The substitute always wants to be Bai Yueguang

Shu Yuan watched everyone frantically caring for Qu Rongrong, and felt exhausted. He tried his best to express himself, and now he felt that his legs were already weak.

He no longer knew what the result would be waiting for him, and it didn't matter what happened.

In a daze, he saw Lu Yingchuan looking over, he couldn't see clearly what Lu Yingchuan's eyes looked like, Shu Yuan guessed that it might be all kinds of hatred and disgust.

There may be more disgust, he told Li Feng that he hated himself before.

Now that he has killed his mother, he will definitely be even more angry and disgusted.

He shook his body, and his other senses were rapidly fading, leaving only his sense of hearing.

He heard the doctor's questioning Qu Rongrong and also heard Lu Yingchuan's voice.

Shu Yuan felt as if everything he did was wrong, he shouldn't exist in the world, and no one felt happy or happy because of his existence.

I don't know how long it took, and suddenly something pricked his finger, which gradually brought back Shu Yuan's perception.

He watched as the doctor pricked his hand and put it on a small tube, and soon the doctor said he was HIV-free.

This result Shu Yuan found it funny, how could he have it?

He stood up unsteadily, looked at Lu Yingchuan with the corners of his mouth curled up and laughed:

"Lu Yingchuan, I'm not sick, so don't worry, I won't infect your mother or Lin Yanbei..."

After Shu Yuan finished speaking, he stepped back step by step, as if he wanted to leave this place.

The grayness in his eyes surprised Lu Yingchuan, there was no light in his eyes, they were all gray.

After confirming that Qu Rongrong was fine, Lu Yingchuan gave her to the doctor. He followed Shu Yuan's footsteps. After walking a few steps, he turned his head, looked at Qu Rongrong, and said:

"Mother, I'll call and ask someone over there to pick you up."

He didn't care if it would make Qu Rongrong unhappy, he had been holding his breath since the morning, and seeing Shu Yuan like that, he just felt that his breathing was not stable.

He originally wanted to just turn a blind eye and wait for his mother to go back by herself, but he didn't expect her to go too far.

He chased Shu Yuan into the room:

"Shu Yuan."

Shu Yuan trembled all over, he knew that Lu Yingchuan would not let him go so easily.

He turned around slowly and looked at Lu Yingchuan's cold face, and said in a hoarse voice:

"I didn't want to escape, how will I be punished this time? Keep standing or what?"

Shu Yuan's eyes were red, and his eyes were blurred. He insisted on not letting the tears fall, but his voice was already choked up:

"I will accept any punishment, but if you can spare my life, I do have a mother and a younger brother to take care of..."

Lu Yingchuan looked at the bloodstains on his face and his pale cheeks, his chest was cut open, and the cold wind kept pouring in.

It was so painful and cold that it made goosebumps all over his body and chilled his heart and bones.

"You didn't do anything wrong, why should you be punished?" Lu Yingchuan's voice was as hoarse as Shu Yuan's.

Shu Yuan is becoming a stranger little by little. He used to be the most grievous. If he had a grievance, he would never talk about it. But now he is clearly not wrong, but he still has to come to accept the punishment...

When Shu Yuan heard this, the tears in his eyes finally burst and could no longer be held, and the tears ran across the wound so hot.

Lu Yingchuan admitted that he was right, and broke the last string in his heart.

"That's right, Lu Yingchuan, you know I'm right, you just want to bully me..." Shu Yuan cried so hard that he couldn't complete a sentence, "You know I saw you and Lin Yan Beihui will be sad and wronged, and you know that your mother is going to target me, don't you?"

"You know it all, but you turn a blind eye to it, because you look down on me from the bottom of your heart, you think I can bear anything, you think I can be coaxed by giving me a little sweetness once in a while, it doesn't take a lot of thought like them .”

Shu Yuan's accusations were hysterical, and he dug out Lu Yingchuan's most malicious side in front of him.

Lu Yingchuan never thought about these things, because these thoughts were deeply buried in his bones.

Even if he didn't do it intentionally, what he did had that meaning in it.

Lu Yingchuan does not deny these things, because he really feels that Shu Yuan can be coaxed by giving money, unlike Lin Yanbei, who is in poor health and needs to spend energy to take care of the child...

It's not that he didn't notice Shu Yuan's grievance, it's just that he really ignored him.

"You said that if you don't agree with how good my confession is, I won't have so much grievance if you don't agree, but you promised me, I like you so much, I see you are so good to others, how can I not I'm sad, I'm so sad that I'm dying, but what can I do? I'm still afraid that you don't like me anymore, I'm desperately thinking that if you are more obedient, you will continue to like me, and you can look at me more... ..."

"But no, you still hate me. You drove me away, and you still want to provoke me. What does it have to do with me selling my kidney? I've already gone far away. You insist on coming Hire me, after I came back, I didn’t have any delusion that I could be with you, but your mother said that I am not good enough for you and told me not to destroy you, I knew it a long time ago Lu Yingchuan, I am not good enough for you, I'll leave when the time comes, you don't have to be so nervous, I won't have those unrealistic dreams anymore...so, don't bully me..."

