Can't take Mr. Can't let go of Mr.

Gu Liang booked the return ticket on the fourth day of the Lunar New Year, because the third day of the Lunar New Year was Xiang Yang's birthday.The original plan was that he would confess his love on this day.After he confessed successfully, he directly introduced Xiang Yang to his family.If he failed, he would grab people and run away overnight, and then go back and chase them again.

Now that the plan has changed, his daily task is to accompany his mother and Xiang Yang to visit relatives.

These two people are far away and dare not say, but in their village, there is an absolute social ceiling.

At this moment, Xiang Yang finished his whole day of visiting relatives and friends, and was sitting on the sofa bored.

Gu Liang's mother brought him a plate of freshly baked waffles and asked him if he was tired.

"Thank you auntie."

"Not tired, is there anyone else we want to go to? Let's go!"

Gu Liang's mother was amused by him, "No more," and then said: "Can I chat with you?"

Xiang Yang: "Of course."

He moved to the side, giving up the seat beside him, and asked Gu Liang's mother to sit down.

Gu Liang's mother: "Do you want to know what happened to Ah Li when he was a child?"

"miss you!"

Gu Liang's mother really wanted to speak in a relatively relaxed tone, but she knew she couldn't do it as soon as she opened her mouth, so she sighed and said, "Do you know that kind of child who is very sensible when he is young?" , She is well-behaved all day long, doesn't cause trouble, doesn't talk much, and is serious like a little old man."

Xiang Yang nodded, of course he knew, "It's the kind of child from someone else's family who is sensible and obedient."

Gu Liang's mother nodded and told him, "Ah Li is this kind of child."

When Gu Liang's mother said this, she didn't appear happy, not at all.

She was even a little sad.

Xiang Yang hurriedly comforted her and said, "Gu Liang is very good. He has been good since he was a child, and he will always be good in the future."

Gu Liang's mother nodded: "Yes, he has always been excellent, not just excellent."

Mom told Xiang Yang: "Gu Liang was discovered to be a gifted child at a very young age."

"He can understand all kinds of esoteric theorems, can solve problems that definitely don't belong to his age group, and even...he has a photographic memory."

Xiang Yang always felt that the next words should not be what he wanted to hear.

really.

I heard Gu Liang's mother continue to say: "Because of this, his father has always demanded him more strictly, for fear of delaying his future. From a very young age, he was asked to do his best no matter what he did. Okay, absolutely no mistakes. It’s probably only this small,” Gu Liang’s mother raised her hand to make a comparison of a height of less than one meter, “Can you imagine, when he was only this small.”

Xiang Yang nodded.He was also affected by Gu Liang's mother's emotions, and began to feel a little sad.

"The better the child is, the more his father and I feel that he can do better. You know, sometimes it is not just a simple expectation, it may also bring disaster to a child under heavy pressure. I like this Said, I hope you don't hate us, Ali is our first child, and we love him more than anyone else. But we all lack experience in raising children. Now, although we don't say it, we also know that in education On the issue of Ali, we did something wrong."

"Ah Luta is sometimes difficult to get along with, this is our responsibility, if he..."

"No."

Xiang Yang cut off this assumption before Gu Liang's mother said it. Xiang Yang said seriously: "Gu Liang is not difficult to get along with at all, and I feel very comfortable with him. He is very good to me, and I also He will be very kind to him. Auntie, don't worry, we will live together well. "

Mom's eye circles were slightly red, "I'm relieved if you say that."

Xiang Yang wanted to relieve the sad atmosphere, so he deliberately said relaxedly: "I'm still worried that you and uncle won't like me."

"How could it be, you are such a good boy. Last time, we misunderstood... Fortunately, I didn't cause trouble to you after that, otherwise, your uncle and I will die of guilt."

"What's dead?" Gu Liang came over and sat beside Xiang Yang.The sofa is so long, he wants to be next to Xiang Yang closely.Still sitting upright.

Xiang Yang: "Guilty."

Gu Liang didn't understand.

Xiang Yang: "Guilty is dead, which means that you don't have to feel guilty anymore."

Gu Liang half understood: "...Oh."

Xiang Yang thought he was funny, so he deliberately teased him: "We also talked about your childhood."

