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Xie Qing asked for leave and wanted to rest at home for two days.

He has been lying on the bed almost all the time, motionless, and the monitoring data on his mobile phone has been set by him. Once the threshold exceeds the safe limit for a long time, an alarm will be sent to tell him.

But the alarm never sounded—He Yu didn't want to disappoint Xie Qingcheng, so he tried his best to restrain himself and tried his best not to let him get sick.

In this way, the next afternoon, Xie Qingcheng woke up from a vague sleep, and found a person sitting in front of him.

He thought it was Li Miaoqing, so he said to her: "Aunt Li, you go and do your work, I'm fine..."

"elder brother."

A soft call full of sadness and worry brought Xie Qingcheng back to his senses. He took a closer look and found that the person sitting beside his bed was not Li Miaoqing, but Xie Xue.

"..."

He and Xie Xue hadn't gotten along well for a long time. Ever since the relationship between Xie Xue and Wei Dongheng was made public, Xie Qingcheng hadn't shown any good face to his sister.Xie Xue is still a little apprehensive when facing him, but because he is obviously ill, she can't help worrying.

A variety of emotions are intertwined on her face, making her expression look even a little funny.

Xie Qingcheng: "...What are you doing back home? No class in the afternoon?"

"Aunt Li said that you are not feeling well, so I asked for leave to accompany you." Xie Xue helped Xie Qingcheng sit up, and took an eiderdown pillow for him to lean on.

Xie Qingcheng had already changed into clean clothes, the headlights were not turned on in the room, and the light was dim, Xie Xue couldn't see the hickey marks on Xie Qingcheng's skin.

She held his hand worriedly, and said softly, "Brother, how are you? Have you been to the hospital?"

Xie Qingcheng was in a bad mood at first, but after looking at her for a while, he felt that his mood was even worse, so he turned his face away without saying a word.

Xie Xue was interested, so she stopped asking.

She sat with Xie Qingcheng for a while, and suddenly thought of something, and said, "Brother, wait a moment."

The little girl went to the dining table to fiddle with something, and after a while she went back and forth, and it turned out that she had opened a can of yellow peaches.

"Look, when I was young, I was not feeling well, so you coaxed me with this kind of canned food, told me to take medicine obediently, and then I had yellow peach syrup to eat." The fruit was handed to Xie Qingcheng, "I was coaxed by you. For a while, I thought canned yellow peaches were medicine from the hospital. I wondered what kind of medicine is so delicious. I am so happy to be able to take this medicine when I am sick."

Xie Qingcheng took the spoon and took two mouthfuls expressionlessly.

Then finally said: "That's because you were not smart since you were a child, and you were easily deceived."

Xie Xue: "..."

"It's the same with growing up."

Knowing that he was talking about Wei Dongheng again, Xie Xue felt a little sad.

Xie Qingcheng finished eating the canned yellow peaches slowly, and Xie Xue didn't say anything during this process.

He put the empty glass jar aside and regained some of his strength. Only then did he notice that among the things Xie Xue brought home were bird's nest, ginseng, propolis, propolis, and cordyceps. If you eat it, you will die or be disabled.

It was too exaggerated. The person who gave the gift seemed to have no medical knowledge at all. He just seized an opportunity to please, and almost moved the entire Medicinal Chinese Medical Center to show his sincerity.

Xie Qingcheng was silent for a moment: "Wei Dongheng brought you here?"

Xie Xue hesitated, but still nodded.

Xie Qingcheng: "What about others?"

"He sent me here and left. He was afraid that you would see him angry..."

Xie Qingcheng laughed coldly: "The little white hair is still afraid?"

There was a sad look in Xie Xue's eyes: "Brother, don't be like this... I know, you are doing it for my own good. You are worried that I will be deceived, you are afraid that he will bully me, and you are afraid that he is incapable of learning. I know that since childhood Bring me up, for fear that I will bump into each other, and always hope that I can live a safe and smooth life. That's why you are so wary of him."

Xie Qingcheng: "..."

Xie Xue: "I know everything."

"But...but sometimes, can you trust me a little bit?" Xie Xue whispered.

