Jin Jiaxuan 2: Poem of Silence

Early this morning, in front of the sink in the bathroom, Shang Yang squatted there with a mess of hair that had just gotten up, and rummaged through the cabinets below, but couldn't find what he was looking for.

He was sleepy, and his mind was not very bright, so he turned his head outside and asked, "I bought it last time..."

He closed his mouth only halfway through the question.Oh, why did you forget again?Jin Xu has already gone back to the northwest, and no one in this house will answer his every request and answer every question.

The door of the bathroom was pushed open a crack, and Elizabeth's puppy squeezed in, wagging its tail and looking at her father expectantly, and her father had no choice but to say, "I'll be fine soon, wait a minute."

After he brushed his teeth and came out to drink half a glass of water, Elizabeth was happily put on a dog leash and happily led out for a walk.

Shang Yang, who was walking him, was neither happy nor happy. Lu Yu also took his dog out for a walk. He looked at the dog, and then at him wearing a mask. He knew people by the dog. Are you walking the dog? Where's your cousin?"

Shang Yang: "..."

If he hadn't considered that he would live here for a long time, he still had to show some face, he would really be able to cry in public.

The temperature in early spring was extremely unstable. Yesterday he was able to wear only a shirt, but today there was a strong wind. When he went out, he made a mistake and wore less clothes. He almost froze himself into a dog after walking the dog.

Fortunately, my physical fitness passed the test. Although I came back with a bit of sniffling nose, after warming up indoors for a while, I regained my strength, but it didn't turn into a cold.But the mood was really bad to the extreme, his aura was extremely low, and he sulked uncontrollably.Originally, he wanted to warm up a cup of milk to make oatmeal, so he searched around, but the milk also opposed him, but he couldn't find it anywhere.

Going to the door of the unit, I picked up the takeaway from the Golden Arch, and went upstairs to punch in the card. After learning that there is no need for a morning meeting today, Shang Yang took the takeaway back to the office. The foreign fast food that I thought was okay before is hard to swallow now. , After taking two casual bites, the whole person was listless, stared at the computer for a while, picked up the phone, and sent a message to ask Jin Xu: Where did you put the electric toothbrush head I bought last time?I can not find.

Jin Xu quickly replied to him, telling him which drawer of which storage cabinet it was in.

Shang Yang asked again: Where is the milk?Didn't you just buy a box?Can't find it either.

Jin Xu told him again, which door and which compartment of the kitchen wall cabinet, and then said: I knew that once I came back, you would have problems taking care of yourself, and you would have to be in a hurry for at least half a month, how about it?Are you right?Do you miss me very much now?

Shang Yang was already very depressed, but when he saw the embarrassing words through the mobile phone network, he became even more angry, and replied fiercely with two words: I don't want to.

He threw the phone aside, not going to talk to this guy anymore.

After a few minutes, Jin Xu sent another message, saying: Have you had breakfast yet?Eat on time.

Probably because he sensed that Shang Yang was in a bad mood, he stopped bragging, and came to do a little fuss again.

In a meeting room of a provincial department in the northwest, a group of police officers from the National Security Brigade came in one after another, preparing for a meeting.

Jin Xu came early and had been seated for a long time. At this time, he was quietly reading the latest news on his phone under the table.

Shang Yang: After you left, I live in a mess every day, are you satisfied?Then make sarcastic remarks.

Jin Xu: "..."

There were more and more people around him, so he had to put away his mobile phone for the time being, and sat upright with his shoulders straight. He didn't like to smile when he went to work, and he always had a serious and nervous expression. Others saw him as a cold-hearted person who was working hard to prepare for the meeting. Captain Gold.

In fact, what this man is thinking now has basically nothing to do with the content of the meeting.

