The substitute always wants to be Bai Yueguang

After four years, Lu Yingchuan finally hugged the person he was thinking of, and hugged him tightly.

The hug was a little softer than before, he tightened his arms, the tip of his nose was full of Shu Yuan's breath, all he touched was the warm body, not the bedding with a little bit of Shu Yuan's breath.

For a moment, Lu Yingchuan's eyes were blurred, and his chest was sore:

"Shu Yuan..."

Shu Yuan was caught off guard and fell down, pressing on Lu Yingchuan and being hugged by him, his whole body was stiff.

Feeling Lu Yingchuan's strong heartbeat through the thin clothes on his chest, Shu Yuan's heart throbbed again.

It was too late to enjoy the hug, but Shu Yuan soon came to his senses, realizing that he had been tricked by Lu Yingchuan. He broke free from Lu Yingchuan's embrace and stood up.

Lu Yingchuan also got off the bed and said:

"I......"

Shu Yuan looked at him, and understood what was going on almost instantly. His body was covered in cold sweat from the road, and his chest was heaving with anger. He couldn't control it anymore, and slapped him hard. raised it up.

He was out of breath and tried his best, this slap left no room for loss, Lu Yingchuan's cheek was directly turned away, his teeth bit the wall of his mouth, and soon the mouth was full of bloody smell.

Shu Yuan's palm was numb, and the numbness quickly spread from the palm to the arm and spread all over the body.

How anxious he was, there was almost a car accident on the road, and he was worried about his children and Lu Yingchuan.

But this person took advantage of his unrelenting mentality to play a prank.

After four years of separation and ten years of acquaintance, Lu Yingchuan has never changed from the beginning to the end. No matter how affectionate he is, he is always bullying him.

I used to rely on myself to like him, and I still like him now.

He said every day that he didn't want to see Lu Yingchuan again, but what practical measures could he take?

It's just a rant.

Shu Yuan was so angry that he trembled all over, and even wanted to slap himself twice to relieve his anger.

He looked at the two children, his throat was dry and hoarse, and the children he brought back from the gate of hell did not favor him at all.

The child is young and doesn't understand, maybe Lu Yingchuan was brave, but Shu Yuan was still furious, he taught the child not to lie, he wanted the child to grow up upright in the future, he didn't expect them to become big trees, but at least he could It has to be a straight little Bai Yang.

The siren of the ambulance came from outside, and Shu Yuan bowed and apologized when the doctors came in.

Seeing Shu Yuan's pale face, Lu Yingchuan realized that he had committed a great stupidity.

The two children also wanted to beg for a hug, but Shu Yuan avoided it. He looked down at Nian Nian and Yan'er, and said with distress:

"Father has always taught you not to lie and to be a good baby. Since you like your father more, then you follow your father and don't want your father."

As soon as the words came out, the two children were stunned, knowing that they had done something wrong, tears welled up in their soft eyes, and their father who didn't get close to them made them feel strange and scared.

They didn't dare to cry, they just hugged Shu Yuan's legs, begging their doting father to pick them up and kiss them:

"Good baby knows it's wrong, dad, don't be angry."

How could Shu Yuan not be distressed, he has loved and cared for them for four years, he gritted his teeth and pushed their hands away, not allowing them to approach.

Lu Yingchuan looked at the child with distress, and said in a hoarse voice:

"Shu Yuan, I told the child to say that, don't..."

"Lu Yingchuan," Shu Yuan's eyes were red and bloodshot from the end of his eyes, the anger in his eyes subsided, only the endless fatigue and pain under his body, "I have often looked back in the past four years, I don't think I Poor, I just want to learn from it and make myself better."

Lu Yingchuan looked at Shu Yuan with despair and emptiness in his eyes, this feeling made him feel overwhelmed, this is not what he wanted.

Shu Yuan's voice became hoarse due to the ups and downs of emotions, and every word seemed to be rolled in the sand before uttering it, and every word was scratched on Lu Yingchuan's chest with raised marks.

Lu Yingchuan's throat moved slightly, but he couldn't say a word.

"I still remember when I was kicked out or went out by myself when I was with you, I had no money, and I lived, ate, and drank the most frugal. It's not that I didn't have money. I had the money you gave me. It’s just that I don’t want to touch the money. Love is equal, and the relationship will change if I touch the money. In the past four years, I have done all the jobs that you look down on. Take the child with you, coaxing and working at the same time." Shu Yuan's voice trembled, he didn't want to recall those days at all, even if he had Grandpa Lu and Aunt Fan around to take care of him, he didn't dare to bother them too much, he did everything by himself carrying.

"Fortunately, I am slowly getting better. I opened a shop, and my monthly income can be around [-] yuan, sometimes more. I bought a car, and I plan to buy a house after I have a deposit. If it is possible to play the cello well, I would be more than happy to have a deeper cultivation.”

