no one save me

Even though Shen Lin was detained by the Public Security Bureau, she still looked like a lady with exquisite makeup. She looked at me, waved her hands and smiled and said, "Mr. Zuo, long time no see, you look so handsome again."

I can be called handsome by her with my ghostly pale face, but I can only say that this person is too good at talking.

"Shouldn't you be happy to catch me? Why do you look so sad?" Shen Lin smiled slightly: "Or, you already guessed what I'm going to tell you today."

I shouldn't have been discharged from the hospital, but here I need to come, I have to solve a doubt.

"Mr. Zuo, in fact, if you had agreed with me back then, you would have gained a lot of things now, far more than you thought, and you wouldn't be in this state." She subconsciously wanted to find cigarettes, But remembering that I had no cigarettes on me, I had no choice but to give up. I sighed and said, "Why? How many things do you have to lose for a promise? The things that others have dreamed of for a lifetime are easily available in front of you, but you actually gave up."

"The car accident was arranged by you." I didn't use interrogative sentences, but declarative sentences.

She looked at me, then nodded and said: "Yes, it's me, you have already caught me here, do you still need to ask this question?"

"You were the one who instigated cyberbullying for the first time, right?" I asked.

"Don't ask repeated questions, our time is precious, Mr. Zuo." Shen Lin raised her eyebrows slightly, she looked at me, and I felt that through her, I seemed to see the grown-up Shen Jiajia what it looks like.

"Well, how about you tell me, what do you want to say when you come to me today?" I asked her.

"You investigated the person who incited cyber violence for the first time, didn't you investigate the second time? Huh?" Shen Lin looked at me, and she smiled: "You like men, you are gay, but unfortunately you were taken It is not difficult to find out these things, but each of them is very embarrassing to you. Abandoned by parents, grandma passed away very early, obviously they are brothers, but life is very different, completely different .”

I did not speak.

"Things you want to hide, you obviously don't want to make them public, but in order to clear Shen Jiajia, you have to say it yourself, which has become a sharp weapon for others to attack you. You are so smart, don't you know the consequences of saying these things? Indeed There is nothing wrong with this kind of thing, but this world is not just right and wrong." Shen Lin laughed, she took a deep breath, and then slowly exhaled, as if helplessly said: "I told you, the Shen family came out People are not easy to provoke, Zuo Qi, your good sister is the biggest behind-the-scenes instigator of the second cyber violence, those photos... Ha, when she ran out, I didn't even know she was there Where, how can I take pictures? Everything was arranged by her, and you are the most obedient, reliable and safe knife in her hands."

During the second cyber violence, I almost deleted all the photos of me holding Shen Jiajia on the Internet.

It is also because of this photo that Shen Jiajia does not think about food or food. As a teenage girl, how can she stand such sinister people and malicious speculations, so I choose to clarify, the simplest way to clarify, from the source Started to stop these rumors.

I know that in the end my sexual orientation, life experience, and even my previous actions have all become the knives stabbed at me by the mouths of netizens.

"So you were actually investigating the first cyber violence. After you caught me, you realized that something was wrong, so you stopped the investigation." Shen Lin laughed loudly. She patted the table and laughed so hard that she couldn't straighten up. Waist: "Look at you, the person you want to protect is actually the one who harmed you, hahahahaha...what do you think she is, who do you think she is, she is the daughter of Shen Cheng, the daughter of the Shen family. people!"

In fact, you have noticed it, but you still protect her without hesitation and choose to ignore it.

Why, because besides her, there is no one else around you.

"Do you know how many years you will be sentenced?" I asked her calmly.

"Who knows, maybe luck is better, and it's the death penalty?" She looked at me and said with a smile: "You don't think I didn't expect the end when I was doing these things, just like a gambler. Yes, I got more, and if I lose the bet, it’s just a death sentence.”

"You don't lack money, you don't lack anything, why do you have to go this way?" I still don't understand.

"Why..." Her eyes were a little confused, and then she looked at me firmly again: "Because I am a human being, I have greed, and I want to get more, more... People like you are extremely powerful." The best of rare people."

Before I got up to go out, she shouted behind me: "Mr. Zuo, you are so pitiful."

When I got back to the car, the driver was still waiting. I asked him to go first, and I wanted to drive around. He was a little worried and said, "Mr. Zuo, are you... are you really okay? good."

"It's okay." My heart seemed to be pressed by a heavy boulder, and it sank bit by bit, about to break my ribs and crush my internal organs. I clenched my fists tightly, suppressing the crazily gushing emotions in my heart.

