I just want to be a fool, why is it so hard

Hearing Lu Yanxu's words, Wei Nanzhou thought, his cheap father must like the Queen Mother very much.

In fact, Wei Nanzhou asked Lu Yanxu the same way.

After hearing Wei Nanzhou's question, Lu Yanxu was silent for a while, but he still agreed, "Yes, the first emperor liked the empress dowager very much."

Wei Nanzhou looked at Lu Yanxu's calm eyes, he seemed to see something different, he didn't know if it was the same as what he thought, he asked, "Is there something inside the former emperor and the queen mother...? "

Lu Yanxu knew that with Wei Nanzhou's ingenuity, he must be able to see it.

He didn't want to hide it from Wei Nanzhou, he took Wei Nanzhou to a hot spring, the hot spring palace, the most indispensable thing is hot spring.

Lu Yanxu took Wei Nanzhou to an extremely beautiful hot spring. He said to this hot spring, "This is the favorite hot spring of the first emperor. He built it for the empress dowager. However, they never went there together. over here."

Wei Nanzhou saw sadness in Lu Yanxu's eyes, and he didn't understand why.

Lu Yanxu pulled Wei Nanzhou to sit down by the hot spring, and calmly began to tell the story of the former emperor and the queen mother.

When the queen mother was still in her boudoir, she had a close friend in her boudoir.At that time, the queen mother had a very good relationship with that person, so good that they basically ate and lived together, but then for some reason, the queen mother began to alienate that person.

"There are rumors that the woman fell in love with the empress during her relationship with the empress, but the empress did not have such thoughts, so the woman became disheartened and went out to wander the rivers and lakes."

"It seems that the woman is a free and easy person."

When Lu Yanxu heard what Wei Nanzhou said, he didn't agree, but he didn't object either.

"If you were really free and easy, you wouldn't have drowned in the river after learning that the Empress Dowager was going to join the palace. Some people said it was an accident, while others said that she jumped down by herself."

Wei Nanzhou suddenly felt sorry for that woman, he should still like the Queen Mother very much, otherwise why in the end, he would rather die than see the Queen Mother marry someone else.

Lu Yanxu knew something, so he could tell Wei Nanzhou, but he knew that things were not so simple.

Wei Nanzhou suddenly remembered, wasn't he asking about the late emperor and queen mother?Why do you only talk about the Empress Dowager? Does it have anything to do with the late emperor in it?

Lu Yanxu sighed, "Very few people know about this matter. If I didn't know it by chance before, I think few people in this world would know this story."

Lu Yanxu recalled that when the late emperor built this palace, his father said that he had seen the late emperor's eyes full of joy, and he had also seen the late emperor's lost look.

"The first emperor married the queen mother because he liked the queen mother, but the queen mother didn't marry into the palace because she liked the first emperor. She is the first daughter of the family. If she doesn't marry, I'm afraid her family will tie her into the palace." palace."

When Lu Yanxu said this, he took a deep breath, "So she knew it herself, so she didn't resist at all."

Wei Nanzhou thought about why the queen mother stayed in her own palace all year round and couldn't come out. Even if Wei Nanzhou tried to die, the queen mother never went out.

It turned out that she might not like this imperial city very much.

Lu Yanxu continued, "The first emperor liked the queen mother very much. After marrying the queen mother, he started to build this other palace. The purpose was to please the queen mother. But the queen mother soon had a child and never went to the other palace once. .”

Wei Nanzhou naturally thought, that child must be him.

Lu Yanxu shook his head when he heard it, "It's not Your Majesty, I wasn't even born at that time."

Wei Nanzhou didn't know that there was an elder brother before him.

"Then what happened to that child..."

There is no description of the child in the original book.

Lu Yanxu also heard it from his father, "The prince... died after he was born, because the queen mother knew the news of the woman's death, yes, the outsiders hid it very well, and the queen mother only found out about it by accident. .The result...became like this."

Back then, after the Empress Dowager joined the palace, she kept thinking about that woman, and then she gradually realized that she must be in her heart.

Even after the queen mother was pregnant with the child, she kept thinking about it, and thinking about it affected the child.

In order to let the queen mother relax, the first emperor hurriedly built the other palace, but in the end, on the way to the other palace, the queen mother found out about the woman, and at that time, the queen mother had a miscarriage and almost lost her money. I died.

After Wei Nanzhou listened to Lu Yanxu's words, his heart was empty, and he realized that he couldn't love him, so he might be talking about the queen mother and that woman.

