel a little hot when I sit in the car, so I take off my suit jacket. Without anyone's consent, Zhao Yin saw my Move, that mouth began to restless again.

"How can I get to the hotel." He glanced at me and said, I pretended I didn't see it, and casually put the coat aside.

"Is it okay if I don't get to the hotel?" I replied shamelessly.

Zhao Yin thought for a while and said, "It's okay, but it won't stretch your legs."

I didn't answer him, and gave him a look, Zhao Yin stopped messing with me, he touched the position of the air conditioner, and wanted to turn it on, but I didn't let him.

Almost there, no need to.

He treats guests today, although he paid for the dinner, but with so many strangers, I didn't eat well, so I can't let him go in this game in the middle of the night, I did him two favors today.

After entering the restaurant, Zhao Yin asked for a private room, but I disagreed, so I chose it in the lobby. Zhao Yin teased me, was I afraid of what he would do, and if I was afraid of going out with him?Zhao Yin doesn't have much self-knowledge, he seems uncomfortable if he doesn't listen to me.

The reason for choosing the lobby is that the environment here is good and not dull. The service and environment provided by high-end restaurants are first-class. I can’t afford it, but I can afford it. If they are willing to invite me, I am happy to come.

Zhao Yin is the one who bears the brunt of being taken advantage of.

The seat is next to the window, the weather has been gloomy recently, the warm light in the restaurant hits the window, the raindrops hanging on the glass lens look very atmospheric, even a little ambiguous, I put a A beautiful rose, this is just the right atmosphere, I seem a little sorry that nothing happened to Zhao Yin and I.

Zhao Yin also noticed it, stood opposite me and said: "This place is not suitable for drinking, it is suitable for dating."

fall in love?It's a strange and naive topic.

I propped my chin and said, "I don't think so, this is just the right atmosphere for drinking."

I contradict him.

Zhao Yin said: "What are you drinking?"

I said, "Go up whatever you want."

Zhao Yinyou said, "How much do you drink?"

I boasted: "I can fight you one or two."

I don't know Zhao Yin's drinking capacity, but this sentence seems to have offended him. Look at him, he immediately showed a look of extreme excitement, and the surprise and murderous meaning in his eyes showed something: "What did you say? .”

He raised his hand, greeted the waiter, first called a box of spirits, I thought he was serious, and didn't stop him, I don't want to spoil his excitement, Zhao Yin threw the menu to me, and said something domineering :"point."

I looked up at him, with the look of extreme interest, I reckoned that I had entered a minefield, took the menu, and said deathly: "I'm so excited, Director Zhao."

Zhao Yin sat down, lit a cigarette, and threw me one. I didn't have time to pick it up, but just glanced at the good cigarettes rolling under my nose.

"Aside from other things, in terms of drinking capacity, you'd better not jump around." He leaned on the red sofa and said, the lingering smoke he created added a layer of hazy color to the atmosphere.

I groaned, and said insincerely: "Oh, but I've already jumped, what can you do?"

Zhao Yindao: "Do you want to go out of this door?"

I said, "That's up to you."

Zhao Yin said, "You know you're still not convinced?"

Submit softness, I have heard this word a lot, I just accepted too much softness, and I have come to this day.

I closed the menu and said to Zhao Yin, "You deserve it too?"

When I say this, I am not targeting Zhao Yin, but he is serious, yes, who can tell that my words are not targeting?Would he believe me if I argued that I just blurted out instinctively?

No, he won't believe that I just hate the word submissive. My instinctive aversion to the word submissive has reached the point where I would resist and criticize before I have time to think about it. Probably, this is my minefield.

It just exploded, much fiercer than others.

I stepped on his tail, he touched my thunder point, we hit it off immediately, I can't compete with Zhao Yin in terms of wine, but the words have been released, I have no regrets, I will never regret it in this life, Every decision I made, I will never regret it since I walked out of that campus.

Because I won't be reckless, I won't be soft-hearted, I won't be naive, and I won't be tempted and believed at will.

Zhao Yin was stimulated by me, and he didn't intend to let me go. Not long after we sat down, the two of us fought together a few bottles of spirits like a drunkard. I was too strong to drink, and I couldn't resist this person who had been in business for so many years. I don't know if Zhao Yin is drunk or not, my head is not clear, I hold on to the bottle and look at the person opposite, and occasionally I can't help thinking that another person is smiling at me.

But when I opened my eyes again, I became Zhao Yin's proud face again.

Zhao Yin said: "What, that's it?"

I was too lazy to reply to him, and I wanted to continue drinking with the wine, but he pinched my wrist and refused to let me continue.

"Why?" I raised my head in dissatisfaction, but I was excited, "Can't you play?"

