The substitute always wants to be Bai Yueguang

The lights in the old corridor were dim, shining on Jiang Xiuzhi's body with a sense of decay.

The two looked at each other a few meters away, as if the noisy surroundings had quieted down.

Shu Yuan felt as if he was deep in a black hole where he couldn't see the light. He was afraid of fear.

At this moment, he wanted to turn around and run away, but his footsteps seemed to be filled with lead, so heavy that he couldn't move forward.

Jiang Xiuzhi took a step forward slightly, her voice choked up a little:

"Xiaoyuan..."

This sound lifted Shu Yuan out of those emotions, he looked at Jiang Xiuzhi, walked past her without saying a word, as if she was just a stranger.

He didn't hate Jiang Xiuzhi, but he didn't let go of everything from the past. He couldn't forget that he climbed several mountains to see her being beaten by her stepfather and couldn't get up.

When Shu Yuan got up, he clearly saw Jiang Xiuzhi's figure appearing by the window from a distance.

She didn't come to help him, she was as indifferent as if she wasn't his son.

Everything from the past has formed wounds in Shu Yuan's heart that will never heal.

After Shu Yuan climbed to the second floor, he heard Jiang Xiuzhi's sobs from downstairs, he paused, and continued to walk up without looking back.

When I passed by the couple's house yesterday, the family was chatting and laughing for dinner. Maybe they felt that the room was too stuffy, so the door was wide open.

The man saw Shu Yuan and beckoned him to go in for dinner, Shu Yuan was stunned for a moment to thank him, then smiled and shook his head to refuse.

After he entered the room, he couldn't eat anymore, and lay on the bed staring at the ceiling in a daze.

Shu Yuan lay on the bed tossing and turning and couldn't sleep, he thought that the Jiang Xiuzhi he saw just now was very different from the woman ten years ago.

The aggression and disgust in his eyes were gone, only cloudiness and timidity.

Why did she come to him?

Knowing that I don't have a few years to live, that's why I want to meet my son?

Distraught, he got up and planned to go to the corridor to get some air.

It was very late, and the Tongzilou became quiet, the wind was even colder than before, Shu Yuan wrapped his coat tightly, narrowed his eyes slightly, and swept down subconsciously.

Seeing Jiang Xiuzhi curled up in a ball under the street lamp, Shu Yuan looked around but didn't find Xu Nan's figure.

The autumn wind blowing in this city at night is not a joke. If you blow it for a while, you will catch a cold the next day.

He pursed his lips tightly, and when he was about to go downstairs, he suddenly realized, what does it matter to him if Jiang Xiuzhi has a cold?

The stepping feet stopped abruptly, and through the railing he could see that Jiang Xiuzhi was so cold that she was hugging her arms and shaking.

Finally, Shu Yuan couldn't hold back, took out thicker clothes from the closet and went downstairs, took a deep breath, and handed them to Jiang Xiuzhi.

Jiang Xiuzhi raised her head tremblingly, and seeing the joy in Shu Yuan's eyes, she stood up, but her feet became numb after keeping the same position for too long, she knocked to the side, her forehead hit the wall and scratched a little.

Shu Yuan took a step forward and Jiang Xiuzhi stopped him sharply, she stopped her sharply:

"do not come!"

Shu Yuan froze for a moment, pursed his lips and stopped moving forward.

Jiang Xiuzhi realized that she was too strict, she cleaned up the blood, and said carefully:

"I'm sorry...Mom, I didn't mean to kill you, but I'm sick, this disease is not clean, I'm afraid I will let you off..."

This is not right, Jiang Xiuzhi is not like this.

Shu Yuan looked at the terrified woman, if it wasn't for that face, he would have thought someone else was impersonating her.

His throat moved, and he said in a hoarse voice:

"Go back."

After he finished speaking, he walked back, but the woman started to cry. She called Shu Yuan to stop, and tears rolled down her face:

"Xiao Yuan, I'm sorry..."

Shu Yuan's eye sockets became moist all of a sudden, he bit his lips tightly so as not to cry, he trembled his voice:

"Sorry for what?"

"Everything," Jiang Xiuzhi couldn't stop crying, "I'm not a human being, I left such a small you for pleasure, you are only ten years old, how could I bear it back then, how could I bear it!"

After speaking, she slapped her face several times.

Shu Yuan turned his head abruptly, the red blood thread had already glanced at it, and grabbed Jiang Xiuzhi's hand:

"enough!!"

Jiang Xiuzhi looked at Shu Yuan, crying out of breath:

"I have spent these years in guilt. I have long wanted to find you, but I have no face. How can I be ashamed?"

"But I'm sick, and I don't have a few years to live. I just want to say sorry to you personally, and I just want to come and see you. I don't ask for your forgiveness, and I don't have the face to ask for your forgiveness..."

Shu Yuan looked away, took a deep breath, he didn't know how to answer Jiang Xiuzhi's words, his mood was completely confused.

I don't know how long it took, until his legs were numb, and he said hoarsely:

"Now the words have been said. I have seen and met. I am doing well now. You can go back."

Jiang Xiuzhi looked at Shu Yuan reluctantly, and nodded in response: "I'll leave at dawn tomorrow, you can go back to sleep."

Shu Yuan ignored her, turned around and took a few steps back, paused for a few seconds, and said in a low voice:

"Go up and sleep overnight, and leave tomorrow."