He was suddenly afraid, if he didn't face up to his own heart, if he also deceived himself, then would he and Lu Yanxu become like this?

Thinking of this, Wei Nanzhou held Lu Yanxu's hand tightly, and the more he thought about it, the more afraid he became.

If it really became like that, if he really followed the original plot, then in the end, would it also end in tragedy?

Lu Yanxu looked at Wei Nanzhou's appearance, he knew that he was afraid.

He held Wei Nanzhou's hand back and signaled him not to worry, "Now that the two of us are together, it is our greatest luck. In this life, I will never leave you."

When Wei Nanzhou heard Lu Yanxu's words, he took his mind back and stopped thinking about it.

Lu Yanxu paused for a while, then continued, "Later, the late emperor gradually felt that the empress dowager could no longer maintain the most basic respect as a guest with him. However, the late emperor still liked the empress dowager very much."

The first emperor loved the queen mother, but the queen mother was already living in endless regret. It was too late, too late.

"Later, after the other palace was repaired, the late emperor never mentioned the idea of ​​bringing the empress dowager back here. Until this time, this is the first time the empress dowager stepped into this other palace."

Wei Nanzhou couldn't help sighing, "In the end, I didn't expect that the queen mother would step here after the death of the first emperor. Presumably, the queen mother is complaining about the first emperor. If it wasn't for the first emperor, that woman would not have died."

Lu Yanxu shook his head. He didn't know what the situation was. If he hated the late emperor, it would be better to say that he hated the self who couldn't see clearly. Otherwise, how could the empress dowager and the late emperor give birth to Wei Nanzhou.

After talking for a long time, Wei Nanzhou only knew that his cheap father was a very infatuated person, and he didn't know the rest.

In fact, what Lu Yanxu wanted to say was that the reason why the first emperor died young was probably because of the queen mother.

If he is still in this world, the Queen Mother will remember the past, and that will only torture the two of them forever.

That's why the first emperor died early, but before leaving, the first emperor took care of everything for their children.

Just when Wei Nanzhou was lamenting the love of his father's generation, he saw the queen mother walking towards him from a distance.

He quickly pulled Lu Yanxu to stand up, and the two of them hid aside, watching every move of the Queen Mother from the corner.

As Lu Yanxu said earlier, this place was the late emperor's favorite place, and the Queen Mother must have known about it.

The Empress Dowager asked the maid to stay far away. She walked to the edge of the hot spring and looked at the plants and trees, all of which were extremely strange, but she had heard about this place more than once from the mouth of the late emperor.

So I don't know why, it's both strange and familiar.

She squatted on the edge of the hot spring, and gently stroked the water with her right hand. The water was warm, just like that person, always warming her.

But she suddenly lost two people who loved her.

The queen mother looked at her reflection in the hot spring with a self-deprecating look, wondering what she was thinking.

After a long time, the queen mother stood up, and Wei Nanzhou vaguely saw that the queen mother must be very sad.

After the queen mother left, Wei Nanzhou and Lu Yanxu came out from the side.

Looking at the back of the queen mother who was drifting away, what Wei Nanzhou didn't know was that this was the first and last time the queen mother came here.

I don't know if it was because of Wei Nanzhou and Lu Yanxu, the Queen Mother had a very long dream.

She first dreamed of the days when she was still in her boudoir, and she was with her day and night. Later, the protagonist was still her, but the person she faced was the late emperor.

In a dream, the scene changed again and again, which confused her eyes, but she only knew that she hated herself more and more.

The queen mother fell seriously ill in the hot spring palace. Concubine Shu originally thought that she came to relax, but for some reason, things became different. It was her sprained foot and the queen mother was sick again.

She has been serving the Queen Mother these days. Wei Nanzhou has been here several times. He heard the Queen Mother shouting something, which seems to be a person's name, but there seem to be two more names.

He guessed that it should be the first emperor and the woman.

He served the Queen Mother for a long time, but whenever the Queen Mother was about to wake up, Wei Nanzhou always ran away, leaving Concubine Shu to take care of the Queen Mother alone.

I don't know why, Wei Nanzhou is a little afraid to see the queen mother now, he touched his face, and he didn't know how similar it was to the late emperor.

During those days when she saw Wei Nanzhou, how many times would the Queen Mother think of the past?

Wei Nanzhou will never know this in his life, all he can do now is try his best to avoid the Queen Mother.