For a while, he recalled the countless warm nights in the past six months when he and Shang Yang took the puppy for a walk, and watched old movies together on the sofa at home at night. For a while, he remembered the few days before returning from Beijing. The two were alone, and whenever he turned around, he would find that Shang Yang must be looking at him with affection in his eyes. He asked Shang Yang what he was looking at?Shang Yang just didn't answer, he would smile at him, and if he asked again, Shang Yang would take the initiative to kiss him. At that time, he thought that it was the indulgence before parting, but he didn't expect that among the two of them, the one who loved the "parting" It seems that Shang Yang is more concerned and uncomfortable about the matter.

Shang Yang didn't expect that he would be so uncomfortable, so he said that sentence in a fit of anger. Seeing that Jin Xu didn't reply to him, he didn't know if the other party was busy with work or was frightened by his temper. I'm a little embarrassed, like a child throwing his temper at an adult.

He tidied up his desk in frustration, tried his best to concentrate and started working, and gradually forgot about his children's thoughts for a while, and his mood and state gradually calmed down.

The office door was knocked twice, and he replied, "Please come in."

Someone pushed the door open, but didn't come in. Instead, he stood at the door and called him timidly and hesitantly, "Director Shang."

Shang Yang was surprised when he saw the person coming, and said, "Xiao Gao?" It was his former assistant Gao Zhuozhuo.

Several months have passed, Gao Zhuoyue's family affairs have come to an end for the time being, and it is time to come back and obey the organization's new arrangements for his unit and position.But Shang Yang didn't expect that Gao Zhuoyue took the initiative to apply and wanted to work at the grassroots level. He came to say goodbye to Shang Yang.

Shang Yang could see that he had changed a lot and was heading in a good direction, so he was also happy for him and sent his heartfelt blessings.

At lunch in the cafeteria, I met Yuan Ding. Shang Yang shared the matter with him, and said, "I really hope that everyone who comes out of the OUHK can find their own path."

"Well, that's a good point." Yuan Ding smiled, "For example, when will my Senior Brother Jin be transferred up to walk to and from get off work with you, Director?"

Shang Yang: "..."

Yuan Ding joked casually. Seeing that he looked tired after finishing speaking, he made a good guess and hurriedly added: "In fact, several big bosses in our bureau like Senior Brother Jin very much. Maybe someday there will be a big case with a professional counterpart. , I seconded him first, soon! There must be a chance!"

"I know." Shang Yang said wearily.He wasn't worrying about whether Jin Xu had a chance to be promoted, he was even very confident, very confident that Jin Xu would be promoted sooner or later, in the near future.

His current state of mind is purely - if he doesn't love lovesickness in his life, he will only love lovesickness, and then he will hurt lovesickness.

It's not as bad as usual.

Jin Xu had a meeting here and received a new task. The superior needed their detachment to monitor a certain suspect during this period of time, which involved some tricky backgrounds and cases.

After returning from the meeting, Captain Jin immediately organized a small meeting with the team members to convey the importance that the superiors attached to this task, studied the case, and finally selected several more experienced colleagues to be responsible for tracking down the suspects. , and several others cooperated with other detachments and departments to follow up the clues.

After finishing all this work, before he could take his hand out to coax his wife, his colleague called him over to discuss some business matters, one after another, and in the evening, before he finished his work, he received another call from Li Jie.

Li Jie is the master he followed when he first became a criminal policeman in Baiyuan City. He is an old criminal policeman, and now he is still working in the Criminal Investigation Detachment of Baiyuan City Bureau. Have a meal.

"I can't eat, I don't have time, I just took a new mission." Jin Xu went to the empty space outside, apologized to Li Jie on the phone, and asked, "Master, are you here on business or to visit relatives?"

Li Jie said: "It's considered a family visit. You don't recognize me. I'll talk to you later when I have time. It's fine if you don't meet in time this time. Are you going back to Baiyuan on Qingming Festival?"

There is more than half a month before Qingming, and the tombs of Jin Xu's parents are in his hometown in the countryside of Baiyuan City. It is said that Qingming should go back to worship, but for his type of work, the time is not up to him to decide.

"I can't say for sure, it depends on the work arrangement." Jin Xu said, and added, "Xiao Yang is on Qingming holiday, and he will probably come here. If I can go back then, I will take him with me."