If I was sober enough, I would definitely understand the sarcasm in Zhao Yin's eyes, he said: "You are a waste of alcohol, what are you going to play with me?"

He snatched the wine bottle from my hand and put it in front of him.

I was a little drunk, but I was able to continue the conversation with Zhao Yin.I heard that drunkenness shows character, and my character is not good. I don’t have to worry about showing my true colors before and after drinking. I propped my forehead and asked drunkenly: "Did you drink dozens of degrees of alcohol?"

Zhao Yin hung me and said, "Guess."

I held my face in my hands, the burned skin was hot, I squinted my eyes, and said puzzledly: "I can't, I'm obviously fine with alcohol."

Zhao Yin said: "Well, yes, it's quite drinkable, but it's a pity that I'm sitting in front of you."

I rolled his eyes at him, and when the next dish came, I was not in the mood to eat it, so I lay down on the table for a while, because I had to suffer for a while.

Zhao Yin asked me if I want to drink hot water, I said no, who the hell drinks hot water while drinking?Not a real man.

After a while, the pungent and stimulating feeling finally eased a lot, and my throat felt much more comfortable. In the business field, I didn't deal with many wine scenes. With Zhao Yin blocking us, we don't have to come forward. I have never seen Zhao Yin get drunk.

"Waiter, I want a cup of hot water." Zhao Yin greeted the waiter who was standing not far away, and ordered a cup anyway.

Not long after, the waiter brought up the water, Zhao Yin handed it to me, I took a look and said no.

Zhao Yin said with a smile: "What are you standing in front of me?"

I just don't want to, stubborn to the end, I've already lost face, I don't want to break through the lower limit again.

Zhao Yin didn't force me to drink, he was fighting the same as me, but he was sitting steadily, the same as before, his eyes were clear, not cloudy at all.

"What did I say? Didn't you just say something soft, and you got serious with me?" Zhao Yin said.

I leaned on the sofa behind me, feeling much better, but the spirits are fierce after all, I raised my head and said, "I didn't say anything, are you not serious anymore?"

Zhao Yin explained unwillingly, "I don't want others to say that I drink well in front of me."

"You have a small mind."

"Are you old?"

I said, "Not too big."

The two of us have been doing things together, sometimes I wonder why a person with high vision like Zhao Yin likes to associate with me?

I remember who said it before, why did I attract the favor of those barbarians with my quiet and gentle temperament, how did I know what kind of magic power I had, how did I know why people like Gu Ming and Zhao Yin Like to hang out with me.

"Eat," Zhao Yin said while holding a cigarette, "You must be starving tonight."

He pointed to the wine bureau, I didn't take advantage of it, I patronized a group of big shots and missed a bite of food.

Looking at the sumptuous supper on the table, I lost my appetite and said, "Why don't you go up?"

Zhao Yin was smoking his last cigarette, when he looked up and saw my eyes, he threw the cigarette butt into the ashtray on the table, as if he really didn't hear clearly, "What?"

I took the trouble and repeated it: "Why don't you climb up? According to your qualifications, you should be the vice president, right?"

Zhao Yin laughed without concealing it, it sounded like a mockery, "Who did you listen to? Those in the office? Or your supervisor?"

"That's what they say." I just betrayed them, it's no secret, I don't think it's something that needs to be kept secret.

Sure enough, Zhao Yin didn't take it seriously and said, "I'm going to be the vice president, will you follow me?"

My eyes were quite fierce, which made Zhao Yin amused. I really hate his jokes at this time.

Zhao Yin stopped teasing me and said, "It's not interesting."

"Uninteresting?" I couldn't understand.

Zhao Yin said: "Well, it's boring. Just Yu Rong is in charge of the world. A director is busy like a dog all day, and then climb up? You think I can sit still?"

"It depends on your needs, you are not short of money."

"Maybe. When I first entered this industry, I worked as hard as you did. Afterwards, I don't think it's so rare."

I desperately?It's okay, it's just a normal worker, this is also called desperate, and those who are really desperate will be injustice.

"Then you're going to live like this forever?" I just asked questions without any other thoughts.

Zhao Yin asked back: "What about you?"

I confessed, "I'm going to climb up."

Zhao Yin said, "Like your style."

I am not sure about my style. I only know that I will seize the opportunity when it comes.

Zhao Yin sat up straight, looked at me, and began to ask me questions, "Let me ask you two questions."

I acquiesced.

Zhao Yin said, "Why did you choose this company?"

I shrugged: "Can't?"

Zhao Yin said, "It's not that I can't, but that it's inappropriate."

I waited for him to continue, the so-called inappropriate reason.