This may be the only thing Wei Nanzhou can do for the Queen Mother.

The days passed day by day, and soon it was time to return, but the queen mother was not in good health yet, the imperial doctor said that this was a heart disease, if the queen mother didn't want to get better, she would not get better.

Wei Nanzhou thought, it should be this hot spring palace that aroused the empress dowager's mind.

I'm sorry, but that's the end of the matter.

Before leaving, Wei Nanzhou went to see the Queen Mother.

The candlelight flickered, reflecting Wei Nanzhou's face in a blur.

He stood in the distance and looked at the queen mother, seeing that the queen mother was about to wake up, so he walked over and held the queen mother's hand.

"Mother, how do you feel today? I have something to ask you."

The queen mother opened her eyes, and the moment she saw Wei Nanzhou, she seemed to see the appearance of the late emperor.

"Yuan Zhuo?"

Wei Nanzhou didn't hear clearly, but he was sure that it wasn't his name that the Empress Dowager called.

He held the Queen Mother's hand and guided softly, "Queen Mother, it's me, it's Nanzhou."

After the queen mother woke up, she saw the person in front of her clearly. She breathed a sigh of relief and tried to force a smile, "It's the emperor, Aijia really fell asleep and started talking nonsense."

Wei Nanzhou knew that she was not talking nonsense, he had asked Lu Yanxu the name of the late emperor.

The first emperor was called Yuanzhuo, Wei Yuanzhuo.

The Queen Mother must have recognized herself as the first emperor.

Wei Nanzhou shook his head, "Mother, you have been ill for more than half a month, and I want to ask you, do you want to go back to the capital?"

When the Queen Mother heard Wei Nanzhou's words, her cloudy eyes began to become moist. She inhaled the air gently and exhaled it slowly.

She said softly, "Don't go back, Ai's family is here, it's good."

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belatedly love

When the queen mother was not the queen mother, she was just a noble girl in the capital, the eldest lady of the general's mansion.

The queen mother's boudoir name is Yue Yi, Sun Yueyi.

She is obviously a descendant of a great general, but she doesn't know how to practice martial arts, but likes to read and write.

She has a very good friend, a noble daughter from another family named Zhou Nan.

Zhou Nan liked to play with Sun Yueyi since she was a child. The two of them belonged to an aristocratic family. When Zhou Nan's father held Zhou Nan in his arms, she liked Sun Yueyi very much.

As she got older, Zhou Nan began to come to Sun's house to play. In the past, Yue Yi didn't like to make noise, so she didn't pay much attention to her, but there was no way, even if she ignored her, they were still willing to come to her Play.

Later, gradually, Yue Yi felt that it was good to have such an energetic person by her side.

What Zhou Nan likes to ask her most is, "Yueyi, do you like me?"

When Sun Yueyi first started, she still thought about this issue carefully, and then came up with a compromise, "I am very happy that Nan Nan can stay with me all the time."

I'm very happy, you just like it?

Zhou Nan thought so, at least that's what she persuaded herself.

She felt that Sun Yueyi was too calm sometimes, and she could only reassure herself by asking her over and over again.

Later, Zhou Nan got even more aggressive, she simply stayed in the Sun's residence, she still wanted to sleep in the Sun's residence, in Sun Yueyi's room, sharing the same bed with her.

Zhou Nan was lying on the bed, playing with Sun Yueyi's hair.

"Yueyi, why do you just let me mess around like this? My father scolded me a lot, but Uncle Sun didn't say anything. He told me to come and play if I wanted to."

Sun Yueyi lay on the bed, letting her play with her hair.

What do you think, she feels that Zhou Nan is with her, and she doesn't feel disgusted. After so many years, she has no friends, and the only one who has been by her side is Zhou Nan.

She smiled and coaxed her, "I'm really happy that Nan Nan is by my side."

This is the case again, but Zhou Nan is used to it, as long as Sun Yueyi can let her stay by her side, she will be satisfied.

After a few years, they all reached Jiji's age, Zhou Nan prepared a Jiji gift for Sun Yueyi, but when she passed by the front hall of Sun's residence.It happened that people from the palace came to pass the decree.

She could hear clearly that the prince definitely wanted to marry Sun Yueyi.

Zhou Nan who heard the news rushed to Sun Yueyi's room like crazy and waited for her.

She can come and go freely in the Sun Mansion now, even going to the Missy's house, she doesn't need someone to pass her on.

So, she waited here for her, and when she finished receiving the order, she came back.