Gu Liang: "What can I say when I was young?"

Xiang Yang: "Of course, you said you wet the bed when you were young."

He didn't know about this kind of things that happened before Gu Liang had any memory, so he was immediately fooled by Xiang Yang, and turned to his mother to verify.

The mother was also caught in the memory, "Ah Lu was so young." Gu Liang's mother had never recalled her son's childhood from this angle.For so many years, what she has been unable to mind is the pressure from the family that Gu Liang received while growing up.She almost completely forgot about Gu Liang's childhood.

When Gu Liang did not show extraordinary talent and self-discipline, he used to be a giggling baby.

Memory is like a caged animal locked in a cage, once the key is found, it can be released.

Gu Liang's mother remembered many things about Gu Liang when he was very young.

Before the age of two or three.

Xiang Yang laughed out loud.

Two-year-old Gu Liang will show his mother eating milk beans with chopsticks, and will say "Thank you everyone" very seriously after eating.

He will also enthusiastically help others choose delicious strawberries. He will taste every strawberry seriously, and then give the sweetest one to his mother.

Every now and then, he'll do a strip/dance to the old-fashioned dad.

……

It was only then that my mother remembered that when Gu Liang was very young, he was also very lively, got into trouble, and wanted to eat lollipops.

Will also have ordinary and happy.

Gu Liang's phone rang, and he went out to answer it.

Gu Liang's mother continued to tell Xiang Yang about Gu Liang.

Fathers play a very important role in certain stages of children's growth. At that specific period, they are the children's role models and heroes. It is also said that they are the gods in the children's hearts who know astronomy and geography, and who can understand the affairs of the world. Not too much.

Gu Liang is no exception.Moreover, his period was extraordinarily long.

He has always trusted and respected his father.

Since he was three years old, he has listened to his father and stopped going out to play.

Practice calligraphy, learn painting, play the piano at home every day, and learn the lower grades of elementary school in advance.

When the children of the same age were still scratching their fingers, Gu Liang had already gone to participate in the math competition.

He's an out-and-out kid.

Also a child without childhood.

Gu Liang's mother sometimes wonders if she hadn't taught Gu Liang an ancient poem on a whim when he was just three years old, would everything have been different again.

Gu Liang has been growing up in a stressful environment.Most of the children's learning goals may be to take the first place in the exam or enter the top three in the exam. Gu Liang's goal is to get a full score.

His goal is not only to be the best one, but also to be the most perfect one.

In other words, this is not his own goal, but it is something he must do.

……

Gu Liang stood under the porch in a daze.The good living habits he has developed over the years have prevented him from getting any bad habits.Therefore, when he feels depressed, he can't even smoke a cigarette to express his emotions.

Xiang Yang came over and stood beside him.

Xiang Yang: "What are you thinking?"

Gu Liang suddenly explained to him: "It's not that he doesn't want to get along well."

Just like all young people who want to explain their family background to their significant other, Gu Liang also told Xiang Yang about himself nervously and awkwardly.

He looked down at the ground in front of his feet, "...I don't know how to get along with them."

"For a long time, they didn't smile at me. I thought they didn't like me."

For a long time, Gu Liang's father never smiled at his son, and asked Gu Liang's mother not to always be so kind and amiable in front of Gu Liang on the grounds that "a loving mother loses her son".He thinks it makes children difficult to discipline.He believes that since Gu Liang is a genius, he should be more responsible to him as a parent.Jade can't be cut, so such a good seedling, of course, can't be delayed in their hands.

Gu Liang's father has strict requirements on Gu Liang in every aspect.Xiang Yang once thought that Gu Liang was a child who grew up tied to a ruler, but in fact it might be even more exaggerated than that.

When Gu Liang was a child, he couldn't understand why the family atmosphere in other children's compositions was "happy and laughing", and he didn't understand why they always had "travel notes in the park" on weekends.

When he was a child, Gu Liang was like a little robot, executing orders according to strict procedures.He doesn't feel happy, but he doesn't feel unhappy either.

Growing up in such an environment, Gu Liang is naturally out of gregarious, and he has few friends.

Gu Liang knows that he is a very unpopular and unlovable person. If his parents don't like him, then he may be the most lonely person in the world.