Maybe it's because Xie Qingcheng is ill and doesn't have the energy to argue with her, or maybe it's because He Yu's incident has broken him too much, Xie Qingcheng's heart is finally a little shaken, thinking that sometimes even the parties involved can't figure out the relationship Through, let alone outsiders.

Anyway, this time, Xie Qing leaned on the pillow with a dull expression, but did not speak.

Seeing this, Xie Xue plucked up the courage to go on and said, "Brother, I told you before that I have been dating Wei Dongheng for more than a year. Maybe in the eyes of outsiders, this year is not a long time. , but we both know that we miss each other every day when we don't meet each other. When he was in the northwest, he wrote me many letters. You know, he was originally a person who didn't like writing very much..."

Xie Qing had a cold face.

It seemed that he really wanted to comment on Wei Dongheng's ignorance.

Xie Xue took his hand and said: "Wei Dongheng has never let his parents worry about him since he was a child. He played truant, bombed the street, and played pranks... I know all these things. I used to hate him very much because he He always bullied me, and I thought he had a very bad heart at that time. Until one Christmas in high school, I came home from school and saw him wandering around in the alley-I was very scared at that time, worried that he would see me , would pull my braid again, so I hid. Brother, do you know what I saw?"

"..."

"I saw him coming out of the convenience store with a bunch of snacks and drinks in his hands. There were many homeless people lying on both sides of the alley. He quietly put those things beside them while they were asleep, and then rode on The car ran away quickly, probably because he thought it was not cool to do good deeds, and he was afraid that his little brothers would find out and laugh at him. He rode very fast, as if fleeing, and ended up at the entrance of the alley. The wheel slipped, and he and the car fell to the side of the road."

Xie Xue was caught in the memory and couldn't help laughing.

"He staggered up on the ice, looked around nervously, stroked his hair, pretended nothing happened, got on the bike again, and rode away crookedly."

"..."

"At that time, I felt that he might not be as bad as others said."

Seeing that Xie Qingcheng was willing to listen to her speech, Xie Xue slowly told him all the things that had been in her heart all along.

"Brother, when I was young, you taught me to see people with your own eyes, and don't trust other people's evaluations completely. I have watched Wei Dongheng for more than ten years. He is not an obedient and sensible person, but I I can be sure that his heart is kind and responsible. In the past ten years, I have seen him send stray kittens and dogs to pet rescue stations more than once, and give food and drink to beggars. Do you know... He even He would look at a wild flower blooming by the roadside for a long time, and then smirk. He has a heart that can discover the humble and the beautiful." Xie Xue said, "It's just that he never wants others to know."

Xie Qingcheng raised his eyebrows: "Why doesn't he want others to know?"

"Because everyone scolded him, ridiculed him, and compared him with He Yu, he felt conflicted in his heart, and he didn't want to be like He Yu, a noble son praised by everyone. He has a lot of self-esteem in his bones. One point is similar to He Yu." Xie Xue said, "After I dated him, I asked him why he only let others see his bad side, but hid his kindness and softness. Face refused to say it for a long time, and then I couldn't help but kept asking, and then yelled angrily, who wants to be like He Yu."

"He said that Wei Dongheng is Wei Dongheng, why another He Yu? Is it right for a child to be like He Yu who is good at everything, polite and cautious? He just doesn't want it."

"Actually, I have observed these two people, and I know that Wei Dongheng's disposition is actually much purer than He Yu's. He has all the bad things written on his face, but he is very soft inside."

Xie Qingcheng: "..."

"Brother, I really like Wei Dongheng."

Xie Qingcheng seemed tired: "How much do you like it?"

Xie Xue thought for a while and said, "It's irreplaceable."

Xie Qingcheng didn't expect her to say such an answer, his heart trembled suddenly, and he opened his eyes to look at her.

In the same way, He Yu also said to himself - I like you, and I want to be with you every minute and every second, you cannot be replaced by anyone or anything.

Xie Xue said: "Brother, I have liked him for ten years. I know that I will never like another person like I like him again."

Xie Qingcheng suddenly turned his face away.

