Raiders Guide

The rain was pouring down outside the cave, Yan Yushu quietly looked at the swaying leaves, his thoughts drifted to the distance.

I don't know what happened to Nanzhi Louyan and the others, Yan Yurong and Yan Yuteng, are they still alive.

Are the people who chased him and Ji Muxian the same group as the spies in the army?

How is Luoyang now? Did Emperor Zhaohe send people to guard the border of Zhongzhou?

Yan Yushu's thoughts were pulled back by the rustling voice behind him, and when he turned around, he saw Ji Muxian sitting up with his arms propped up.

Yan Yushu hurriedly got up and went over. He walked in a hurry, and finally threw himself beside Ji Muxian: "Are you awake?"

Ji Muxian looked at Yan Yushu who was leaning in front of him, his eyes filled with obvious worry, and the corners of his lips curled up slightly: "Well, I'm awake."

"You've been asleep for four days."

Yan Yushu's tone contained a hint of grievance that was imperceptible, and Ji Muxian sat up straight, the wound healed very well, and he didn't feel much pain when he got up like this.

"I thought I was going to die."

"No." Yan Yushu's tone was firm: "If you die, it will be even more difficult for me to go back to Luoyang alone."

Ji Muxian laughed: "Don't worry, as long as I live, I won't leave you behind. When I return to Luoyang, you will definitely come too."

"Um……"

Yan Yushu saw that his complexion was not very good, so he thought about it, how good a person's complexion can be if he hasn't eaten for a few days.

The gruel brought by the doctor was still in the cave, Yan Yushu brought it over, touched the bowl, frowned and said: "It's cold..."

He doesn't make fire...

Ji Muxian was really hungry, took the bowl and started to eat: "It's okay, it's a hot day."

Yan Yushu looked at the rain that hadn't stopped outside the cave, and fell silent for a while.

Ji Muxian ate very quickly. After finishing the bowl of porridge, he handed it to Yan Yushu and asked him casually, "Where are we?"

Yan Yushu: "In the cave..."

Ji Muxian clicked his tongue, "I mean, where are we?"

Yan Yushu shook his head: "I don't know, I took you along the way that day, and only saw a farmer's family. So, I took you to trouble Zhao San to invite a doctor."

Ji Muxian nodded, and said in a deep voice: "Now that the Khitan people have entered Chang'an, and the emperor has gone to Luoyang, the people should also be rushing towards Zhongzhou. It's hard to find people."

Yan Yushu nodded in agreement, Ji Muxian was speechless for a while, the two sat in the cave quietly listening to the sound of rain outside the cave.

"Are you worried about your brother?"

"Yeah." Yan Yushu nodded and lowered his eyes: "I don't know what happened to them. Jinse knew that her brother's life or death was uncertain that day, so she cried and went to find him, but was forcibly taken away by her second sister. She still doesn't know what's going on in her heart .”

"I'm asking you, what do you think?"

Yan Yushu thought for a while, and answered seriously: "The border gate was breached, elder brother and Yu Teng didn't know whether they were alive or dead, and the spies in the army don't know whether they were sent by Khitan or from the Dasheng Dynasty.

If it is someone from my Dasheng, after I find out, I will cut him apart, if it is sent by Khitan, I will let him die without a whole body. "

Ji Muxian sighed, sat up straight, and asked word by word: "I asked you what you think in your heart, you should tell me, it is your first feeling, how uncomfortable you are, whether your heart hurts, It’s not about letting someone’s body be divided into five horses, or someone’s death without a whole body, the pain is the pain, there’s no need to cover it up.”

Yan Yushu froze for a moment, looked up at Ji Muxian's eyes, and seemed a little puzzled, why he would ask such a question.

"Everyone will feel uncomfortable and feel distressed. You don't have to hide it. It will make you feel better if you say it. It's not good to hold it in your heart."

Distress can be said?

Yan Yushu thought about it carefully, but he didn't quite understand how he could express his distress.

"Tell me how you feel."

Yan Yushu seldom had any big mood swings, and the first time Ji Muxian saw him hysterical was after Yan Yuwan's family was wiped out.

But he had been ill for a while, and when he woke up, he seemed to have forgotten the pain, sorted out all the sad emotions, and went to fight against Yan Ziyuan and his stepmother, digesting all the bad news by himself, without showing a trace of cowardice.

The news came that Yan Yurong and Yan Yuteng didn't know whether they were alive or dead. He didn't show any sadness in the hall, and stayed where he was to digest the good news, so he asked to stay behind.

