that bastard i love

"Boss Wen, are you okay, Boss Wen?"

Wen Gulin opened his eyes, and Zhang Nannan's anxious face appeared in front of him.

Just when he wanted to get up, his brain was dizzy and his body was weak. This state forced him to lie on the bed.

"I... what's wrong with me?" Wen Gulin stretched out his hand weakly, and touched his wet forehead, only to realize that his forehead was sweating.

Zhang Nannan lay beside Wen Gulin's bed, with big innocent eyes open: "This is a hospital, you have acute gastroenteritis, and when I arrived at your house, you were lying on the ground, so I called an ambulance for you."

"What about Zhang Min..."

Zhang Nannan lowered her head, curled her lips in dissatisfaction: "He didn't come, I called him to indicate that the phone was turned off."

Wen Gulin smiled bitterly.

He had expected it a long time ago, and he wasn't very disappointed...just sad.

"Boss Wen, don't be sad, maybe my brother is just busy, or the phone is out of battery or something."

"I know." Wen Gulin said with a smile, suddenly remembered something, and asked, "By the way, how did you know I was sick?"

"You called me. After I got through, you kept silent. I wondered if something happened to you."

It seems that when he finally called Zhang Min in a daze, he accidentally pressed Zhang Nannan's phone. Fortunately, this carelessness saved his life.

"Thank you."

"No thanks, no thanks, Boss Wen, you don't have to be so polite with me." Zhang Nannan waved her hands, and lay down next to Wen Gulin with a grin on her face.

Wen Gulin sat up, leaning against the bed, with his head down, his hair scattered along his forehead, making his expression hard to see.

But Zhang Nannan felt that Wen Gulin must be very sad now.

Although he didn't say anything, she could feel that Wen Gulin was surrounded by strong disappointment, and he felt very gloomy.

She had never seen Wen Gulin like this.

In her impression, Wen Gulin has always been a very lively and noisy person. Although he is already 30 years old, he is like a child who will be like her. He is only busy playing every day, playing and playing around every day from constant.

She didn't like Wen Gulin like this at all, not at all.

She prefers Wen Gulin from before, who was lazy at the front desk every day watching anime, and would pout and reason with her when she teased her. She still likes Wen Gulin who is silly, innocent and romantic like a child.

She didn't like Wen Gulin like this at all.

"Boss Wen, did you and my brother... quarrel?" Zhang Nannan asked tentatively.

Wen Gulin didn't speak, but nodded slightly.

"Then... what is the reason?"

Wen Gulin raised his head, but did not speak.

What is the reason?

He didn't know either.

It was just a good question, but what made them become like this?

He doesn't want to do this either...

What made them all like this?

What made them fight desperately?

He doesn't know...

He really wanted to cry, he really wanted to cry out all the pain in his heart, even if he lost all face, even if he was disgusted and ridiculed.

But... who would love his tears?

He is 30 years old, he is no longer an ignorant teenager... He is no longer a child who can express all his emotions, anger, sorrow and joy, what right does he have to cry?

If he was still a child, he would be able to show all his emotions on his face unscrupulously, but he is already 30 years old...

If he is like a child now, as Zhang Min said, naive, delicate and contrived...then he becomes what he hates again.

When I was young, I always wanted to grow up, but when I really grew up one day, I wanted to change back to the young and unrestrained appearance.

How ridiculous...

Seeing that he didn't speak, Zhang Nannan felt a little worried, and continued to whisper: "If there is something unhappy, it might be better to say it."

Wen Gulin smiled and stroked Zhang Nannan's hair.

Many people think that if you are unhappy, it's okay to say it, but that's what children do.

When you were young, you could confide your unhappiness to the people around you and share your life with the people around you.

But when you grow up, you will find out.

Not everything is easy to say.

Some things, some pain, I can only hide in my heart, waiting for the wound in my heart to gradually inflame and rot, even if the pain is deep in my heart, I can't say it.

Even if you say it, you can only fill another scar in your heart.

He was also too afraid to trouble others.

Whenever he thought of the time when he was young, when he went from house to house for food, and when he thought of the strange eyes that those neighbors gave him, he dared not say anything.

He was too afraid to trouble others.

All his life he's been a nuisance to other people.

He lost his parents when he was young, and went to other people's houses to eat every day. Although he was faced with smiling faces, he also knew in his heart that people just pitied him, and there would be neighbors who complained late at night. , thought he was a nuisance.

When he was a student, he often acted recklessly, because he had no parents, and felt that the teacher had nothing to do with him, so he often caused trouble. Every time the class teacher looked at him when he went to help him clean up the mess, he knew that it was watching A troublesome look.

After marrying Zhang Min, he kept causing troubles for Zhang Min. He felt that since he was married to Zhang Min, he should rely on Zhang Min. Zhang Min gave him a job and raised him. I took it for granted.

Thinking about it now, he has really troubled others for the rest of their lives...

In his worldview, he always has to work hard on his own and not bother others.

But in the end, looking back at his life, he actually troubled others for the rest of his life...

Now think about it... how ridiculous he is...

Everything he insisted on, the moment he felt happy, looking back, it was all mistakes, mistakes that could not be corrected, and the past that could not be corrected.

After so many years, he was busy, but when he looked back, he found that he hadn't done anything. Instead of living the way he wanted, he lived the way he hated the most.

Before today, he could confidently feel that it was all Zhang Min's fault.

But thinking about it now, he was too capricious.

People take care of him and help him, just fulfilling their responsibilities as a partner, but he makes endless demands on others.

He has always wanted the life he imagined, but he never thought about...whether people would like to live such a life.

He can't even confirm whether the other party really loves him.

He can't feel it...he can't feel Zhang Min's side that loves him...he can't feel anything...

He could talk to Zhang Nannan about the difference between love and liking, but when he came to him, he was stuck in it and couldn't say anything.

He is too stupid.

His whole life was full of sadness and regret.