Jiang Xiuzhi was overjoyed and heyed a few times, then quickly followed behind Shu Yuan.

When she entered the house, Jiang Xiuzhi looked at the house curiously. The decoration was very simple, and it was like a hotel if she didn't want to go home.

Shu Yuan took out the extra quilt and spread it casually on the floor, and lay down on it by himself.

Jiang Xiuzhi yelled:

"I sleep underground, I sleep underground, you go to bed."

Shu Yuan didn't want to talk to her too much, and he still couldn't pass the test in his heart.

He didn't hold back, and lay down on the bed, and then heard Jiang Xiuzhi lay down carefully.

Afterwards, she babbled a lot, but Shu Yuan didn't respond to any of them, but he didn't sleep either.

When he woke up the next morning, Jiang Xiuzhi was still sleeping. He didn't call her, but got dressed and went to work.

Busy all morning, he glanced at the time during the lunch break, thinking that Jiang Xiuzhi should leave.

In the afternoon, Shu Yuan was not in the right state at all, he was in a trance, and he refused the teaching of the store manager when he was off work.

He didn't know why he wanted to go back, and he didn't know what he was panicking about.

When he got home, his heart dropped when he saw the door was open. He pursed his lips to calm down and walked over.

Jiang Xiuzhi was mopping the floor. On the refrigerator, she got a wine bottle from somewhere and wrapped it in red wool. Two sunflowers were inserted, and a few hot three dishes and one soup were placed on the dining table.

Popularity came out instantly.

Jiang Xiuzhi felt that he was back, straightened up and asked with a smile:

"Are you back? Wash your hands and eat."

Shu Yuan didn't respond to her and didn't ask her why she didn't leave.

During the meal, he took two bowls and ate them by himself.

Seeing this, Jiang Xiuzhi laughed. She wiped her hands and took out a pair of chopsticks from her luggage, and used them to eat, while Shu Yuan's pair was taken as serving chopsticks by her.

She used the serving chopsticks to put them into her own bowl, and then ate with a pair of chopsticks.

Seeing this, Shu Yuan paused and said nothing.

In the next few days, the two seemed to acquiesce in this way of getting along, and neither of them mentioned the matter of leaving or the past.

Shu Yuan still doesn't talk to Jiang Xiuzhi, but he will do whatever she says.

Half a month later, Jiang Xiuzhi suddenly developed a fever.

When Shu Yuan came home from get off work, she also cooked, but with more salt than usual, the whole dish was salty.

Jiang Xiuzhi noticed something was wrong with him, tasted the chopsticks herself, and stood up quickly:

"Let me order a bowl of noodles."

Shu Yuan saw that her cheeks were flushed, and that something was wrong with her. In the past half month, he had secretly read a lot of knowledge about AIDS.

Guessing that Jiang Xiuzhi might have a fever, he pursed his lips and took Jiang Xiuzhi to the hospital without saying a word.

During this visit, I received drips for three days, and I fell into a coma several times during the trip.

The doctor called Shu Yuan over, and asked with a serious face:

"Did the patient not take the medicine? Her index is too high. Remember to remind her to take the medicine. You must not be lazy with this medicine."

Shu Yuan nodded. He really didn't see Jiang Xiuzhi taking medicine for so long. He thought she would take medicine after being ill for so long, but he didn't see it when he went out early and returned home late.

Shu Yuan went to get the medicine after Jiang Xiuzhi recovered and some doctors let him leave the hospital. When he was having dinner, he took it out and said:

"This is medicine, remember to take it on time."

Jiang Xiuzhi frowned slightly: "This disease sounds scary, but it's actually not painful. Why waste this money?"

Drugs to treat AIDS are not expensive for rich people, but they are a lot of money for their situation.

He pursed his lips:

"You don't need to worry about it. After taking the medicine, there is no need for the serving chopsticks. It does not spread through saliva."

Jiang Xiuzhi saw him with a straight face and slightly red eyes, she nodded to show that she understood, then took out a sweater from the bag, and said in a flattering tone:

"It's getting cold. I was bored at home and hooked up a sweater. Try to see if it fits you."

Shu Yuan took the sweater, and it felt heavy in his hand, it was thick at first glance.

He looked at Jiang Xiuzhi, then put the sweater on the bed.

Jiang Xiuzhi was a little disappointed to see that he was not wearing any clothes, and her smile froze slightly.

As a result, she saw Shu Yuan wearing the red sweater early the next morning.

The style of the sweater is very simple, but Jiang Xiuzhi's weaving method is very good, and Shu Yuan himself is white, wearing this dress makes his blood color look a lot better, and his skin is more fragile.

"My son is so handsome!" Jiang Xiuzhi praised.

Shu Yuan was a little embarrassed by the compliment, he touched it in embarrassment and shut up:

"What about him when you come?"

Jiang Xiuzhi knew who he was referring to, she lowered her eyelids slightly:

"You mean Yu Wen? He's fine, he just stayed in his hometown."

If Shu Yuan remembers correctly, Yu Wen is only fifteen or sixteen years old this year.

He thought about it and said:

"Go and pick him up when you're free."

Jiang Xiuzhi was stunned.

Shu Yuan didn't wear a coat anymore, a sweater is enough in this weather, he turned to Jiang Xiuzhi and said:

"Take him over, I'll take a day off tomorrow to see if there is a bigger house."