that bastard i love

"Have you ever loved me, even for a second?"

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After returning home, Zhang Min kept thinking about the words Wen Gulin just asked him.

Did he love Wen Gulin?

Ever loved?

Three years ago, he chose to be with Wen Gulin just because he felt that being with Wen Gulin would give him more fun in his life.

He never thought about the question of love or not.

Because he feels that marriage has nothing to do with love, love is not something to eat, the important thing is to be suitable.

In the three years they have been together, he has never thought about this problem.

He himself is not sure whether he loves Wen Gulin or not... He just thinks that life without Wen Gulin...

very lonely.

But, he doesn't know.

He didn't know how to answer Wen Gulin...

Zhang Min closed his eyes tiredly, leaned on the sofa, raised his hand and gently pressed his temple.

He's never been that tired.

Not only physically exhausted, but also mentally exhausted.

He never thought things would turn out like this.

When Wen Gulin proposed divorce at that time, he thought that Wen Gulin was playing hard to get, so he didn't dare to really divorce him.

But no one wants to.

Wen Gulin really signed the divorce agreement.

He never thought that he would lose Wen Gulin.

So, he really doesn't know what to do now...he doesn't know.

Not long after, Xu Yu dragged Su Chengbei to kill him in a hurry.

"Brother Min, what does sister-in-law say?"

Xu Yu asked worriedly.

Zhang Min sat on the sofa, shook his head, and did not speak.

Seeing Zhang Min like this, Xu Yu lost his temper.

Ever since he found out that Zhang Min and Wen Gulin were divorced, he has been persuading Zhang Min and Wen Gulin to reconcile as before.

After all, being able to be together for three years is a little emotional in the final analysis. If we say we can divide it, then it will definitely become a lifetime of regret in the future.

It's a pity that although the word is easy to say this time, it is the heaviest and most painful injury in a person's life.

He didn't want Zhang Min to go through the painful experience between him and Su Chengbei.

He didn't want Zhang Min to live in regret all his life.

"Brother Min, if you do this again, it's really impossible for you to get your sister-in-law back."

Zhang Min shook his head irritably, and replied helplessly, "Don't ask me, I don't know..."

"Do you think you can solve the problem by saying you don't know!"

Seeing Zhang Min's decadent look, Xu Yu picked up the drawing book on the table and slammed it against the wall.

That picture book was exactly the portrait that Wen Gulin had painted for Zhang Min. Before Wen Gulin left, he didn't take it away.

The picture book was smashed against the wall forcefully, and the aged pages fell off.

Portraits fell from the sky one by one and scattered all over the ground.

In each chapter of the portrait, he is painted, his happy look, his dazed look, and his angry look...

It's all him.

What is buried in an old picture book is Wen Gulin's love for him.

Looking at the portraits scattered all over the floor, Zhang Min's eyes turned red, and he jumped up and knelt on the ground, picking up the portraits one by one in a panic.

He never realized that Wen Gulin actually recorded their memories in such a way.

Dozens of chapters of portraits are all the memories between them in the past three years.

For so many years, Wen Gulin has been painting him silently.

Seeing Zhang Min like this, Xu Yu didn't want to force Zhang Min anymore, so he pulled Su Chengbei away.

Zhang Min knelt on the ground, picked up all the portraits all over the floor, and held them in his arms, as if these papers were the treasures of his life.

Zhang Min looked at these old yellowed papers, his nose was slightly sore, crystal tears rolled down from the corners of his eyes, and fell on the portrait, blurring it.

Only then did he understand.

It's not that he never loved Wen Gulin, it's just that he himself has been unwilling to admit it.

In fact, he has always loved Wen Gulin.

Zhang Min knelt on the ground, his whole heart was empty, an indescribable pain pervaded his whole body, even breathing felt like a needle prick.

Why did he just wake up now.

Why wait until now, when Wen Gulin was completely disappointed in him, did he wake up.

He really regretted, regretted not treating Wen Gulin well, regretted hurting Wen Gulin so deeply, regretted squandering Wen Gulin's feelings time and time again.

He also hated himself for being cowardly.

Hate myself for never daring to say love, hate myself for never saying I love you to Wen Gulin in the past three years.

"Wen Gulin—" Zhang Min knelt on the ground, holding those scattered portraits, sobbing softly.

He really, knew he was wrong...

Can they go back?