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I have been having headaches since that day.I want to drink porridge.There are not all the guys who cook where they live.Just want to drink porridge.I called Mosquito and asked if she could make me some porridge.She said no problem, Shun'er will be at home in the afternoon, you can find him at home, and I will make it for you when you go back tonight.After hanging up the phone, I slept for another two and a half hours, got up to wash up, put on some clean clothes, went to Shun'er's place, and told him to go out to the noodle shop to eat noodles together.I told him that I had a headache these days and I didn't know what was going on.He said did you oversleep.I couldn't explain clearly, he asked me what the mosquito said about the recent quarrel between you and Shiyang.I said nothing.He asked me what I've been up to lately.I said stay here, nothing busy.But I'm ready to go home.He asked me where to go.I said go back to my hometown.He asked me when.I said it was probably coming soon.He said are you coming back?I said I don't know.That side is very hot, but it is very comfortable to eat, and it has a homely homemade taste.Shun Er asked me if I wanted some soup.I nodded.He asked for two bowls of noodle soup, and I said that I actually wanted to move back. He said what to move, as long as someone came to live.I smiled and said I was going back.I don't know why I shed tears.He asked me what was wrong, and I said I was homesick.He said you must have something, tell me.I said I want to drink porridge.He said you didn't say it earlier.Go, go back and I will boil it for you.On the way back, he told me that I have always had a doubt.I asked him what was wrong.He said he couldn't explain clearly, and asked what happened to Shiyang and me.I said wait, let me tell you something.He turned to look at me.He was wearing red sneakers, black jeans, a black sweater, and a red down vest.In the sun, that color stands out.I have forgotten his attire all the time, but this time I remember it very clearly.He asked me what was wrong.I said there's something I've always wanted to tell you.He looked at me with small but divine eyes, waiting for me to say something.I said I like men.He asked me, you, you said, what did you say?I said I like men.He stammered and asked me, no, it was me.I said no.He grabbed my hand and said what I said.

He told me that Ling Ling told him a few times before that he thought I was weird, and he even scolded him for a long time, which is what he was talking about.I said these are not important, I have to go back.He asked me what I was doing back home.I said maybe get married.He asked me, can you.I said what to do.After returning, he heated up the water, asked his mother for rice, peanuts, pumpkin, etc., and began to cook porridge.Said that I have lost weight recently, and I said that I have not had a serious meal for several months.He said that you just come to me.I said I didn't know who to turn to, who was mine.The white gas from the water in the pot is like a pot of medicine, permeating the whole place.He picked up the guitar and played and sang, fading away the roar, hoarseness, heavy metal noise and all the chord sounds.Only occasional plucking punctuates his mournful songs.I said that I have never dared to tell you, because I was worried that you would scold me.He said that you all cleared me up one by one.I don't remember being like this before.I smiled and said, I remember too.He asked me have you always been like this.I said maybe, I knew about myself since the second year of junior high school, and I was very scared at the time, wondering if this was abnormal or sick.After slowly knowing a little bit, I began to live a life of fear, feeling that within ten years, I would face a huge choice and a huge storm that might arise from my family.At that time, I hoped that my brother would grow up soon and then he could share my fear for me.Now that he's grown up, he's in love with the same guy as me.Shun'er put the guitar aside, served me a bowl of porridge, and went to his mother's house to find pickles for me.I said just plain porridge would be fine.He asked me how I remembered to drink porridge.I said that my head has been hurting for the past few days, as if I was sick, and I don’t know what to do. I remember when I was sick when I was a child, my mother would cook porridge for me.He asked me, what are you going to do, whether to go home to escape from Shiyang and your brother, or to die.I said I don't know.He said that they are still young, maybe they just know about love, and they don't understand the hardships of life, so it's hard for you.I started to cry again, and I told him how I felt like a child today.He said that you and Shiyang, including the mosquitoes, are similar in my eyes. They haven’t been washed out by society, or they would rather be beaten to death than give up the innocence that was born in childhood. Maybe it’s because of fear. So I kept looking.It may be lonely, so I have been afraid of being alone.Sometimes, you may not be able to tell the difference between love and family affection, so it depends on who is the first person in your life who gave you family affection and love. Persevere until something happens and there is no way out.I said the porridge you made is delicious.He said that mosquitoes taste better when boiled.

Shun Er told me that he would never smoke in the future, and I said that I would never drink alcohol in the future either.He said that you don't need to drink other people's wine, but you shouldn't refuse the wine from Shiyang and me.I smiled and said, yes, even if it is poison.He said that you probably won't be poisoned by me, but you will be poisoned by Shiyang.I told him that Shiyang and I slept on this bed before.He asked me if you would like him.I said there is no other way now.

I was lying on the bed, and he was lying there, with my eyes closed, and he was strumming the guitar, and fell asleep at some point.

It was like when we were just together, carefree, at the beginning of youth.Now I told him about my affairs, and it was not like I imagined, he just knew about it peacefully, and also peacefully couldn't think of any good ways to solve the things that bothered me.I hope that the things in the dream are real, and I hope that the real things are dreams.

When the mosquitoes came back, they brought Shiyang with them. I thought I was still asleep, so I asked them where Shun'er was.They said that Shun Er went out to buy pancakes.I asked Shiyang why you came here. Shiyang said that the mosquitoes called him, and that I wanted to drink porridge, so he knew I was sick.I said my head hurts a bit, and he asked me why you didn't tell me, I'm at home every day these days, I can make you whatever you want to eat.After Shun'er came back, the pancakes were still hot, we sat around, drank porridge and ate pancakes.Mosquito said, the atmosphere is really good, like eating vegetarian food.I asked the mosquito if I was sick.She said she couldn't see you, maybe because she felt uncomfortable.Shiyang asked me what happened.I said I don't know, let's have a meal with Shun'er Mosquito another day.He said that day we did not agree.I nodded and said I'm going to spend the night here tonight.His eyes got wet.He asked me, are you really ready to go, right?I nodded.He asked me, are you willing to let me go?I said I was reluctant to do this, and I said that I was reluctant to do so.Shun'er said, I don't know what to do with your affairs, can you think about it again.I told Shiyang that Chenchen is probably still waiting for you at home, so why don't you come here to find me tomorrow.He said yes.When the mosquitoes sent Shiyang out, they told me to rest early.Shun Er played the guitar, why is she so sad.Can't tell whose it is.I said I was sleepy.Shun'er said, then go to bed early.He put his hand on my forehead and told me why it wasn't hot.Still in the dream, I heard Mosquito whisper softly to Shun'er that Chenchen has been waiting for Shiyang outside the door.

...I hope we are all well, I will not affect you, and I can cherish you and love you...

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