So he gave up the idea of ​​wanting to make friends, and devoted himself more and more to study.

He thought, at least he must be a child who satisfies his parents.

The first time "Little Machine" showed affection was on a little rabbit.

One day, on his way home from school, he picked up a rabbit.

An injured and abandoned domestic rabbit, the whole body of snow-white fur was dyed red in a large area.Its front leg is injured.

Gu Liang felt that he didn't necessarily have to have a human friend.

Gu Liang hopes that he can establish a friendship with Little Rabbit.

That period was one of the few easy moments of his childhood.

He would pick the freshest locust tree leaves for the little rabbit on his way home from school every day.In winter, I will discuss with my mother about the few Chinese cabbages that grow best in the field.

He has always taken good care of his good friend.Although the strict father thinks it is "not doing business properly".

The accident happened in his first year of high school.

The school is far away from home. In order to save time, his father asked him to live on campus.

He entrusts his father to help look after the rabbit.

Once he didn't get a full score in math, so he called his dad, and his dad hung up the phone right after he finished talking about the score.

When he came home for the weekend, his rabbit was gone.

For the first time, Gu Liang asked his father in an impulsive tone why he failed to do what he promised others.

In a fit of anger, my father said that whoever made you fail the exam, I peeled and ate the rabbit, so what, little bastard, I have paid so much to train you, and you actually talk back to me for a rabbit.

The days after that are all back to the past.

It looks calm, but it is actually a pool of stagnant water.

It was the birth of the younger sister that stirred up the stagnant water.

There is a 16-year age difference between Gu Liang and his sister.

Gu Liang also likes his younger sister very much, but his younger sister's arrival makes him feel like "so he is a hated person".

Cute little ones are always more cared and pampered. After observing my sister for a while and thinking that she has nothing special, my father treats her like a child from an ordinary family.Usually, after he criticized Gu Liang severely and viciously in this room, he would turn around and take his sister out to learn how to ride a bicycle.

Gu Liang probably only rebelled once in his life.

When filling out the college entrance examination volunteer.

His father helped him plan the future long ago, and even saved a sum of money for him without him knowing.

Every step of his life seems to be strictly implementing his father's plan.

This time he thought, maybe there is another way out.

Then he said to his father, "I'm gay, your plan, at least now, in our country, won't work."

Coming out of the closet bought back his right to make independent choices for the rest of his life.

The price is to make the relationship between father and son more rigid.

He didn't even have any friends back then, let alone a boyfriend.But he also decided to come out.He wants to make some changes in his life according to his own ideas.

Gu Liang also understood later that the reason why his father did that was not because he didn't love him, but because he wanted his son to become a dragon too much.

After the college entrance examination, Gu Liang left home and embarked on the road of looking for change.

I didn't go home for the New Year that year.

He actually didn't know what the meaning of Chinese New Year was to him.When the family made dumplings, he studied in the room; when the family set off firecrackers in the yard, he studied in the room; when the family gathered happily to watch the Spring Festival Gala, he still had to study in the room.

For him, Chinese New Year is also learning.

Wherever you learn it, the effect should be similar.

So that year, he didn't go home.

He even felt that if he didn't go home for several years, maybe everyone would forget him.

He didn't really want that to happen.So during that time, he studied and worked crazily every day.He thought that if his dad really felt that it was important to have a successful career, he hoped to achieve his expectations in another way.

Until one day in the late spring and early summer of the next year, my mother suddenly called him and asked him if the vegetables in the garden were ripe, and asked him if he wanted to eat vegetables?

He lost the spring of that year, but fortunately, when the summer began, his mother came to him again.

Since then, my parents have often sent things over.

One post is many years.These years, the delivery fee for the same-day arrival of the air freight is a considerable sum, but neither party seems to have calculated this account clearly.

Gu Liang turned around and hugged Xiang Yang into his arms.

He buried his face in Xiang Yang's neck, speaking his request silently.

He is an unwelcome alien, please Xiang Yang not to dislike him.

"Xiang Yang."

"Ok?"

"I like you very much."

"I know."

"I like it very much."

"Ah."

Gu Liang felt that Xiang Yang might not have understood.

So he arrogantly hugged Xiang Yang even tighter.

Say again, "I like you."