After Sun Yueyi heard the news, she didn't feel anything in her heart. Anyway, sooner or later she was going to marry, and she couldn't choose who to marry, so she might as well just follow their wishes and get the best of both worlds.

But what she didn't expect was that Zhou Nan made a strong resistance to her marriage.

"Yueyi, I..."

Zhou Nan didn't know what to say, she really didn't dare to guess, didn't dare to ask her what was on her mind.

Sun Yueyi looked at Zhou Nan's sad expression, she didn't understand why it was she who was sad because she was the one who was going to marry.

Zhou Nan took a deep breath, she knew that if she didn't say it, she would never have a chance in this life.

"Yueyi, I like you. I have liked you very much since I was a child."

Sun Yueyi's eyes widened when she heard Zhou Nan's words, she couldn't believe it.

In the end, she couldn't give Zhou Nan an answer, but just said something.

"I just think of you as my best friend."

After listening to Sun Yueyi's words, Zhou Nan smiled lightly, yes, she always had this idea.

Later Zhou Nan left and never came to the Sun Mansion again. Sun Yueyi heard that she had gone out to tour the rivers and lakes.

That's right, Zhou Nan, such a high-spirited woman, how could she be hit, she went out to relax.

The naive Sun Yueyi always thought that Zhou Nan would definitely come back.

Sun Yueyi married into the royal family in autumn, and Zhou Nan had already left for a long time at that time. After Sun Yueyi married into the royal family, she never saw Zhou Nan again.

The prince's name is Wei Yuanzhuo, and he is a handsome man. Sun Yueyi feels that the prince treats him very well, so good that she doesn't even know how to get along with him.

After she married Wei Yuanzhuo, Wei Yuanzhuo soon became the emperor, and she became the queen.

I heard that Wei Yuanzhuo had been building a hot spring palace in order to please her, and he wanted to make her relax.

Because Wei Yuanzhuo always said that he didn't think she was very happy.

Sun Yueyi herself didn't quite understand why this happened. Maybe, the palace wall was too high, so high that she couldn't see the scenery outside, nor the people outside.

She was pregnant with Wei Yuanzhuo's child, and she was actually looking forward to this child, but she knew in her heart that she hadn't fallen in love with Wei Yuanzhuo yet, and Zhou Nan was always on her mind.

Maybe Wei Yuanzhuo saw that she had something on her mind, so he secretly investigated some things. After knowing those things, Wei Yuanzhuo didn't see Sun Yueyi for a while.

He dared not see her.

The imperial doctor said that because the queen thought too much, it affected the child's development.

For the sake of their mother and son's health, Wei Yuanzhuo hastened to build a hot spring palace.

Just after the completion of the hot spring palace, he ran to tell her happily, "Yueyi, let's go to the hot spring palace, go out and relax, it's good for you and the child."

Wei Yuanzhuo carefully proposed this suggestion, Sun Yueyi agreed, and she wanted to go out of the palace to have a look.

Sun Yueyi underestimated her own heart, and Wei Yuanzhuo also underestimated the relationship between them.

The news of Zhou Nan's death still reached Sun Yueyi's ears.

After Sun Yueyi learned of Zhou Nan's death, she was so angry that she had a miscarriage on the spot, and the child was not kept.

Wei Yuanzhuo looked at the large expanse of blood, he was very anxious, it was the first time he said harsh words in front of Sun Yueyi, "If you can't keep the queen, I will let you be buried with her!"

Before Sun Yueyi lost consciousness, she heard Wei Yuanzhuo's anxious roar.

She was worrying again.

Someone told her that Zhou Nan committed suicide by jumping into the river on the day she got married, but no one knew whether she jumped into the river by herself, or if she slipped and fell.

But Sun Yueyi knew that because she refused to practice martial arts, Zhou Nan started to practice martial arts. Zhou Nan's skills are very good.

She jumped off by herself, and Sun Yueyi just knew that, so she couldn't accept it.

Back then she said that she liked her and loved her, but when she died, she was always flat, until it was too late when she realized it later.

When Sun Yueyi woke up again, Wei Yuanzhuo had been guarding her for several days, and the bruises in front of her eyes were very heavy, as if she hadn't slept well for many days.

The moment when Sun Yueyi opened his eyes, Wei Yuanzhuo finally showed some energy on his tired face. He held Sun Yueyi's hand tightly and asked her if she felt any discomfort.

