that bastard i love

"When my mother was still there, she always told me to be myself in the future and not be restrained by my own heart." Zhang Min leaned back in the chair with a gloomy expression.

Wen Gulin lay on Zhang Min's lap, and asked cautiously: "Your mother is a mother who understands you very well."

Zhang Min nodded and continued: "Well, my mother is very open-minded. When I was young, my father wanted to send me to learn the violin. I didn't want to learn it, but my mother said that I don't want to learn it. Just let me be happy."

Wen Gulin didn't speak, and quietly listened to Zhang Min talking about his past.

"My mother is very good to me. Since I was a child, she has always loved me the most. My father used to disregard the family and always worked outside. There are only me and my mother at home."

"What did your father do before?"

"My father used to be a worker on a construction site. He went to work during the day, and at night he always went to drink and play cards with the workers who worked with him, and fell asleep when he came back. He didn't care about things. It was very hard for my mother to take care of me alone."

"Later, when I was in college, my mother got cancer." Zhang Min said, his left hand on the table trembled.

Cancer, what a hopeless disease.

"My mother, what an optimistic person, she was overwhelmed by cancer...and finally committed suicide by herself." Zhang Min said, his eyes were red.

The topic suddenly became heavy, and Wen Gulin didn't know where to start, and he didn't know how to comfort him, so he could only hold Zhang Min's hand, trying to give him some warmth.

Zhang Min waved his hand, indicating that he was fine.

After a while, Wen Gulin asked cautiously: "Then your father, didn't you persuade your mother at that time?"

"At that time, I was still a student and my family had no money. My father borrowed money from everywhere every day to help my mother get medical treatment. I couldn't take care of it at all. I only found out when the hospital called me when I was in school."

At that time, he was still thinking about studying hard, getting a doctoral degree, and then earning money to treat his mother, but the news of his mother's suicide suddenly broke, breaking all his fantasies.

At his mother's funeral, his father seemed to have aged ten years. He once complained, hated his father, complained why his father never shared some pressure on his mother, and hated his father for not taking good care of his mother.

But at the funeral, when he saw such a father, he suddenly couldn't hate him anymore, he just felt uncomfortable and panicked.

After graduating from university, the burden of the family was on him alone, and his father gradually began to care about his life and everything about him.

As if making up for it.

But he doesn't need to make amends, because he has already stopped complaining, and his mother is in heaven, so she must hope that he and his father can be well.

Later, he also obeyed his father, and he did everything his father wanted him to do, trying to be a good son.

The only thing that disobeyed his father was probably being with Wen Gulin.

He fell in love with someone for the first time, without hesitation.

Then, his father also started to make things difficult for Wen Gulin, and he could only deal with it. He also knew that his father always wanted him to separate from Wen Gulin.

In fact, he can also understand his father, who doesn't want his son to live a good life, find a virtuous wife, give birth to a well-behaved son, and then live a peaceful life.

My father is old and his thinking is more feudal. He can't let an old man insist on accepting his son to be with a man.

But he never thought that his father would end up forcing him to die.

Really, so tired.

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After Zhang Min fell asleep, Wen Gulin breathed a sigh of relief.

He never knew that Zhang Min's mother committed suicide...

Although he has no parents, he will feel emotional and uncomfortable when he hears this kind of thing.

In fact, he never blamed Zhang Min's father for wanting them to separate, after all, he felt sorry for the world's parents.

But he didn't want to give up his love either.

Wen Gulin covered Zhang Min with a quilt, got up and left the hotel, went to the small shop downstairs to buy a pack of cigarettes, squatted down and smoked one by one.

Until the ground was covered with cigarette butts and soot.

He was troubled and irritable.

He didn't know if he was right or wrong.

He didn't want to be separated from Zhang Min, but he also didn't want to break up?Bad relationship between Zhang Min and his father.

What a wonderful thing it is to have someone who loves you by your side.

How enviable.

But he doesn't want to give up his love either.

In a person's life, how much luck and fate does it take to meet someone you love.

He doesn't want to give up.

Apart from Zhang Min, he really won't fall in love with anyone else.

but……

He is so confused.

He really didn't know what to do.

For the first time, he felt that what is embarrassing is embarrassing himself.

He is a simple person, his life is very ordinary, but his life is very difficult.

He didn't know why this happened.

He didn't know why he became so cowardly, if he didn't care what other people would do before, but now he is very cowardly, he only dared to step on his own cigarettes in the deserted streets. cigarette butts.

The cigarette had burned out, burning his fingertips.

Gray smoke floated past his eyes and over the top of his head, just as he was now.

He needs to make a choice now.

There is no time for him to think and think too much, he has to make a choice.

Similarly, Zhang Min also had to make a choice.

Love has always been a matter of two people, and love of one person is not called love.

When he made a choice, Zhang Min had to make his choice too.

Should we stay together, or go our separate ways, and be a stranger from now on.

It all depends on their decision.

During this journey, they have traveled so many ways, but no matter how long the journey is, there will be an end.

It's time to end this journey.

It is time for them to make their own choices.

When he returned to the hotel, Zhang Min was already fast asleep.

Wen Gulin was lying on the side of the bed, staring at Zhang Min's sleeping face, showing a wry smile.

How he wished that this man would be his all his life, and he would be this man's all his life.

Tomorrow, no matter what choice Zhang Min makes, he will not complain.

Because this is life.

He will respect Zhang Min's choice.

Even if they were separated, he would still leave with a smile, because none of them owed anyone anything.

He loved Zhang Min, and Zhang Min also loved him.

that's enough.

There is nothing better than the fact that they were in love.

They once met in Tibet, which is full of myths and legends, and made an appointment to spend the rest of their lives together.

If there is a God, please let them see their hearts clearly and make the most correct choice in their hearts.

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