Dongmei died in front of him, and Yan Yushu looked like a wooden man after losing his mind, but after he woke up, Yan Yushu had packed up all his emotions, as if he had forgotten that Dongmei died in front of him.

Every time, he was digesting his emotions by himself, holding all his sorrows in his heart, and not letting anyone see.

As if he locked himself in a dark room, he guarded against everyone, guarded his one-acre three-point land, healed his wounds, and lived by himself.

Such a person has no one to heal his injuries. After holding back for a long time, his heart is riddled with wounds, his body is full of injuries, and the pain has become a habit.

Yan Yushu sat in the same place, looking at Ji Muxian's expression, a little dazed: "When the news about my brother and Yuteng came, I felt as if someone was stabbing me with a knife in my heart, which made me almost out of breath."

"Yuwan's family, it's like the sky is falling, I even want everyone to be buried for them. Dongmei has been with me since I was a child, taking care of my daily necessities, so much blood splashed on my face, I can't understand , why did she die, why was she so stupid, why did she save me. They are all gone, they are all leaving me behind, I don’t understand, what did I do wrong.”

Yan Yushu's voice was very soft and gentle, not hysterical, but slightly dazed. Ji Muxian suddenly felt a little sorry for the person in front of him, and his heart ached slightly.

"But crying is useless, pain is useless... I don't know what to do, I don't know how to keep them..."

Ji Muxian stretched out his hand, gently wrapped his arms around Yan Yushu's shoulders, and pulled him into his arms, "It's human nature to feel pain, and it's also human nature to cry. Cry when you feel uncomfortable."

Yan Yushu was hugged by him, and he was a little at a loss. When he and Ji Muxian first met, they hated each other and tried each other step by step. Ji Muxian used to treat him with hands and feet, but never respected him. Yan Yushu knew that it was Ji Muxian's respect for him when he made a move.

But now he hugged him into his arms, not intending to be frivolous, but cautious, as if he was a porcelain doll.

"I am the national teacher, the third son of the Yan family, I can't lose face to Dasheng, and I can't lose face to my Yan family..."

Ji Muxian interrupted him: "Is that what they taught you?"

Yan Yushu looked up at him: "Teach what?"

"Teach you, to take care of the Yan family's face, not to be sad, not to cry?"

Yan Yushu sat up straight: "I am the aunt, so it should be. My mother is the aunt, and all the children of the Yan family are raised by her. I should set an example for everyone."

"Yu Shu." Ji Muxian persuaded earnestly: "The role model is not to pretend to be yourself, the role model is to do a good job in every word and deed, but you yourself have emotions of joy, anger, sorrow and joy."

"Happy, angry, sad, happy?" Yan Yushu thought for a moment and said, "How can it be considered happy, angry, sad or happy? I knew since I was a child that my mother is not in good health. If I am not healthy, she will not be very happy. Naturally, I want to see her well."

"So every time you see her, you pretend to be happy?"

"I am very happy to see my mother."

Seeing mother's joy, of course it's not an act.It's just that he is not in good health and doesn't want his mother to worry about it, so he smiles every time he sees her.

The elder brother said, if you smile, you are happy.

Ji Muxian changed the question: "When was the day when you were the happiest and most wanted to go back?"

"Yan Mansion, the elder brother has never been on the border, the second sister has never been married, Yu Teng has never severed ties with the Yan family, Yu Wan's family is alive and well, Yang Yang..."

Ji Muxian looked at the light in his eyes, and suddenly felt a little envious. He had so many happy days, "The days you want to go back the most are the happiest and most fulfilling times for you. The rest you pretend to show to your mother Yes, neither."

Yan Yushu looked at him and didn't quite understand: "If you're not happy, you should know it yourself. Why do you need to let others know? You lied to my mother just to make her worry about me, but other people are unimportant."

Ji Muxian realized that what he said seemed to be on different points.

"What I mean is, you don't have to pretend, happy is happy, uncomfortable is uncomfortable, there will always be someone who accepts everything."

Yan Yushu fell silent. For so many years, he has brothers and sisters, and they are very kind to him.

But he didn't dare to express all his emotions. They had their own lives and ambitions, but he didn't, so he made himself strong enough to protect them.

However, to be a person that others can rely on, you must not be vulnerable, even you are vulnerable, how can you make others depend on you.

"I don't understand what you're saying."

Ji Muxian sighed, stretched out his hand to grab his shoulder, and said word by word: "Okay, you just have to remember that if you are sad in the future, you can find me and tell me, if someone makes you sad, I will fight for you." go back……"

Call back, call back for me?

Does this mean to support him?