Shu Yuan's eyes slowly fell from Lu Yingchuan's body to the child's body, and finally landed on Lu Yingchuan's body again. After a pause for several seconds, he said again:

"Why do you want to disturb my life when I am getting better? Lu Yingchuan, as long as I am around you, I feel that I am not getting better, do you understand? You can no longer bring me joy like before Crazy feeling, only endless fear."

Lu Yingchuan stared blankly at Shu Yuan, these words were like a poisoned knife slashing on his chest again and again.

As Shu Yuan counted, he realized that he hadn't given Shu Yuan anything after all these years.

Instead, he left himself, but he was getting better and better, Lu Yingchuan secretly smiled bitterly in his heart, what a failure he was.

For so many years, he didn't express any obvious love for Shu Yuan, and he didn't have strong protection, which made him feel inferior and scarred all over his body.

The air also seemed to be getting stronger at this moment, squeezing Lu Yingchuan all the time.

His breathing became heavy, his chest hurt, not only his chest, but his whole internal organs were squeezed and hurt, the pain made him almost faint.

I don't know how long it took for Lu Yingchuan to recover, Leng Jun's face still had no expression but was frighteningly pale.

He looked at Shu Yuan seriously, drawing Shu Yuan's outline bit by bit, as if he wanted to put him deeply in his mind.

He slightly stepped forward to hug Shu Yuan, but Shu Yuan backed away.

Lu Yingchuan's hand stayed in the air, and he retracted it stiffly. He was taller than Shu Yuan, and his eyelids were slightly lowered, so that Shu Yuan could not see the look of embarrassment in his eyes, and said:

"......sorry."

As he walked step by step, the two children suddenly burst into tears.

They were still young and couldn't understand the conversations of adults, but they instinctively knew that Daddy was leaving. The shock they received overnight made the two children cry instantly, and even Yan Qing, who never cried easily, was crying out of breath Out of breath.

Both of them felt distressed, but neither of them tried to comfort them.

Lu Yingchuan walked to the door, turned around and said hoarsely:

"That deer...can you return it to me?"

"......lost."

Lu Yingchuan smiled wryly, glanced at the two children, then turned and left.

"Daddy!!!" Yao Nian chased him out.

He watched Daddy go out, Daddy didn't seem to come back again, he liked Daddy very much, Daddy would take them to play and ride a big horse for him.

Lu Yingchuan stopped and turned slightly sideways.

Yao Nian was wearing shorts, and chased to the door with his bare feet. He tripped over the threshold and fell down. His small body got up, his knees were torn and blood was coming out, and he ran to Lu Yingchuan. Tilting his head forward and crying, his face was covered with tears:

"Is it because Niannian and Yaner are not good, so you don't want Niannian and Yaner anymore?"

How much he wished that Daddy would come back and pick him up and give him a hug, but his beloved Daddy just left behind.

Yao Nian couldn't catch up with his father so he ran back and begged his father:

"Dad...don't ride a big horse every year..."

Shu Yuan wiped his face, bent down and squatted down to hug the two crying children, weeping silently.

And Lu Yingchuan's side was not much better. He was sitting in the car, and he could hear the child's cry through the car window.

He leaned over the steering wheel, trembling all over.

Shu Yuan's accusation made Lu Yingchuan dare not stay any longer, and went back to City Z overnight.

When he came back, he took Zhou Xiao to drink the wine he didn't want.

Zhou Xiao frowned at Lu Yingchuan's expressionless expression while pouring wine with his head covered. Didn't he go after his wife?How did you chase it like this?

Lu Yingchuan drank so much that he drank a lot of empty bottles in a short while.

Zhou Xiao gasped, snatched the wine bottle from him, smashed it heavily on the table, and said violently:

"Lu Yingchuan, what's the matter with you?"

Lu Yingchuan looked at Zhou Xiao with red eyes, and didn't grab the wine anymore, but just stared blankly at Zhou Xiao, and said after a while:

"Zhou Xiao, teach me..."

Zhou Xiao didn't know why, so he set him up:

"what?"

"Teach me... how to get Shu Yuan back..." Lu Yingchuan let Zhou Xiao take him into the car, and turned his head to look out the car window.

Zhou Xiao froze for a moment, how could Lu Yingchuan, who is as proud as him, say such a thing?

After a while, he snorted coldly:

"Chasing by myself, when my mother was chasing Yunzheng, I was almost stupid and chased it back. I haven't completely done it yet, so don't blindly rely on me!"

Lu Yingchuan held his head and didn't say a word, he didn't seem to be drunk at all.

After Zhou Xiao sent him to the dilapidated house where Shu Yuan lived, he left Lu Yingchuan aside and sat on the creaking sofa panting.

He glanced left and right, picked up a water glass and was about to drink water, but as soon as he picked it up, Lu Yingchuan turned Zhou Xiao over as if the power button had been pressed, took the glass in his hand, and put it back carefully original location.

Zhou Xiao was furious, he was not a good-tempered man, so he grabbed Lu Yingchuan and punched him in the face:

"Fuck you, Lu Yingchuan, you fucking idiot, if you can't catch up, try to catch up, big old men are as inseparable as his mother Daiyu?"