My brother became a playboy

"What's wrong with this?" I pressed the alcohol hand sanitizer a few times, rubbed my fingers, and said a common saying, "We are husband and wife, and it's only natural for us to treat each other better."

Zhao Xing's eyes fell on my fingertips for a while, and he said, "Sometimes I think, if you hadn't been in prison, what would we be like now?"

I paused for a moment, then laughed, and asked him, "Is it because of you that I went in?"

Zhao Xing shook his head and said, "I can't bear it."

"Then what do you want to do?" Zhao Xing may have become weak because he was sick in bed.

"The days now are too beautiful, like a dream."

"The second wedding is over, it's no longer a dream."

"Cui Minglang." Zhao Xing suddenly called out my full name.

"how?"

"Have you ever regretted it?"

"Regret what?"

"Elope with me."

"I haven't regretted it." Although the experience was very bitter, I even miss it a little with Zhao Xing by my side.

"I regretted it." Zhao Xing stopped looking at me and fixed his eyes on a point in the void. "It was too reckless. I never thought that we would live such a miserable life."

This is human nature, and I don't feel bad about it.

"Your fingers were split, and you were curled up in the bed, and you were so cold at night that you wrapped the sheets tightly."

"Obviously I have a cleanliness addiction, but I twist my nose to go to the roadside bathroom that no one cleans. Once I go there, I have to wait for a long time before I can eat."

"You went to my boss to argue, he hit you, I wanted to hit you back, but you held my hand and told me not to be impulsive."

"You are obviously so smart, but you were picked and picked by the parents of the students, and in the end you were deducted the tuition fee."

"You like me and are willing to elope with me, but you live a life like this."

"The day when I leave school is getting closer, and I regret it more and more. I am afraid that you will live like this forever, and I am also afraid that we will not be able to make up the tuition and living expenses at all, so we will not be able to go to college."

I still remember those dusty pasts, but I didn't expect Zhao Xing to remember them so clearly.

I had mixed feelings in my heart, but I really didn't want to make him sad anymore, so I could only say: "The past is over, what are you thinking about?"

Zhao Xing struggled for a while, and finally said: "Sometimes I also regret it, maybe I shouldn't have stalked you back then, without me, you would have lived a more free and unrestrained life..."

"But I have never regretted it," I interrupted him. "Without you, I might have lived a more free and easy life, or I might choose to end my life because I think the world is too boring, or because Freedom to choose to do something that I thought was normal was enough to ruin my life."

"Zhao Xing, you did change my life, but not in a bad direction."

"It can even be said that you are my morning star."

The light in Zhao Xing's eyes became brighter and brighter. If he wasn't lying in bed, I'm sure he would run over and hug me.

I thought for a while, walked to his side, held his hand, and said a word of love from the bottom of my heart.

I said: "Zhao Xing, don't think about it, let's live a good life in the future."

"Okay." Zhao Xing only said one word, and he agreed.

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On the third day after the operation, Zhao Xing had almost recovered. He could walk a short distance slowly, and the wound didn't hurt so much.

The person lying on the bed was replaced by me. After a short adaptation period, the dose of the drug was increased. In addition to vomiting, my muscles began to ache, and my hair began to fall out in large quantities—almost the same as the reaction to chemotherapy. unanimous.

Zhao Xing sat weakly by my bed, he didn't listen to me no matter how I told him to lie back on the bed, he just stared at me stubbornly.

He fed me the soup himself, and I really wanted to drink it up to save face, but I couldn't help retching after swallowing half of it.

My complexion should be ugly, because Zhao Xing's complexion suddenly became ugly.He started calling one after another, communicating with each other in Chinese, English and a language I didn't understand.

I slowed down for a while, and after a while, I asked him, "When did you learn the new language?"

"When I was in Italy," Zhao Xing fed me, rinsed my mouth, wiped the corners of my mouth, and dumped it in the toilet with the plastic basin containing the filth. After returning, he continued, "At that time, it was difficult to have a partner. Come on, I learned from the assault."

"Your time management skills are good." I joked, after all, you can talk about cooperation, learn languages ​​and coax me while dating a lover.

"I didn't waste much time on that lover, and I don't like him," Zhao Xing said, acting like a capitalist, even like a scumbag. "The original plan was to give him a sum of money to compensate him afterwards, but He hit you, and I only have the idea of ​​revenge for him."

"You are cheating money and sex."

"From the very beginning, it was a naked game of money. Either I swallowed them or they swallowed me. We paralyzed each other's pawns with that person. Before tearing our face, of course it was affectionate. After tearing our face, it was nothing. Take advantage of the value."

I thought about it, clapped my hands and said, "You are so cruel."

"Learn from you," Zhao Xing didn't feel ashamed, "You also secretly sold your color to save our company."

I was really surprised, I always thought that I hid this past very well.

"When did you know?" I asked him.

"After you went in," Zhao Xing paused, but continued, "The man you cheated of money and sex called and asked if he needed any financial help."

I rummaged through the depths of my memory and found the only remaining memory of that man. I only remember that after he was tamed by me, his physical relationship was very chaotic, and he seemed to have gone abroad to marry.

"and then?"

"I said, I don't need it for now, so he laughed for a long time, and when he laughed enough, he said he would tell me a story."

"What did he say?"

"He said everything," Zhao Xing said in a very soft voice, "he said how you seduced him, how you tamed him, how you used him to help me, and how you abandoned him."

"Then what do you think after hearing this? Do you think I'm shameless?" I already knew the answer, but I just wanted to hear Zhao Xing say it.

Zhao Xing did not disappoint me either, he said: "I didn't expect that you used to love me so much."

Love so much that even when the relationship is the most rigid, I still try my best to save the other party's career.

"At that time, I was still a little hesitant, whether I should make false claims with some people in exchange for your successful release from prison, but this phone call changed my mind."

"I learned from other people's mouths what you concealed. I feel sorry for you and blame myself. I am too incompetent to drag you down."

"I'm also a little angry and embarrassed, because if I knew what you were thinking, I would have chosen to stop you back then."

"Thinking in another way, you don't want me to rescue you through this way. I don't want to see you angry and embarrassed, and I don't want to hide anything from you anymore."

"Finally, I talked to you and chose to believe in fate."

I laughed, touched his earlobe, and said, "You're doing a great job, I'm so happy."