My brother became a playboy

Zhao Xing chuckled a few times and said, "Are you actually such an innocent person?"

"Isn't it?

I say this without being brazen.

When I fell in love with Zhao Xing, I was only in my teens. I had a high IQ but lacked experience.

The psychological state is far from normal, and I have to bear at least half of the responsibility for our troubles in the end.

However, before Zhao Xing proposed, I never thought about an "open relationship", nor did I ever think about inserting a third, fourth, or Nth person into my marriage relationship with Zhao Xing.

Originally, there were only two choices in front of me, one was to continue the marriage relationship, and the other was to terminate the marriage relationship.

Zhao Xing gave me a third choice, a choice that seemed "very suitable" at the time.

Zhao Xing never asked me if I would divorce him if he didn't have that proposal, so I never thought about it.

We all assume that if we didn't choose "open relationship", we would have parted ways long ago, as if we can convince ourselves that the choice at the time was absolutely right, and we can deceive ourselves that we never regretted it.

It's hypocritical to turn over old accounts, and it's not bad, but the past is over, and the future can always be changed.

I expressed my thoughts, but I didn't expect Zhao Xing to say anything—since he became a capitalist, he is not as frank as before, and he always has some things in his heart that he wants to hide from me.

Because I didn't have too much expectation, so I didn't feel sad about the sudden silence, I yawned, pulled up the blanket a little bit, and prepared to go back to sleep.

However, Zhao Xing seemed to have finally regained the function of his own language. He said, "Have you ever imagined what it would be like now if you hadn't fallen in love with me?"

"I never imagined it," I closed my eyes, and the whole person was half asleep, "I should not fall in love with anyone else except you."

"What if Xu Nuo didn't die? What if he met you early and loved you with all his heart?" These questions seemed to have been accumulated in Zhao Xing's mind for a long time, so that he spoke very fluently without any lag.

I thought for a few seconds and said, "I'm not going to fall in love with him."

"Why?" Zhao Xing asked in a low voice.

"There is no reason," I gave an imperfect but very real answer, "At that time, I would have feelings for you, but not for him."

"Because I'm the one you like?"

"No," I thought about my words, and continued, "It's not that you are what I like, but I like you, so I like your appearance. I may not explain clearly, but Zhao Xing, at that time It is an accident that I fell in love with you, and it is impossible to fall in love with someone else."

"Accidental event," Zhao Xing repeated these four words very gently, "Cui Minglang, I love you is an inevitable event."

It sounds like he is more affectionate than me.

I didn't bother to argue this with him, and turned over, ready to go back to sleep.

But Zhao Xing's footsteps were getting closer and closer, and finally stopped in front of my small sofa. His fingers touched my face, and I had to open my eyes to look at him.

When I saw his expression at the moment, my drowsiness disappeared in an instant - the last time Zhao Xing looked like this was when he persuaded me to marry him.

There is a high probability that he wants to trick me. The problem is, I am his now, so what else can he plot?

Zhao Xing gently pinched my cheek, leaned down, and said softly: "You are so cute today."

I grabbed his wrist and said back: "You are really a pervert today."

"I won't find anyone else in the future." Zhao Xing suddenly changed the subject and made a promise, "I will remain faithful to our marriage, and I will only have you as my sexual partner in the future."

When I heard this, my first reaction was: "Why did you say that suddenly?"

"You made a promise, and I naturally have to make a promise."

"that's it?"

"that's it."

But I'm not stupid. Zhao Xing's sudden promise came after our messy conversation. It seemed that Zhao Xing finally made up his mind because of my answer.

I let go of Zhao Xing's hand, chose to insert my fingers between his fingers, and interlocked with his fingers.

I asked him: "Can you hold back your 'sex addiction'?"

He clenched my fingers tightly, as if he was afraid that I would run away, and he said, "Do you want to know why I used to mess around..."

"I don't want to know," I interrupted his words, "The past has been turned over, and I prefer to look forward."

Even if he didn't say it, I can guess a little bit from the past experience and the conversation just now.

In the past, he may have felt that I had long wanted to mess with women, and when he suggested "opening up the relationship", I was just pushing the boat along.

I can have fun, so he naturally wants to. He is using the chaotic relationship to silently protest my chaotic relationship.Competing with others is good, but Zhao Xing and I are bad.Maybe every time he confirmed that I was attracted to others, he would play a little more crazy.Only through this can he have the pleasure of "revenge" and the self-comfort of "I didn't lose".

I quickly went through the timeline of my time with Zhao Xing, and suddenly found that every time I quarreled with Zhao Xing, he would always do more absurd things.

I hooked up with Lu Hua, and he went to Liu's house to play multiplayer games.

I gave up the shares of the listed company, and he attacked my colleagues.

Xu Nuo and I felt a little bit of true love, and he directly had sex with his lover on my bed.

My filter on Zhao Xing is so deep that until today, I didn’t realize that whenever I hurt Zhao Xing, Zhao Xing would get back at me—in a more fucked way, he knew I would be embarrassed and Sad, he knows I still have my heart for him.

According to this logic, there was a high probability that Zhao Xing would have cheated on him on purpose. This was his bottom line and his "killer trump card".

Once I have a new love, he will choose to cheat without hesitation. If I hurt him, he will hurt me, which sounds fair.

But today, I dissected myself to Zhao Xing, he realized that I was actually more harmless than he imagined, he finally breathed a sigh of relief, and prepared to try to live a good life.

I showed my soft spot, he gave up his killer tool, and it looked like it would be a good turning point.

My brain is spinning fast, and I can think of everything clearly, but I still pretend to know nothing.

Of course, I can expose Zhao Xing and ask him why he doesn't talk about things properly, and why he doesn't communicate well, but use this kind of covert way of revenge.

But I am also such a person myself, and I can't laugh at a hundred steps at fifty steps.

Besides, if I expose him, our mood will be ruined tonight, and it's really not worth it.

In order to stop this too dangerous topic, I brought up a new topic that is enough to divert Zhao Xing's attention.

I said: "Zhao Xingxing, when, let's have another wedding."