Xiang Yang said, "I understand, it's as if we are both dogs."

Gu Liang: "...I'm not."

Xiang Yang: "Neither am I, just to make an analogy. If we are both dogs, you are a very talented dog who has been trained since childhood, the kind that can be a service dog, but for your dog In the future, you have endured a lot of pressure, and the process was even tormented. But fortunately, you have a strong ability to resist pressure, and you will eventually become famous and have a successful dog life. And I am a stray dog, not exactly, I have a grandma. Almost What do you mean, I'm an ordinary dog ​​who doesn't pass very well and doesn't work hard. Dogs are born in a muddle. But I was lucky to meet you. Now, you, a successful dog, are worried about me This stray dog ​​will dislike you, this is obviously impossible, how can there be such a stupid dog, who will let go of love and continue to wander!"

"Besides, you're still so good." Xiang Yang tried his best to make the atmosphere relaxed, but when he said this, his eyes looked at the void, and he didn't feel so relaxed.

Gu Liang: "But my personality is very bad."

Xiang Yang: "You have a very good personality. My predecessor is not good..."

Gu Liang: "Don't keep mentioning him."

Xiang Yang: "Oh."

Gu Liang: "You completely forget about him."

Xiang Yang: "You can only ask me not to like him, not to care about him, you can't force me to lose my memory."

Gu Liang: "Then don't like him."

Xiang Yang: "I don't like him anymore."

Gu Liang: "But you mentioned him just now, and you mentioned him on New Year's Day..."

Xiang Yang changed the topic: "Gu Liang, I love you so much!"

Gu Liang: "I love you too."

Xiang Yang was amused by Gu Liang.

He thought, you are so good, how can I be willing not to love you!

Xiang Yang's childhood obviously had nothing to do with happiness.

In the end, he didn't even have anything left.

He is timid and afraid of getting into trouble because he knows that if something happens to him, if he gets into trouble, no one will help him.

He longs to have his own small family, but he is also a homosexual who cannot get married.

He cherishes everyone who treats him well, and is willing to give his kindness.

To some extent, he has the same desire as Gu Liang.

They all hope to have a lover who belongs to them alone and have a unique love.

How could he not love Gu Liang.

Just like Gu Liang's baby, he also regards Gu Liang as his only luck.

It's just that his love is very simple, not because of sympathy, and without mercy.

When he fell in love with Gu Liang, Gu Liang was already Gu Liang.

Gu Liang hugged Xiang Yang and buried his head very low.He finally waited for Xiang Yang, his dream.

The spring that belonged to him was not lost, it just came back in another form many years later.

……

Gu Liang went to the kitchen to cut fruit for Xiang Yang, but Xiang Yang himself couldn't stay for a while, so he followed him to the kitchen.

Gu Liang asked Xiang Yang while washing the grapes: "So, why study hard?"

Gu Liang, who has been working hard to get good grades since he was a child, and earning a lot of money as an adult, actually doesn't know why.

Standing beside him, Xiang Yang saw that his sweater sleeve was about to get wet, so he stretched out his hand to help lift it up: "In theory, a happy life has no direct relationship with money, just like now, when we are together Chatting, no matter whether you have money or not, you will enjoy it. But if we don’t have money, we can only chat, and now we can eat these deadly expensive fruits while chatting, this is all for your hard work.”

Xiang Yang picked up a grape and brought it to Gu Liang's mouth, and said cheaply, "Come on, give me a taste of whether it's sweet or not."

Gu Liang knew that he was making fun of himself with what happened when he was a child, so he chewed the grapes expressionlessly and swallowed them.Then he turned around, held Xiang Yang's face in his hands, and kissed it viciously.

I have to say that a genius is a genius, and he can learn everything quickly.It's only been a few days of work, and Gu Liang has already become a leader in the field of kissing.

When the mischievous ghost was kissed to the point where he was kissed, he stopped, leaned close to the man's ear, and teased him in a serious and serious way: "Sweet."

Xiang Yang was dazed: "?"

"What's sweet?"

Gu Liang raised his eyebrows: "Brother, sweet."

Xiang Yang: "!"

Xiang Yang snatched the fruit plate on the drain table and turned around to leave, and warned Gu Liang not to be too big or small in public.

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