Case File Compendium

After He Jiwei calmed down, the first thing He Jiwei said was with a sigh: "If only the photo by your bedside is still there."

"I don't know how much memory you have of that photo. It's one of the few photos of your mother when she was young. When you were four years old, she still looked like a girl, unlike now..."

"She doesn't like to see what she looked like before she got married. She cleaned up almost all the old photos of our family. But you can vaguely know from that group photo that she was very beautiful when she was in her twenties— ——Although she is already out of shape in that group photo, the handsome outline between her eyebrows is still there."

When He Jiwei said this, there was some affection in his eyes unconsciously, but that affection came from the past, to his lover in the age of cardamom, just like an old photo, it has been slightly yellowed.

He closed his eyes for a moment, sighed, opened them again, looked at the carpet, and continued to narrate in a low voice.

"I don't know, have you ever thought about why your mother became what she is now. Business entertainment, business dealings-these are very exhausting, and will make many people change from graceful to fat. But That's not absolute, at least you look at these years, I haven't changed too much."

"The first time I saw her, she was wearing a long red dress and she smiled innocently. She was really beautiful. Her almond eyes were clear and bright, just like your eyes. She is also very kind, not so She has a competitive heart, and her favorite things are keeping cats and dogs, planting flowers and vegetables, and reading - anyone who saw her at that time would love her from the bottom of her heart. She is the same as now..." He Jiwei sighed The meaning became more serious. He raised his hands, clasped his palms together, and touched the center of his brows with his fingertips, "It's really quite different."

"At that time, there were many people chasing her, but she chose me in the end. Not long after we got married, she had you."

"..."

"But the good times don't last long."

"Our family's main business is biopharmaceuticals, as you know. Your mother was afraid of my hard work, and she would help me to go to the laboratory and keep an eye on the equipment. But I never knew what went wrong... There was a mistake in any link. When your mother was pregnant with you, she came into contact with the virus leaked from the laboratory. Obviously every check is very strict, and there has never been a single mistake in so many years."

Even if He Jiwei was talking about this matter with his eyes closed, he could still see his pain through the frowning of his brows.

"She had been pregnant for several months at that time. Our family's personal doctor said she had to undergo treatment, and that treatment would definitely lead to fetal death. They asked her to induce labor early. She refused-she Her physique is not very good. The doctor said before she got pregnant that it would be very difficult for her to conceive a second child, so she cherishes your arrival very much. She thinks that she will not have a second child. And in those few months , She is looking forward to your birth every day with infinite expectations, and she talks to you more than to me—they want you to leave her body and sentence you to death, but she refuses."

"No one regards you as a living person, but as an embryo, a seed. Only because she is pregnant with you, she is connected with you every minute and every second, so she has not yet differentiated from your fetal heart. She already loved you deeply when she was young, she said that you are the best gift God gave her, and she named you He Yu early on."

"We persuaded her for a long time, including me. I'm sorry." He Jiwei said, "I admit that I loved her more than you at that time. I didn't want her to have any accidents. I also kept begging her to induce labor, and she would have no children in the future. , or adopt a child, it doesn't matter. I don't want to lose her."

"But she doesn't let go. She looks easy to talk, but once she makes up her mind, ten cows can't pull her back. She cries every time and says don't hurt He Yu, she says you are scared, she I can feel that only she can protect you—she thinks it was her fault, that she was too negligent, which led to that infection accident."

That girl, woman, mother, wife, her hoarse cry seems to be still in my ears——

"Don't kill him...I can feel him...that's my son..."

"Don't touch him...can you please don't touch him...you can hurt me, whatever, it's my fault, I killed him, I want him to live...he's so small...don't kill him OK……"

It has been a long time since He Jiwei recalled this memory that was too painful for him.

He suppressed it for a long time before he could recount the past as calmly as possible.

"She was about to collapse at that time. It was hard to imagine what would happen if she was forced to induce labor. My prediction was that she couldn't bear it at all. If you died, she would lose her life along with you. Passion for going on. Every mother is different, she is the kind of woman with a particularly strong motherhood, she cannot accept your death due to her mistake." He Jiwei said, "What's more, she may never I can't be a mother anymore."

"At that time, she washed her face with tears all day long, and she was thin and out of shape. Her anxiety and fear made her mental state a little abnormal, not to mention that after she contracted the virus, her various organs began to decline. She ran away from home several times. Go... She thinks we will kill you while she is asleep, and she wants to give birth until nine months, and then no one can stop her."

He Jiwei sighed again: "There is really no way... If this continues, she will torture herself to death. So after finding her for the last time, I went to a researcher in the laboratory. I asked Is there any way for him to solve the damage caused by the virus to her, and at the same time protect you as much as possible, so that you can spend the last month safely. ——They finally provided me with a medicine. "

"RN13."

"This is a cell regeneration drug made in the laboratory, which can perfectly repair damaged cells."

He Yu was angry, and felt that he was perfunctory: "How can there be something in the world that can completely repair cells!"