"I have a diary, which contains a lot of things from the past. I think you will understand him better after reading it. If you want to..."

"That's your privacy, I won't read it."

"..."

Xie Xue was silent for a long time, and she hesitated to speak again, and finally she said: "Forget it, brother, if you really don't want to talk about it, I won't talk about it, I will tell you a story , tell jokes, make you happy, okay?"

She grabbed his hand and shook it, then squatted on the edge of the bed with some discomfort, and looked up at him: "We haven't had a good chat for a long time. Brother, are you really angry with me?"

Xie Qingcheng remained silent for a while, and finally said: "I'm not angry with you, I just blame you for being too impulsive."

"what?"

Xie Qingcheng said: "You are a girl, you should learn to protect yourself if you want to get in touch with him, but you..."

He didn't continue, but Xie Xue froze for a moment, understood, and blushed immediately.

Xie Qingcheng coughed, hating iron for being weak: "You say you don't look like something?"

Xie Xue knew that it was useless for him and his elder brother to talk about premarital sex. Li Ruoqiu had complained to her before, saying that when Xie Qingcheng was in love with her, he didn't even initiate a kiss. It's good to be cautious in a relationship, but this It's too uninspiring, it's like following the instructions to complete some kind of work.

Xie Xue had no choice but to say: "Speaking of this...brother...actually, there is one more thing that I have always wanted to tell you."

"what?"

Xie Xue faltered again and didn't continue.

"..." Xie Qingcheng said, "Don't tell me, the two of you have already discussed getting married."

Xie Xue froze for a moment, and said in a daze, "How do you know?"

Xie Qingcheng froze for a long time, but behind him there was no expression, and his voice was calm: "...you go and bring me the cigarettes on the table."

Although Xie Xue really didn't want Xie Qingcheng to smoke, but under the current pressure, how dare she say no to Xie Qingcheng?He obediently brought the cigarettes to Xie Qingcheng.

Xie Qingcheng didn't even bother to care whether Xie Xue was around, lit a cigarette, smoked half of it, and didn't speak.

The room was very silent, the light outside the window flickered with the swing of the curtains, and the light shone on Xie Xue's face, Xie Qingcheng looked at the rouge on that face and never faded away.

Finally, Xie Qingcheng asked: "When did you have the idea."

"He...before he went to the Northwest half a year ago..." Xie Xue stammered, "As you know, his eldest brother is from a military family, but his personality is really not suitable for the army. His parents plan to slowly help him start a business in the future Yes, but before that, they said they wanted him to go to the Northwest to exercise, and he agreed, but he just made a request..."

"What request." Xie Qingcheng curled his knuckles and tapped the ash lightly.

Xie Xue's cheeks were already flushed red: "He told his parents that he wanted to marry me when he came back from training and graduated."

After she finished speaking, she immediately buried her face lower, as if she was afraid that Xie Qingcheng would smash the mug on her forehead the next moment and make her get out.

Unexpectedly, she waited for a long time without any movement.

It took a long time before she heard a soft "click". In the silent bedroom, the sound seemed broken.

She smelled a faint smell of tobacco, Xie Qingcheng finished one cigarette, and smoked another.

"Brother..." Xie Xie plucked up his courage, raised his face in a daze in a panic, and met Xie Qing, who was shrouded in thick green mist, whose eyebrows could not be seen clearly.

Xie Qingcheng smoked the cigarette quietly, did not look at Xie Xue, he leaned on the back of the bed, his long fingers pinched the end of the cigarette, his eyes seemed a little blurred, cast in the center of the snow-white ceiling.

When he didn't speak, Xie Xue didn't dare to say anything more, clutching her skirt, waiting tensely.

This cigarette is also exhausted.

Xie Qingcheng dusted off the cigarette ash, and threw the last cigarette butt into the ashtray next to him. He said, maybe he smoked too much, and his voice was a little hoarse.

"Then what do you think?"

Xie Xue was stunned again.

She was ready to be scolded by Xie Qingcheng, but she never thought that Xie Qingcheng would ask her like this.

