My brother became a playboy

I have a brother who played with me since I was a child. His surname is Zhao, and his single name is Xing. I nicknamed him "Xing Xing".

We were born in the same year, the same month, the same day, and in the delivery room on the same floor. My mother and his mother became best friends because of our birth.

We two went to kindergarten together when we were three years old. From the small class to the big class, the gentle and gentle teacher always held me in his left hand and him in his right hand, and said through gritted teeth: "You two, can you calm down a little bit."

It is impossible to stop, we always cooperate tacitly, turn the class upside down, hold hands and suffer criticism, and then hold hands after school.

When we were in elementary school, we were in different classes, but Zhao Xing, the demon king of the world, ran around the classroom on the first day of school, dared to bully his classmates on the second day of school, and the teacher called Aunt Zhao directly on the third day of school , with a gentle tone and a firm attitude: "If you don't care about your child, it will be over."

Aunt Zhao was so angry that she couldn't help it. She was an intellectual and didn't like corporal punishment on children. She pushed her glasses, bent down and asked her big baby, "What do you want?"

Zhao Xing, who was only six years old at the time, pointed in the direction of my home and said clearly: "I want to be in the same class as Cui Minglang."

Cui Minglang is his own name. It is said that the kid Zhao Xing hadn't learned how to write "Zhao Xing", but he could write "Cui Minglang" first.

Aunt Zhao naturally disagreed at the beginning. We went to the best elementary school in the city, and there were a lot of rich and powerful children in it. It was not easy to change classes.

But Zhao Xing made a big fuss, and in the end Aunt Zhao had no choice but to obey him unhappily.

Zhao Xing was a little socially obsessed by nature. Less than a week after he transferred to my class, my deskmate took the initiative to change places with him. He sat beside me, stretched his chubby legs, and said, "We two There is no need to draw the [-]th line."

I said "hmm" and deliberately moved my elbow in his direction, then he picked up the end of the pencil and threatened me, "Come again and I'll stab you."

"Didn't you say you won't prick me?" I asked him pretending to be angry.

"I said I don't draw the [-]th parallel. If you bully me, of course I will stab you." Kid Zhao Xing is not stupid at all, he is shrewd, I can't take advantage of him, so I have to withdraw my elbow and curl my lips.

After a while, there was a small fleshy fist on my table. I was about to poke it with the tip of a pencil, but the fist suddenly loosened, revealing a bubble gum inside.

Zhao Xing said impatiently: "For you."

"do you have it?"

"Yes, I will be alone with you."

I stretched out my hand to pick up BNB, feeling very happy, and said to him: "Tomorrow I will bring you plum candy."

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Later, we went to the same junior high school, the same high school, and the same university as a matter of course.

What is not so logical is that we fell in love at the age of 15, had sex with each other, and went home the next day and came out of the closet.

Both my parents and his parents almost beat us to death, and they both asked the same question "Who seduced you?" Angry.

At the age of 25, we got engaged. In fact, when we got engaged, our relationship with each other had faded a bit, but after all, we have been in love for ten years, and we have had sex for seven years. We still don't want to break up, and we still want to save this relationship.

But three years later after the engagement, same-sex marriage was legalized, and our love did not rekindle, there was no cheating, mistress, family changes, too much pressure, just naturally, not so much love.

At the age of 28, we spent the tenth anniversary of being in the same bed together, and then each of us drank an after-event cigarette, which was a bit boring. I wanted to say to Zhao Xing, "Or let's break up, and the small hand feels like a left hand I touched my right hand, we will still be brothers from now on", but he said before me: "Tomorrow I will call two clean little stars, let's play together, it's not betrayal, just have fun."

I hesitated for dozens of seconds. I really didn't want to break up with Zhao Xing, so I accepted Zhao Xing's proposal with a heavy head.

So, the next day, we both physically cheated.Zhao Xing knew that I had a little cleanliness, he said don't worry, I'm on top, we just have some fun.I replied in a wrong way, I don't care if you are on the top or the bottom, but I couldn't help laughing, I'm happy.

I have to say that fresh people are indeed very comfortable to play.

The two of us survived the breakup crisis. Half a year later, we were pressed by the parents of both parties to obtain the certificate, and a very grand wedding was held.However, during the honeymoon, he took a fancy to an art student, and I took a fancy to an online pornographic. When we had sex, we discussed it in advance and made an appointment on the same day, of course at a different location.

Zhao Xing always has some strange rules and ideas. For example, he thinks that the reported fun is pure play, not cheating, and his favorite is still me.

I'm not like him, in fact, from the first time I got someone else, it was clear to me that we couldn't go back - I've never seen a few open relationships that ended up being good.

But Zhao Xing and I really don't have much passion, and we can still have sex occasionally, but lying on the same bed every day and looking at each other's face and body will only be boring.

We can give each other everything except love. If Zhao Xing gets sick, I am willing to cut his kidney to save him. Of course, I believe he will do the same.

This kind of relationship is beyond friendship, beyond family affection, and is almost a soul mate. Unfortunately, our body does not follow the control of our soul, and if we don't feel it, we don't feel it.

In this way, I was 32 years old. I met a man I liked very much. In the past, the people I raised outside were more or less like Zhao Xing. They were not substitutes, but I just liked Zhao Xing like that. .

But this man is different. He is very gentle and smart. When he smiles, he is especially healing.

And after a long time, I felt a little heartbeat.

I want to have a showdown with Zhao Xing and end our long-standing marriage in name only.