Is he backed by someone?

"You are here with me, you can always cry and make trouble when you are sad, and you always have the right to make nonsense."

Yan Yushu looked at him, and suddenly said: "When I was young, I wanted to eat candied haws, but my father said I was messing around."

Ji Muxian laughed: "Okay, I will buy it for you in the future."

"I want to eat pastries on the street, but he said I was fooling around."

"Didn't I buy it for you every day?"

"I still want to walk on the cobblestones with my bare feet."

"After returning to Luoyang, I will take you there." Ji Muxian approached him and asked, "Is there anything else you want to mess around with?"

"I want to climb the wall. My brother said that I am not in good health and can't mess around with Yu Teng, but every time I watch Yu Teng, I am very happy."

"Wherever you want to climb, I will take you there."

"The tallest wall."

"Yes, is there any more?"

Yan Yushu's eyebrows lit up: "I want to pull out Grandpa's beard."

Ji Muxian burst out laughing: "I'm afraid old Duke Yu will hit me, so I can only write to myself, or we can go quietly while old Duke Yu is asleep..."

The rain outside the cave gradually stopped, and a rainbow rose in the sky in the distance. The people in the cave were heartfelt and happy. The sky outside the cave was as dark as blue, and the air after the rain was extraordinarily fresh, making people feel at ease.

It's like two people who let go of their defenses and understand each other. When they get along, they are always happy physically and mentally.

I don't know the years in the mountains, Ji Muxian's wound has scabbed over, and he is in good condition. In order to thank Lang Zhong, Yan Yushu gave him 1000 taels of silver.

But the doctor didn't accept it, so Ji Muxian gave him 100 taels of silver, saying that his medicinal materials and food needed money, and if he didn't accept it, he and Yan Yushu would feel very sorry, so the doctor reluctantly accepted it.

In this world, there are still many good people. Yan Yushu looked at the doctor's back and sighed. If he hadn't met this doctor, it was really unclear whether Ji Muxian would still be alive.

"What are you thinking about?"

Yan Yushu turned to look at him: "Your savior, you just give him 100 taels?"

Ji Muxian smiled: "He wants to do his part, so naturally he refuses to accept it. Dasheng's son is not just a money-grubbing and lustful person, he just has his share."

Langzhong had already gone far along the mountain road, and in the distance, only a small shadow could be seen.

"What are you going to do next?"

"Don't you want to follow the common people into the city?" Yan Yushu asked back: "Do you have other ways?"

"We two big men, without wives and children, is the goal too big?" Ji Muxian looked Yan Yushu up and down: "Why don't you put on a disguise?"

Yan Yushu looked at the rough clothes on his body, and felt that he had disguised himself very well, "How else do you want to disguise?"

"For example, do you change into a female dress?"

Yan Yushu narrowed his eyes and snorted coldly: "Why don't you change it yourself?"

"If I change it, isn't it nondescript?"

Yan Yushu refused: "I won't change..."

"Pretend to be husband and wife to do things well."

Yan Yushu suggested: "Brothers are fine too."

Ji Muxian bent her lips and smiled: "Call me brother..."

"You call me brother."

"You are younger than me."

This is the truth, Yan Yushu couldn't refute it, he just said sullenly, "I don't call it."

Ji Muxian put his arms around his shoulders, leaned closer and asked him, "Brother doesn't call out, doesn't dress up as a woman, why are you so picky?"

Yan Yushu patted his hand away: "Why don't you call me brother?"

"You are younger than me."

Yan Yushu didn't bother to talk to him, turned around and left, Ji Muxian caught up with two steps: "Yushu, I'm serious, dressing up as a woman, I won't tell anyone else, huh? Only the two of us know. "

"You pretend to be..."

"I don't look like it." Ji Muxian coaxed: "Personate yourself, and I'll take you to buy candied haws."

Yan Yushu paused, turned to stare at him, Ji Muxian suppressed a smile, and said seriously: "I'll buy you as much as you want, and I'm sure I'll let you buy enough at once."

Yan Yushu was really thinking seriously with his head down, and Ji Muxian could hardly hold back the smile at the corner of his mouth.

The state teacher, who is so beautiful and beautiful, is actually a person who likes sweets in his bones, and he thinks that he is pretending to be very good.

"Okay, I promise you." Yan Yushu thought it over, and asked Ji Muxian seriously: "You mean what you say?"

"Of course." Ji Muxian coaxed again: "You change your attire, who knows that you are a national teacher? Do whatever you want."

It seems to be a very good thing to do whatever you want, Yan Yushu nodded: "Okay, change."