"Yes. He Yu, calm down. Yes." He Jiwei said, "But you are right. RN-13's cell repair is not complete. It is still in the very early research stage, and there is still a long way to go." Road. But judging from the data of the first emperor later..."

He Yu said viciously: "What is the first emperor's data?"

"Have you seen "Resident Evil", remember the Red Queen in it?"

"The first emperor is the same as redqueen, not a real person. Because no one can withstand the full treatment of RN-13 without being tortured to death. It is a simulated data, which symbolizes a human being who has undergone cell regeneration. And The so-called First Emperor’s data is calculated based on this, the self-healing ability of human beings against various diseases under such circumstances.”

"I can't explain too much to you specifically, but RN-13 was our best hope at the time. So even though it was dangerous, had no human trials, and was a completely banned drug, we still used it. This is the only solution that might have both of the worst possibilities."

"...I admit that I was sloppy at that time." He Jiwei said, "but I can't help it. Anxiety during pregnancy, paranoia, depression... superimposed together, her mental state is completely chaotic. Instead of watching Let her torture herself to death...then I'd rather take a gamble."

The curtain fluttered slightly, as if sighing at what happened yesterday.

"It turned out that RN13 did overcome the virus in her body and regenerated her damaged cells at an astonishing rate. She calmed down and finally gave birth to you."

"But RN13 is destined to be an immature drug. Its ambitions are too great. The proposition of cell regeneration is the ultimate challenge to human diseases. With current medical technology, it is impossible to realize it. First emperor is just a perfect drug." It’s just an assumption. This drug does have a strong repairing effect, and even the failed organs can be reversed, so that the patient can be saved. But its side effects have also appeared on you and your mother.”

"Although the pharmacists at that time gave you very small doses and used them carefully, all of this happened inevitably."

"Your mother's hormone secretion began to become abnormal, and her appearance began to become... not so good-looking." He Jiwei seems to have difficulty using the word "ugly" on his wife until today, even though anyone with a discerning eye can see it fact.

But he couldn't speak.

It was his wife, the girl he had chosen among many admirers, and he could still remember her most beautiful.

He Jiwei said with difficulty: "Your figure has also started to lose shape... When you were four years old, you barely had a shadow of the past, not like now."

Anyone who looked at it looked like a greedy and fat spider.

It is actually a very cruel and painful thing for a beauty to lose her beautiful face when she is in her prime.

Lu Zhishu didn't notice it at first, but gradually, she felt it—it was a kind of "organ failure" in terms of social status.

A beautiful appearance can bring infinite kindness and convenience to people.

She was used to receiving those envious, admiring, and admiring eyes since she was a child.

People were always kind to her, and she didn't know what it was like to belong to another kind of woman.

At first, she was immersed in the joy of being a mother, and she didn't take into account that she was gradually looking like a piece of melted ice cream in the mirror.But then...

"Sorry, this seat is occupied."

"No, no accommodation."

"Auntie, the size of this dress is too small for you, how about I get you another one that suits you better?"

She was walking in the society, and suddenly everything became so strange.No one is eager to please her anymore, men will not blush because of flattery when they talk to her, she is called aunt, and the pretty little girls laugh at her fat body and loose body behind her back.

She was panicked, like a cat whose whiskers had been cut off, and didn't even know how to walk.

What is even more sad is the shocking look in every old acquaintance's eyes when they see her now for the first time—whether it is concealed or not, that kind of look is too sharp, piercing her flesh and blood Vague.

She became more and more depressed, lost her temper, and smashed things...

One day when He Jiwei came home, he found that she had lit a fire in the yard, and the servants stood beside them in a daze, watching her burn all the clothes, shoes, photos...all of her when she was a girl.

She smiled and turned around, her drooping cheeks trembling, shaking off some ferocious pleasure.

- She has nothing to do with the past.

She came out of a cocoon, a mutated person.

"Your mother has changed." He Jiwei said, "Slowly, it has become more and more serious...Let's not say it's you, even I sometimes don't recognize it's her."

"She loves you, but she's too afraid to see in you the shadows of her past—to remind her of those days, which she can never get back. She herself has been trying to forget those things."

"She no longer likes cats and dogs, raises flowers and farms, and she even becomes absolutely independent from me. She does business and makes money by herself. When she gets that kind of social status, she can learn from other people's In the midst of being respectful, I vaguely remembered the gentle attitude everyone had towards her when she was young and beautiful."

There was some sadness in He Jiwei's voice: "He Yu, she is actually really pitiful."

"...Don't blame her too much. She can't face you properly, and even I feel extremely guilty. Most of the time, she is taking care of her heart."

"It's not that she only likes He Li, it's just that He Li is more like her now. She doesn't have to think about the darkest past to her."

"Your illness... was also caused by RN13, and she has always been very guilty. Every time you get sick, it is also a kind of torture for her. Until now, she often lives in that pain, sometimes she falls asleep, I can still hear her say..."

He Jiwei paused.

I don't know if it was because of the light in the room, but his eyes seemed a little moist.