Brother Xie's family has always been a dictator. He gave Xie Xue strong protection, but he never cared too much about her thoughts.So when he really asked Xie Xue "what do you think", Xie Xue's first reaction was that she couldn't react.

"Since you've been honest with me today, let's talk about it all." After being extremely ashamed, Xie Qing appeared to be calm now, and he raised his peach eyes to look at his sister, "You want to, too?" marry him?"

"I……"

Xie Xue's face was so red that she could bleed, but there was an inexplicable light in her eyes.That kind of light is very familiar, Xie Qingcheng seems to have seen it somewhere, but he can't remember it for a while.

"Brother...I really like him...I..."

"You know that marriage is not a child's play. It's different from your simple love affair. It's a responsibility and a contract to another person. Do you think you are suitable for him?"

"..."

"I know you think he is kind and honest. But after all, he is younger than you, has an impetuous temper, and is notoriously capricious in his behavior. You will be very tired when you are with him. Xie Xue."

"In these places, he, he has changed a lot...you don't know him..."

"Then how much do you know about him?" Xie Qingcheng coughed lightly, "You don't need to tell me that you have observed him for ten years - that is just a person's past, not to mention that what you have seen is only part of it."

"..."

"Do you know what his family's plan for his life is like? Do you know what his plan is for his future? You just said that he wants to marry you after graduation, and then go into business. That's business Field, Xie Xue, that’s not a school. How old are you this year?”

"25."

"What about him?"

"...23."

"He is only 23 years old. After ten years, he will be the age of your brother and me today. How much confidence do you have in ten years to ensure that he will always like you? There are many young and good-looking girls in the business world. The position of his family will still mix with people in the entertainment industry, you yourself are a teacher at an art school, you know more or less what the entertainment industry is like. There are so many temptations and conspiracies."

"But he won't, he grew up—"

"He is only 23 this year, Xie Xue. When I was 23, I never thought I would become like this today." Xie Qingcheng said here, paused, he thought of He Yu - when he was 23 years old, He Yu was just a A ten-year-old child, who would have imagined that such a crazy thing would happen between the two of them later?

"Xie Xue, Wei Dongheng's life has just begun, and many things are uncertain."

Xie Qingcheng lit another cigarette and smoked, coughing slightly.

Before finishing this one, he put out the cigarette.

"Let's take a step back, even if he really doesn't take the initiative. With his background and status, he can't do without hugs and socializing. Can you bear it?"

"He told me he wouldn't."

Xie Xue was very firm, and there was a certain kind of light in his eyes. Xie Qingcheng felt that kind of light was very familiar, as if he had seen it somewhere before, but he couldn't remember it.

Xie Qing remained silent for a while, and he would not get angry when the matter came to such an extent, he just asked very coldly: "There are many kind and honest people in this world, Wei Dongheng is not the only one, what do you like about him?"

"I don't know, I like this kind of thing...it's...it's hard to explain...I'm just happy to see him, and he's the same. There's a lot to say when we're together, and I miss it when we're apart."

"I have always been happy and at ease when I was with him. I don't think he will hurt me. The sense of security is the same as when I was with you, brother."

"Brother...can you understand?"

Xie Qingcheng was silent.

If Xie Xue had told him these things a year ago, he might not have understood her feelings.

But at this moment, listening to the things she described, a string deep in his heart was gently touched - there was another person playing on this string, but that person, Xie Qingcheng can never respond.

Xie Qingcheng was quiet for a while, and said, "You don't regret your bloody head?"

"I'm not going to bleed out."

"I don't regret it after asking you."

"If it's really bloody, I won't regret it." Xie Xue said at the end, her voice trembling slightly.

Xie Qingcheng stopped answering the phone.

Through the lingering smoke, he narrowed his eyes and opened his lips slightly. Inexplicably, he seemed to be looking at Zhu Chengbi and seeing He Yu holding his hand and weeping on the day of confession.

He suddenly remembered the light in Xie Xue's eyes, where he had seen it before.

It was the time when He Yu confessed his heart to him and finally expressed the love in his heart.

—— "It's me who wants to bleed, and moths to chase the light... I also think it's wrong, but I still love you."