After the driver left, I got in the car and drove to my residence. From here to where I live, I have to pass a long bridge, but it is under construction recently. It has rained before, and the bridge is quiet. Stepping to the bottom, galloping like crazy, even wanting to break through the fence, just rush down...

If you rush down, you don't know anything.

But when the car approached the fence, I still slammed on the brakes, and my chest hit the steering wheel hard. I thought my ribs might be cracked for a while, but I couldn't help but smiled and leaned back on the seat. Laughed muffled until he laughed out loud.

It was so funny, so ironic, I got fucked by a teenage girl, I kept looking for who was threatening me, who was spying on me in the shadows, but it never occurred to me that this person was right next to me , who I have been trying to protect.

After living for more than 20 years, the more I live, the more innocent I am, and the more I live, the more I go back.

As Shen Lin said, after the car accident, I immediately searched for relevant information. I even used unscrupulous means. I tried my best to find the behind-the-scenes, dug out Shen Lin, and peeled off the cocoons bit by bit. The zone brought out the previous things and found the instigator who instigated cyber violence for the first time.

However, I didn't expect it, and this also gave me a great surprise.

One, a surprise I probably never dreamed of.

I dare not continue to investigate, I stopped here, because there is no one around me, just like there is only one life buoy left on the sea, I know that there is a shark next to it, but I still hold A little bit of luck to get this lifebuoy that may have killed me.

I know I will die, but... I have no choice, what should I do, what should I do?

What the fuck am I going to do?

It's so hard——

let me die.

The surface of the river was sunny after the rain, with a gleam of golden light. I got out of the car and stood beside the fence. In fact, as long as I gently climbed over and jumped, many painful and embarrassing things could be solved.

I no longer have to think about how I should face Jiang Yihang, how I should face Shen Jiajia, how I should face my parents whom I have not met for more than 20 years, but...isn't this just an escape?I have struggled so hard for more than 20 years, is it just to jump off and become the headline of the news the next day?

I was leaning against the railing, my hands were shaking all the time, and I felt like I couldn't grasp it.

This is the first time I have taken the initiative to call my psychiatrist after my psychotherapy. She answered quickly, and the first sentence was to ask me: "Zuo Qi? What's wrong with you?"

I was silent for a long time.

"Where are you?" she asked me.

I continued to be silent, I was afraid that if I opened my mouth, I would not be able to make a sound.

"Okay, I won't ask you, but you have to give me a response. You hum gently to let me know that you are listening to me." The doctor said.

I responded, and changed my hand to hold the phone. The wind was blowing, and the iron chain was ringing.

"Let me tell you, my family has recently raised a cat, and I heard that you have a dog, what breed is it?" she asked me.

"Husky..." My voice was so small that it was almost inaudible.

"A husky?" She laughed. "Is it naughty? I've watched a lot of husky videos before. I always wanted to raise one, but I never dared to do so."

"A little bit," I said.

"Can you bring it to meet me next time? I like dogs and huskies very much. I want to touch it, is that okay?" the doctor asked me.

After a moment of silence, I asked, "Do you like dogs very much?"

The doctor responded, and then said: "Yes, but I want you to bring it to see me, I just need to have a look, the dog recognizes its owner, and it is willing to follow you, it must be very, very dependent on you. "

I chatted with the doctor for a long time until the afterglow of the setting sun dyed the surface of the river red.

When I returned to the residence, it was already late at night, and Shen Jiajia hadn't slept yet. She sat in the living room a little uneasy, and when she saw me go back, she quickly stood up and approached me, and said with a smile: "Brother, why did you come back so late? , Did you go to a party again, your body can't stand such a toss, Dr. Xu told me, you have to take good care of your body, or you will be very uncomfortable when you get old. "

I stood there looking at her, feeling a little chilly.

"Brother?" Seeing that I hadn't moved, she looked back for a while, and then said anxiously, "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

Before I saw Shen Jiajia, I could still suppress it, but when I saw her, my heart beat uncontrollably, and a feeling of anxiety and irritability that made me extremely uncomfortable filled my cerebral cortex. I kind of want to escape from this place.

"Brother?" She cautiously moved closer to me: "Sister Zhu said, you went to... the Public Security Bureau, what happened? Brother, what's the matter, please don't ignore me, okay, I only have you, What should I do if you ignore me?"

"What should you do... There are many things you can do." I looked down at her, and pushed her hand away calmly: "Tomorrow, I will send you back to Beijing. You are about to take the high school entrance examination. Study hard. Don't stay here all the time."

"Brother." When I was about to go upstairs, Shen Jiajia suddenly rushed over and hugged my waist: "Brother, I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm really sorry..."

Both she and I knew what this "sorry" was for, and she didn't even have an excuse, just kept crying, crying all the time.

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