He Yu listened numbly for a long time, then asked softly at this moment: "... What did she say?"

He Jiwei lowered his head, like a puppet whose strings have been cut.

"She said it was her fault."

-

The woman murmured in her sleep:

"It's mother's fault."

"It's mom who didn't protect you well."

"..."

He Jiwei's voice was a little hoarse, he cleared his throat, but it was still very deep: "... After she finished speaking, she laughed again in her dream, laughing like a lunatic... I don't think she has ever really felt the truth in these years. Get relief from that past."

"Especially after she gave birth to He Li, she found that she could still conceive a second child. I don't know if she had any regrets in her heart, but she did become tougher. Many times, even I didn't There is no way to communicate with her well, she no longer seems willing to trust anyone but herself."

"Your mother's inner thoughts, no one can fully know now. But He Yu, I can be sure." He Jiwei turned his head and looked at the one who had been lying on the bed and listened to the whole content almost without saying a word. juvenile.

"... She once loved you with her life."

"..."

"Even...even if she has become completely different now...I think deep down in her heart, she should still have the same love for you as before."

It wasn't because of the light, He Jiwei's eyes were really red.

In so many years, it was also the first time for him to fully peel off the painful scars to a person.

"So, no matter what... I think...you should... have a little bit of kindness to her... When she wants to care about you again, she will step on the tip of the past and walk towards you I came here. He Yu, since she was the only one in the past, she wants you to survive even if she doesn't want her life."

He Jiwei's voice became even hoarse: "Can you treat her better..."

He Yu didn't speak.

After a long time, He Jiwei seemed to see a drop of water dripping from under He Yu's arm that had been covering his face. I don't know if it was his illusion, but the drop of water quickly trickled into his temples and disappeared.

And He Yu turned over, no longer lying on his back, but with his back to him.

"You go out," he said softly, "I want to be alone for a while. Will you?"

·

RN13, a drug that is responsible for psychotic Ebola.

When He Jiwei used it, he went to the doctor for an emergency. In addition, the foreign pharmaceutical prescription he cooperated with was not so formal. It seemed that they got the medicine from a scientific research institution in the United States. It was impossible for them to tell him all the secrets. .Therefore, He Jiwei did not fully understand the fact that RN13 might cause mental stimulation to the recipient.

By the time he knew that some recorded human experimenters had suffered from similar diseases, it was already too late.

Lu Zhishu was not ill, but her personality changed suddenly, her appearance was out of shape, and she was not much different from mental illness.He Yu was not so lucky, he became the No. 4 case of mental Ebola.

After He Jiwei discovered that his son had this symptom, he confronted that foreign pharmaceutical company, but the pharmaceutical company changed internally, changed hands, and the original boss was brutally murdered. help.

Later, He Jiwei had no cooperation or contact with that foreign pharmaceutical company.

But the fait accompli cannot be changed.

He Yu lay on the bed for a long time, because the heavy curtains were drawn, it was difficult to distinguish between morning and night, only the sound of the pendulum clock echoed in this quiet bedroom.

Tick, tick.

He Yu didn't know how long it took before he got up, walked to the bookcase, and took out an old photo from a dilapidated copy of "One Hundred Years of Solitude".

The photo is of the geyser in Yellowstone Park. It was the only photo taken by him and his parents on a three-person trip. In the photo, he was still very young, being held in the arms of a young He Jiwei. Next to him was a middle-sized man with a vague appearance. Woman with traces of beauty, smiling, black curly hair hanging on her shoulders, wearing a black lace dress and bucket hat, cuddling next to her husband.

He stroked the woman's face in the photo—

After a long time, He Yu slowly closed his eyes.

the next day.

When Lu Zhishu was preparing breakfast in the western kitchen, he saw He Yu go downstairs for the first time and come to the dining table.

He Jiwei still retains his old habits. Although it is no longer the era of paper media, he still likes to read a whole newspaper while drinking morning tea in the early morning.

"Wake up so early?" He Jiwei looked up from the newspaper.

When Lu Zhishu heard the movement, he turned around and saw that his son, whom he had courted for so long and hadn't responded for so long, was willing to have breakfast with them today. He couldn't even hold the pan firmly, and almost fell to the ground.

Although He Yu's expression was still very calm, she still felt that this was a great improvement.

"What does He Yu want? Coffee? Tea?"

He Yu said calmly, "It's all right, thank you."

After breakfast, Lu Zhishu was able to keenly receive the signal from He Yu - it was not a day's cold to be frozen three feet, and he couldn't get too close to them.

But at least he doesn't have the attitude of high defense.

He's trying to make contact with them.

Lu Zhishu was greatly encouraged by this.

"He Yu..."

"Ok?"

"Mom found a new doctor for you. He is also very young and easy to communicate with you. You are not in good condition these days. If not, let him come and see you."

"..."

new doctor...

For some reason, He Yu thought of Xie Qingcheng who came to his house for the first time holding a bouquet of hydrangeas that year.

He closed his eyes and was silent for a long time.

In the end, he tapped three words: "It's up to you."