"Because I'm really crazy. I know the ending, but I still want to go to the end. I'm so embarrassed and bruised, but I still want to hug you."

"I'm in the mud, but I still like the snow in the sky. It's my fault, not you..."

"It hurts to love you, Xie Qingcheng, it hurts to love you, I can't get it... I know I have to let go, but I still... still love you day by day..."

Xie Qingcheng felt that a certain part of his chest seemed to have collapsed.

He slowly closed his eyes.

At this moment, he seemed to have aged many, many years.

"Thank you Xue."

"elder brother."

"What if I insist on refusing."

"...I..." This time it wasn't her voice that was trembling, but Xie Xue's whole body was trembling slightly, pain and torture that were visible to the naked eye appeared on her body, "If you...you insist on not..."

"I insist on refusing, so what are you going to do?"

Xie Xue knelt in front of his bed, almost collapsed, her eyes quickly filled with tears, and after a long time, she choked and said: "...I... will listen to you. Because I love you. I love you the most. Love you. You raised me up. No one knows how much you have suffered. Even I think there are many things that I don’t even know. If you really don’t like him, you really insist on not wanting me to be with him Together, I will listen to you."

"But brother, I'll never be happy."

"..."

Xie Qingcheng opened his eyes and didn't reply for a long while.

Finally, he lowered his head, as if he had endured some emotion that should not belong to him, which he rarely had.

Then he got up - he was lying down with his clothes on, so it was easy to get out of bed.

At this moment, he no longer wanted to stay in the house.He felt very uncomfortable in his heart, and this cramped space only made him unable to breathe even more.

"elder brother--"

When Xie Qingcheng walked past Xie Xue, he didn't bow his head or look back, he just reached out and covered the top of her hair with great strength, just like when she came back to him crying every time she encountered difficulties .

Xie Xue raised her head, but she couldn't see Xie Qingcheng's unturned face.

She only saw his tall silhouette, and then heard him say: "Then you go.... You remember, you choose the road yourself, I hope you don't regret it."

"Brother..." Xie Xue trembled even more.

"But if you really regret it in the future, you feel that you made the wrong choice. Don't feel ashamed. It's the first time for people to come to this world. When making many choices, they are inexperienced and are the first. Right or wrong, no one can predict. If you are really wrong, you just need to remember that as long as I am still alive, you still have a home anytime, anywhere.”

"I will take care of you and be your backer until the day I die."

Tears welled up in Xie Xue's eyes, she never expected that she was always afraid to tell Xie Qingcheng about this matter, in her eyes her elder brother was tough and powerful, but he said what he said and was tyrannical.

She never imagined that when she really—with all her heart and soul, told him her decision sincerely, he would give herself such an answer.

She couldn't bear it anymore, and burst into tears. She got up, hugged Xie Qingcheng's waist, and leaned her cheek against his back. How many times since she was a child, it was this broad and straight Back, tired from playing, injured, exhausted, she went home...

Obviously it was such a happy event, but Xie Xue burst into tears and refused to let him go no matter what she said: "Brother! Brother..."

"Why are you crying?" Xie Qingcheng still didn't look back, no one knew what his expression was at the moment, his voice was still calm, "You have to grow up by yourself in the future, Xie Xue, although I will always help you, but ..."

He didn't say any more.

At this point, he paused.

In the end, he patted Xie Xue's hand: "Let go, how old are you, don't be ashamed."

"shameless."

"release."

"I'm shameless."

"..."

"Brother, hug me, I love you so much."

"...Did you fucking wake up?"

"I'm shameless."

"..."

The cold light in the room seemed to become gentle at this moment, and Xie Xue's choked and smiling voice faintly came out of the window——

"Brother, I'm going to eat at Wei Dongheng's house next week...what do you think I'm going to dress like..."

"Skirts must not be below the knee."

"...Ah...why is this again..."

Gradually, the words became flat and warm.

outside the house.

He Yu, who was worried about Xie Qingcheng, was always there.

He leaned against the cold wall, listened to the conversation in the room behind him, straightened up, and before the brother and sister came out, he brushed off the dust on the wall, and walked away slowly alone.