Shu Yuan showed Lu Yingchuan the ugliest wound, bloody and naked.

Shu Yuan used to be like a free wild cat, his past life was not good, but he still has self-esteem and knows how to love life.

But now Lu Yingchuan personally pulled out his claws one by one and chopped off his beard. The injury was like a fire burning his abdomen and back. Even if the fire was extinguished, a large piece of flesh was burned, not only Flesh and flesh, the injury was directly engraved into his bones and damaged his soul.

He could no longer love life, and he had no self-respect.

Lu Yingchuan never thought about this, he thought that Shu Yuan was a big-headed person, but in reality he was so delicate, he knew everything.

He can see that he is partial to Lin Yanbei, so he has been watching it for so long...

At this moment, Lu Yingchuan was completely panicked and heartbroken, he was wrong too much, the integrity he thought he was upright was only forged by stepping on Shu Yuan's pain.

It was Shu Yuan who gritted his teeth and endured the pain, admitting his so-called integrity.

Shu Yuan was also pregnant before, he was pregnant with his child, he was lethargic, nauseated and had no appetite.

But what have you done?

He made him eat greasy food every day, scolded him for not taking good care of Lin Yanbei, and he slept less than five hours a day.

He didn't believe him, didn't even listen to his explanation, and let him stand in the cold wind for half a night...

Just thinking about those treatment, Lu Yingchuan felt guilty and distressed, he was really wrong.

He lowered his head, and said one more word without a face. Shu Yuan's outburst words pierced not only Shu Yuan's pain but also his heart.

He stared blankly at Shu Yuan, wanting to reach out and hug him, but he had no face.

Shu Yuan's chest heaved and his tears were wiped away, he didn't expect that he would say that.

He took a deep breath and was ready to be scolded, but there was no expected scolding after a long time.

He turned away:

"Go out and leave me alone."

After a while, Shu Yuan heard a rustling sound, and Lu Yingchuan left.

He slumped on the bed, reached out and touched his face, what was Lu Yingchuan's expression just now?

He didn't see it.

After an unknown amount of time, the door was opened again, Shu Yuan froze, and when he raised his head, he saw Lu Yingchuan walking in with a tray of medicine.

Seeing Lu Yingchuan's appearance, Shu Yuan was stunned for a moment, those deep beautiful eyes were actually very red, as if he had cried.

Sensing Shu Yuan's gaze, Lu Yingchuan put the plate on the bedside table, took out a cotton swab and iodophor, then picked up Shu Yuan's face and carefully wiped it for him.

The wound was very painful when it touched the potion, Shu Yuan gasped, and subconsciously hid back.

Lu Yingchuan paused for a moment, relaxed his movements, supported his face and said in a deep voice:

"do not move."

Being very close, Lu Yingchuan's breath sprayed on Shu Yuan's face.

He was a little overwhelmed, he said so much just now, it seemed like nothing happened, Lu Yingchuan didn't respond at all.

Shu Yuan felt a little frustrated about this, he had so many grievances, as expected, Lu Yingchuan never took it to heart, and still went his own way.

Yes, this is normal.

He secretly smiled wryly, what kind of reaction does he want Lu Yingchuan to have?Crying and saying sorry or begging for forgiveness?

unrealistic.

After treating the wound, Lu Yingchuan asked:

"Does it hurt?"

Shu Yuan froze for a moment and subconsciously shook his head: "It doesn't hurt."

"Shu Yuan, it doesn't matter if you say it hurts." Lu Yingchuan's breathing trembled, "Shu Yuan, I know you didn't have sex with Li Feng, I know the baby is mine, I know it all... "

He rested his head on Shu Yuan's shoulder, and every time he said a word, his chest hurt. He couldn't imagine how painful it was for Shu Yuan to go through this.

"I did a lot of wrong things, and I realized it when the baby left," Lu Yingchuan said hoarsely, "I don't know how to make up for it. I will treat you well in the future, okay?"

This is the first time that Lu Yingchuan has said so many words. He has never felt that he is stupid, and he has always done the best in everything since he was a child.

But now he has no choice but to lose his footing.

Shu Yuan felt that this man was really going too far, he was terrified of his weaknesses, he had nothing to do with him, but he was not willing to compromise.

He closes his eyes:

"You treat me well, what about Lin Yanbei? You are getting married soon, do you want him to be the mistress or me?"

Lu Yingchuan left Shu Yuan's neck and looked at Shu Yuan's calm face with slightly dilated pupils.

Shu Yuan took the opportunity to stand up, not to look at Lu Yingchuan:

"I told you that you don't need you to feel sorry for me, and you don't need you to hurt Lin Yanbei and be with me. I just tell you that I really wanted to be with you very seriously, and I was very serious. I really like you, that's all."