Li Jie could hear that he wanted to show off, so he smiled cooperatively and asked, "The relationship is better? Even the name has changed."

Jin Xu talked big to his own people: "It's okay. You know, I used to be the one to catch up, but now...he seems to be inseparable from me."

He himself blushed a little, feeling that he was bragging a bit too much with his master, and he patched it up honestly: "I guessed it, not necessarily, it's just possible."

At this time, someone in the office came out and called him "Golden Team!" and wanted to ask him about the new mission.

"You go." Li Jie heard someone calling him, the master and the master said goodbye, and hurriedly hung up the phone.

On an early spring night in Beijing, Shang Yang listened to the wind whistling outside the window, his mood fluctuated, he walked around the house aimlessly, he didn’t know what to do, and he always felt an awkward and uncomfortable feeling of emptiness , In the past few days, he has experienced the strongest sense of loneliness in his life so far.

He didn't wait for Jin Xu's reply all day today, and he also knew that he must have a job, so he didn't take the initiative to contact the other party, but passively waited for the other party to finish his work before looking for him.

Jin Xu didn't call until he was about to sleep after walking the dog at night.

But as soon as the phone was connected, both of them fell into silence. Neither side was in a hurry to speak. They lived together for half a year and then separated. It was the same as the long-distance relationship. The feeling of separation at that time was completely different, and it was the first time for both of them to experience it.

After a while, Jin Xu said, "Are you still angry with me?"

"Who is angry with you?" Shang Yang was originally sentimental, but after hearing this, he said inexplicably, "I didn't dare to disturb you because I was afraid that you were busy."

Jin Xu said, "Aren't you angry when you said you pissed me off in the morning?"

Shang Yang said: "No... I'm angry with myself, don't worry about it."

Jin Xu: "..."

"What are you busy with?" Shang Yang said, "Is there a case?"

Jin Xu said, "Yes."

His tone and answer, it should be a confidential case.Shang Yang stopped asking further questions, and said, "Then you should rest early."

Jin Xu didn't respond, and Shang Yang didn't hang up. The two of them remained silent for a while, and Jin Xu said, "Why don't you come and see me?"

Shang Yang couldn't believe that the moment he heard this sentence, his heart was fascinated immediately, and he almost blurted out: "Okay."

But this is not right, he hesitated, "You have been away for less than ten days, what to see, what is there to see."

"Okay." Jin Xu said so, and within a second he regretted, "Can't you come and see me? I really can't leave, or I will go to see you."

Shang Yang: "..."

Jin Xu said: "It's fine if you're busy with work, next time...I just miss you so much."

Shang Yang said: "You can't go away, I'll go to see you, won't it add to the trouble?"

Upon hearing this, Jin Xu immediately said, "No matter how busy you are, you have to take a lunch break, and you have to rest at night. Are you coming? Come on."

Shang Yang said, "I'll think about it."

Jin Xu said: "What else are you thinking about? It's all over... If you don't come, are you still human?"

Shang Yang said: "For what sake? I didn't promise you anything."

"I won't take you to bully people like this." Jin Xu was so disappointed that he actually said in an aggrieved tone, "Do you not love me again?"

Shang Yang said incredulously, "Are you acting like a spoiled child to me?"

"What are you talking about?" Jin Xu choked for a moment, and said, "Oh, I'm acting like a baby with you... why don't you come here."

Shang Yang: "..."

Shang Yang almost laughed out loud, and said, "Don't disgust me."

Jin Xu didn't speak for a long time, and finally said in a very low voice, somewhat disappointed: "I can't get used to it, I'm going crazy, I thought you were the same... I'm sorry, don't force it."

Shang Yang paced in circles without direction in the center of the living room, took several deep breaths, and said, "I'll ask tomorrow if there is any work on the weekend."

Jin Xu: "...Hey."

Shang Yang felt dizzy as if he was hypoxic, and thought to himself, what the hell, is it normal for a person to be so fascinated by a person.