I thought he was going to criticize me, but when I think about it carefully, I have nothing worthy of his criticism, right?At least so far, my work attitude is still serious, and my performance can be considered passable.

Zhao Yin talked eloquently: "Wen Zhixing, you are very smart."

I laughed, a little puzzled, "Where do I start?" The topic can span a wide range, but don't be too inexplicable.

Zhao Yin has a serious attitude, facing my joke, he said without changing his face: "You are not the same as the people in the company. How should I put it, you look like a smart person. You can learn something quickly. The brains are also quick, such as those top students."

I propped up my chin and said, "Come on, I like to hear compliments."

Zhao Yin said: "I'm not joking with you."

I stopped and said, "Okay, okay."

Zhao Yindao: "Which school did you go to?"

I disappointed him and said, "I didn't go to college."

Zhao Yin was startled, a little surprised, his eyes were puzzled, and he said, "Didn't you go to college?"

What's the surprise that there are so many people who haven't gone to college?I asked him back, "Are you different?"

Zhao Yin said: "We are different."

Of course we are different, I entered the society a few years later than him, but we have the same place, we both did the same thing of dropping out of school.

"Why are you? Not going to college?"

"I can't pass the exam." I said.

Zhao Yin didn't believe it, "Are you talking nonsense to me?"

I smiled and said: "No, where do you see that I look like a school bully? From the way I talk about you every day, or from the way I play hard to get with you?"

No matter how you look at it, the adjectives in Zhao Yin's mouth and I don't match. I really don't know where he feels.

"From your arrogance," Zhao Yin said, "the arrogance of a scholar is exactly what you are now."

I refuse to admit it, I am not half arrogant, why did he say that?

Zhao Yin continued: "I have seen too many people. I can tell the arrogance of a scholar by smelling it. Do you know what it feels like?"

"All ears."

Zhao Yin didn't play charades, and said grandly: "It's dissatisfaction with fate, contempt for the lower class, and resentment for the unrealized talent, but none of this can change the reality that he has to join forces with others."

My eyes become playful.

Zhao Yin said: "Wen Zhixing, you too. You have resentment, unwillingness, contempt for your own work, and the skinny feeling that you have to work with others. I said you have the air of a scholar, do you admit it?"

I really want to clap my hands and applaud. I was almost moved by the wise words of a person who dropped out of school early. It is more useful than my political class. No wonder society is a better school. It’s a pity that Zhao Yin doesn’t give a speech. If I have money, Definitely give him a lecture and ask him to talk more about his views on scholars because that would be so funny.

Facing him, I smiled presumptuously and uncontrollably.

Zhao Yin ignored my ridicule, he thought he was right, but I went against him, "Fortunately, you dropped out of school early, if I ask you to read a few more books, I'm afraid you will become a philosopher."

Occasionally, one or two people passed by around, looking back at our place, most of them were couples in the restaurant, and our two big men were indeed eye-catching, they did not shy away from staring at me like this.

But I don't have time to look back, I have to deal with the person in front of me.

"First, I have never been to university, and I am not worthy of the title of scholar. Second, I don't know what kind of aura a scholar has. I have never experienced it or been in contact with it. I am surrounded by ordinary people. Third, you are right. Scholars’ views are too one-sided. The breath of a person has nothing to do with his identity, but has something to do with his thoughts. If he is a stable and mature person, he will definitely not be crazy. There is nothing reliable about it, reading can affect and shape a person’s thoughts and concepts, in my opinion, there are also different grades of scholars, and the scholars you mentioned are just one of them, let’s call them inferior people.”

I'm rarely so serious, why today?It's because Zhao Yin's words aroused my interest, I may need him to recognize me, he is so close, don't give me such a big label, I am not worthy of the title of a scholar.

What I am doing now is running counter to the education I have received. I am lying. I live by lying. One of the conscience, think of those rhetoric, those hopes that I put my heart and the moon, those vulnerable ambitions, and then look back at the current self, how can I be called a scholar?

So I said, Zhao Yin's words are funny.

"I'm not right?" Zhao Yin raised his eyebrows. In his opinion, I am exactly what he said. He may have indeed seen something from me, but it was too one-sided. He gave me the title of a scholar, I really can't bear it. The last person who said this was many, many years ago. The last time he appeared in such a capacity was the autumn when he stood under the national flag.

It's been a long time.

"Half right," I tapped the table with my fingertips. I didn't notice when the rain outside the window started to fall heavily, so I didn't notice it in time. I turned my head and looked back at Zhao Yin, and said with a smile: "If you have to say it , I can also be called an inferior among scholars."

The rain was loud and fell on the mirror window.

My voice is very small, scattered on the table, melting into the air, not worth mentioning.