It was the first time that Sun Yueyi looked at Wei Yuanzhuo like this, and she felt a different feeling for the first time, she seemed to see Zhou Nan.

Their child was gone, but Wei Yuanzhuo didn't blame her, and didn't even mention it much, he just asked her to cultivate her body well.

Sun Yueyi hadn't seen Wei Yuanzhuo for a long time, and she spent this time thinking about Zhou Nan all the time.

She thought that she should also like her, but that was just liking.

But she still couldn't accept the news of Zhou Nan's death.

Wei Yuanzhuo knew about Zhou Nan. He knew about it during that investigation, but he didn't tell Sun Yueyi that he had his own selfish intentions, and he didn't want Sun Yueyi to think of the past again.

After Sun Yueyi took care of her body, she didn't tell Wei Yuanzhuo about it, she didn't know how to explain it to him.

But she felt that there was no need to explain to him. Now that she had entered the palace, everything could not be undone.

In her life, what Sun Yueyi knows best is to take it for granted.

Wei Yuanzhuo didn't think so. Later, he never proposed to take her to another palace. Sun Yueyi knew that he must be angry.

She thought, she should also like Wei Yuanzhuo, but that was a different feeling.Compared with Zhou Nan, her feelings for Wei Yuanzhuo should be deeper.

One night, she dreamed of Zhou Nan. After Zhou Nan said he liked her, he turned around and jumped into the river.

Sun Yueyi wanted to stretch out her hand to grab it, but she caught Wei Yuanzhuo's hand instead.

Today is her bedtime day, Wei Yuanzhuo was awakened by her, and asked anxiously, "Are you all right?"

Sun Yueyi looked at his messy hair, and for some reason, something loosened in her heart.

After such a long time, Sun Yueyi became pregnant again.

This time Wei Yuanzhuo was very nervous about her, and Sun Yueyi also relaxed her heart. Although there were still many things in her heart that she didn't understand, she knew that there was nothing more important than the child in her belly.

After October, she gave birth to a fat boy. She named her son Wei Nanzhou, which was her and Wei Yuanzhuo's child.

At first, Sun Yueyi was very happy for Wei Nanzhou's arrival, but gradually, she fell into infinite self-blame.

It was she who failed Zhou Nan, and then lived with Wei Yuanzhuo well. She dreamed of Zhou Nan's desperate expression more than once.

But she knew that Zhou Nan would not blame her, she was not that kind of person.

Wei Yuanzhuo saw Sun Yueyi's heart, but she was still not happy.Could it be because at the beginning, at the beginning, he insisted on going his own way and insisted on tying her to his side and locking her up in this imperial city?

Gradually, Wei Yuanzhuo also began to blame himself. He felt that Sun Yueyi should hate him, but he also knew that Sun Yueyi also loved him.

Under such double torture, Wei Yuanzhuo still chose to escape. He began to pave the way for Wei Nanzhou. Sooner or later, his position will be given to Wei Nanzhou, because he is his and Sun Yueyi's child.

Wei Yuanzhuo's health became worse and worse, and he was almost out of breath due to too many things.

Sun Yueyi knew that Wei Yuanzhuo's health was getting worse and worse, but she didn't know what to do to help him. She tried, but it didn't work.

Before Wei Yuanzhuo died, he took Sun Yueyi's hand and looked at her with a wry smile, "It's my fault that tied you up. If it wasn't for me, you wouldn't have lost someone who loves you."

At this moment, Sun Yueyi finally knew why he pushed herself so hard.It's just...it's too late.

She held Wei Yuanzhuo's hand, weeping uncontrollably.

Wei Yuanzhuo took one last look at Sun Yueyi, he didn't want to see her cry, so he reached out his hand to wipe away Sun Yueyi's tears, and then he never raised his hand again.

Sun Yueyi grabbed Wei Yuanzhuo's dropped hand, and with all her strength, she whispered in Wei Yuanzhuo's ear, "I love you, I love you..."

Wei Yuanzhuo probably heard it, Sun Yueyi saw his tears.

In this life, she can only be a sinner for the rest of her life.

After Wei Yuanzhuo's death, Sun Yueyi raised Wei Nanzhou alone. Later, she learned that Wei Yuanzhuo had done a lot for their mother and son.

Wei Nanzhou looked so much like Wei Yuanzhuo, when she saw him, she thought of him.

So when Wei Nanzhou grew up, she began to hide in her palace, closing the door all year round.

In the end, she chose to stay in this imperial city that she wanted to escape from, and never dared to go out again.